CONSUMPTION

          𝑺𝑳𝑼𝑴𝑩𝑬𝑹𝑵𝑨𝑵𝑨𝑺  a  highly  selective,  very  slow  activity,  multimuse  roleplay  blog.  primarily featuring  𝑺𝑼𝑮𝑼𝑹𝑼 𝑮𝑬𝑻𝑶.  with  a  handful  of  muses  from  other  media  such  as;  league of legends,  jujutsu kaisen,  touchstarved and more.  keep  in  mind  please,  that  most  of  my  takes  on  these  muses  will  be  headcanon  based-  and  i  often  times  will  diverge  from  canon.  i  am  not  affiliated  with  any  fandoms  seen  on  this  blog.  100%  oc  friendly.  multiverse.  multiship.  no  minors  (  21+  ).  Just  be  sure  to  read  my  rules  before  you  follow  &  interact  !! art crd.

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my  blog  may  contain  triggering  content  for  some,  and  will  explore  characters  with  difficult,  dark,  or  challenging  backstories.  some  of  these  topics  may  include;  abuse,  neglect,  death,  existentialism,  body  horror,  and  more.

𝑨𝑭𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑰𝑨𝑻𝑬𝑺: efloresce / hamartiar , hungermaw , tewwor , cursedblessed ...

sorry btw ....

idk if this is a hot take or not- but this top vs bottom thing is wild to me. because what a majority of any fandom perceives as a bottom still seems to fit within a binary. as if top and bottom aren't positions, but set roles within a relationship. that a bottom has to be feminized and submissive. or that a top has to be domineering and masculine. like even in w/w roles, there is this bias at times to have one of them be given this role that makes them more masculine in a way. and... dgmw. i do enjoy it sometimes, when it fits the characters and doesn't feel forced or poorly written.

sick of it. tired of it. idk why these dynamics have to be drawn or written in a specific way to be good or considered 'correct'.

all that to once again cement that my take on sugu/ru is a switch. he has a preference for topping, because he likes setting the pace. he likes to have that control- not OF a person, but of himself and what he's doing. but a preference doesn't mean he isn't okay with being bottom as well. he's just not submissive. he will listen, and more or less do what he knows he is comfortable with- and what he knows his partner likes. but otherwise idk... he's just himself? his behavior isn't designated by the role he's put in.

          He  feels  both  aware  of  everything,  and  nothing  at  the  same  time.  The  weight  of  his  own  body,  as  it  presses  into  the  mattress.  The  heat  and  sound  coming  from  the  space  heater.  Hana's  presence  as  she  slowly  moves  around  his  room,  and  does  things  he  probably  should  have  already  done.  She  told  him  the  girls  were  okay,  reassured  him  that  he'd  be  able  to  see  them  whenever  he's  ready  to  step  outside.  A  daunting  task  really.  Stepping  into  a  world  he  was  seconds  away  from  abandoning.  The  hatred  is  still  there,  the  anger,  the  frustration-  but  it's  all  fizzled  to  smoke.  Left  him  tired,  operating  on  next  to  nothing.  Regretful  he  feels  how  he  does,  but  not  eager  to  forgive  and  forget.  It's  a  very  strange,  and  uncomfortable  limbo...

Hands  are  held  together  over  his  lap.  Making  no  move  to  get  up  and  help  her  as  she  picks  things  up  (  her  things.  she  practically  lives  here  with  him  ).

Maybe  he  could  say  something.  Thank  her  for  it,  express  how  much  it  means  to  him.  How  much  any  of  them  mean  to  him.  But  it's  difficult  to  muster  that  much  just  now.  Worried  that  something  else  might  spill  out,  something  mean,  or  hateful.  Something  he'd  feel  shame  in  voicing.  So  he  stays  quiet.

Hana  doesn't  expect  anything  from  him.

Not  because  she  doesn't  believe  he's  capable,  but  because  she's  considerate.  Because  she  loves  him-  why?  He  doesn't  really  know,  and  doesn't  ask.  There  is  very  little  about  him  that's  redeemable.  Good  looks  are  one  thing,  but  a  good  heart  is  another.

When  she  sits  next  to  him,  he  feels  it.  Hears  her  ask  him  something,  but  doesn't  really  process  it.  Doesn't  give  her  more  than  a  single  note,  a  hum  of  agreement.  However,  after  a  moment,  he  does  let  his  body  tip.  Lets  his  weight  drift  towards  her,  so  he  can  allow  his  head  to  bump  against  her  own.  Dark hair  falling  messy,  and  unbrushed  against  the  warm  honey  hue  of  her  own. 

An unspoken ask  for  her  to  stay  where she is.

so in this au i discussed for suguru ... i'd like to add on ...

i do not think his dislike for non - sorcerers ever goes away. he steps away, he gets help, he has time to grieve and cope better. before his big mental break. but that hatred never leaves. he does still blame them for a lot of his loss, and suffering. and in a way, he isn't wrong in what he knows to be fact. however. much like in canon, how he made his choice- he makes a different one here. he dislikes non - sorcerers, but he doesn't take his hurt and anger out on them. he more or less follows a similar route as yuki. which i honestly believe COULD have very well been an option.

          "  Y'know  I've  always  wondered...  Things  must  of  been  soo  different  in  the  heian  period.  "  she  smiles.  "  What  kinda  girls  are  you  into?  "