devil's pool

i have so much affection for the ugly, selfish, human part of people's motivations that pollutes their noble intentions and ideals. i did it because i liked it. because i was good at it. because it felt good. because i deserved it. because i wanted to.

(three decades into my life) sorry I wasn’t paying attention, can we start again?

sorry but if you studied and understood feminism as the liberation movement that it is, you would not be making men who are hurt by a system that still benefits them a top priority. the damage that choice feminism, white feminism, and rampant transmisogyny have done to people's perception and understanding of feminism so that it's now an accepted position to prioritise the individual well-being of men over the liberation of everyone else actually oppressed by systemic patriarchy is mind blowingly absurd. idc about men and boys who feel lonely and turn to misogynistic grifters to fill the void because they're not the ones who will be primarily harmed the most in that scenario !! women, girls (trans and cis) and queer people are. these men's lonliness and anger are problems that won't exist at the same scale when we no longer live in a system that normalises that behaviour to the primary detriment of women, girls (cis and trans), and queer people. i am so exhausted by rhetoric that seeks to center the greatest benefactors of patriarchy over the actual victims of patriarchy, simply because the perpetrators and benefactors of patriarchy don't like themselves.

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awareness of "the abused can become the abuser" is useless without the knowledge that abuse is a choice anyone makes that is made for self-benefit. recently I watched an interview on the psychology of domestic abuse and the woman who interviewed those who inflicted the abuse always made sure to ask "why didn't you take it further?" because the answer would always show the abuser hadn't simply lost control. for example one man said he pushed over his girlfriend but didn't kick her once she was down because he didn't want any noticeable bruising that caused suspicion. human psychology is much less poetic than you think. too many psychology enjoyers only enjoy the poetic

they were right btw. you have to dig yourself out of your grave over and over again