Bitches Be Bitchin

I truly thought it was over I thought I had left the dark I thought that I would finally be happy The truth is, it's not over I'm not out of the dark I have just not been thinking about it, I haven't thought about myself I don't truly know when the last time was That I was happy,

I was in a deep place, I didn't care Had no worries Had no fears I Fucked up Drank to sleep I did drugs to leave I lost my family I lost myself I lost all that cared for me I became this drunk, druggie I became someone who didn't care who she hurt The truth is when I left that deep place, I started from scratch I ended the partying I ended the drinking I gained my best friend back I gained my family back But I haven't yet been able to Build my confidence Build the real me Gain the hope I had Gain the happiness Gain my life back And everyday I wonder if I really made the right choice... And I will never know.. I might have lost a lot.. But I also might have not lived till this day if I had not changed