508 bangsal takdir

If by miracle you see this, I have to tell you no matter what life has wedged between you and I and no matter how I try….believe you me I have tried with reckless abandonment like the extremist I am….I fail over and over and over again. I quit I love you, I can’t stop, and can’t imagine I ever possibly can. I hope one day you will realize what really happened and let your heart love me again. Maybe in the next life….

ain’t it bout a bitch that we can’t just get past the imaginary obstacles in our heads and just be together?!? It’s not business it is personal…

I’ve spent my time avoiding thinking about you, I’ve place a valiant effort on meeting new people. I am just stuck with you on my mind it’s plaguing me cause I know if you would just see past what you’ve been told and use your own eyes and your own sense to truly see the bigger picture you and I could live happily together. Our lives wouldn’t be depression spell after depression spell. I have ONLY ever seen you happy with me. Out of all the years I’ve known you even something was always off and when you truly started to shine you got scared and I get it…I doubt you’ll ever see this but if you do , if you reach out I can tell you anything you want to know. You disappointed me the last interaction we had but I still love you very much and you hold that place in my heart that can’t be filled by anyone else and I know in my heart she gave you that spot cause she loved both of us. Maybe she can help these words fall under your eyes….maybe one day I can kiss you forever

Fuck you hurt me bad, I should have never just taken the fall for some shit I didn’t do but I wanted you to feel like you weren’t crazy. I pray you overcome your fears cause I just don’t like this shit.