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patrick stump was living where

lestat seeing his abuser everywhere he goes no matter how much time has passed is such an accurate portrayal of being a survivor of any type of abuse. no matter how much you try to bury it or run away from it, it will always find you when you’re least expecting it to resurface. you can still feel them when you’re alone, you remember how powerless you were, how much was taken from you. you remember the feeling of feeling dirty, trying to scrub away the filth they marked you with. until you face the intensity of your abuse, it will always have a hold on you. they will always have a hold on you.

i hate it here

something something lestat being kissed by larry when he was intoxicated… lestat’s mother taking advantage of him when he was injured and later on ignoring his pleas to stop the sexual aspect of their relationship by feeding on him… lestat constantly being used over and over again throughout the centuries and it only reinforces his belief that his body is his only currency… much to think about