Siti Farhani

All these overwhelming feelings?

Bottled up inside me, blaring the alarm throughout my body.

Just took a minute or two to burst, i guess.

And then,

Scattered everywhere; my mind & my heart.

Like an aftermath of a warzone.

37 years of living, but still possess the skill of a 15 year-old to sail the boat.

Every synonym word for disappointment- is all I'm feeling now.

May your heart will always be filled with love of Him.

May it keeps blooming into every corner of your heart.

May you will always hold Him in the most special place, deep inside your heart.

May your heart will always put Him high above everything and anyone else.

So that the voice inside your head will always be echoing His names.

So that your body will move the way that He loves.

And may He be pleased with everything that you do.

Always and forever.

I want it.

But i dont want to.

Its complicated.

Naaah, - I - made it complicated.

السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ

No wonder influenzaahs love to post their vidoes of unboxing packages & gifts ehhh.

Especially beautifully wrapped gifts.

Anyway, just to keep in my virtual memory box, here's a video of me Merasmikan Majlis Pembukaan Hadiah that I've received from my lovely sistahh, Ateh. Woot woot.

Thank you Ateh, i love you. I know you're not gonna read this, because I'm a shyshy cat to say I love you to my sisters. (dkt angah & abg adi apatah lagi ye 😅)

I really appreciate all the loves I received. Hope I will not take it for granted or ignore the teeny tiny efforts that others have made. May Allah make me see it and feel it.

And may Allah bless all the people who've made my heart smiles even for a second, may Allah accept their deeds and make their hearts smile forever til Jannah. Amin.

2020 DUDEEEE!!!

Yep, just turned 2020, here in Farhaniland,  12 days late from the real world 😓 Not excited at all, obviously.

Anyway, Praying hard for myself to “recover” and “wake up”! Gotta pick myself up and give myself a couple of brutal punches, and maybe some hardcore slaps. Need to be my own hero.

I freaking miss my friends- gdd, pv girls, ex-oratis- my cousins, families, EVERYONE. EVERY.FREAKING.ONE. (although they're not missing me)

And of course, I miss going out seeking knowledge.

I don’t know what I’m gonna do. But I really need to fix this.

Ya Allah tolong aku.

My favourite channel on youtube at the moment. Addicted to all the videos!

Cobot

I'm on a "no-music diet", actually - since at the start of this year.

To be honest, it is super duper hard!!!

🤲🏼 Ya Allah, please make Siti Farhani steadfast on this journey. Please allow her heart to always be filled with Quran & dzikirs. Ameen 🤲🏼

Wishing for something wonderful to happen today. Just because the date is pretty awesome.

But, nope. Mehhh.

Nevertheless,

Isn't this amazinggg?!! Engineering at its best!