Bits and Bytes of Silly

i write a teeny bit i guess now

nothing interesting

i wonder why my limbs hurt for no reason it lowkey hurts a bit the way they hurt

i’m someone’s favorite lesbian!!! this is very happy news for me!

i got turned into a lesbian some time ago it just happened to me

i got the older sister strength over my brother even though he’s 14

someday i’m gonna try and jump high enough to dunk

right now i can’t jump high enough to do that

sportsball is fun

i enjoy playing sports with the people i like

it’s much more fun than playing with people i don’t really care about

i do love playing games with my friends

i wish i knew them earlier but i wish a lot of things

i’m very lucky to be where i am in life and i’m happy that i am where i am even if there’s apparently bad things for my future

it got hot today and when i’m inside at below 90 degrees fahrenheit i’m pretty comfortable, especially in the 80s

it feels like i’m wearing a nice sweater and not quite melting i guess

i like how i change with the weather

it’s pretty fun to see how i change over the year

the only downside is that i can’t wear the same clothes throughout the year

i like wearing sweaters a lot and lighter clothes but it’s always one extreme here or raining

i should get someone to actually teach me piano rather than try and figure it out with tutorials

haven’t been gay long enough

i love doing stuff with my friends and interacting with them!! it’s my favorite part of the day when i can interact even though just talking

i think about my friends a lot and that probably weird

i like them all a lot

they’re really cool and awesome and the best people i know!

i think i repeat the same thing a lot

it happens to me pretty often

i don’t think i have head trauma too much but i do have some quirks in the way i tend to repeat stuff and then remember i already said it one time or a bunch

idk i’m not wanting to make these too long because it feels like i’m taking to long

i did the thing with green beans where i snapped the ends off

i did a couple of them

like idk how many but more than a hundred or three

it was a lot

mostly read fanfiction all day

didn’t really have much i wanted to do so i didn’t do anything

i also made my calves sore from using them enough yesterday

at least i got a little bit of use from my legs

it got boring doing green bean stuff for two hours

they were purple and i didn’t care so it was whatever

i am bad at making stuff though so it’s whatever

i am happy i get the change to be creative!

it’s better than not being creative

anyway, imma go to bed and work on a story some time soon.

i was going to try and visit my friends but my parents kept changing their minds until i got overwhelmed by them telling me different things every other sentence that i decided it wasn’t worth it. one of them also got sick within an hour of me trying to go, which was fun, if i were lying

i don’t really want to hurt my. day so i am not exercising today anymore

i think i used all the strength in my core muscles and i shouldn’t use them as much as i can

feels funny and i would prefer to avoid injury

just hanging around tonight for no reason

i love my friends a lot

i want to support them the best i can

i have to make sure i say the right things sometimes or else i’ll seem insincere and i don’t want to do that to someone

i like a certain kind of tank top but i’d only wear it around maybe two people

it’s a black striped(?) one with a high neck thing and no sleeves

i wish i had one and a long sleeved shirt or something to go under it

that would be pretty fun to wear

or like a sweater vest but completely black

idk it just seems neat

i prefer dresses over tank tops right now, but it is summer where i am, so i’m wearing lighter clothes.

i wish the skirts i have could be as flexible as i’m trying to be

i’m trying to be able to do the splits for no reason, but just doing whatever to get my leg bits stronger i guess

like the tendons

i’m also trying to not just exercise my arms, but also get all my body if i can

i thought there’d be more body to work on

i guess i was expecting something of a challenge that isn’t just work on these five areas in your body

it’s just something to do in my spare time

better than scrolling instagram or tiktok i guess

i’m going to an escape room tomorrow, so i’m hoping i can escape in time. it’ll be fun, i’m sure! i don’t want to be too quick, though, and do too much. i doubt that’ll be a problem, though.

idk who i like, to be honest. i guess it’s mostly people i’m close with. labels are confusing, and i don’t want to keep changing them unless it’s alright to. i don’t want to use the wrong ones or anything. i still like my friends a lot, but i don’t think i see people as more unless i’m really close with them. maybe greyromantic idk

driving is still scary, almost ran a red light today. that was the most scared i’ve been since i had difficulty starting out. haven’t hit anything, which is great for someone in my family!

idk if i see everyone as someone i’d want as a partner in life, like my one friend. he’s really cool, and a great person, and i want to make sure he takes care of himself and does well. just be like a supporting role and hopefully someone he can respect idk

kinda like a brother to me i guess

i get that for people i’m pretty close to, but it’s usually family or him. just wanna be a good friend!

i guess i kinda had something like a crush on him? like around fall last year but not really since then. i have had like one other person i’ve liked like that, though, and it hasn’t gone away, it just feels really nice to talk to them, and stuff

maybe i get like favorite people idk

sorry i yap about who i like as much as i do, it just happens when i go on tumblr i guess and when i write

i got a brain scan like last year

my brain is kinda boring

thought it’d be cooler or something

not just black and wrinkly

to be fair it’s 3d printed by the hospital so that would affect it

i gotta get a job some time

i’m broke

i’m a little bit through deltarune chapter five

it’s good

i won’t give any context

i don’t know much about being a real person, only escaped the dark world in ninth grade, so i don’t have knowledge on feelings or anything, so idk how accurate i am with myself

lowkey i don’t know what i feel like labeling myself, but is it okay to say i’m bi and a lesbian? i don’t want to take labels if i am not supposed to, so i might have to choose one

i don’t know whether i feel attraction to others, and i don’t care too much, but i have people i like a lot that i would take a label that fits for

i think i’m bi maybe because i’ve had two people i’ve kinda crushed on, they just became like the center of my attention for no particular reason, and they never left? kinda?

i can’t be sure whether what i think i feel and what i do feel is the same, but i would do anything for people i’m close enough to, i guess

maybe it’s just them becoming like a person i view as an integral part of my life or something

or like the closest friend i could have

idk i just like being. around both of them a lot and it feels nice to see them happy and make them even a little bit happier than when i saw them last

i might be a bit on the sappy side

worse than a tree

i have somewhat strong emotions maybe? probably not

sorry the new deltarune chapter got me acting different