Matthew Schaefer x reader
Warnings: Angst, financial burden, angry Schaef
Summary: [yn] is just trying to survive college and two jobs when she meets Matthew Schaeferâbut keeping her struggles a secret might cost her more than she thinks.
Notes: This is one of my first works ever let alone long asf work so please bare with me. i 100% want constructive criticism so leave advise in the comments. I have my requests here so please request!!! and when you do be as detailed as you want! i just dont do smut. also heres my masterlist so check it out!!
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The first time you see him, Matthew Schaefer is already drawing attention without trying. Youâre balancing your backpack and a coffee thatâs already sweating through the cardboard sleeve when he bumps into you in the hallway, tall enough that your shoulder collides with his chest before your brain can catch up.
âOhâshit, sorry!â you gasp, clutching your iced coffee like itâs a lifeline.
He leans back just enough to look at you, a lopsided grin playing across his face. âNo, itâs my bad. Didnât see you there.â His voice is calm, casual, like heâs talking to an old friend instead of someone heâs never met.
You nod, muttering something that probably doesnât make sense. Youâre used to these moments. Itâs easier to be invisibleâespecially when youâre here working the camp, helping with equipment, passing out water, and taking notes for the coaches, just to scrape together enough money for school. Matthew has no idea. He just assumes youâre a normal teen, a volunteer, or a team helper. He doesnât need to know how every penny matters, how skipping the bus or extra food is part of your reality.
He tilts his head, scanning you like heâs trying to place where heâs seen you before. âAre you with the team? Rookie camp?â
âYeah,â you say, shrugging. âWell⌠kind of. Iâm helping out.â
âHelping out?â he asks, intrigued. âLike⌠volunteer?â
You nod, trying to sound casual. âSomething like that. Keeps me busy.â
âCool. Iâm Matt.â He sticks out his hand. The gesture is casual, but the heat from his palm when you shake it lingers.
â[Y/n],â you say, careful to keep your tone neutral. Neutral works best. Neutral keeps people from looking too closely.
The rookie camp is chaotic. Youâve been here for what feels like ten minutes and already witnessed more puck slaps, stick twirls, and sideways glances than you thought a team of eighteen-year-olds and twenty-somethings could produce. And then thereâs Matthewâeffortless in the chaos, balancing humor and focus with a confidence you canât help but notice.
Later that day, he finds you again. This time by the lockers, juggling a bag of gear and the clipboard youâve borrowed for recording drills.
âHey, [y/n], right?â he asks, leaning against the locker beside yours. âI saw you in the drill earlier. Youâve got good instincts.â
You blink. Compliments feel weird. Flattering, yes, but suspiciously easy. You nod, saying, âThanks. Youâre⌠pretty good too.â Because he is, obviously. Youâve watched him move with the kind of grace that makes it look like the ice bends to his will.
He grins. âThanks. Guess thatâs rookie camp luck, huh?â
You shake your head, smiling despite yourself. âOr maybe I just got lucky spotting you in a hallway.â
Matthew laughs, a sound that makes something in your chest tense and flutter. âYouâre bold.â
âI survive,â you say. Itâs vague, dismissive, and somehow completely honest without giving anything away.
Over the next few days, he finds reasons to talk to you. Nothing overtâheâs not the type to storm up and demand attentionâbut little moments: shared water bottles after practice, inside jokes about drills, quick text messages about schedules or tips for surviving long days on ice. Heâs earnest, awkwardly confident, and somehow he makes your half-smiles and careful words feel⌠easy.
You keep your guard up. Always. Because life hasnât been kind, and no oneâs ever seen the real version of you. Youâve learned to survive quietly: walk when you canât afford the bus, order water instead of coffee because youâre counting every dollar, dodge expensive social outings like theyâre landmines. Matthew doesnât know. And youâre not ready for him to.
Still, when he smiles at you across the rink, that grin tilting just a little crookedly, you feel a flicker of something dangerousâhope, maybe.
One afternoon, during a break in drills, youâre sitting on the bench scrolling through your phone while tallying hours worked for the camp when Matthew plops down beside you.
âHey,â he says casually, but the way he looks at you makes your stomach knot. âWanna grab dinner later? Not team stuff, just⌠food. My treat.â
You blink. âUh⌠I donât know. Iâve gotââ
âNothing. Youâve got nothing,â he interrupts with a grin, more confident than he should be for someone whoâs still a rookie. âYou need a break from studying or⌠whatever the hell youâre doing.â
You glance away, heart thumping. Youâre not supposed to let yourself feel this. Not supposed to like someone who probably has a life so far removed from yours it might as well be another planet. And yet⌠you say yes.
Because maybe, just maybe, you deserve a night that isnât about surviving.
The start of the season hits fast, the locker room buzzing with energy and low-level chaos that only professional hockey can generate. Matthew glides through it like he belongs, confident but not cocky, greeting teammates with half-smiles and nods while you hover in the background, clipboard in hand.
Youâre here officially nowânot just helping out at rookie campâbut working permanently as a stats assistant for the Islanders. You got the job a week after camp, walking nervously into Coach Davisâ office to hear the offer.
â[Y/n], hey, got a minute?â he called you over after everyone left the rink.
âYeah, of course,â you said, trying to hide how fast your heart was beating.
âWe were talking after camp,â he began, leaning on the edge of the rink, âand the staff really liked how you handled the stats and drill tracking. Very organized, good instincts, detail-oriented⌠basically everything we need for the upcoming season.â
You bit your lip. âI⌠wow. Thatâs⌠really great, Coach. I didnât expectâŚâ
Coach Davis chuckled. âI know youâve been working hard, and we figured youâd be a good fit. Now, about pay: itâs $15 an hour, 20 hours a week. Not much, I know, but steady, and itâll be official experience on your resume. Plus, it keeps you in the building, which I know you like.â
$15 an hour. Modest. Not enough to cover everything, but itâs a start. You nod quickly. âYes. Iâll take it. Thank you. I wonât let you down.â
âYou wonât,â Coach Davis said with a grin. âWeâre excited to have you on board. Start Monday, same time as camp hours, but officially now. Any questions?â
You shake your head. âNo, I⌠Iâll be ready.â
The problem, of course, isnât getting the jobâitâs that one job isnât enough. Between this stats assistant role and your night shifts at the 24-hour diner, every day is a balancing act. Rent, tuition, groceries, and⌠your car.
The old sedan you rely on has been coughing and rattling for months, and last week the mechanic told you it desperately needs a new starter and brakes. A repair like that is hundreds of dollarsâmore than you can spare right now. So you keep driving it anyway, crossing your fingers with every turn of the key, budgeting every dollar from your diner tips and stats assistant paycheck, hoping something wonât break and leave you stranded.
Matthew has no idea. He doesnât need to know. Not yet.
Yet somehow, he keeps finding excuses to talk to you.
âHey,â he says one morning, leaning against the rink wall as you tally warm-up times. âDid you catch last nightâs game?â
âI⌠watched highlights,â you mumble, trying to sound casual. Between late-night shifts, early practices, and worrying about your car making it to both jobs, staying awake long enough to watch a full game isnât always possible.
âHighlights, huh? Come on, youâre supposed to be a superfan now,â he teases, smiling like he knows youâre lying.
âIâm more of a⌠practical fan,â you quip, shrugging.
âPractical, huh? I like that. Fits you,â he says, tilting his head. His gaze lingers just long enough for your heart to speed up, and you look down at your clipboard, pretending to focus on stats for the drill.
By the second week of the season, the players are already whispering about âMattâs new thing.â No one ever says anything to you directly, but you hear names floating in the locker room: Anders, Bo, Ryan, Kyle. You pretend not to care.
And then the WAGs start mentioning you. Mostly innocuous stuff at first. âOh, have you met the new girl Matthewâs seeing? Sweet girl.â Or, âYouâll have to come to our next brunch. Wivesâ thing. Itâs going to be fun.â
Fun. Something thatâs supposed to be enjoyable but feels impossible when youâre juggling two jobs, worrying about your old car, walking home at night, and carefully counting every cent. You deflect with smiles, nods, and excuses that sound reasonable without giving the truth away. Matthew notices you deflect, but he doesnât probe too hard, trusting your quiet confidence and brushing off his curiosity with âsheâs just busy, sheâll join when she can.â
Itâs a delicate balance. You enjoy being with himâactual dates, conversations, small momentsâbut every interaction is tempered by guilt. You want to tell him the truth about the scholarships, the night shifts, the barely-there apartment, and the car that might die on any given dayâbut you donât. Not yet.
One night, after a practice, Matthew pulls you aside as the team heads to dinner.
âHey,â he says, shifting on the balls of his feet, nervous energy betraying his usual confidence. âI was thinking⌠maybe next weekend we could grab something to eat, just us. No camp, no schedule, nothing. You in?â
You glance at him, heart doing that stupid flutter again. âYeah⌠yeah, Iâd like that.â
He smiles, relieved. âGood. Weâll make it happen.â
Later, walking home after practice, you canât help but think about how easily he fits into your world. Too easily. And yet, that ease is dangerous. Because if he ever figured out how precarious your life really isâhow you juggle the stats assistant job, wait tables at night, and the constant fear that your car might leave you strandedâhe might not understand. You canât let that happen.
Meanwhile, the whispers keep coming. Players joking in the locker room, asking about you. Matthew is protective, subtle but firm. He laughs off comments from the guys, deflects teasing with a casual, âSheâs fine, donât worry about it,â the way someone whoâs already smitten would. He doesnât know how close he is to being right. Youâre fineâwell, on the surface. Inside, youâre a storm of deadlines, bank balances, and quiet fear of being exposed.
A few weeks later, you meet Matthew at a coffee shop before practice. He waves you over, grinning like he just discovered something incredible.
âHey, [y/n],â he says. âYou ever think about just⌠taking a day off? Doing something fun?â
You blink at him. âFun?â
âYeah. Fun. Not work, not school, not stress. Just⌠me, you, maybe a walk or something.â
You hesitate, heart thudding, because a day off costs money. Money you donât have. But his expressionâhopeful, earnest, awkwardly charmingâmakes it impossible to say no.
âI⌠yeah. I think I could do that,â you say softly, and he grins like youâve just accepted the greatest offer in the world.
Itâs small, but it feels revolutionary. To someone like you, whoâs lived every day with a ledger of costs in your head and a car that might break down at any second, just saying yes to a moment of normalcy is terrifying and exhilarating all at once.
Matthew doesnât know the full story. He doesnât know that the next day, when you leave practice, youâll walk three miles home because you canât afford a ride. He doesnât know that your coffee order will always be water because even a latte is a luxury. And for now, you like it that way. For now, he only sees [y/n], the girl who laughs at his jokes, takes an interest in his rookie season, and somehow, makes him feel lighter.
The city lights stretch across the glass walls of the hotel lobby, casting long reflections on the marble floor. You and Matthew step inside, the warmth of the building contrasting the sharp bite of winter outside. He reaches for your hand, brushing his thumb over your knuckles, nervous but trying to hide it.
âSoâŚâ he begins, voice low and almost hesitant, âI really want you to come to the New Yearâs Eve party tonight. All the team, the WAGs, the celebration⌠I want you there. With me.â
You blink, hesitation flooding you. âI⌠I donât know, Matt. Thatâs⌠not something I can really afford.â
He frowns, confused. âWait, what? You wouldnât have to pay for anything. Just⌠come with me. For me. Please?â
Your chest tightens. Parties, fancy dresses, Uber rides, champagneâall luxuries you canât justify. But heâs looking at you like this is important, like you are important, and something inside softens.
âOkay,â you whisper finally, âI⌠Iâll try. For you.â
His grin is immediate, warm, almost giddy. âYes! Thatâs all I ask. You wonât regret it.â
Inside the ballroom, the soft hum of laughter and conversation fills the air. He threads you through the crowd, and when he stops at a group of teammates, he clears his throat.
âHey, guys,â he says, a little awkwardly but proudly, âthis is [y/n]. My⌠girlfriend. Iâm really glad sheâs here tonight.â
Boqvist raises an eyebrow, smiling. âGirlfriend? Finally! Nice to meet you.â
You nod, smiling politely. Kyle Palmieri grins. âGood to meet you, [y/n]. Matthewâs been⌠distracted all season.â
He shoots them a playful glare, but then glances at you, eyes soft. You notice the way he beams when he talks about you, and for a moment, all the nerves in the room fade.
Then, Jessica Lee sweeps in, bright and sparkling, eyes immediately on you. âOh! Youâre just the person we wanted to see. Can we steal [y/n] for a minute? Come hang with us!â
You stiffen. âUh⌠Iââ
Matthewâs hand tightens over yours. âGo on. They just want to include you.â
You glance at him, unsure. âI⌠I donât know ifââ
âGo,â he insists, soft but firm. âIâll be right here when youâre done. You should just⌠try it. Please?â
Reluctantly, you let Jessica pull you into the WAGsâ circle.
They chatter immediately, joking about spa weekends, holiday shopping, brunchesâall luxuries that make your chest tighten. You sip water, nod politely, laughing quietly at stories youâve never experienced.
âActually, we should all go out tomorrow,â Jessica says after a beat. âHair, nails, shopping, lunch⌠itâll be fun.â
Your stomach twists. âI⌠I donât think I can. Thatâs⌠really not something I can do.â
Before you can protest again, Matthew appears beside you, hand brushing yours, earnest and insistent. âYou should go,â he says softly. âItâll be good for you. Trust me. Youâll like it.â
You hesitate, anxiety twisting in your chest, the reality of money and schedules screaming at you. But you canât say no to himânot now. âOkay,â you murmur reluctantly. âI⌠Iâll go.â
Matthewâs relief is immediate, a small, satisfied grin tugging at his lips. âGood. You wonât regret it. I promise.â
The rest of the night, you stick close to him, hovering near the WAGs, laughing softly at his jokes, sipping water, keeping your distance from champagne and desserts. The girlsâ day idea lingers in the back of your mind like a shadowed promiseâbut for now, youâre safe. Youâre with him, and thatâs enough.
The morning sun is sharp as you step into Jessica Leeâs sleek black SUV. Sheâs waving from the driverâs seat, phone in hand, energy practically radiating off the leather seats.
âGood morning, [y/n]! Ready for girlsâ day?â she chirps.
âYeah⌠sure,â you murmur, keeping your voice low.
Erin Boqvist leans forward from the backseat, grinning. âFirst time? Donât worry. Weâll show you how it works. Fun guaranteed.â
You nod faintly, gripping your water bottle like a lifeline. Every laugh, every joke, every bubble of energy feels like a reminder of a world you donât belong in.
The stylist greets you warmly, clipboard in hand. Jessica flops into her chair.
âSo, [y/n], what are we doing today?â she asks brightly.
âJust⌠watching,â you murmur, twisting your hands in your lap.
Erin leans over, whispering, âWatching? Really? Sheâs not doing anything?â
Jessica frowns. âI mean⌠most people get at least a trim or blowout. This is⌠strange.â
You force a small smile. âYeah⌠just⌠watching today.â
Jessica whispers to Erin, frowning. âSheâs barely interacting. Weird, right?â
You sip water quietly as the salon hums with dryers and chatter. Every product, every style, every joke about colors and treatments feels foreign.
Jessica leans over. âDo you want highlights or anything?â
âI⌠Iâm fine,â you say softly.
Erin murmurs, frowning. âOkay⌠well⌠fine, I guess.â
Jessica pulls out her phone and types quickly. Texting Anders: âSomethingâs off with [y/n]. Sheâs barely participating and not saying much.â
Anders POV â Mid-Morning
Anders sits in his office, phone buzzing. He reads Jessicaâs text and frowns.
âSomethingâs off with [y/n]. Sheâs barely participating. Not talking. Barely eating. What do we do?â
He types back quickly: âKeep observing. Make sure sheâs comfortable. If anything escalates, Matthew should know.â
He leans back, scrolling through the Islesâ team news, but his mind keeps wandering to the text chain. He knows Matthew loves [y/n], and if something is wrong, Matthew would want to know.
Another text from Jessica arrives: âOkay. Iâll keep an eye. She seems⌠fine physically, but I donât know. Sheâs⌠quiet.â
Anders sighs, frowning. âIf he doesnât notice soon, maybe I should just tell him. I donât want her struggling without him knowing.â
He sets the phone down, running a hand through his hair. For now, all he can do is wait, hope sheâs okay, and make sure Jessica doesnât misread the situation.
You trail behind slightly, curling your hands in your lap. The WAGs chatter excitedly around you, choosing colors, showing off past manicures.
âPink ombrĂŠ? Glitter tips? You have to try something!â Jessica says.
âI⌠Iâm fine,â you reply softly.
Erin leans forward. âNo color? Nothing at all?â
âI just⌠want to watch,â you murmur.
Jessica types quickly. âSent Anders another message. He says to keep an eye, make sure sheâs okay. Probably wants Matthew to know too.â
Erin whispers, âSheâs sitting there quietly, not talking, not choosing anything. Weâre including her, and sheâs just⌠sitting there. Weird.â
You sip water again, forcing a polite smile, wishing you could disappear.
The restaurant is luxurious: polished silverware, sparkling glasses, and fragrant aromas. Menus are opened and scrutinized by the WAGs.
Jessica leans forward. âSo⌠what are you having, [y/n]?â
âWater⌠thatâs fine,â you say quietly, hands folded in your lap.
Erin raises an eyebrow. âNo appetizer? No entrĂŠe?â
âI⌠Iâm okay,â you murmur.
Jessica glances at her phone again, whispering, âTexting Anders. Sheâs barely eating anything, barely speaking. Somethingâs definitely off.â
Andersâ phone buzzes. He reads Jessicaâs text mid-meeting with a teammate. âSheâs barely participating. Not talking. Matthew might want to know.â
He types back quickly: âGot it. Iâll keep an eye. Iâll talk to Matthew if it escalates.â
Erin whispers, âSheâs barely interacting. This is⌠strange. Sheâs not rude, but sheâs not participating at all.â
You tuck your hands into your lap, nodding faintly, trying to keep your breathing even. Every moment feels like walking on ice.
Boutiques filled with designer handbags and shoes. You trail quietly behind, fingertips brushing racks without touching anything.
âOh come on, [y/n], just pick something up,â Jessica says, holding up a sparkling purse.
âI⌠Iâm fine,â you murmur softly.
Erin tilts her head. âNot even looking?â
âJust⌠looking,â you reply.
Jessica glances at her phone again. Texting Anders: âSheâs walking around quietly, barely engaging. Keep observing. Let Matthew know if needed.â
Anders reads it and sighs, frowning. âIf Matthew doesnât notice soon, Iâll have to say something. She shouldnât struggle alone.â
You sip water again, forcing a faint smile, keeping pace. Every sparkle, every comment about bags and shoes, every whispered glance is a spotlight on you, and you shrink further into yourself.
Finally, the day ends. You slip outside, breathing in the crisp evening air. Matthew is waiting.
âHey,â he murmurs, draping an arm around your shoulders. âHowâs it going?â
âGreat⌠really great,â you say quickly, forcing a small smile.
âI know it was⌠a lot,â he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your temple. âBut you handled it. Proud of you.â
You nod, leaning against him. âThanks⌠for making me go.â
âAlways. I just⌠want you to be part of this world too,â he says softly.
Anders sits in the Islesâ lounge, scrolling through messages from Jessica.
âSheâs barely participating, barely talking, barely eating. Somethingâs off.â
He leans back, frowning. He knows Matthew is protective of [y/n]. He types quickly: âIf he doesnât notice soon, I should probably say something. She shouldnât struggle alone.â
Jessica replies quickly: âYes, but letâs watch for now. Donât stress him yet.â
Anders sets the phone down. His mind lingers on [y/n]âs quiet behavior from the texts, the worry building in him. Matthew hasnât noticed everything yetâbut Anders knows cracks are forming.
You fidget with your hands when Matthew comes into your apartment, a small bag swinging from his hand.
âHeyâŚâ he says, holding it out. âI thought⌠maybe these could help. Youâve been walking so much lately.â
You freeze, chest tightening. âMatthew⌠I canât⌠I donât want you spending money on me. Iâm⌠I just donât want to be a burden.â
He steps closer, soft but firm. âYouâre not a burden, [y/n]. I just want you to be comfortable. Thatâs all. Iâm not trying to fix everything or spend a fortune. Just⌠shoes. Thatâs it.â
You bite your lip, swallowing hard. His earnest eyes make your resolve falter. You nod, letting him hand over the bag.
âOkay⌠thanks,â you whisper, quietly accepting them, hoping to avoid an argument that could lead to him noticing too much.
He sets the bag down and immediately notices your tension. âHey⌠come here,â he murmurs. You let him pull you into a gentle hug. You can feel him relax against you, and the warmth is almost grounding.
âI justâŚâ you start, then sigh. âI donât want you to worry about me.â
Matthew presses a kiss to your temple. âIâm not worried about burden or money or any of that. I just⌠want you safe and happy. Thatâs it.â
You lean against him, letting yourself relax a little. After a moment, he scoops you up in his arms. âCâmon⌠letâs go to my place. Iâll make us dinner.â
âMatthew⌠you donât have toââ
âI want to,â he interrupts softly, grinning. âYou just⌠go with it.â
You laugh faintly, tension easing, as he carries you out.
In his kitchen, you help him chop vegetables, laugh at his attempts to follow a recipe, and tease him when he drops a piece of garlic on the floor.
âSee? This is why you donât trust me with knives,â you murmur, smiling despite yourself.
âHa! And yet you didnât notice me doing everything wrong,â he teases back, pressing a playful kiss to your cheek.
You feel⌠normal here. Safe. Warm. For a few hours, the outside world fades.
âYou really didnât have to buy the shoes,â you murmur later, sipping water.
âI know,â he says gently. âI just wanted to. And now youâve got them, so no arguments.â
You glance at him, a small smile tugging at your lips. âThanks, Matthew.â
He wraps an arm around you, pulling you close. âAlways, [y/n]. Always.â
After dinner, you sit together on the couch, him brushing your hair back as you lean against him. You donât tell him about the late-night shifts, the car, the bills. But the shoes, the hugs, the quiet evening give you a little space to breathe.
Matthew, still sensing something is off, tucks you closer. He doesnât know the full story yet, but he can feel the tension lingering around you.
Later, once youâre both comfortable, he pulls out his phone to Anders.
Matthew: Hey⌠she was really stressed about the shoes today. She said she didnât want to be a burden. I donât think sheâs lying⌠but somethingâs going on.
Anders types back quickly: Yeah⌠the girls noticed too. Somethingâs off. Sheâs not participating. Be gentle⌠youâll figure it out.
Matthew sighs, running a hand through his hair. âYeah⌠Iâll figure it out. I just⌠donât want her to feel alone.â
Matthew has tried every way to reach you. Texts. Calls. Messages at the rink. Even showing up hoping to see you in person. Each time, heâs met only silence. No replies, no explanations, nothing.
Heâs tried to reason it out. Maybe youâre busy, maybe stressed with school, maybe avoiding the girlsâ gossip fallout. But deep down, he feels something is wrong.
Matthew (thinking, pacing his apartment): Two weeks, [y/n]? Two weeks⌠what the hell is going on?
After practice one night, frustrated and anxious, he drives past your apartment. He notices the small, humble unit is dark â completely quiet.
Something catches his eye: a crumpled envelope pushed beneath the doorframe. Matthew gets out and picks it up. His stomach drops: itâs an eviction notice, dated a few days ago.
Matthew (breathing hard): Oh⌠God. She⌠she didnâtâŚ
He frantically calls your number. Voicemail. Multiple times. He texts. No response.
For the first time, panic gnaws at him. The small clues he noticed before â water-only drinks, walking everywhere, patched jacket, light backpack â all click into place. Something serious has been going on this whole time.
Matthew slams his phone onto the passenger seat, breathing hard, and calls Anders.
âDude,â he says as soon as Anders answers, voice tight. âI⌠I found the eviction notice. Sheâs gone. I canât reach her. I donât know where she is. Two weeks of⌠nothing. I feel like Iâve failed her.â
Anders is silent for a beat, then speaks calmly. âAlright⌠breathe. First, slow down. You didnât fail her. You just⌠didnât know. Now you know, and youâre going to help her. Thatâs what matters.â
Matthew runs a hand through his hair, frustration and worry churning. âI⌠I donât even know where she is. Her apartmentâs empty, her phoneâs off, sheâs ignoring me. I donât know what to do.â
âOkay,â Anders says gently. âStep one: calm down. Step two: think. Where would she go? What does she have access to? And then⌠go find her. Be patient, but persistent. Youâve got this, Matthew. She trusts you. Youâll get to her.â
Matthew exhales slowly, trying to steady his heartbeat. Andersâ voice is grounding, his advice direct but supportive. âYeah⌠yeah, youâre right. I just⌠I hate this. I hate not knowing if sheâs okay.â
âI know,â Anders says. âBut youâll get your chance to fix it. Donât rush the confrontation. Let her know you care first. Everything else follows.â
That night, Matthew drives around the small neighborhoods he knows you frequent: the diner, the little coffee shop, parks near campus. His worry doesnât abate, but his resolve grows.
Matthew (thinking): Iâll find her. Sheâs not dealing with this alone. I donât care what it takes.
He sits in his car, eyes on the empty streets, thinking about the water-only drinks, the worn shoes, the patchwork backpack. The subtle signs he didnât fully process before now scream at him.
And for the first time, he fully realizes: sheâs been struggling on her own, hiding everything from him, and heâs going to make sure she knows she doesnât have to anymore.
Matthew drives through the quiet streets near campus, gripping the steering wheel tighter than he realizes. Andersâ words replay in his head: âShe trusts you. Youâll get to her.â
But all he feels is worry. Every corner he turns, every small diner, every coffee shop she might have stopped at â empty. Heâs been checking everywhere she could be, every place sheâs ever mentioned she likes, hoping for even a glimpse of her.
He finally pulls into a small, dimly lit parking lot. And there it is â her old, beat-up car. The windows are fogged, and he can see a thin blanket in the back seat. A small backpack sits on the passenger seat, patched and worn.
Matthewâs stomach twists. His heart races. He jumps out of the car, running toward it.
â[y/n]?â His voice cracks with relief and worry. âHey⌠itâs me.â
A small movement inside the car. You peek up, startled, eyes wide. âMatthew⌠Iââ
He opens the door gently and crouches beside her. âHey⌠itâs okay. I found you. Iâm here.â
You shrink slightly, hugging your knees. âI⌠I didnât want you to worry. I didnât wantââ
âYouâre not a burden, [y/n]. Not ever. Do you hear me?â Matthewâs voice is firm but gentle. âI just⌠I was worried sick. I tried calling, texting⌠showing up at your apartment⌠nothing. And then I saw the notice, and⌠God, I had no idea.â
You bite your lip, looking away. âI⌠I can handle it. I have to. I canât⌠I donât want anyone to feel sorry for me.â
Matthew sighs, softening, leaning closer. âThis isnât about feeling sorry. Itâs about helping you. You donât have to do this alone. I want to be here. Iâve got you, [y/n]. Always.â
A small tear slips down your cheek. âI⌠Iâm scared.â
âI know,â he murmurs, brushing your hair back. âI know. And itâs okay to be scared. But youâre not alone. Not anymore.â
Andersâ Perspective (Foreshadowing / Support)
Earlier that evening, Anders had texted Matthew again after noticing his increasing frustration:
Anders: Hey man⌠breathe. Youâve been noticing the signs for weeks. You care, and youâre going to do right by her. Go find her. Youâve got this.
Matthewâs thumbs hover over the screen. Yeah⌠I hope I do.
Matthew opens the back door of the car and gently pulls you into a hug. âCâmon⌠letâs get somewhere safe. My place. Weâll figure out dinner, blankets⌠whatever you need.â
You cling to him, still trembling. âI donât⌠I donât want to⌠bother you.â
âYouâre not a bother,â he insists, pressing a kiss to your hair. âCome on. Letâs get you out of here.â
He helps you into his car, blankets and bag tucked safely. The ride to his place is quiet but comfortable, the soft hum of the engine grounding both of you.
Once inside his apartment, Matthew sets down a small bag of groceries he brought along. He drapes a blanket around your shoulders. âYouâre okay now,â he murmurs. âWeâll fix this, together. No running, no hiding.â
You lean into him, finally letting a small, shaky laugh escape. âI⌠Iâm sorry I didnât tell you.â
âDonât apologize,â he whispers, pressing his forehead to yours. âIâm just glad youâre safe. Weâll figure everything else out.â
The tension in your chest eases just a little. You realize⌠maybe, just maybe, you donât have to carry it all alone.
The apartment is quiet, warm from the heater, the hum of the fridge and the soft glow of the lamp filling the room. Matthew sits on the couch, hands wrapped around a mug of tea. You perch across from him, knees tucked to your chest, fidgeting with the hem of your shirt.
âIâŚâ he begins, hesitating, trying to find the right words. âI canât let you keep doing this. Sleeping in your car, trying to handle everything alone⌠itâs not fair to you.â
You shake your head vehemently. âMatthew⌠I canât just move in. I canât⌠I canât rely on you. Iâm not⌠that kind of person.â
âYou wouldnât be relying on me,â he says softly, leaning forward. âYouâd be living with me, as my girlfriend. Thatâs normal. Thatâs⌠us. Youâd have a safe place to sleep, food in the fridge, a bed. Thatâs not charity, [y/n]. Thatâs me being here for you.â
Your hands curl into fists in your lap. âBut⌠what about bills? Electric, water⌠groceries? I canât justââ
Matthew cuts you off gently, voice firm but calm. âThen we figure it out together. You donât have to pay for everything right away. You donât have to pay for anything if you canât. I just want you safe. Thatâs all.â
You glance down, tugging at your hair, your pride warring with the relief and exhaustion in your chest. âI⌠I just canât accept that. I donât want to feel like I owe you everything.â
âYou wonât,â he says, voice steady. âYouâll contribute in ways that matter â your company, your humor, your love. Thatâs it. Thatâs what matters to me. Money, bills⌠thatâs not the issue. You being safe and with me is the only issue.â
You look up at him, eyes wide, trying to read his face. âAnd⌠you wonât be mad if I still work? Or if I⌠keep my routines?â
Matthew grins softly. âOf course not. I want you to keep being you. You work because you want to, not because you have to. I just want you safe and inside my walls where you belong.â
A silence falls between you, but itâs not heavy. Itâs charged, but safe. Slowly, you nod. âOkay⌠Iâll⌠Iâll move in. But Iâm⌠still me. Iâll still work, Iâll still help where I can.â
Matthewâs face lights up. âThatâs all I need. You being you. Nothing else.â
That evening, after small unpacking of your essentials into a corner of the apartment, Matthew drags a blanket onto the floor and sits cross-legged, patting the space beside him.
âCome on,â he says with a small smile. âCouch is taken.â
You hesitate for a second, then crawl onto the blanket beside him. He wraps an arm around your shoulders, and you lean into his chest, feeling the warmth and the steady beat of his heart.
âCan we⌠just stay like this for a while?â you whisper.
âAlways,â he murmurs. âYou need a break. Let yourself breathe. Let me hold you for a bit.â
For the next hour, you do just that. No work, no worries, no expectations. You talk about small things: movies you want to watch, the new recipes you want to try, how funny some of the Islandersâ locker room moments were. He listens to you, laughs with you, teases you gently.
At one point, he picks you up, cradling you in his arms like a blanket of warmth. âI could get used to this,â he jokes softly, setting you down again gently.
You rest your head on his shoulder. âI could too,â you admit, a soft smile tugging at your lips.
They sit there for a long time, quietly, just holding each other. No words are necessary. The tension of the last weeks â the girlsâ day, your silence, the hiding â seems to melt just a little, replaced with comfort and safety.
The smell of roast chicken and garlic fills the cozy dining room at the Lee house. Matthew sits close to you, his hand resting gently over yours under the table. Anders and Jessica watch carefully, giving you space, but their presence is reassuring.
After a few minutes of small talk, Jessica leans forward, her voice gentle. âYouâve had a lot going on lately, [y/n]. We could tell during girlsâ day⌠and since then, youâve been quieter. We just want to make sure youâre okay.â
You glance at Matthew, and he gives your hand a small squeeze. That tiny gesture is enough to give you courage. Taking a deep breath, you nod.
âOkay⌠Iâll⌠Iâll tell you everything,â you say softly. âItâs⌠itâs a lot, so I hope youâll bear with me.â
Matthewâs thumb brushes over your hand. âTake your time,â he says gently.
You begin, voice trembling slightly. âMy parents⌠theyâre⌠deadbeats. Iâve lived with them before, but I⌠I couldnât go back. I just⌠I canât rely on them. Ever. Not again. So after graduating early, I⌠Iâve had to do everything myself.â
Anders leans back, expression soft, listening without interruption. Jessica nods encouragingly.
âI⌠Iâve been working two jobs. One at the dinerânight shifts, 24 hours⌠just trying to make rent and gas money. And then I got the stats assistant job here with the Islanders. That⌠that one pays less than I expected, but itâs permanent, so I keep it. I thought⌠I thought I could manage, and I didnât want anyone to know because I didnât want to burden anyone. Especially not Matthew.â
Matthew squeezes your hand, tightening slightly, but lets you continue.
âThe girlsâ day⌠I wasnât ignoring them because I didnât like them. I couldnât afford any of it. Hair, nails, shopping, lunch⌠I just⌠I couldnât. I tried to be polite, but I couldnât participate. I didnât want anyone to know, so I pretended. And thatâs⌠why Iâve been avoiding everyone, even Matthew, for the past two weeks. I⌠I lost my apartment. I got an eviction notice. I⌠Iâve been living in my car. Just⌠surviving. And I didnât want anyone to know. I didnât want to be a burden.â
Tears slip down your cheeks, but you keep going. âIâve been scared⌠scared of losing Matthew, scared of people thinking Iâm weak or⌠incapable. I just⌠I didnât know how to tell anyone. And I thought I could handle it alone. But⌠I couldnât. Not really.â
You pause, voice breaking. âThatâs everything. I⌠Iâm so sorry for hiding it.â
Matthew leans forward, pressing his forehead to yours gently. âShh⌠look at me,â he whispers. âYou are not a burden, ever. Not to me, not to anyone. You did what you had to do to survive, and I⌠I understand. And Iâm here now. Youâre safe now. Thatâs all that matters.â
He wipes a tear from your cheek. âI know itâs scary, letting someone in. But you donât have to hide from me anymore. I want to help. You donât have to be afraid.â
You take a shaky breath, letting his words sink in. âI⌠I donât know how to⌠I donât know if I can accept help without feeling⌠ashamed.â
âYou wonât feel ashamed,â Matthew assures you. âNot with me. I donât care about the money, the bills, the apartment. I care about you. Thatâs it. And I want to take care of you, not because I have to, but because I want to.â
Anders leans forward, his voice calm and gentle. â[y/n], thank you for telling us. That⌠thatâs brave. Really brave. You donât have to shoulder everything alone. Youâve been strong, yes⌠but itâs okay to let people help.â
Jessica smiles warmly. âExactly. Youâve been carrying so much by yourself. And now you donât have to. Matthew isnât going to let you fall. Neither am I. Neither is Anders. Youâre allowed to accept support without feeling like you owe anyone.â
You sniffle, a small laugh escaping through your tears. âI⌠I just wanted to be⌠independent.â
Matthew wraps his arms around you under the table. âYou are independent, but independence doesnât mean isolation. We can do this together. Thatâs what I want.â
By the end of the meal, you feel lighter, like a weight has been lifted. Matthew leans over and whispers in your ear, âSee? Not so bad. Youâre allowed to let people in. Especially me.â
You rest your head against his shoulder, letting yourself finally relax. âI⌠I think Iâm starting to believe that,â you admit softly, a small smile tugging at your lips.
Anders raises his glass gently. âTo [y/n]. For being brave, and for letting people in.â
Jessica smiles and raises hers as well. âAnd to Matthew, for never giving up on her.â
Matthew squeezes your hand, and you squeeze back, warmth radiating through your chest. Finally, you feel⌠safe.
The apartment feels warmer somehow tonight, the small string lights Matthew hung across the kitchen and living room casting a soft, golden glow. Youâre sitting cross-legged on the couch, wrapped in one of his old hoodies â the one he always teases you about stealing â while heâs in the kitchen, juggling a frying pan and a spatula, pretending to be a professional chef.
âYou know,â you say, tilting your head, âI think youâd be a terrible chef if the Islanders werenât paying you.â
Matthew spins dramatically, brandishing the spatula like a sword. âExcuse me? I am a culinary genius. This omelette will change your life.â
You laugh, snorting. âYour life? Maybe mine. Youâre just hoping I donât burn it so I donât embarrass you.â
He winks over his shoulder. âThatâs exactly right. I demand admiration, not critique.â
The omelette is slightly lopsided but perfectly edible, and when he sits next to you with it on a small plate, you canât help but smile. He nudges your shoulder playfully. âSee? Genius.â
You mock-gasp. âIâm surrounded by brilliance and I didnât even study for it.â
Dinner finished, you both collapse on the couch with blankets and a bowl of popcorn. Matthew insists on picking the first movie â an old comedy you both know by heart â but every five minutes he pauses it to make a comment or quote a line with his ridiculous, earnest expressions.
ââIâm serious, this is serious!ââ he repeats in an exaggerated voice, making you snort into your hoodie.
âMatthew, youâre ridiculous,â you giggle.
âIâm ridiculous for you,â he says, leaning closer. âAnd only for you.â
You roll your eyes but canât stop smiling. âSmooth talker. Does that line work on every girl?â
He grins, nudging your knee with his own. âNot everyoneâs worth it. You are.â
As the night drifts on, the movies forgotten, you curl into him on the couch, resting your head on his chest. He wraps an arm around you, hand brushing your hair from your face.
âYou know,â you murmur softly, âI never thought Iâd feel this⌠safe.â
Matthew kisses the top of your head. âI know. And you should. Youâve carried so much on your own. But you donât have to anymore. Not with me. Not ever.â
You glance up at him, eyes shining. âPromise you wonât get tired of me?â
âNever,â he whispers. âEven if you steal all my hoodies, hog the blanket, quote movies incorrectly, or eat my snacks without asking.â
You laugh, pressing a kiss to his chest. âGood. I plan to do all those things.â
The next morning, you wake to the smell of coffee and toast. Matthewâs already in the kitchen, humming, flipping pancakes with exaggerated care.
âYou awake?â he asks, peeking around the corner.
âI was awake,â you lie, grinning. âWatching you work your magic.â
He raises an eyebrow. âImpressive, huh?â
You nod solemnly, sitting up. âVery. Pulitzer-worthy.â
He rolls his eyes but brings you a plate anyway, sitting down beside you and nudging your shoulder with his. âYou deserve it. Youâve done enough adulting for both of us this week.â
Playful Games and Goofy Moments
Later that day, he convinces you to play a silly video game together. Youâre hopeless at it, screaming and laughing as he beats you mercilessly.
âCheater!â you yell, throwing a pillow at him.
âFair play?â he says, ducking. âYou canât even aim!â
You throw another pillow, and suddenly, pillows are flying everywhere. You both collapse into laughter on the floor, breathless, the worries of the last months nowhere to be found.
After the chaos, you find yourselves lying on the floor, blankets pulled over you both. Matthew traces patterns on your arm, and you press your cheek into his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart.
âI thinkâŚâ you whisper, âIâve been holding my breath for months.â
He smiles softly, brushing his lips across your forehead. âThen let it out. Youâre safe now. You can breathe. Always.â
You sigh, finally relaxing, closing your eyes. âI⌠I never want to go back to feeling alone like that.â
âYou wonât,â he promises. âIâll make sure of it. Weâll take it one day at a time, together.â
As the day fades, the two of you end up in a pile of blankets on the couch, watching the city lights flicker outside the window. Matthewâs arm is draped over you, your hand curled in his.
âI could stay like this forever,â you murmur.
âThen stay,â he whispers back. âBecause I plan to.â
You laugh softly, pressing your lips to his chest in a quiet kiss. âYouâre kind of ridiculous, you know that?â
âAnd you love me anyway,â he replies, nuzzling into your hair.
âYes. Always,â you murmur.
And for the first time in weeks, maybe months, you feel truly, completely at home â not just in the apartment, not just in a bed, but in Matthewâs arms, in his heart, in this life youâre starting together.