Dreams of a wannabe cuckold

Someone asked me what fantasies I still have with my wife.... I didn't tell them. She has openly cuckolded me for 14 years and we have done pretty much it all. I've always had this fantasy though. Even before her cuckolding me, which I do believe cuckolding is healthier than this fantasy. A strange fantasy because how do you know if it is even happening. You can only fantasize about it. Then if you found out, yes it would come true, but then you would want it to happen again. I fantasize that she cheats on me. Every time she travels. When she gets up early to go to the gym to workout, when she goes out with her girlfriends. I visualize her with other men. Smiling, laughing, flirting, kissing, fucking, making love. Doing it all discreetly from me, but the men know, people who see them know. Maybe even her girlfriends. Even my friends maybe see her out but don't have the guts to tell me. When I find out. It is crushing yet at the same time I just can't help it and it arouses me.

A bad wife is the best wife.

I told someone my wife's boyfriend would make a terrible husband. They responded asking "Why do you say he would be a terrible husband? Your wife loves him so there must be something there?" I thought about it. He is just that masculine type of guy who thinks he can get what he wants. The type of guy that puts himself first not hit girlfriend or wife. A bit arrogant, not in a bad way... just confident. Has that "I don't give a shit" attitude, doesn't really show his emotions. Kind of makes hime exciting and unpredictable. He also just has the masculine look, square jaw, tall and big, scruff on his face. Then I was like. Wow. I guess he does have something there. Oh and unlike me he DOES have something big and thick down there. I guess it just always comforts me to think of him as the type of guy that would be a terrible husband. Wouldn't put his wife first and worship her the way a cuckold does. Might even cheat. In the end I think it makes my wife happy to be able to have both.