Bent & Let It Rot

I am posting information that made me lose weight and thoughts about myself. I am NOT ann in any form. I may fast and restrict, but part of it is out of bad habit and for a sense of pride, it has nothing to do with feeling overweight but more in the idea of perfection that I personally can feel pride in. TW for ed habits (block if bothered) and other self destructive things. It’s a thought blog with a focus around my body and my heart. Being a certain way is my perfection and not something that is real perfection, I don’t believe other people should look this way. It’s like being happy someone hit me, I deserved it anyday. Everyone is beautiful in their ways. I don’t have the same value other people have I’m not worth the time So I’m making my body worth my time. Also I am a really sad person and kinda pathetic. I live with someone who hates me and everyday is bringing me closer to realizing that all I deserve is the end.