Daddy

You’ll go home.

You’ll be bored.

You’ll be ignored.

No one will listen to you, really listen to you.

You’re too clever & too quiet for them to understand.

How could I?

I won’t measure pains or experiences but…

You've never even came close to experiencing what I have.

Take a walk in my shoes.

Feel the cracks in the long ass pavement & the hardness of my long fought paths, feel time slip away as you travel to empty spaces you're meant to fill, as I have.

Stand in the gaps between generations, holding on to the cloth you've been cut from, as the fabric I was made from hasn't existed since, now riddled with pain filled miles, worn ripped patches & tribulations.

Those patches on my soul...they make sense to me now.

How about you?

Don't they?

Little bits of decades spent in the midst of familiar strangers, those that chose to come & go clenched, while dragging along my heart with them.

You know those ripped bits at the seams...you know where they fucking come from don't you?

All of those years, days & of nights black as pitch spent fighting myself, seeing most of you fighting yourselves & others, It wasn't about the win as much as it was about standing our hard earned ground... well?

Oh, you're starting to get it, maybe a beginning of conscious thought you may finally be able to grasp physically as well as mentally.

It's a true reality.

The bloody struggle.

The constant fucking war against time & empty space, heart, mind, spirit & the leather battled tough flesh of half ass family & self...

I gained muscle in this game of tug & war... you may have or could have too....

I genuinely know through the experiences I've lived... but you refuse to let go but hate to hold on.

So, you battle.

I sure as fuck battled & climbed till palms bled raw!

Battle to the death of you. I'm even now prepared to. Are you strong enough.

No one understands because they can't accept what I've never revealed, & you won't!

So, no I can't & won't blame you for your lack of comprehension to my life, my experiences.

However, if you ever want to hang out, we can take a walk down memory lane & I can show you where I really came from, how I came out of it still pushing forward because I refuse to have a stop or reverse.

But.... ..

Only if you want to.

It's dark as fuck behind me & the path I've worn down, trudging through is a lifes - time eater.

Knowing what's ahead may be worse but I shall not waiver or give in to any man or any thing to cross the finish line I'm claiming as mine.

No retreat no surrender!

*Smirks

I can finally see my happiness & peace there as I hope you who are to me, as I am to you, can join me in my exhale of my own goals reached.

It’s just who I actually am. Been through too much to be less than even flowing. My emotions don’t control me. Just breathe.

I drink down your love, for my own thirsty sake.

Yet the deeper I dive for a breath or a sign,

I find only ice, that used to be mine.

A beautiful dream that shatters at touch,

But I’m talking to silences, empty and bare.

I am close as your skin, yet miles apart,

Searching for empathy in a mirror-faced heart.

Still I am tethered, by hope you will see,

Get him a blowjob!

with your magical fingers.

Let me finger you.

Turn me on with the

sweet words from your mouth, and let me eat you with mine.

Turn me on with

the heat of your body.

While you’re dripping wet.

Electrify me with

your temptation bundles.

While I suck on your perfect nipples.

Bring me to life & let me

fill you with my thick love.

Make me feel everything

I’ve been longing to experience.

And let’s me give you every sexual sensual experience.

Come, turn me on.

And let’s try everything I can imagine baby.

Your breathing & moans make me pulsate, my manhood so hard your inner wet walls feel my every heartbeat!

The warmth softness of our skin having conversations with one another, as my hands search your body every inch I can reach slowly, purposely, and intimately.

I will feel you everywhere, but I will skip each spot that is the most erogenous.

Holding you against me in love, small short soft kisses upon your body neck and shoulders, while you feel my breath against you, warm against the cooling spots of my moist lips traces.

Then finally my fingers gently cross over the nipples of your full tits, chasing down the Center of your stomach until I reach the part that you’ve been waiting for me to touch; your breath short and quick you’re so hot & wet, as I feel inside you slow, slowly sensually, letting you relax against me, you being the clay in my hands that I mold into the most beautiful vase… until I finally lay you down and slowly enter you, little by little feeling every bit of me slide deeply inside you, our bodies heightened with anticipation, until I am to the reach of my depth inside you completely filling your tight fuck hole… our minds in another place no one else on earth but you and I.

While I make love to you until I can’t anymore.

It’s the “little girl”, truly feminine thing. It’s the little girl voice, the giggles and clumsiness, the youthful cuteness.

It’s that mistakes are naughty and not necessarily intentional and bad mistakes. To be able to teach them & have them feel full. Getting a fatherly encouragement to grow. Inspiration to help them reach & succeed in their dreams and earning a lifetime trust being able to be looked at with innocent eyes, and understand I’m what’s stable & eternal.

As I wait around to see you again, these thoughts are so amazing.

With those beautiful eyes, sweet lips, and a body so sexy, there is no doubt at all that these bed sheets will become messy.

I can see me sliding my tongue, from your garden to your neck, we can do it anywhere, the bed, the floor, perhaps even on a deck.

I have a bit of a dirty sexual imagination, and at times I can be a serious sex freak.

And I guarantee that when I'm through with you, your legs will be weak.

Rubbing & sucking your nipples while caressing your clit, you holding on to my big swollen dick.

Pleasure is so unbearable that I have to slow it down a bit.

I put your legs on my shoulders, I enter you slowly.

As I look you in your eyes, telling you you're my one and only.

You take me in your pretty mouth whipe locked eyes to eyes.

You squirming wanting me between your soft silky thighs!

I thrust faster & faster, listening to the sound of your moans.

I go deeper & deeper until you can feel it in your bones.

I transition your form to doggy, and grab on to your hips & your rear.

Then I enter back inside you, in and out slip & slide.

Cumming together with moans growls and sighs.

We go hours & hours until you tell me that you are sore, I say "Wait babe hold on, I still have a little more”.

I place you on your back, and place my tongue again to your clit.