there's a dream i have in which i love the world

i wish my brain were not full of gludge. i would like to be using it & because of the gludge i cannot do that.

who wants to be animals and play

I feel like there’s also a racialized element haunting the conversation around shaving that I haven’t yet seen anyone really address (at least on my dash, I’m sure people ARE talking about it in general because I cannot possibly be the first person this thought has occurred to). there’s like the very basic point that if you are someone who grows thicker, courser body hair then you will be more prone to painful ingrowns and shaving regularly will absolutely exacerbate this, it was a thing I dealt with for years when I was still shaving my body hair and having stopped doing that has been tremendously helpful for my bodily wellbeing. but also overall I do think racialized people (obviously especially racialized women) can be more heavily targeted by the pressure to shave. not even necessarily because of the claim that we are “naturally hairier” or whatever because that’s really not universally true and I don’t think it’s super helpful to parrot that. but in my experience our body hair, largely regardless of its appearance or quantity, is frequently treated as more unsightly and less acceptable than that of our white peers for any number of reasons. and I do think that should be part of the conversation around abolishing a culture of shaving. it was something that impacted my life from a very young age in a way that was markedly different from and often actively enforced by my white friends and classmates.

ID: a photo of a rainbow in a dark grey-blue sky, with a fluffy grey cloud resembling a hand turned over with its fingers relaxed beside it. end ID

ID: two closeup photos of a tiger with blue and green eyes and a pink nose, lying down. end ID

Really going to need more help with meds soon this is a nightmare

Please, anything helps I'm flaring up badly again, if I can get at least $30 I'll feel comfortable taking the amount of pain meds I know I need