Sin Says

She had been really sick the past couple of months and passed away this morning.

I don't need to do anything. Her wishes were to be cremated and have no services. My dad doesn't need me to help him with anything.

There was nothing. She was just gone.

I didn't have a good relationship with her because her drinking had gotten really bad since I was 16 and her narcissism on top of that made her unpleasant to be around. I broke contact with her in my twenties and moved across the country. Towards the last few years, she developed dementia.

...But I remember how she used to be. How she played Goof Troop with me on the SNES and we worked together to beat the puzzles and the whole game. How we'd just have talks in the kitchen/dining room. How she showed me how to bake. How she'd watch soap operas on a tiny black and white radio tv. How we'd read the Harry Potter series together and she gifted me the full set of hard covers once we finished it (Yes I know, the author is a piece of shit- it was back when no one knew about that.)

I don't really know how to feel.

At least she's no longer suffering and no longer in pain. Wherever she went, (Please no religious comments, just vibes) I hope she regained her memories and understands why I did the things I did. That nothing I did was ever in spite towards her. That I loved her and it hurt to see her destroy herself over the years.

But now I just...

idk.

I. REALLY. Need. A. Vacation.

But the economy sucks and I have no money.

This is more for me to keep track of the things that I would like rather than me expecting anything from anyone, especially because I tend to blank whenever someone asks me what I would like as a gift. But this is also here for friends/family who would like to get me something and aren't sure what to get. Notes about getting me gifts: I don't expect any gifts, so I'm pretty much happy whenever I get anything. I REALLY love when gifts are wrapped, it's part of the fun for me to tear open wrapping paper of a present. I'm happy with custom-made gifts like drawings or handwritten letters, so don't feel like you need to buy anything. I'd also be happy with anything you see that you think I'd like that isn't on my wishlist, as long as thought and care was put behind choosing it makes me feel happy.

-Lego Sets (I think there was a Simba one I saw. I didn't get to have any lego sets as a kid and found out recently I REALLY enjoy building them) -Barnes & Noble Gift card (I love the chance to go to a bookstore and get books/comics) -Bath & Body Works Gift card (I've never actually gone out to pick out a perfume for myself, so I want to see what body mists they have and actually pick out a scent I like for myself.) -Black Rock Coffee Gift card (Coffee helps me function, simple as that lol) -Calico Critters: Mainly need sets right now- Red Roof Country Home Gift Set, Sunny Picnic Set, Bakery Shop Starter Set, Ice Cream Van, Halloween Surprise Party Set, Sweets Party Set, Secret Forest Falls, Breakfast Playset, Country Tree School Playset, Red Roof Cozy Cottage Starter Home -Tamagotchi Paradise Blue Water -Pikachu plushies (Specifically, I would really like more female pikachus, the ones with the rounded tails) -Umbreon plushies (Shiny ones preferred!) -Sprigatito 24" Plush -Any Pokemon Booster Card Packs -PS4 Controller (Need a new one or two) -Super Mario RPG remake for the Switch -Pokemon Legends Z-A & Mega Dimension DLC for the Switch -Crocs or Sneakers with memory foam in size 11Wide for women (It's so hard for me to find shoes in my size orz) -Anything on my Steam wishlist -The Lion Guard: Any Kion plushies -Pin Board (For pinning up pins, greeting cards, postcards) -Spot The Dog video tapes (Preferably the ones with the Flap Book Covers if possible) -1995 Pound Puppies Van Playset (Was a pink and purple van that would open up into a playset, came with figures and flat pound puppy figures.) -The Woobles Bluey Kit, Woobles KPop Demon Hunters Magical Messengers Bundle (I've not tried Woobles before, but I'm curious about it and think it might help me start crocheting) -Warrior Cats Books: Book 1 of Vision of Shadows (Apprentice's Quest), Books 2 3 4 5 and 6 of The Broken Code, The whole set of A Starless Clan (6 books), The first two books of Changing Skies. (Yes, it's a lot of books. I am a book nerd and Warrior Cats is my current biggest collection) -Wings of Fire Comics: The Brightest Night, Moon Rising, Winter Turning, Escaping Peril. -Acrylic Rainbow Cat Kalimba: https://www.gokalimba.com/products/acrylic-cat-bear-kalimba-with-protective-case-nalu-for-youth

I'll be doing my first subathon at 3pm PST.

Gonna draw and maybe play some games. Every 2 subs will get you an apple themed ych that you get to choose from what I have available. You'll get to have your character drawn in any of these ychs.

Electric boogaloo 2.

They held me longer there because it turns out that I have anemia and low potassium, so now I have supplements for that.

So if you want to help, either buy my commissions or donate

Ko-fi donations: https://ko-fi.com/sinligereep

-Jitty's mother died -The dog I raised from a pup who I had to leave behind when I initially moved from my parents died -We had to move suddenly (luckily we did find a decent place) -The initial movers we went with screwed us over -The orange dictator became president again -Lots of scary shit happening due to the orange dictator that actively attacks Trans, people who are poor, and people with disabilities. -Due to the economy, I've barely been able to get any commissions so I've not been able to contribute much to the household. -Jitty lost his healthcare for a month -Jitty became no longer qualified for a PCA, so I lost that part of my income -I became very sick for two months from different things (first the flue, then hives, then an infected lump on my breast that I still have but it's not infected anymore and has been slowly shrinking) -Got a scare with my cat Neith that we had to go take her to the vet (She's fine) -Foodstamps initially denied me automatically when I still had documents pending and didn't approve me until late in the month of October. -No idea if I'm even going to get foodstamps this month because of the whole hold bs from the government shutdown. -Jitty had to go to the hospital because he got sepsis from norovirus (he's fine now, but that was scary)

Idk this year has just really sucked for us.

At least, good news is that Foodstamps did finally approve me (I don't fucking know why the hell it took them so long or why their system has an automatic denial in place even when submitted documents are still pending), but because it did take them so long I got my foodstamps for october very late- So I still have useable foodstamps this month. I just have no idea when I'll be given a refresh for November considering the hold on foodstamps.

I just want things to not suck so much blurgh orz

We've been there since 10pm yesterday.

He's had abdominal pain and vomiting and now he's fully admitted so we're staying another night but in a proper room.