where is the Glory

☁️as I end my day I once again pray that I do not wake up the same tomorrow. Please hear me as I ache for my grace of otherness. I do not wish to wake tomorrow, not the same not in this body of flesh.☁️

☁️when I go back to that other place I am from I know I will weep. I will weep for earth. I will sob and sob in whatever way I can. ☁️

☁️is it okay with you? That I wish to speak your name aloud? Are you granting me this power? This trust? Is it okay with you that I whisper it to the air hoping it reaches you and somehow you can hear my voice calling to you with such painful tenderness☁️

☁️ i love the angel aesthetic. i love the pictures and drawing of angels. i love all of it! although i have always felt that none of them looked anything like me. For me I’m less something with limbs or faces or eyes or anything and more ENERGY something that just is i have wings and millions upon millions of “eyes” but in the way that wings are a force that helps you move and eyes are used for something that can see. I Can see from all sides but don’t have eyes I can move with force but don’t have wings that can be easily touched or seen. I don’t know what I am exactly I know it’s something similar to holy. I am something of energy something that cannot be fully understood. I love that about myself. ☁️

☁️ I know many angels had to keep quite when they had a thought that disagreed with what the norm was, had to keep quite when they wanted to speak, had to keep quite when something hurt or when something was sad. Sure some didn’t but to those that did, let it out, you can yell it out now, you can speak and speak and speak. Speak the pain, argue and doubt out loud, express joy, you can do that now. Speak or write it, but you can do it now. You can.☁️

☁️ I’ve always wondered why most angels enjoy or relate clouds to home, clouds are so low and nearest to earth it’s not really near heaven and you pass right through them, I too think they are pretty but I have trouble relating it to home, my self looks at clouds and thinks of clearer days on the planet☁️