It’s been a while
We’ve been together for more than a year now. There’s a lot of ups and downs but I can say that this is the best relationship that I’ve ever had. Idk if any of you here remember my stories, or me, you’ll know how i was before. i kinda hope that those people who knew me when i was on my worst see me again someday kasi i’ve changed a lot and i am so much better now. i learned how to feel, di ko alam paano ieexplain pero ayon. sabi ko dati i’ll never love someone like this kasi this is too risky pero i love axel that much – all my walls are down for him. i don’t want this to end, kasi if hindi pa to i’m fucked for life.
Hello, it’s 07/18/2023 today. It’s me, cukenber/smo0lbean.
I am watching him sleep and he’s still the most beautiful person to ever exist. We’ll be 4 years in a few months, who could’ve imagined?
An update for myself naman, I feel like I’m close to getting all the things I dreamt of as a kid. I can’t remember dreaming of extravagant things because I didn’t think that I’ll reach this far but I did!
Look, I now have a house of my own. Hard work really pays off and I’m so happy, my heart deserves all this.
IDK when will I update again. After marriage? After having my own family? After moving somewhere else? Who knows, maybe never.
Just know that I’m happy. 🤍
Helo, it’s 09/17/2023, i’m engaged now! 💍
I got proposed to while coloring my hair —it’s straight out of a romcom. I was laughing and crying, with snot, tears, and hair dye all over my face.
i also celebrated my birthday last week, my friends from here (even before my frontal lobe fully developed) came over. We bought flowers, ate chinese food, gambled(LOL), had some art sessions, and enjoyed romantic garden dinner.
ALSO, axel’s friends(our friends now) came over on a Wednesday night to celebrate together. I gathered all the girlies and conducted a mini workshop — they’re hooked!
i am full of love, life has been really nice to me.















