from my word.

we have the right to refuse to mend relationships we don't think will benefit us moving forward. that... doesn't mean the other party won't be left damaged by the loss.

but i feel like he needs to know... that my heart is non-newtonian, and if he’s this gentle with it for too long, it’ll melt right into him. and it’s already going all soft.

he’s so warm and i know i’m right on the edge of falling asleep which is probably half of why i’m all in my feelings, but. i really like this... just, the way we’ve sort of fallen into offering whenever one of us mentions needing anything on the dash and uh. he let me stay? it doesn’t look like a big deal to anyone else and it probably isn’t, i’m probably overthinking little shit like i always do, but he just. let me over here while he was vulnerable and handed himself over to me to put back together and he let me stay while he’s asleep and i could cut his throat right now if i wanted to, but he knows i won’t, he knows i’m gonna lay right here and feel his chest press against my side when he breathes in and listen to his little huffs and play with his fingers and i’m glad, because i want him to know that this is all i want, just. to be tender with him. 

we haven’t even spent all that much time together, it’s just that everytime we do he winds up kicking some fucking major point drop and it’s almost. alarming how that keeps happening. we talked about cronus and it was okay. i didn’t feel like i needed to play keep-away with my feelings like i usually do when someone lower on the rungs picks at something that hurts me to talk about. and he let me inside of him... i don’t know if he just trusts me that much or if it was more because he’d rather risk it than deal with the pain, but. i’m gonna hope it’s the former, ‘cause. i hope he knows i’d never hurt him.