rome

i wish i could still smoke w/o worrying abt my health because yeah. i’d really like to get groped while high out of my mind rn. mumbling confused complaints about their hands down my pants and up my shirt, while they whisper reassurances. “it’s okay, just relax, close your eyes.”

i’m so easy to groom and manipulate it’s embarrassing

big brother teaching me how to kiss. big brother teaching me where to put my hands. big brother teaching me how to give him head.

i want to post media of myself but i lowkey don’t know how to take pictures of myself + i also do not like myself smh…

need a toxic probably borderline abusive codependent relationship w/ an older man idk…

dirty and perverted brocest is awesome but also, sweet and soft. cuddling while watching movies, soft kisses in the morning when you wake up together, big brother putting his hand on his little brothers thigh under the table where your parents can’t see, soft sex, movie dates, telling your friends you’re seeing someone but not telling them who you’re seeing. secrecy, intimacy, softness within the roughness of the relationship.