*mourns what could have been with no consideration for the future* sigh.....

LIKE i just feel like everyone hates me anyway so i might as well be a little more annoying/boisterous and less step-on-eggshellsy with every interaction i ever have and still feel like people hate me but GOD!!!!! IT FEELS VULNERABLE AND I HATE IT!!!!!

hello tumblr. i am here to make a very tumblr blog post, which is that lately i have been doing this thing called Whatever I Want without first considering if it takes up space or isn't inherently people pleasing. the thing is, it feels bad, like shitfart and also ass, but im trying to be less apologetic for simply existing, but also, My God is it hard to get over feeling like a burdensome piece of shit. anyway, love u

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Love looking thru my old posts and reblogs and remembering how down bad i was for someone

What was that tumblr post that was like "if you dont change your life style you are going to die ." Bc i cant find it on google

The other day i was talking to my therapist about how lame it feels (personally) to journal and i cant get over my self embarrassment to physically journal. She said maybe i should try it on my phone and god was i thrown back into memories of tumblr. I'm still too embarrassed to go back and look at old posts and i think most of the time i just would post, let it sit, and delete it. But it would be nice to have that digital representation of my younger brain. I am too much of a coward to scroll very far back to see what's there if anything -_-

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hello tumblr. feeling very fleetwood mac landslide right now

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