Janika

this is what happens when you name your pokemon before you know what it evolves into.

The Great Smudge - Table Cat

WHERE

THE FUCK

SHOULD I...

REALLY EVEN START!!!????

They haven’t spoken to each other since their fight in the park in 1862. This is 1941. Aziraphale hasn’t seen or spoken to Crowley in eighty years.

That second gif? That’s disbelief, mixed with a little bit of hope. He didn’t expect Crowley to come. Once upon a time he would have trusted, on some level, that Crowley would be there to get him out of any scrape he got himself into, because that’s like half of what Crowley does. But then they fought, and now Aziraphale genuinely believed he was dealing with this alone. He might have wanted Crowley to show up like a dashing knight to save him, like he has so many times before, but Aziraphale didn’t expect it. And then he sees Crowley hopping down the aisle of the church and he can’t believe his eyes.

And then, immediately after that, I think he’s remembering their fight. He’s remembering what Crowley asked for, what he didn’t want to give, how he said fraternizing like it was a terrible thing when everything they’ve done for each other feels like the furthest thing from terrible. They hurt each other in that fight. That’s still hope in his eyes, but there’s a little bit of pain there as well.

It is the demon he has an enormous crush on, but equally important is that this is his closest friend, the friend he may have thought he’d lost forever (because Aziraphale couldn’t bring himself to give Crowley the one thing that could destroy him (because he can’t bear the thought of living without him but that’s another tangent)).

But Crowley came for him. They fought, and they hurt each other, and Aziraphale hasn’t apologized, and Crowley still came for him.

And so Aziraphale takes a steadying breath and tries to pull himself together because he’s not out of the woods yet, but oh, Crowley is here and maybe, maybe that means he hasn’t lost him at all.