so theres a citywide wifi outage where I'm staying and also an insane amount of rain came out of nowhere and basically flooded my area.
do yall remember a few months ago when people were saying there was gonna be a solar storm that would knock out wifi and communications across the globe? I'm very nervous that's happening now and its kind of making me think about death and stuff.
I feel like so much of humanity is trying to figure out what we're here for, what it all means, etc. and like idk theres something about hearing death creep around the corner that makes you accept that you are nothing and it all meant nothing. I think the world's gonna end due to like weather catastrophes and the hurricanes rsrthqyales and wildfires dont care about me. I'm nothing to them.
I'm sure its been said before and this isnt a new idea, but it's new to me. What matters in life is the people around you. I got to spend this past weekend with my family, which is rare nowadays, and I feel at peace with death. I told my boyfriend I loved him before I left to work, so i was okay with the potential of swerving into a ditch.
My life isnt neccesarily over, but I'm at a point where it could be and I'd be fine.
I had another little epiphany today while I was driving. Basically, time does run out. Because of the wifi outage I had to go to my auto insurance provider's office and try to pay there and on the way I kept thinking that if I would've woken up my bf earlier he could have paid over the phone, and if we would've had it taken care of before the vacation I wouldn't have to worry about it now. Time does run out, you dont have all the time in the world to do something. I've been wanting to be a little micocelebrity but I dont wanna post anything online bc I'm scared I'll get a lot of hate and I'm nervous about how I'll look on camera. But if the wifi is knocked out forever, I'll never get a chance to post anything. so I need to start now. If you wanna do something, do it before it's too late. YOU DO NOT HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD
