I keep falling over

I will probably never post here again bcs I no longer have the desire to kill myself with drugs i guess therapy works!! :3

actually I might retire this account I want a new vibe… hm…

it’s been a year since I last got high, but I’m thinking I might pick up in like two weeks… should I do something special if I do pick up or???

someone texted me out of the blue from an unsaved number saying they missed me and all this emotional shit but wouldn’t tell me who they were because they didn’t want to mess things up I don’t understand what is happening LMFAO this is so dramatic and for what

I was cutting myself and my mom left me my favorite chocolate at my bedroom door thank you black Jesus amen

My dad told me I have to have more self control but I exercise self control every day by not killing myself. When I wake up in the morning I think about falling out the window. When I drive to work I think about driving on the wrong side of the road. When I’m hiding in the bathroom at work trying to vape without mixing the smell of someone’s shit and mango strawberry I think about hanging myself on the stall door. I think about shooting myself in front of customers when they make me mad. I think about swallowing all the pills I have before I go to sleep every night. I’m not even sad I’m just angry. I’m angry I can’t hurt people so instead I just want to hurt myself. It’s more righteous to kill yourself instead of another person.

just got my nipples pierced :3