The Promised Land

So much excitement lately. Excited for this quarter & year! Another year that belongs to God has begun!  Another year to LOVE God! Another year to HONOR Him! 

생각이 많아진 이 스트레스 쌓이는 밤, 하나님을 생각하며 하나님한테 의문할수있고 그 아버지는 내 말을 열심히 그리고 인내심 깊게 천천히 끝까지 다 듣고있다는게 너무 감사하다.

No other can satisfy. My soul may be weak. My body may be tired. My spirit may be longing. But one thing remains.

His love for me. He, who gives me strength. He, who yearns to love. He, who is always faithful.

I am undeserving, but He still loves me. I am filled with flaws, but He still pursues. For this, I know that no matter what, I am loved by the Lord.

No other can fill the hole in my heart. No other can give me true joy. The Holy One, the Only One. Is The One who is able.

For this, I look to you. My eyes fixed on Your beauty and the Truth. Reminding myself of my identity in You. For my identity in You is the Only Identity.

The long week of hating myself, stressing over life, and trying to study for finals has finally ended. Even though I literally hated everything about myself yesterday, right now, "I give it all to You God trusting that you'll make something beautiful out of me". Although life was throwing struggles after struggles at me, I remind myself, 'this shall too pass'. Though final is right around the corner, (in 7 hours) I feel at peace. The whole week was full of enemy's lies. Hating myself and hating myself even more. Discouragements after discouragements. I was on the verge of giving up. The moment that thought crossed my mind, I knew how much the enemy has been controlling my mind and heart, and how unrealistic I was being. There's nothing greater than to follow Jesus, to serve Jesus, and most importantly, to love Jesus. All I want is to love Jesus. Going back to the beginning. Loving Jesus with a child-like heart. Laying down every burden at His feet. Giving Him all my flaws and mistakes. Trusting that He will make something beautiful out of me. 

"Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, 2 when they see your respectful and pure conduct. 3 Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— 4 but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious. 5 For this is how the holy women who hoped in God used to adorn themselves, by submitting to their own husbands, 6 as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord. And you are her children, if you do good and do not fear anything that is frightening."

- 1 Peter 3:1-6 (ESV)

I can’t… I can’t… I can’t help but smile and soak in this Genuine Joy God has given me! Peace that transcends all understanding. Freedom for Christ has set us free… EVERYTHING IS SO REAL. 

Lately, I’ve been noticing more and more how weak I am. How vulnerable I am. How powerless I am. How I CANNOT do anything… This is such a saddening thought. But it’s true. It’s true that I cannot accomplish a thing with my own strength. It’s true that I cannot rely on my own strength… This is such a saddening thought that brings me comfort.

The thought of powerlessness brings me great comfort because when I am weak, I depend on God. When I am afraid, He gives me comfort. When I am lost, He shows me the way. When I come to admit my weakness, He helps me to rely and depend on Him.

" When I am Afraid, I will trust in You When I’m overcome, I will cling onto the Rock that is higher.

Teach me Your ways.

Teach me how to walk like You. Teach me how to talk like You. Teach me how to live like You. Teach me how to love like You.