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Summary: Discipline is your first languageâat home, in church, at the barre. Natasha Romanoff dances like freedom, threatening everything youâve been taught to believe. You pray the feeling will pass. It doesnât. Some longings refuse to fade, and some truths will not accept the name of sin.
Word Count: 4.8k words
Tags/Warnings: SMUT! 18+ MDNI modern!AU, slight angst, rivals to lovers, jealous!reader, oral, f!ngering, scissor city, semi-public sex, religious themes/guilt/trauma, sexual content, adult themes, adult language, no use of Y/N, not proofread.
A/N: I'm sorry I went MIA for months :((( A lot of stuff happened and I lost my spark in writing. I'm still not fully back but I'll write and post if/when I can. I truly appreciate you guys for reading my works! Happy New Year! The banner was made by me btw <3
You learned the language of devotion before you learned how to dance.
Tony Stark stood at the pulpit like he belonged there.
He preached faith in the way he did everything elseâwith conviction sharpened by intellect, with the kind of confidence that left little room for doubt. He spoke about discipline as virtue, about choosing righteousness daily, about the quiet dangers of temptation that slipped in when people believed themselves immune.
You were an extension of the pulpit. You were expected to be silent, to be modest, to be a vessel for light and nothing else. Your life was mapped out in scripture verses and potluck dinners: marry a preacher, teach Sunday school, quiet your voice, hide your body.
Your stepmother, Pepper, sat in the front pew, spine straight, Morgan tucked against her side. You had been so young when your mother passed away that your memories of her came in fragmentsâwarm hands, the scent of lavender, a voice humming you to sleep.
Pepper entered your life gently after that, steady and patient, never asking you to forget what came before. She loved you in practical ways, in packed lunches and careful questions, in sitting beside your father when faith became his anchor.
She believed in the way Tony needed her to believe, and in doing so, helped hold the family togetherâteaching you how to stand, even when your heart still remembered how to lean.
You sat beside them; hands folded neatly in your lap.
The obedient child.
The preacherâs daughter.
The example.
You found ballet when you were seven, peeking through the cracked door of the community center basement while your father led a prayer group upstairs. You saw the girls in pink, their bodies pulling into lines that looked like geometry and felt like flight. They weren't hiding their bodies; they were commanding them.
Getting your parents to agree was your first great performance. You knew you couldnât tell them the truthâthat you wanted to feel the burn of muscles tearing and rebuilding, that you wanted to be seen, that you wanted to be loud without speaking.
So, you used their language.
âItâs discipline, Dad,â you had said, standing in his study with your hands clasped behind your back to hide the shaking. You were twelve then, eyes cast down, playing the role.
âItâs not about vanity. Itâs⊠like, rigor. It makes you control your body. If I can do that, then I can do anything.â
You told them the body was a temple, and ballet was simply the maintenance of the walls.
Your father had peered at you over his spectacles, searching for the sin of pride, but he found only the mask of obedience. He agreed, on the condition that it never interfered with service.
He didn't know that the studio would become your true church.
He didn't know that the barre became your altar, the rosin your incense, and the blisters your penance. In the studio, pain wasn't a punishment for sin; it was the price of perfection. For the first time, you owned your own suffering.
But you never really left the church. You carried the guilt with you like a stone in your ballet shoe. You carried the fear that your desire to be greatâto be the bestâwas a manifestation of pride.
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Morning always came too early. You liked it that way.
The studio was quiet before the city woke, still holding onto the hush of night. You arrived before anyone else, unlocking the doors with the familiarity of habit, slipping inside like someone entering a chapel. The lights flickered on one by one, illuminating the mirrors, the barre, the scuffed floorboards marked by years of discipline and devotion.
You warmed up slowly. Methodically. Tendon by tendon. Breath by breath.
This was the only place your mind ever felt truly at peace.
Until Natasha Romanoff arrived.
She moved like a secret whispered between counts, every extension deliberate, every turn carved with precision. Red hair pulled tight into a bun, jaw set with that familiar infuriating calm. You had trained beside her for years, grown up in the same marble halls and rosin-dusted floors, always neck and neck, always compared in hushed tones by instructors who thought you couldnât hear them.
Youâd been raised to believe discipline was everything. Control. Silence. Prayer before sleep, guilt before desire.
Love, if it existed at all, was supposed to look a certain way. Safe. God-approved.
Clean.
Whatever simmered in your chest when Natasha smirked at you across the barre was none of those things.
You told yourself it was jealousy. That was easier. Acceptable.
Competitive envy was practically encouraged here. Director Fury liked to pit dancers against each other; he claimed it sharpened them. You and Natasha had been sharpened into parallel bladesâdifferent styles, equal precision.
Where you were controlled, she was feral.
Where you were devout, she was defiant.
But those strange, inexplicable feelings never hit you all at once.
They came quietly. Practically. In moments small enough to excuse.
Like Natasha correcting your form.
She did it carefully, always asking firstâ âMay I?â
As if she sensed how close you already were to breaking.
Her hands were warm and firm at your waist, guiding your hips a fraction of an inch, her breath close enough that you could feel it ghost against your neck.
âRelax here,â she murmured. âYouâre holding tension.â
You swallowed hard and told yourself the heat curling low in your stomach was annoyance.
Sheâs always so confident.
She thinks she knows better.
You nodded and stepped away too quickly, heart pounding like youâd been caught doing something wrong.
Sometimes, those feeling came with proximity.
Standing too close in the wings. Waiting for cues. Your shoulder brushing hers, bare skin against bare skin. It shouldnât have meant anythingâdancers touched constantly, bodies overlapping, entwined by necessity.
But Natasha always seemed to linger a half-second longer than required.
You told yourself it irritated you.
You told yourself you hated how she took up space so easily, how she leaned in without apology, how she smelled faintly of sweat and soap and something uniquely her.
When she glanced at you sideways and smirked, like she knew exactly what you were thinking, you turned away sharply, jaw clenched.
Sheâs provoking me, you decided.
Thatâs all this is.
The mirrors were the worst.
Youâd catch her watching youânot openly, not brazenlyâbut through reflections, eyes tracking you as you moved. Not critical. Not competitive.
Intent.
Your pulse would spike, and youâd push yourself harder, sharper, more precise, as if excellence could drown out awareness.
Sheâs judging me.
She wants to be better than me.
You prayed after rehearsals.
Sometimes in the locker room, head bowed over clasped hands. Sometimes at night, lying rigid in bed, staring at the ceiling.
This is envy, you told yourself.
This is pride.
This is something that needs to be corrected.
You remembered sermons about temptation arriving disguised as admiration. About the devil using beauty as bait. About desire being patient, persistent, waiting for a moment of weakness.
You thought of Natashaâs hands at your waist.
Her breath at your ear.
The way your body reacted before your mind could intervene.
Your prayers only grew desperate.
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At home, faith was never a quiet thing.
Dinner was served at the table every night, prayers spoken aloud, hands linked. Tony led them, eyes closed, voice firm.
âThank you for the gifts youâve given us,â he said. âFor purpose. For direction.â
Morgan echoed amen with childish enthusiasm.
Conversation followed routine pathsâchurch updates, community outreach, Morganâs schoolwork, your rehearsals. Pepper listened more than she spoke, refilling glasses, smoothing edges.
It was Tony who steered things where they always seemed to go lately.
âYou know,â he said one evening, glancing at you over his glasses, âI ran into Bucky Barnes after last weekâs service.â
Your stomach tightened instinctively.
âHeâs really settled,â Tony continued. âStrong testimony. Took some time to smooth the rough edges, but thatâs the Lordâs work, isnât it?â
He smiled. âWould make a good husband⊠a good father.â
Pepper hummed thoughtfully. âHeâs very devoted.â
Morgan looked up at you. âIs he nice?â
âYes,â you said automatically. âHeâs nice.â
Inside, something in you wilted.
Tony nodded, satisfied. âItâs important to think about these things. About the future. God doesnât give us gifts like yours without intention.â
You smiled. You always did.
You didnât say that the thought of Buckyâs hands on you felt distant, unrealâlike imagining a life meant for someone else. You didnât say that your chest didnât respond the way it was supposed to.
You didnât say that the stirrings that consumed you belonged to a different kind of longing, one that should feel forbidden but didnât.
Your injury happened on an ordinary afternoon.
That was the cruelest part.
A turn youâd done a thousand times before. A landing just a fraction off. Your ankle folded beneath you with a soft, terrible give, pain flaring bright and immediate. You swallowed the cry that rose in your throat, more embarrassed than afraid at first.
Then Natasha was thereâtoo close, too fast.
âDonât move,â she said, voice tight. Her hand hovered near your calf, uncertain, like she didnât know if she was allowed to touch you.
You wanted her to.
That thought scared you more than the pain.
You let Wanda and Ava help you off the floor. You didnât look back.
When Director Fury announced the Nutcracker casting days later, you sat with your ankle wrapped and elevated, jaw clenched, bracing yourself.
âThe role of Clara,â Director Fury said, voice echoing off the studio walls, âwill be danced this season by Natasha Romanoff.â
Applause filled the studio, but all you heard was the way the words settled into your chest, heavy and irreversible.
Wanda squeezed your hand gently. Yelena cursed under her breath, loud enough to earn a glare.
Natasha looked at youânot triumphantly, not smuglyâbut with something like hesitation. Like she wanted to explain. Like she wanted absolution.
You didnât give it. And anger was easier to carry than grief.
It gave you something to hold onto when Natasha passed you in the halls, when her laughter floated through the studio, when her name was spoken with reverence you felt had once been meant for you.
âYou donât have to practice so hard,â you snapped one evening as Natasha lingered after rehearsal.
âYouâve already won.â
Her eyes flickered. âThis isnât about winning.â
âEverything is,â you scoffed. âFor you.â
She stepped closer, voice low. âIs that what you really think?â
You turned away before she could see your face crumble.
That night, you prayed until your knees ached, asking for acceptance, for understanding, for the pain to make sense.
None of it did.
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Steve Rogers was, infuriatingly, beautiful.
You noticed it against your willâthe clean lines of his face, the earnest blue of his eyes, the way his presence seemed to soften the room without effort. He was the kind of man sermons were written for. The kind of man you were supposed to want.
You hated that you noticed.
You hated the way he leaned in when Natasha spoke, like every word mattered. Hated how easily she laughed with him, how her shoulders loosened, how her smile bloomed wide and unguarded in a way you rarely saw anymore.
You told yourself the tightness in your chest was envyâthat this was what it felt like to be bitter, to lose gracefully and fail anyway. You told yourself you were staring because Steve was handsome, because anyone would feel small standing next to someone like him.
But your eyes kept finding Natasha.
Kept tracing the curve of her mouth as she smiled at something he said, the faint crinkle near her eyes, the way her joy looked like sunlight you werenât allowed to step into.
You hated how beautiful she looked when she smiled.
And how you wanted that smile turned your way.
The thought startled you, sharp enough to make you flinch.
âStop staring,â Yelena muttered under her breath, nudging you. âYouâre going to sprain something else.â
âIâm not staring,â you snapped.
Wanda glanced at you gently. âThey look good together.â
Something sharp and defensive leapt out of you before you could stop it.
âYeah, right,â you scoffed. âHeâs definitely out of her league.â
Yelena snorted. âThatâs rich, coming from you.â
Steveâs hand settled at Natashaâs waistâeasy, familiarâand the sight punched the air from your lungs.
It shouldnât have mattered. It was nothing. Barely a touch.
But your throat tightened anyway. Your eyes burned. Your hands curled into fists at your sides as something inside you twisted painfully, insistently, into shape.
You told yourself that this was what envy felt like when it didnât have anywhere decent to go.
You bowed your head, nails digging into your palms, and whispered a prayer youâd said a hundred times before.
Take this from me.
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Sunday came at the worst possible time.
You sat between your parents in the familiar pew, knees pressed together, hands folded tight in your lap the way youâd been taught. The church smelled like old wood and incense, like polished devotion. Sunlight filtered through stained glass and fractured itself into colors across the aisle, painting saints and sinners alike in something almost merciful.
Pepper sang every hymn. Loud. Certain. Her voice never wavered.
Your father, Tony, bowed his head deeply in prayer, shoulders squared, faith worn like armor. He had always believed answers came swiftly to those who lived correctly.
You wondered, not for the first time, what would happen if he knew how incorrect you felt.
That morningâs sermon spoke about temptation.
About how the heart could be led astray by desire disguised as admiration. About how the body wanted things the soul must learn to deny. The words were spoken gently, but they landed heavy, each one pressing into you like a finger to a bruise.
You stared at the cross at the front of the sanctuary and tried not to think of Natashaâs smile.
Tried not to remember the way it felt when she laughedâunguarded, real. Tried not to recall the warmth of her hand when sheâd brushed past you in the studio, the way your body responded before your mind could intervene.
You prayed harder.
Please, you thought. Please let this be something else.
Pepper leaned over during the sermon, whispering, âIsnât it comforting, knowing God gives us such clear guidance?â
You nodded automatically.
Clear guidance. Straight paths. Narrow roads.
The idea made your chest ache.
You imagined what would happen if you didnât figure this out soonâif you kept letting the feeling grow, unchecked and unnamed. You imagined your parentsâ faces if they ever knew. The disappointment. The fear masked as concern. The certainty that this would be framed not as love, but as a failure of faith.
Dangerous wasnât too strong a word.
Not for the quiet exile that followed truths like yours.
When the congregation knelt, you followed, knees pressing into the cushioned bench, head bowed low. Your prayer came out fractured, barely coherent.
Take this from me. Or tell me what to do with it. Please.
But even thereâin the hollow quiet of the churchâyou could see her. Red hair caught in studio light. Eyes sharp and searching. That smile again, unbidden and bright.
You realized, with a slow, sick certainty, that no matter how much you prayed, you werenât asking to be free.
You were asking to be forgiven for wanting.
And in those moments of doubt, you remembered your mother.
She smelled like lavender and old books. She hummed while she cooked. She kissed your forehead without asking if youâd prayed first. Faith existed in her world, but it was gentleâsomething lived quietly, not enforced.
She used to sit on the edge of your bed and tell you, âLove isnât something God uses to punish us.â
But if love wasn't a punishment, then why did wanting Natasha Romanoff feel so much like an execution?
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Two days before opening night. It was pouring rain outside, hammering against the high windows of the studio.
It was nearly midnight. You shouldnât be here. You definitely shouldnât be trying to dance.
âYouâre going to cripple yourself,â a voice cut through the silence.
You dropped your heel, gasping, and spun around. Natasha stood in the doorway, her arms crossed, wearing a leather jacket over her rehearsal clothes. Her red hair was damp from the rain.
âGo away, Romanoff,â you hissed, turning back to the mirror.
âI canât let you destroy the companyâs second-best asset just because you have a martyr complex,â she said, her voice drawing closer.
âSecond best?â You laughed, a bitter, broken sound. You spun around to face her. âIs that what you think this is? You think youâve won?â
âI have the role, donât I?â She stopped a foot away from you. She smelled like rain and expensive perfume.
âYou have it by default!â you shouted, the frustration finally boiling over. âBecause I fell! Not because youâre better!â
âI am better,â Natasha said, her voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. âIâm stronger. Iâm faster. And Iâm not the one crying in the dark because I canât handle the pressure.â
âI hate you,â you breathed, stepping into her space. You wanted to hit her. You wanted to scratch that perfect composure off her face.
âGood,â Natasha challenged, her eyes dropping to your lips, then snapping back up to your eyes. The air between you crackled, thick and electric. âUse it. Maybe then youâll actuallyââ
You didnât let her finish.
The snap was audible in your own head. The tether of restraint broke.
You lunged forward, grabbing the lapels of her leather jacket, and slammed her back against the mirrored wall. The glass shuddered.
âShut up,â you growled.
Natasha didnât fight. She made a noiseâhalf-gasp, half-moanâand her hands flew up to tangle in your hair.
When your lips met, it wasnât a kiss; it was a collision. It was months of unsaid feelings, years of repressed longing, and the violent release of everything you had been taught to hide. Natasha kissed you back with a ferocity that matched your own, her teeth grazing your lower lip, her tongue demanding entrance.
It was blasphemy. It was salvation.
Your hands fisted tighter in Natasha's jacket, pulling her closer as your mouths clashed. She tasted like mint and storm, her tongue thrusting against yours in a battle for dominance.
You bit her lip hard enough to draw a sharp hiss from her, but she only pressed her hips forward, grinding against your thigh through the thin fabric of your leotard.
She broke the kiss first, her breath ragged, eyes blazing.
âIs that all you've got?â She taunted, her fingers yanking at the zipper of your leotard.
The cool air hit your skin as she peeled it down, exposing your breasts. Her gaze raked over you, hungry and unyielding, before her mouth descended, tongue circling one nipple with slow, deliberate laps that made your breath hitch.
Natasha was a master of control, but tonight, she gave it to you. She stripped you of your layersâthe leotard, the tights, the guilt, the shameâuntil you were bare beneath her.
Her touch was reverence. Her lips worshipped the skin you had been taught to cover.
You shoved the jacket off her shoulders, letting it thud to the floor. Underneath, her top clung to her curves, damp from the rain.
You ripped it over her head, revealing the swell of her breasts, nipples already hard peaks.
âFuck you,â you snarled, but your voice cracked with need, the words dissolving into a moan as her teeth grazed your other nipple, sucking it into the wet heat of her mouth.
Natasha's laugh was low, feral. She spun you around, pinning your back to the mirror now, the glass cold against your heated skin.
Her mouth continued its path down your neck, sucking hard enough to bruise, while her hand slid between your legs. She cupped your pussy through the remaining fabric, fingers pressing into the wet heat.
âAlready soaked for me,â she murmured against your throat.
âAll that hate, and this is what it does to you.â
A wave of guilt crashed over you, sharp as the ankle pain you'd shoved aside. This was wrongâsinful, the kind of forbidden desire your father had warned you about. Women weren't meant to touch like this, to crave each other with such unholy fire.
But the way Natasha was touching you burned through your soul, eclipsing the shame. You bucked against her palm anyway, the friction sending sparks up your spine. The pain in your ankle throbbed, but it faded under the rush of desire.
You grabbed her wrist, guiding her fingers harder, faster. âMake me come, then. Prove you're better.â
She didn't hesitate. With a swift tug, she yanked the leotard and tights aside completely, baring your slick folds to the studio air.
Two fingers plunged inside you without warning, curling deep. You cried out, nails digging into her shoulders. Natasha pumped them relentlessly, her thumb circling your clit in tight, merciless strokes. Her free hand kneaded your breast, pinching the nipple until you arched off the mirror.
âLook at yourself,â she commanded, nodding to the reflection.
You glanced over, seeing your flushed face, her red hair spilling over your skin as she fucked you with her fingers. The sight made your walls clench around her digits, even as a voice in your head whispered prayers for forgiveness. She added a third finger, stretching you, her pace ferocious.
The orgasm built like a storm, coiling tight in your core, damnation and ecstasy twisting together.
âNatashaâfuckâ" You shattered, your walls spasming around her fingers, juices coating her hand.
She didn't stop, drawing out every tremor until you slumped against her, whispering silent absolutions that dissolved on your tongue.
But she wasn't done. Natasha dropped to her knees, the mirror reflecting her predatory grin. She hooked your leg over her shoulderâcareful of your ankleâand buried her face between your thighs.
Her tongue lapped at your dripping pussy, flat and broad, savoring your taste. You threaded your fingers through her hair, pulling her closer as she sucked your clit into her mouth, the act feeling like a profane sacrament.
She devoured you, tongue thrusting inside before flicking back to your swollen nub. Her hands gripped your ass, nails biting into the flesh. The elegant lines of the studio blurred; it was just her mouth, hot and insistent, pushing you toward another edge. You ground against her face, chasing the pleasure, your breaths coming in gasps laced with guilt-ridden pleas.
âCome on my tongue,â she growled, the vibration sending you over.
You came again, harder, flooding her mouth. Natasha drank you down, licking every drop until you trembled, oversensitive, your mind reeling from the sin of it allâyet you couldn't stop the way your heart fluttered at the sight in front of you.
She rose, lips glistening with your arousal, and kissed you deeply, letting you taste yourself.
âMy turn,â you groaned against her lips.
You pushed her down onto the studio floor, the cool wood a stark contrast to her fevered body. You stripped her completely, leotard and tights pooling around her ankles. You bit your lip when you saw her glistening pussy. It looked ethereal and divine, that you couldnât help clenching around nothing.
Straddling her thigh, you leaned down, trailing bites along her inner thigh. Natasha's hands fisted in your hair, urging you on. You spread her legs wide, inhaling her musky scent, then dove in.
Your tongue traced her slit, teasing her entrance before sucking her clit. She moaned, hips bucking up to meet your mouth, and in that moment, the guilt twisted deeperâthis was Eve tempting, forbidden fruit you devoured willingly.
You slid two fingers inside her, feeling her clench tight and wet. Natasha was velvet heat, her walls pulsing as you curled your fingers against that spot. Your tongue worked her clit in circles, then flicks, building her rhythm. She writhed, elegant ferocity in every arch of her back.
âHarder,â she demanded, and you obliged, adding a third finger, thrusting deep while your mouth latched on.
Her thighs quivered around your head, and she came with a shattered cry, her juices gushing over your hand. You lapped at her release, the taste sealing your damnation.
But oh, how it felt like grace.
Panting, you crawled up her body, but Natasha flipped you both, her strength unyielding. She positioned herself between your legs, aligning your pussies.
âI want to feel you,â she said, voice rough.
You hooked your good leg around her waist, pulling her down. Your clits rubbed together as she rocked forward, slick folds sliding in perfect friction.
The motion was intense, bodies grinding, breasts pressing together. Sweat-slick skin slapped softly, the mirror capturing every thrust. Each grind amplified the turmoil in your chestâthis union was against every scripture you'd memorized.
A sin that should send you to hell. But God, her body against yours was a revelation that outshone any fear.
Natasha's hand braced beside your head, the other teasing your nipple. You clawed at her back, matching her paceâferocious and unending. Pleasure built again, coiling between your joined cores.
âDon't stop,â you gasped.
The climax was a white-hot flash, a shattering of the glass cathedral you had built around yourself. You held onto herâyour rival, your saviorâas the waves washed over you, leaving you stranded on the shore of a brand-new world.
You collapsed together, breaths mingling in the cooling air of the studio. Natasha rolled onto her side but didn't let go; she pulled you into her arms, tucking your head beneath her chin.
Her fingers were gentle now, a stark contrast to the iron grip she held on to the barre, as they traced the trembling line of your jaw.
âI thought you hated me,â you whispered, the words vibrating against her skin.
âI tried to,â Natasha admitted, voice rough. âGod, I tried so hard.â
She tilted your head up, forcing you to meet her gaze. When she kissed you again, it was slow, deliberateâa question and an answer all at once. The tenderness dissolved the lingering shame, leaving only quiet absolution.
âIs this⊠a sin?â
The question slipped from you like a tremor as you pulled away. Old fears surged back now that adrenaline ebbed, and you pictured your fatherâs pulpit in sharp relief, the carved wood scolding you in memory.
Natasha shifted, rising onto one elbow, and met your gaze without faltering. Her thumb brushed your lower lip, swollen from her kisses, grounding you.
âDoes it feel like a sin?â She whispered your name softly.
âOr does it feel like the truth?â
You studied her, the sweat-dark strands of hair sticking to her temple, the rare softness in her eyes. It felt like burning, like flight, like standing in the wings and finally seeing the audience you were meant to dance for.
âThe truth,â you admitted, a tear slipping into your hair. âItâs the only honest thing Iâve ever done.â
Natasha leaned down, pressing her forehead to yours. âThen let the rest go. The sermons, the expectations. Everything. None of it is here. Just us.â
âYouâre beautiful,â you whispered, noticing how her cheeks flared with color, mirroring the vibrant red of her hair.
âI spent years trying to be better than you,â you confessed, cupping her cheek.
âI thought if I could just beat youâbe the better dancerâthe feeling would fade. I told myself I was jealous of your talent.â
âAnd now?â Natasha breathed, lips hovering near yours.
âNow I know I was jealous of the air you breathed,â you said, the honesty lifting a weight off your chest.
âI didnât want your part in the play, Nat. I wanted to be the place you come home toâwhere the masks fall away, where we can exist without pretense, where nothing needs hiding.â
Her breath hitched. She kissed you again, so soft it felt as if the world around you had melted away, leaving only the two of you, and nothing else mattered.
âI love you,â she murmured against your skin, a vow whispered in the dark.
âIâve loved you since the first day you walked into this studio and tried to out-dance me.â
In that moment, you finally understood what your mother had meant. Love wasn't a punishment. And for the first time, you werenât praying for forgiveness. You were simply giving thanks.
Summary: When you spend the summer at your familyâs newly bought lake house, you never expect the old, rusted mailbox by the dock to change your life. What begins as a whimsical letter to no one, turns into a love story that defies time itself.
Word Count: 5.6k words
Tags/Warnings: FLUFF!! Slight angst if you squint, time-crossed lovers, strangers to lovers, slow-burn, mentions of war and trauma, barely proofread, use of Y/N.
A/N: I finally watched The Lake House last weekend⊠and the tears it brought me, oh my god. I just had to write this one for Bucky. Enjoy!
The lake house smells like pine and rain when you step inside.
Itâs the kind of scent that lingersâearthy, clean, familiar in a way you canât explain.
Your parents bought it a few months ago, calling it âa summer place to unwind before you enter adulthood.â Itâs more of a renovation project than a vacation home, with peeling wallpaper, creaking floors, and a faint chill in the air that never quite leaves. You volunteered to go ahead first, to clean and settle in before the others arrived.
You didnât realize that meant youâd be alone for a few daysâjust you, a half-empty car, and a house that seems to breathe history.
Inside, the furniture is still draped with white sheets. Dust motes hang in the sunlight that slips through lace curtains. Every creak of the floor makes you pause. Thereâs an antique clock on the wall, stopped at 4:17. The air smells faintly of cedar and old pages.
You tell yourself you should be unpacking, but your curiosity pulls you toward the porch.
Thatâs where you see itâthe mailbox.
Itâs not like the ordinary kind you grew up with. This one is solid iron, intricate, its edges curled into elegant swirls that have long lost their shine. The name Barnes Residence is carved neatly on its front. Your family never mentioned who originally owned the landâonly that it had been abandoned for decades before they bought it.
That night, when the sky turns a deep indigo, you sit by the wide lake house window with your journal open and a pen in your hand. You can hear the lake lapping gently against the dock outside, the world wrapped in silence.
You donât really know why you do itâboredom, maybeâbut you grab an envelope from the drawer and start writing.
To whoever finds this,
My nameâs Y/N. Iâm staying at the lake house with my family this summer. To unwind before I start my last year of college. Itâs beautiful hereâquiet, peacefulâbut also a little lonely. I donât even know why Iâm writing this, really. I guess the mailbox just looked like it deserved some attention.
If you find this letter somehow, I hope youâre doing okay. Maybe youâre just as bored as I am.
Sincerely,
âY/N
You laugh softly when you finish, embarrassed by your own sentimentality. Still, you fold the letter carefully and, on another impulse, slip on your shoes and step outside. The rain has stopped, leaving the air damp and cool. You open the mailbox with a small creak and drop the letter in.
Then you go to bed.
You forget about it by morning.
Two days later, you find a letter waiting inside the same mailbox.
At first, you think itâs one of your momâs deliveries. But the paper looks oldâreally oldâyellowed at the edges, the ink faded slightly. The handwriting is neat, precise, and written in fountain pen.
Your name is on it.
You frown, heart thudding as you tear it open.
Miss Y/N,
You must be mistaken. The Barnes property isnât lonelyâI was there only yesterday helping my uncle mend the fence by the lake. Heâs been keeping this place for years. If youâre nearby, you must be from town, though I donât recall seeing you. But I must admit, your letter made me smile. I havenât written anyone by mail in a while.
Iâm James. But my friends call me Bucky.
If youâre truly staying here, Iâll believe youâre my neighbor. Just promise me youâre not pulling my leg. Youâve got a funny way of introducing yourself.
Sincerely yours,
âSergeant James B. Barnes
You read the letter once. Then again. And again. The paper feels impossibly real beneath your fingertips. The edges are rough, faintly smelling of cedar and ink.
You glance around as if expecting someone to laugh, to yell âGotcha!â But thereâs only the lake and the whisper of wind through the trees.
Your pulse races. The paper feels impossibly realâaged, the ink sunk deep into the fibers like itâs been there for decades.
You sit at the kitchen table, heart pounding, and reach for your pen.
Dear Mr. James,
I have no idea what is happening right now. I didnât expect anyone to actually write me back. The lake house has been empty for decades until my family bought it.
Maybe this is some sort of prank, or Iâm losing my mind. Either way, youâve got my attention now, Sergeant Barnes.
âY/N
You hesitate before sliding the letter back into the mailbox.
Then, with a shaky laugh, you whisper, âThis is ridiculous,â and close it.
The next morning, thereâs another letter waiting for you.
Miss Y/N,
I have to admit, your letter gave me quite the jolt. You say your family bought the lake houseâyet my uncle and I were just there this morning, fishing by the dock before the rain rolled in. The place is quiet, sure, but far from empty. He built that house back before the war, back when life felt simpler.
So, either youâre having a laugh at my expense, or thereâs something mighty strange going on with this old mailbox. I canât quite explain how your words reached me, but they did.
Iâm not sure what to make of it. But I canât shake the feeling this isnât a prank. You sound too honest for that.
Tell meâwhen you say the lake house has been empty for decades, what year is it where you are?
Sincerely yours,
âSergeant James B. Barnes
You sit cross-legged on the porch, the letter trembling in your hands. The paper feels oldâreally oldâyellowed and faintly rough, the ink pressed so cleanly it looks handwritten, not printed. You stare at the neat cursive looping across the page, reading it again and again.
âMy uncle and I were just there this morning, fishing by the dockâŠâ
You blink. Once. Twice.
Youâve got to be kidding me.
âFishing?â you whisper to yourself. âThereâs no dock here anymore. The lake barely touches the edge of the property.â
The absurdity makes you laughâsoftly, nervously. It has to be a prank. Maybe one of your brothers is messing with you, or the previous owners left behind some kind of silly time capsule game. But something about the letter feels too⊠sincere. Too real.
You trace your fingers over the signature at the bottom.
James B. Barnes.
Your heart stumbles.
That name sounds familiar. Youâve heard it beforeâmaybe in a documentary, or a history articleâbut you canât quite place it.
You exhale shakily, pull out a pen, and start writing.
Dear James,
Okay. Iâll admit, youâve officially managed to freak me outâand thatâs not easy to do. You said you and your uncle went fishing this morning? Because thatâs impossible. The dock you mentioned is half-rotted. The boards are warped, the waterline lower than it probably was in your time. My family just moved in, and according to the records, the last people who owned this house are long gone.
So, unless youâve somehow mastered time travel through the U.S. postal system, I have no idea how your letter reached me.
You asked what year it is. Itâs the twenty-first century, James. 2017, to be exact. Before the war? Which war are you talking about?
I keep telling myself this must be some elaborate joke. That someoneâs playing with me. But thereâs something about your words⊠the way you write, the way it feels like you mean every line. Maybe I truly am losing my mind, but I canât bring myself to ignore you.
If you are realâand if by some miracle this mailbox is doing what I think itâs doingâthen I guess weâre both part of something that defies logic.
âY/N
You folded the letter carefully, your fingers lingering on the paper before you slipped it into the old mailbox.
For a long moment, you stood there, staring at the tarnished metal, half-expecting nothing to happen. The night hummed softly with crickets and wind. The air felt heavyâwaiting.
Then, as you turned to leave, you could have sworn you heard itâthe faintest click of the latch, like the mailbox itself had sighed in acknowledgment.
The next day, you found another letter waiting inside.
Dear Y/N,
Youâve got quite the imagination, dollâpardon the word, itâs a habit. 2017? Thatâs quite a leap from 1945. You sound like one of the fellas from the papers, talking about science fiction and space rockets. Still, something tells me youâre not teasing me. The envelope you sentâthe paper, the inkânone of it looks familiar.
Itâs finer, smoother. I showed it to my buddy Steve, and he swore it was some kind of new invention. I reckon Iâll take your word for it. I donât know how itâs possible, but if the mailbox connects us, Iâm not going to question it too hard. Stranger things have happened.
Tell me more about your world, will you? Whatâs it likeâthe future?
Yours,
James
You smile despite yourself. âDoll,â you whisper, shaking your head.
The paper felt heavier today, like it carried something real across the years.
1945.
You mouthed it again. Nineteen forty-five.
You sank into the old armchair by the window, letter trembling slightly in your hands.
You looked toward the mailbox, dark and glistening under the drizzle. Somewhere out there, in some pocket of time, he was probably doing the same thingâlooking out at this same view.
And honestly? After everything this world had already survivedâaliens, killer robots, gods with hammersâwhy not a time-traveling mailbox?
And thatâs how it begins.
Days blur softly into weeks. You write to him from the summerhouse, where the air hums with crickets and the lake glimmers in the late afternoon sun. He writes back between errands and evenings by the fire, his words steady and warm. Sometimes he signs as âJames,â other times as âBucky,â and every now and then thereâs a small sketch at the bottom of the pageâa wildflower from the lakeshore, the curve of the dock, a crooked little heart that always makes you smile.
He tells you about Brooklyn, his kid sister Becca, his best friend Steve who âcanât stay out of trouble, always looking to do the right thing, even if it gets him hurt.â You tell him about college, about how the world looks nowâfull of screens, noise, people rushing everywhere.
He laughs in his letters, and you can almost hear it.
Youâve got a strange way of talking, you know that? But I like it. Makes me imagine your voice. Sometimes I read your letters before bed, and itâs like youâre sitting on the porch with me, looking out over the lake.
You fall in love slowly. Not the loud, sudden kind. The kind that blooms quietly, in the spaces between ink and paper.
When your family asks what youâve been smiling about lately, you just shrug. âA pen pal,â you say softly.
You donât tell them that your pen pal lives in 1940s.
And somewhereâdecades in the pastâa young soldier smiles at the same lake, holding your letter, whispering your name like a prayer.
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That summer became a ritual.
Youâd wake up, check the mailbox, and find his letters waitingâsometimes smudged with dirt, sometimes with the faintest smell of ink and cologne. You told him about the modern world: phones, cars, music. He told you about his squad, about Brooklyn, and he would always mention his friend Steve, who never stopped believing in him.
You started leaving small things tooâa pressed flower, a photo of the lake, once even a Hersheyâs wrapper.
Heâd reply with ration coupons, doodles, and notes written in the margins:
You make the quiet days less lonely.
Youâd like the view here, doll. The sunset looks like something out of a dream.
You talk about music... Iâd give anything to hear you sing.
And one day:
Theyâre deploying us soon. I donât know if Iâll have time to write, but Iâll try. Keep the lake house warm for me, will you?
You hold that letter long after reading it, eyes stinging.
You donât know what the future holds for himâbut you do know history.
So, before he left, you sent one last envelope.
Inside, a folded photo. You in a sundress, smiling at the lake, sunlight catching your hair.
On the back, you wrote:
To my dear Bucky,
For luck. Come back to me, Sergeant.
When Bucky finds it, he freezes.
The morning light spills through the old window of his uncleâs cabin, catching on the glossy paper. You.
You look like no one heâs ever seenâyour clothes, your hair, even the clarity of the image feels impossible. But your smileâ
God, your smile.
He traces your face with a calloused thumb, memorizing every detail like itâs the last good thing heâll ever see.
He tucks the photo into his breast pocket, right over his heart.
âIâll come back to you,â he writes that night, his handwriting firm despite the tremor in his hands. âNo matter how far I have to go.â
But he never got to send that letter.
Days pass. Weeks. Then silence.
You spend the rest of that summer waiting for his lettersâracing to the mailbox each morning, heart fluttering at the soft scrape of paper against wood. His words become the rhythm of your days, a quiet heartbeat echoing across time. When the leaves start to turn and the air cools, you tell yourself youâll stop checking once the season ends. But you donât.
Even when classes start again, you find excuses to return to the lake houseâweekends, short breaks, any chance you can steal. You tell yourself itâs for the peace, the quiet, the smell of the lake in early morning light. But really, itâs for him. For the hope that maybe, just maybe, another letter will be waiting.
When your final semester of college begins, youâre mostly back in the city, but the lake never lets you go. Your parents tease you every time you visit.
âWriting to your soldier again?â your mom calls out with a knowing smile as you sit by the dock, pen hovering over an envelope.
âDonât make fun of me, Mom,â you reply, feigning annoyanceâbut the smile always wins. Because no one ever really believed you. Not your friends, not your family. To them, you were just the girl who said she was writing to someone from the 1940sâa coping thing, a story you built to romanticize loneliness.
And maybe, in some ways, it was.
But it also wasnât.
You knew his handwriting. The curve of his J. The way his words carried warmth even when he tried to sound casual. You knew the way he talked about homeâthe old streets of Brooklyn, his maâs cooking, his buddy Steve who could never back down from a fight. You knew the laugh youâd never heard but could imagine perfectly.
When the world felt heavy, youâd whisper to the lake, âIf youâre still out there, Bucky⊠please be okay.â
That spring, your family celebrated your graduation at the lake house. You wore white and laughed by the water, pretending not to glance at the old mailbox every few minutes.
But he never wrote again.
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In 1945, James Buchanan Barnes fell from a train.
They said his body was never found.
And somewhere, beneath the ice, your photograph remainedâfrozen against his chest, a ghost of sunlight and laughter in a world gone cold.
When HYDRA found him, they stripped his name, his memories, his warmthâevery piece that made him James. They built him into something sharp and obedient. The Winter Soldier.
But some things are too deeply carved to be erased.
In the dark, when they wiped him clean and sent him back out again, he dreamed.
Dreams of a girl by a lake.
Dreams of letters sealed with sunlight.
Dreams of a voice he never heard but somehow remembered.
Once, when they asked if he remembered his mission, he said softly, âSheâs waiting for me.â
The scientist in charge blinked once before nodding to the guards. The electric hum filled the room. They shocked him until his screams turned silent.
When he woke, his mind was clean againâblank as snow. But deep in some unreachable part of him, where no machine could reach, a thread still glowed faintly. A fragment of a name. A warmth against his chest. A promise whispered across time:
Iâll come back to you.
And though the world would call him by another name, somewhere inside the Winter Soldier, James Barnes still waited. For the girl by the lake. For the letters. For the life he once promised to return to.
Then the Snap happened.
Half the world gone in seconds.
You didnât even have time to scream before silence swallowed everything. One moment, your best friend was laughing beside you, sunlight spilling across her faceâand the next, she was dust. Your family, your neighborsâgone, like a dream dissolving in daylight.
The house felt too quiet after that. Too still. The lake no longer shimmered with its usual warmth; it just stared back at you, vast and indifferent. You stopped visiting the mailbox. You couldnât bear to look at something that had once made you believe in miracles.
So, you left. You took a job in Europeâsomething simple, something that didnât require much of your heart. You told yourself you were moving on, that you needed distance from the memories, from the ache that still clung to that little house by the water.
You learned new languages. You filled your days with movementâtrains, planes, nameless cities. You told people you loved traveling, that you were chasing freedom. But deep down, you knew the truth: you were running.
And for a while, you almost believed it.
There were nights in Paris when laughter came easily, when wine dulled the ache and the world didnât feel quite so haunted. But sometimes, when the rain tapped against your window just right, youâd glance toward the sky and think about himâthe soldier from another century.
You didnât know why the thought still hurt. Maybe because some part of youâthe same foolish, hopeful part that once whispered to the lakeâstill believed that love, like him, could find its way back from the impossible.
Five years of silence.
Five years of empty seats, untouched rooms, framed photographs that gathered dust.
And then, one day, the world simply⊠breathed again.
And among the names whispered in awe and grief was hisâIron Man.
You learned how he had snapped his fingers and burned himself out to bring everyone home. How the Avengers had fought one last time and paid the cost of salvation. The world began again, but it didnât return to what it had been. It carried a new kind of stillness, a reverence threaded through even the noisiest placesâas if humanity had learned to breathe softer, to tread lighter.
You came home after the Blip, needing to spend more time with your familyâtime you had once taken for granted.
Most of your friends had vanished during the Snap, and when they came back, life no longer fit the way it used to. You had spent those five years in Europe, working quietly, healing in small, uncertain ways. The world had moved on, but part of you was still standing in the moment when everything disappeared.
Your mother had kept the lake house, even after your father became one of the vanished. When you returned, you found it almost unchangedâthe same lake, the same dock, the same sigh of wind through the trees. And the same old mailbox, standing a little more crooked than you remembered, rust veining its sides like time itself had reached out to touch it.
You ran your fingers over it, brushing away dust.
âHey, old friend,â you murmured, half-laughing. âStill waiting, huh?â
You opened it just for fun. Empty, of course.
You closed it, smiling sadly, and whispered,
âGuess some love stories just donât cross time.â
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For Bucky, Wakanda had been more than a refugeâit was rebirth.
He arrived there broken, a relic of too many wars and too many hands pulling his strings. The Wakandans didnât see a weapon; they saw a man worth saving. Shuri worked tirelessly, unweaving the Hydra code from his mind thread by thread, until he could finally sleep without hearing orders in his dreams.
They called him the White Wolf.
For the first time in decades, he felt peace.
And then Thanos came.
He didnât even have time to say goodbye before he vanishedâdissolved into dust on Wakandan soil, his last sight the look of horror in his friendâs eyes.
When he returned five years later, it was to chaos and triumphâportals opening, armies rising, and the impossible made real. He fought alongside Sam, Wanda, and the others, through smoke and thunder and the snap that ended it all.
And when the dust settled, Tony Stark was gone.
At the funeral, Bucky stood at the edge of the lake, watching the ripples reflect a world saved by sacrifice.
Then Steveâwho returned the stones and came back, older now, softer, gentlerâfinally took Tonyâs advice.
Heâd lived a full life in another time, and when it was done, he passed the shield to Sam.
And BuckyâŠ
Bucky was left standing between the past and the future again, wondering which one he belonged to.
After his crimes were officially pardoned, therapy became mandatory. âPart of the conditions of your freedom,â his therapist had said, her tone sharp but not unkind. So, he went. Week after week. Same chair, same questions. Heâd sit there, back straight, hands clenched, trying not to flinch at every sound. The therapist would ask him to talk about nightmares he didnât want to name. The words came hardâguilt didnât translate well into sentences.
He kept a notebook of namesâpeople heâd hurt, people he wanted to make amends withâand crossed them off one by one. Heâd smile sometimes, make a joke, pretend he was fine. But the truth was, he didnât feel like James Barnes or the Winter Soldier anymoreâjust someone caught in between, a ghost walking through borrowed time.
Helping Sam with the Flag Smashers grounded him in ways he hadnât expected. It wasnât about orders or vengeanceâit was about people. About protecting, not destroying. The chaos, the exhaustion, even the banterâit reminded him what it meant to fight for something again, instead of fighting against himself. And in Sam, he found something he hadnât felt in decades: trust. A friend who didnât treat him like a weapon or a broken thing.
But when it endedâwhen Sam officially became Captain America and the world finally seemed to move onâBucky didnât know how to follow. Heâd done his part, paid his dues, and still, the silence afterward felt heavier than any battlefield.
Who was he now, without a fight to win or a war to atone for?
Some nights, when the silence in his apartment grew too loud, heâd find himself reaching for the small box tucked away in his dresser. Inside was a folded photograph. Zemo had given it to him before they sent him to The Raft.
âI believe this belongs to you,â Zemo had said, handing it over like it was nothing. But to Bucky, it felt like holding a heartbeat from a life he didnât remember.
Heâd unfolded it carefully. A girl stood by a lake, sunlight catching in her hair, a soft smile tugging at her lips. The photo was old, but the colors still glowed faintly, like they refused to fade.
On the back, in neat handwriting, were the words:
To my dear Bucky,
For luck. Come back to me, Sergeant.
He didnât know who she was. Didnât know why his chest ached every time he looked at her. But there was something familiarâsomething warm. Like a voice half-remembered in a dream, or a scent that lingers after waking.
Now, in his small apartment in Brooklyn, Bucky stood by the window, the city lights flickering against his metal arm. The photograph sat on the table behind him, face-down, the words pressed against the wood as if waiting for an answer.
He stared out into the night, eyes tracing the reflections of headlights and rain on glass, and whispered into the dark, almost like a prayer:
âWho are you?â
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The congressional hearing had dragged on for hours.
Reporters crowded the back rows, pens scratching across notepads, pretending they didnât already know how the headlines would read by morning. Cameras clicked, flashbulbs flared, and the chamberâmarble and mahogany, gleaming under sterile lightâfelt like a stage for sins too neatly dressed in procedure. Words like âunauthorized experimentation,â âenhanced subject trafficking,â and âserum proliferationâ hung in the air like smoke.
At the center sat Valentina Allegra de Fontaineâcomposed, elegant, and entirely unbothered. Her smile was all teeth and confidence, her posture that of a woman who believed she still owned the room. Every accusation only seemed to amuse her, as if the truth was just another weapon she could turn back on them.
Bucky, now serving as a U.S. congressman, sat a few seats away at the prosecutionâs table. His nameplate gleamed under the lightsâRep. James Buchanan Barnes, New York. Heâd spent months gathering evidence, tracking de Fontaineâs network, pulling at every thread until her empire began to unravel.
But sitting thereâunder the cameras, under the scrutinyâfelt different than the battlefield ever had. There were no gunshots, no explosions, just words and memories cutting just as deep.
He sat rigid, his metal hand resting on his knee, jaw locked in that soldierâs stillness he never quite unlearned. Even now, after everythingâthe therapy, the reconciliation, the laws heâd fought to passâpeople still looked at him with a flicker of unease. The Winter Soldier. The Ghost of HYDRA. The man whoâd done the unforgivable.
When the gavel struck to adjourn, the sound cracked through the room like a shot. The senators began to shuffle their papers, the journalists leaning in for last-minute comments.
Bucky was already on his feet.
He needed air.
Outside, D.C. was gray and brooding, the clouds swollen with the promise of rain. He tugged off his tie and inhaled like it was the first real breath heâd had all day.
And thatâs when he saw you.
You were standing near the edge of the plaza, half-hidden under a coffee shop awning. A bright red scarf was wrapped around your neck, your hair catching the breeze. You were looking down at your phone, scrolling, unaware that someone had stopped breathing at the sight of you.
Something inside Bucky lurched. He blinked hard, thinking maybe it was a trick of exhaustion, some ghost that his mind had conjured after a day too long with ghosts already in it. But when you looked up, just brieflyâthe air left his lungs.
He knew that faceâthe same one from the sun-faded photograph tucked inside his tin box. And now, at last, he remembers.
The girl who used to write to him through the old mailbox by the lake.
The girl he thought heâd lost to time itself.
He whispered your name before he even realized heâd said it.
You looked up, startled, eyes meeting his for the briefest second. There was something thereâa flicker of familiarity, like a dream you wake from too soon. You didnât know him. Of course you didnât. You gave him a polite, uncertain smile before looking away, tugging your coat closer as the rain began to fall.
He stepped forward without thinking. His pulse quickened, the world narrowing to you and the sound of rain hitting marble.
âHeyâwait!â You blinked when he called out, voice cracking from disbelief.
You turned, startled, confusion flashing across your face. The man chasing you down the steps looked nothing like a stranger should. He was handsome, but not in the easy wayâmore in the way that time and sorrow carve beauty out of endurance. His suit was already soaked, dark hair plastered to his forehead, his blue eyes burning with something raw.
âIâm sorry,â he said, breathless when he caught up, rain running down his face. âI didnât mean to scare you. I just⊠I had to see you.â
You frowned, instinctively stepping back. âIâm sorry, do Iâdo I know you?â
Bucky stopped a few feet away, chest heaving. For a moment, he couldnât speak. He was just staringâmemorizingâlike he was afraid that if he blinked, youâd vanish again.
Finally, he swallowed hard. âYou used to write me letters,â he said softly, almost as if to himself. âAnd I wrote backâthrough a mailbox by a lake house upstate.â
Your stomach dropped. The world tilted. âWhatâh-how do you know about that?â you managed, voice barely steady.
Bucky took a small, trembling step forward, eyes shining. âIt's me... James,â he whispered. âJames Barnes.â
You froze. Your heart stuttered. The rain around you blurred into a dull roar.
âBâBucky?â you breathed, the name tasting strange and familiar all at once.
He nodded slowly, rain sliding down his lashes, his throat bobbing as if saying yes cost him something.
âT-thatâs impossible,â you whispered. âThose letters were from the 1940s. The man I wrote toâby now, he should beâŠâ
âDead?â His voice cracked. âI didnât die. Not really. HYDRA took me. Theyâchanged me. I lost everything. Even you.â He exhaled, a sound between a sob and a laugh. âBut I remembered your words. Every single one.â
Your breath caught, a tear mixing with the rain. âI waited for you,â you whispered. âI always came back to that house. My family teased me, said Iâd made you up. And then⊠your letters just stopped. I thought⊠I thought maybe youâd moved on. Or⊠worse.â
You couldnât meet his eyes. You were afraid of what you might seeâhope, regret, something that would shatter the fragile control youâd built around your heart.
Buckyâs chest tightened, his own eyes glistening. His voice broke as he spoke, raw and unsteady. âEven when I couldnât remember my own name⊠I remembered you.â
Thunder cracked overhead, and the rain poured harder, soaking both of you. Bucky took another step closer, the space between you charged with everything left unsaid.
You searched his faceâthe faint scars, the exhaustion, the impossible truth reflected in his eyes.
âYou canât be him,â you whispered. âYouâre too⊠young.â
He gave a small, breathless laugh, eyes glistening. âI guess timeâs strange that way,â he said softly. âAnd it wasnât kind to either of us.â
He hesitated then, almost shyly, as if confessing a secret. âIâm actually a hundred and eight years old.â
You blinked, stunned. âWâwhat?â
A shaky laugh escaped you, half disbelief, half awe. ââŠYouâre serious?â
He nodded once, rain dripping from his hair, a ghost of a smile tugging at his lips. âAs serious as the man who once believed a few letters could reach across time.â
Something in you broke thenânot in pain, but in recognition. The kind of ache that came from finally seeing proof of what your heart had never stopped believing.
Your voice trembled. âI prayed youâd come back,â you whispered. âEven when I stopped believing it was possible.â
His hand lifted slowlyâhesitant, reverentâas if afraid the world might tear this moment apart. His fingers, cold from the rain, brushed your cheek. âI came back,â he said, voice breaking. âIt just took me a while.â
You laughed shakily through your tears. He cupped your face, one hand warm and human, the other cool and metallic. You flinched for a heartbeatâmore from surprise than fearâand he saw it. He didnât pull away, only softened, thumb brushing your cheek with impossible gentleness.
âWe have a lifetime to share stories,â he murmured, eyes locked on yours. âBut right now⊠just let me hold you.â
And then he kissed you.
The rain fell harder, thunder rolling like an echo of everything youâd both enduredâthe years lost, the words unsent, the touch youâd both only ever imagined. His lips met yours with a kind of reverence that stole your breathâwarm, trembling, almost unbelieving.
It wasnât just a kiss; it was a lifetime collapsing into a single heartbeat. You could taste the rain, the salt of your tears, and something elseâthe quiet ache of every letter that never made it through. His hand cupped your face, metal cold against your skin but his touch impossibly gentle, grounding you in this impossible, perfect now.
The world around you blurred into silver and sound. Every drop of rain felt like it belonged to you bothâfalling, washing, rewriting time itself. His lips moved with desperate tenderness, like he was learning you all over again, like this was the first and last chance heâd ever have to tell you he loved you without words.
When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours. You were crying, laughing, shaking all at once.
âI never stopped waiting for you,â you whispered, voice trembling.
Bucky smiledâa small, tearful smile that reached his eyes. âAnd I never stopped looking for you.â
He kissed you again, rain cascading around you both. The city disappeared, the noise, the yearsâall of it blurred until there was only this.
He held you close, like he feared the storm might steal you away again. But it didnât.
Not this time.
This time, time itself had bent just to let you find each other again.
Summary: As part of your lab requirement, you were assigned a task meant to be strictly clinical. But when your ever-so-patient boyfriendâBob Floydâoffers to help, professionalism blurs into something hot, filthy, and unexpectedly tender.
Word Count: 2.8k words
Tags/Warnings: SMUT! 18+ MDNI this is just pure smut lol, established relationship, oral (f receiving), unprotected p in v, lovesick!Bob, voyeurism kink, sexual content, adult themes, adult language, aftercare, some inaccurate scientific/medical terms, no use of Y/N.
A/N: I donât even know how I came up with this. I just thought it was hot and ran with it lol. I hope you guys enjoy this one!
Youâd been nervous all week about your latest lab assignmentâthe one that required a live, rather⊠personal sample. The clinical part didnât faze you; youâd handled stranger things under the microscope before. But asking someone to provide it? Now, that was an entirely different story.
Bob found you at the dining table, papers and lab notes scattered like a storm. You were hunched over your notebook, pen tapping anxiously, brows furrowed in deep concentration.
He leaned against the doorway, arms crossed, a soft smile tugging at his lips. âYou look like youâre trying to solve the meaning of life,â he teased, voice low and warm.
You groaned, rubbing your forehead. âFeels like it. This oneâs⊠complicated.â
âComplicated how?â Bob tilted his head, curious.
You hesitated, staring at the page as though the words might rearrange themselves into something less awkward. âI need a... um, sample. For... testing.â
His brow lifted in gentle amusement. âA sample?â
You pausedâlong enough for him to notice the way your cheeks heated. Then, barely above a whisper: âSemen. For motility testing. And it has to be fresh.â
His eyes lit up with quiet amusementâthen softened into something tender, more serious, when you admitted how awkward it would feel to use an anonymous donor.
âWant me to help?â heâd asked, voice low, almost hesitant.
You blinked, caught off guard. âYouâd⊠really do that?â
Bobâs lips quirked into a small, shy smile, but his tone was steady. âOf course I would.â
A nervous laugh escaped you, the tension in your shoulders easing a little. âI know itâs not exactly the most romantic favor to ask.â
He stepped closer, fingers brushing along your jawline, his touch featherlight. âYouâre working toward your dream,â he murmured. âThatâs romantic enough for me.â
Your heart flutteredâbecause that was so him. Your Bob Floyd, always gentle, always quietly selfless, the kind of man who could make your pulse race without even trying.
You looked up at him, and suddenly the air shiftedâthickened. The space between you pulsed with something unspoken, a slow-building warmth that made it hard to breathe. His eyes searched yours, lingering on your mouth, your flushed cheeks, your hands fidgeting with your pen.
âAre you sure?â you asked softly, the question trembling on your tongue.
He nodded once, the corners of his mouth curving faintly as he met your gaze head-on. âYeah,â he said, voice barely above a whisper. âI trust you. Always have.â
Now here he was, standing in your bedroom with that familiar, awkward smileâholding the sterile collection cup like it was the most intimidating object in the world. The faint scent of lavender from your candle drifted through the air, softening the atmosphere, trying to make the space feel less like a lab assignment and more like home.
Bob looked impossibly endearing in his off-duty clothesâa soft gray t-shirt that clung to his broad shoulders and worn jeans that somehow made him look both nervous and heartbreakingly handsome. His fingers fidgeted with the edge of the cup, knuckles flexing as he shifted from foot to foot.
âI, uh⊠I can step into the bathroom, if thatâs better?â he offered, his voice quiet and uncertain, eyes flicking between you and the cup like it might suddenly bite him.
You shook your head, biting your lip already. âNo, it's fine. We can do it here. I mean, if you're okay with that.â Your heart raced. Watching him, knowing it was for you, for your studiesâit stirred something deep and heated in your core.
Bob's brows lifted slightly, surprised, but he nodded.
He set down the cup on the nightstand and unbuckled his belt, the metallic clink echoing in the quiet room. His fingers trembled slightly as he unzipped his jeans, taking them off along with his boxers. His cock sprang free, already half-hard from the anticipation, thick and veined, the head flushed pink. You couldn't look away, your thighs pressing together under your shorts as heat pooled between your legs.
He wrapped his hand around his dick, stroking slowly at first, eyes squeezed shut. âJust... g-give me a minute,â he murmured, his breath hitching.
But you were transfixed on your half-naked boyfriend, your gaze locked on the way his fist moved up and down, the skin stretching taut over his growing erection. Precum beaded at the tip, glistening in the lamplight. Your mouth went dry, and a throb pulsed in your pussy, making you shift uncomfortably.
âBob,â you whispered, voice husky before you could stop it.
His eyes fluttered open, meeting yoursâand the raw desire in them made your nipples tighten beneath your shirt.
âYeah?â he sighed, his hand faltering mid-stroke, the muscles in his forearm tensing as his cock twitched in his grip.
You hummed softly. Watching him like thisâvulnerable, aroused, completely undone for youâit was too much. Your fingers twitched with the urge to reach out, to feel that heat beneath your palm.
âLet me help,â you said, standing and crossing to him.
His eyes widened behind his glasses, color rising high on his cheeks. âY-you sure? I...I don't want to mess up your sample.â
âYou wonât,â you whispered, eyes glossy as your tongue swept across your lower lip. The sight made his chest tighten, a quiet breath catching in his throat.
âPlease,â you breathed, taking the cup from the nightstand and setting it carefully in place.
Your fingers brushed his as you guided his hand away, replacing it with your own. His cock was hot and heavy in your grasp, velvet skin over steel hardness. You gave his dick a squeeze as he watched you intently, eyes sharp and unblinking. You stroked him firmly, base to tip, twisting your wrist just how he liked it. Bob groaned, hips bucking forward involuntarily.
âFuck, baby... That feels so good,â he rasped, one hand coming to rest on your hip, thumb rubbing circles on the soft flesh. You pumped him faster, thumb swiping over the slit to spread his precum, making each glide slicker. His breaths came in short pants, chest rising and falling as he watched you, adoration mixed with lust in his gaze.
You leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to his jaw. âYou're doing so good for me, Robbie.â
His pulse jumped at the nicknameâyour nickname for him. A faint blush crept up his neck, spreading to the tips of his ears, but he couldnât hide the small, bashful smile that tugged at his lips.
Your other hand cupped his balls, gently massaging the soft sac, feeling them draw up tight. Bob's head fell back, a low moan escaping his lips as you worked him relentlessly, your grip tightening just enough to edge him closer.
âI'mâfuck, I'm c-close,â he warned, voice strained. You angled him toward the cup, stroking harder, faster, your pussy clenching at the sight of him unraveling. His cock pulsed in your hand, and with a guttural groan, he came. Thick ropes of cum shot out, splattering into the cup with wet sounds. You milked him through it, squeezing from root to tip to coax every drop, watching as the milky fluid pooled at the bottom.
Bob shuddered, thighs trembling as he rode out the aftershocks.
âDid you get all of it?â He asked breathlessly, glancing down with a sheepish grin as his cock softened in your hand. His voice was shy but tinged with satisfaction, like he couldnât quite believe what just happened.
You nodded, smiling softly as you sealed the sterile cup. âEvery bit,â you murmured, your voice warm and steady despite the heat curling low in your stomach. âYou were perfect.â
Bob exhaled a shaky laugh, running a hand through his hair. You could feel the flush still lingering on your cheeks as you wiped him and your hand with a sterile cloth, moving on instinctâclinical, composedâbut your heart was hammering from the intimacy of it all.
You carried the sample over to your desk, careful and precise, and set it down beside your notes. For a long moment, you just sat there, breathing in the faint lavender that still hung in the air, trying to steady yourself. Then, muscle memory took over.
Pipettes. Timer. Notes. Procedure.
You slipped back into rhythmâthe world narrowing to measurements and numbers. For the next several minutes, you were all focus: eyes narrowing as you watched the readings stabilize, pen scratching steadily over paper, lip caught between your teeth. You muttered quietly about viscosity and motility, completely absorbed.
From the bed, Bob sat quietly, elbows resting on his knees, observing.
You bit your lip as you squinted into the microscope, brows furrowed, the tip of your pen brushing your chin as you wrote. Every small movement fascinated himâthe way your hair slipped forward and you tucked it back without thinking, the way your lips parted slightly when you were focused.
He didnât say a word. Just watched, chest rising and falling slowly, his expression soft with admirationâand something deeper. Love, pride, desire, all tangled in the golden lamplight that framed you like a painting.
âYouâre amazing, you know that?â He said quietly.
You didnât look up, still writing. âHmm?â
âJust⊠you,â he murmured. âDoing what you love. I could watch you forever.â
That finally made you glance up. His gaze was steady, full of warmth and something deeperâthat unspoken affection that had been threading between you all evening. The air felt softer somehow, quieter.
You let out a slow breath and finished your last few notes. Then, stretching lightly, you rolled your shoulders as you stood up, the tension of focus slipping away. The room was tinged with lavender and the lingering warmth of Bob, a heavy mix of comfort and desire.
With a reluctant sigh, you reached for the cup and disposed of the sample in the biohazard bin, sealing it away. A small pang flickered through youâsuch a waste, when all you could think about was how it would feel inside you instead, hot and claiming, filling you up in ways that went beyond science.
âAll done?â Bob asked, a hint of mischief glinting in his eyes.
You nodded, smiling as you tidied up your desk. âAll done.â
Bob slid off the bed quietly, his bare feet padding across the floor until he was right behind you. His arms encircled your waist from behind, pulling your back flush against his chest. The warmth of his body seeped through your clothes, and you melted into him, tilting your head as his lips brushed the sensitive skin of your neck. Soft, open-mouthed kisses trailed along your pulse point, each one sending little sparks down your spine.
âYou okay, sweetheart?â he murmured, his breath warm against your ear, voice tender and concerned. âYou look a little sad. Talk to me.â
You leaned back further, your hands covering his where they rested on your stomach. âit's just... I didn't want to throw it away,â you admitted softly, a flush creeping up your cheeks.
âIt was yours, and it felt like... I don't know, like we were sharing something special, and now it's gone.â
He hummed understandingly, nuzzling into your hair, inhaling the scent of your shampoo mixed with the faint clinical tang of the lab supplies. âI get it. But hey, that was all for youâfor your work. And I'm not going anywhere.â
His hands slid up slowly, tracing the curve of your ribs under your shirt, thumbs brushing the undersides of your breasts in feather-light touches that made your nipples peak. He turned you gently in his arms, his blue eyes locking onto yours behind those wire-rimmed glasses, full of that quiet, unwavering love that always made your heart stutter.
Cupping your face with both hands, he leaned in, capturing your lips in a deep, lingering kiss. It started slowâhis mouth moving against yours with a gentleness that spoke of forever, tongue teasing the seam of your lips until you parted for him. Then it deepened, tongues sliding together in a wet, intimate dance, tasting the faint salt of his earlier release on the air between you. You moaned into his mouth, your body pressing closer, feeling the growing hardness of his cock against your thigh.
âYou look so beautiful when you're working,â he whispered when he finally pulled back, forehead resting against yours, breaths mingling.
His voice was now rough with desire but laced with affection. âThe way you concentrate, biting that lip... it's like you're this brilliant, sexy force. Godâit makes me want to worship every inch of you.â
One hand trailed down, fingers brushing along the waistband of your shorts. He eased it lower, inch by inch, until they pooled around your legs, leaving you trembling under his touch. You felt his fingertips ghosting over your thighs, until his knuckles grazed the damp lace of your panties.
A shiver ran through you, your pussy throbbing at the contact. âBob...â you breathed, your hands fisting in his t-shirt, pulling him impossibly closer.
He kissed you again, slower this time, pouring all his love into it as his fingers hooked into your panties, tugging them down your legs with deliberate care. The cool air hit your slick folds, making you gasp, but he was there to soothe, his palm cupping your mound possessively.
âLet me take care of you,â he said, voice husky and intimate, eyes never leaving yours. âYou've been so good, sweetheart. I want to taste how wet you are for me.â
With that, he guided you back against the desk, the edge pressing into your ass as he knelt slowly, like he was savoring the moment. His hands parted your thighs wider, exposing your glistening pussy to his gaze. He stared for a beat, lips parting as he took in the sightâyour folds swollen and shiny with arousal, clit peeking out begging for attention.
âFuck, you're dripping,â he groaned, the filthy word contrasting the reverence in his tone. Leaning in, he pressed a soft kiss to your inner thigh, then another higher up, teeth grazing just enough to make you whimper.
His tongue finally made contact, licking a long, flat stripe from your entrance to your clit, gathering your juices with a hungry swipe. You cried out, fingers threading into his hair as he groaned against you, the vibration humming through your core.
âMmm... Tastes so fucking good,â he murmured, lips brushing your clit before he sucked it into his mouth, tongue flicking rapidly.
His hands gripped your thighs, holding you open as he devoured youâlapping at your hole, thrusting his tongue inside to fuck you shallowly, then returning to circle your nub with filthy precision.
You rocked against his faceâblue eyes behind his fogged up glasses flicking up to meet yours between licks making it all the more intense. He added two fingers, sliding them deep into your soaked pussy, curling them against your g-spot while he sucked harder. The wet sounds of his mouth on you filled the room, obscene and perfect, your arousal coating his chin.
âCome for me, baby,â he urged, voice muffled against your flesh. âLet me feel you soak my tongue.â
The coil snapped, pleasure ripping through you as your walls clenched around his fingers, a gush of wetness flooding his mouth. He drank it down greedily, humming his approval as you trembled, riding out the waves on his devoted tongue.
But Bob wasn't done with you yet. He rose slowly, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, eyes dark with need. âNeed to be inside you, now,â he said, voice raw, his cockâhard and leaking again, veins prominent along the shaft. He gave himself a quick pump, a sharp hiss escaping his lips. The sight of himâso eager, so undone for youâmade your heart swell.
Positioning himself between your legs, he rubbed the head of his cock through your folds, coating it in your slick before pushing in inch by inch. You both moaned at the stretch, your pussy welcoming him home.
âLove this pussy so much,â he panted, bottoming out and holding still, letting you adjust as he kissed you deeplyâtasting yourself on his lips in an intimate, filthy exchange.
Then he started moving, slow at first, each thrust deep and measured, grinding his hips to hit your clit. His hands roamed your body, one cupping your breast under your shirt, thumb circling your nipple, the other bracing on the desk beside you.
âYou're everything to me,â he whispered between kisses, pace quickening as your nails dug into his back. His cock slammed into you with wet slaps, balls tapping against your ass, but his eyes stayed locked on yours, full of love.
âRobbieâfuck⊠More, please,â you begged, wrapping your legs around him, pulling him deeper. He obliged, pounding relentlessly, the desk shaking as he chased your pleasure together. The friction of his bare cock dragging along your walls built the pressure unbearably, every ridge and vein sending sparks through your core.
Bob felt your pussy flutter around him, slick and hot, gripping him like it never wanted to let go. He angled his hips just right, the head of his cock nudging that spot inside you over and over, making stars burst behind your eyelids.
Your second orgasm crashed over you in waves, pussy spasming wildly around his length, milking him with rhythmic squeezes. The sensation made his hips stutter, thrusts turning erratic as he buried himself to the hilt. With a broken groan, Bob came undone, his cock pulsing deep inside you. Hot spurts of cum flooded your pussy, thick and viscous, coating your walls in rope after rope of his release.
You felt every jet, the warmth spreading through your core, filling you completely that it leaked out around his length, trickling down to your ass in sticky trails. This time, nothing was wasted; his seed stayed where it belongedâpainting your insides and claiming you in the most primal, intimate way.
He collapsed into your arms, still buried deep, his weight a comforting press as soft I love you's murmured against your skin. His lips found yours in lazy, affectionate kisses, breaths syncing as the warmth of his release settled inside you, a secret reminder of your shared vulnerability.
Bob pulled out of you slowly, watching with hooded eyes as more of his cum seeped from your pussy, a filthy, beautiful sight that made him smile softly. He scooped your trembling form into his arms, holding you as if you were made of something precious.
His touch was steady, grounding, the kind of warmth that seeped into your bones. He carried you to the bed with quiet care, lowering you onto the sheets like he was afraid to let you go.
You immediately curled into him, tucking your head beneath his chin, listening to the slow, rhythmic beat of his heart as he set his glasses down on the nightstand. His arms immediately wrapped around you protectively, one hand drawing lazy circles on your back, the other threading gently through your hair.
He pressed a soft kiss to your forehead, lips warm and lingering. âSo proud of you,â he murmured, voice low and full of quiet awe. âMy brilliant girl. We make a hell of a team.â
You smiled, eyes fluttering open just enough to look up at him. âWell, youâre an amazing lab partner.â
Bob chuckled softly, that low, sleepy sound that always made your chest ache with affection. His hand came up to brush a strand of hair from your cheek, thumb pausing to rest against your jaw.
âGuess Iâll have to sign up for more experiments, huh?â he teased.
You laughed, the sound muffled against his skin. âOnly if I get to supervise.â
âDeal,â he whispered, wrapping you closer until your legs tangled together under the sheets.
The room fell quietâjust the hush of the night outside, the soft hum of the air conditioner, and the slow, even cadence of his breathing against your hair. You felt his lips press one last kiss to the top of your head before he drifted off, his arm still protectively around you.
And as your eyes closed, you couldnât help but smileâsurrounded by warmth, moonlight, and the kind of peace that only came from being completely, utterly loved.
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Summary: You met Bob Reynolds at his lowestâlost and haunted by demons he didnât know how to fight. When an unplanned pregnancy brought new responsibilities into your lives, he disappeared, leaving you to face fear, heartbreak, and parenthood alone.
Years later, he reappears, changed and desperate to make things rightâbut can you let him back into your life? Or is the past too heavy, the wounds too deep, to risk your heart again?
Word Count: 10.4k words
Tags/Warnings: Sprinkled with angst, Hurt/Comfort, minor spoilers, mentions of drug use/addiction, mentions of abuse, PTSD themes, unplanned pregnancy, slow burn, strangers to lovers to exes to lovers again, some birth depictions, abandonment issues, alternating POV, happy/fluffy ending, misunderstanding/conflict, one time use of Y/N, slightly proofread-ish.
A/N: While this fic explores love and healing with someone in recovery, real-life relationships with people struggling with addiction are often complicated and painful. In my experience, love alone is never enough to fix someone. Please remember to prioritize your own safety and well-being. Itâs important to know when to step away from a situation that feels unsafe or harmful. Setting boundaries is not a failureâitâs an act of self-respect. People in recovery deserve compassion and love, but the journey is often messy, imperfect, and ongoing, and itâs okay to protect yourself along the way.
The first time you met Bob Reynolds was one of those nights that felt like the city had forgotten how to breathe.
The kind of night where the neon signs buzzed too loud and the air tasted like old rain and regret.
When you turned, there he was, holding a paper bag thatâs more bottle than groceries.
Tall. Disheveled. Eyes red and tired in a way that spoke of something more than sleepless nights. His hands shook slightly when he held up a crumpled five-dollar bill.
âSorry,â he muttered. âJust⊠just coffee. Black. If youâve got any left.â
Something about him made you unlock the door. Maybe it was pity. Maybe it was instinct. Maybe it was the way he said sorry like heâd been saying it his whole life.
You brewed the coffee and handed it over without charging him.
He blinked, surprised.
âYou sure?â
You shrugged. âYou look like you need it more than I need five bucks.â
He huffed out a laughâsmall, raspy, but real.
âBob,â he said, after a long pause. âMy nameâs Bob.â
âNice to meet you, Bob,â you said, wiping the counter. âIâmââ
He cut in gently. âYou donât have to tell me. Iâm not great company.â
But you told him anyway. The rain started to pour, and Bob looked worried, so you decided to make conversation.
You tell him about juggling multiple jobs, about your tiny apartment that smells of bleach and loneliness. He listens, then starts to tell you how heâs also in between jobs, in between apartments, barely holding it together. You both laugh at how pitiful it sounds, the sound fragile but warm in the quiet roomâand still, neither of you pulls away.
There was something about Bobânot the kind of pull that makes your heart race, but the kind that makes you feel seen. Like someone finally looked up and realized you existed.
Somehow, the rain finally stopped and he walked you home that night. Not because heâs trying anythingâhe never even hints at itâbut because heâs the kind of man who, even with his own demons chewing through him, still wants to make sure you get inside safely.
You donât see him again for three days. Then, you do.
You see him standing outside a convenience store, holding another bag of groceries, but this time thereâs no bottle. He looks jittery, restlessâthe kind of anxious that lives in your bones. You offer him coffee from the store, and he takes it like itâs a sacred thing. That becomes your routine: coffee, small talk, soft smiles. A fragile friendship built on exhaustion and second chances neither of you believe in yet.
Over time, you see pieces of himâthe way he stares at his hands like theyâre strangers, how he twitches when sirens echo in the distance, how he apologizes for everything, even when thereâs nothing to apologize for. He tells you once, in a quiet moment, that sometimes he feels like somethingâs inside him. Something terrible, like a storm waiting to break. You donât understand what he means then, not really, but you tell him heâs not alone.
He told you, eventually, that he was trying to get clean.
You didnât judge him. You just listened.
He told you about the loneliness, the fog, the days he couldnât remember, the nights he didnât want to. About the pain of trying to do better and failing again and again.
âI want to stop,â he said once, fingers clenched around his mug. âI really do. But itâs like⊠every time I try to climb out, something pulls me back in.â
You reached across the counter and covered his hand with yours.
âThen we keep climbing,â you said softly. âTogether.â
He stared at your hand for a long time. Then, quietly, âYou shouldnât waste that kindness on someone like me.â
And you, with a steady voice you didnât know you had, replied,
âMaybe Iâm not wasting it.â
He starts showing up cleaner. Shaved. Wearing an old flannel that smells like detergent instead of whiskey. Sometimes he helps you carry groceries, sometimes he fixes your kitchen light or unclogs the drain. You try not to read into it, but when he smiles now, it feels different. Brighter.
And then one night, after weeks of dancing around it, he shows up at your door in the rain. Heâs soaked, tremblingânot from withdrawal this time, but from fear. He tells you heâs been sober for thirty days. That he wanted to tell someone who might actually care. You let him in.
The air between you changes that night. He laughs until his shoulders loosen, and when you brush a stray curl from his forehead, he catches your wrist like he canât believe youâre real. The kiss happens slowlyâhesitant, tremblingâbut when it happens, it feels inevitable. Like every bad thing youâve survived led here, to this tiny moment of peace.
Later, when you wake up tangled in him, the world feels still for the first time in a long time. His breath is warm against your shoulder, and you think, maybe, this could be the start of something that doesnât hurt.
Bob Reynolds will always be a man running from himselfâbut that night, he holds you like maybe heâs found something worth staying for.
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Days become weeks. Weeks turn into something quieter, steadierâthe kind of rhythm you didnât think possible with someone like Bob Reynolds. He starts coming around more often, still shy about it, still asking âare you sure you donât mind?â every time he crosses your threshold.
You mind a littleâbut only because it terrifies you how much youâve come to depend on him.
Bobâs different now. Heâs not all betterâyou still catch the haunted look in his eyes sometimes when he thinks you arenât watchingâbut heâs trying. You see the effort in everything: in how he walks past the liquor aisle without stopping, in the way he fiddles with his hands when cravings hit, in how he repeats your words back to himself when you talk, as if trying to memorize every sound that makes you smile.
Sometimes, when heâs helping you fix something around the apartment, youâll glance over and see him lost in thought, eyes distant but soft. When you ask, he shrugs. âJust thinking about⊠how different everything feels now.â
And then he always smilesâthat shy, lopsided smile that makes him look younger, gentlerâand you forget to breathe for a moment.
He gets a job eventually, at a local repair shop run by an old friend who doesnât ask too many questions. He comes home with grease under his nails and the faintest glow of pride. Heâll tell you about how he rebuilt an engine or got a radio to work again, and youâll listen, watching his hands move as he talksâanimated, alive. You love his hands. They used to tremble, but now theyâre steady, certain
Nights are slow. Intimate in their own quiet way. Heâll fall asleep on the couch beside you while some old movie hums in the background, his head resting against your shoulder, his warmth pressing through the thin fabric of your shirt. When he sleeps, he looks peacefulâlike the world finally stopped demanding things from him.
Then one day, you threw up.
Then another.
And another.
You donât plan it. You never do.
The morning you realize youâre pregnant starts like any other: gray light spilling through half-drawn curtains, the faint hum of traffic outside, Bob snoring softly beside you. His arm is draped over your waist, heavy but comforting, like an anchor. You lie there for a while, your hand resting against your stomach, trying to convince yourself itâs just nerves or hormones or the universe playing a cruel joke.
But deep down, you already know.
Youâve been nauseous for a week, and the scent of coffeeâyour morning ritualâmakes your stomach twist. Youâd brushed it off as stress, but when you finally force yourself to look at the test, those two solid pink lines steal the air from your lungs.
You sink to the floor, the tile cold beneath your legs. Tears come fastânot from sadness, but fear. Fear because everything was finally starting to make sense, and now itâs all about to change again. Youâre not ready for this. Bob isnât ready for this.
You want to be happy. You want to be brave. But your hands wonât stop shaking.
You hide the test under the sink and go about the next day like nothing happened. But the secret sits under your tongue, heavy as lead. Every time he smiles, it twists something inside you. Every time he reaches for your hand, you think, he deserves peace, not another reason to break.
The days stretch. You practice the words in your head a hundred times: Bob, I need to tell you something. Each time you almost say it, fear steals your voice.
One night, he finds you crying in the kitchen, forehead pressed to the cool surface of the counter. He doesnât ask why at firstâhe just wraps his arms around you and lets you shake. When you finally speak, itâs a whisper.
âIâm pregnant.â
He freezes. Everything inside him stillsâbreath, heartbeat, time. You can see the panic hit him like lightning. For a moment, he just stands there, jaw tight, eyes darting around like the walls are closing in. You think heâs going to bolt. You almost prepare yourself for it.
But then he takes a step toward you. Then another. And anotherâuntil heâs close enough that you can see the tears building in his eyes. He doesnât touch you right away, doesnât say a word. He just stares at you like heâs trying to understand what youâve just said.
âAre⊠are you sure?â he finally whispers.
You nod, the weight of it settling in. âYeah.â
He exhales shakily, hands finding your shoulders like heâs grounding himself. Then, slowly, carefully, he pulls you in. His chest rises against yours, his heart racing.
âI donât know how to be a dad,â he says, voice cracking. âBut I want to try. I swear, I want to.â
Tears sting your eyes. He cups your face. âWeâll figure it out.â
He means it. You can feel it in how he holds youâfragile, terrified, but full of something real. Hope.
The next few weeks are a blur of uncertainty and quiet courage. Bob goes to every appointment he can. He reads books about parenting, scribbles notes on napkins, even tries to fix the nursery door with a level of focus that makes you laugh. But beneath it all, thereâs still that flicker of fearâthe one that creeps into his voice late at night when he thinks youâre asleep.
âWhat if I mess this up?â he murmurs once, staring at the ceiling beside you. âWhat if⊠what if the baby ends up hating me? What if I turn out likeââ
You press a finger to his lips before he can finish. âYou wonât.â
He looks at you, eyes glossy. âYou donât know that.â
âI know you,â you say simply. âAnd thatâs enough.â
For a while, it seems like maybe things will work out. You find a kind of rhythm togetherâdoctor visits, meal cravings, morning sickness and midnight giggles. Bob brings you flowers from the gas station down the street. He talks to your belly sometimes, awkward but sincere, whispering about all the things he wants to do better.
But at night, you still see the cracks. The tremors. The self-doubt. Sometimes you wake to find him staring out the window, whispering to himself. You donât catch all the words, just fragments: âgotta be better,â âcanât mess this up,â âdonât deserve her.â
One afternoon, you wake to find him sitting at the kitchen table, a stack of papers in front of him. His hands are shaking again, eyes hollow and distant. When you ask whatâs wrong, he shows you the letter. An envelope, stamped with a seal that makes your stomach drop.
He tells you that heâs been offered a chanceâa âprogramâ that could change everything. Some kind of experimental treatment, he says, meant to make him stronger, more stable. âThey said it could fix the damage,â he murmurs, voice low, almost hopeful. âIt could make me⊠better. For you, for the baby.â
You tell him it sounds wrong. You tell him you donât care about betterâyou just want him here. But heâs already retreating into that old, familiar placeâwhere pain feels safer than peace.
He kisses your forehead that night and promises that he wonât be gone long. âJust one week,â he says, voice trembling. âThen everything will be different.â
âI promise Iâll come back,â he whispered. It was the last thing you remembered him saying.
When you wake, the other side of the bed is cold.
His jacketâs gone. His shoes. The letter too.
You stand there, hand on your belly, and realize this is how the story begins to break.
The flickering kitchen light hums overhead, and for the first time since you met him, the world feels unbearably quiet.
You spend the first few days convincing yourself heâs coming back. You check your phone every hour. You keep the door unlocked. You fold his shirts and keep them stacked on the couch, just in case he walks in, apologizing, saying he made a mistake and heâs home now.
But days turn into weeks. The silence grows heavier. The longer you wait, the more real it becomes. Bob Reynolds is gone.
You tell yourself heâs on a missionâone of those secret government projects he sometimes mumbled about but never explained. You tell yourself heâs alive, that heâll walk through the door with flowers and shaky apologies. But deep down, thereâs a gnawing truth: he left to fix himself, and maybe that means fixing his life without you.
The mornings hurt the most. His mug is still by the sink. The chair he used to fix for you still creaks. The smell of his cologne lingers faintly in the hallway, mixed with the sterile scent of the prenatal vitamins you force yourself to swallow.
You try to go about your routineâwork, grocery runs, doctor appointmentsâbut thereâs an emptiness to everything. You walk slower, talk quieter, eat less. Youâre existing in half measures, saving the other half of yourself for the moment he comes home.
But he doesnât.
At your prenatal checkup, you sit alone in a waiting room full of glowing couples. Husbands holding hands with wives, partners whispering jokes and pointing at ultrasound photos. You smile at them because itâs easier than crying.
When your name is called, you follow the nurse in silence. The doctor is kind. She talks about vitamins, heartbeat, diet, but the words pass over you like static. When she asks if the father will be joining, you choke on your answer.
âHeâs⊠away.â
She nods, not prying, but you see the pity behind her eyes.
When she turns the monitor toward you and the room fills with the sound of your babyâs heartbeat, you canât breathe. Itâs so small, so alive, so terrifyingly yours. You press your hand to your stomach and whisper, âHey, little one⊠itâs just us, okay?â
You wish Bob could hear it. You wish he could see this tiny miracle, the proof of everything you built together. But heâs gone chasing ghosts, and youâre left learning to live with the echo of what could have been.
As the months crawl by, your belly grows. So does the ache in your chest.
You try to write to him onceâjust to tell him the baby kicked, that youâre scared, that you still love him. You fold the letter three times, place it on the nightstand, and never send it. What would you even say? That youâre furious? That you understand? That every time you feel the baby move, itâs a reminder of the man who left before hearing its heartbeat?
Instead, you start talking to the baby. Quietly, before bed.
âYour dad was brave,â you whisper. âHe just⊠didnât know how to be happy.â
Sometimes you imagine what heâd say if he saw you now. How heâd place a trembling hand on your stomach, how heâd try to make a joke about you glowing, then immediately apologize for being gone so long. You imagine forgiving himâover and overâuntil the thought hurts too much to hold.
Labor comes early.
Itâs raining, the kind of relentless storm that turns streets into rivers. You wake to pain slicing through your body, sharp and merciless. You grab your bag, the one you packed weeks ago âjust in case,â and call for a cab through gritted teeth.
The ride is a blur of thunder and contractions. You clutch your belly and whisper promises to the baby, tears mixing with sweat. Youâre terrifiedânot of the pain, but of doing this alone.
At the hospital, the nurses rush you in. The world becomes a haze of white light and sterile smells, voices telling you to breathe, to push, to hold on. You scream. You cry. You pray. And when itâs over, they place a tiny, crying bundle against your chest.
The sound of your babyâs first breath breaks something open inside you.
Youâre exhausted. Shaking. But when you look down and see that tiny faceâhis eyes, his hair, your noseâitâs like the world snaps back into focus.
You whisper, âHi, sweetheart,â and your baby quiets, as if they recognize your voice.
You cry harder. You didnât think you had any tears left.
The nurse asks if thereâs someone youâd like to call. You shake your head. You want to say Bob, but whatâs the point? You donât even know where he isâor if heâs still the man you loved when he left.
So, you hold your baby tighter and say, âItâs just us now.â
For weeks afterward, you exist in fragments. The apartment feels hauntedâevery corner a reminder of him. The half-built crib stays in the living room, unfinished. You keep meaning to fix it but canât bring yourself to. His tools still sit in the drawer, untouched.
Sometimes, you talk to him anyway. In the dark. In the silence. âYouâd laugh if you saw her smile,â you whisper. âSheâs got your stubbornness already. I donât know if I should thank you or curse you for that.â
But the truth isâsome part of you still hopes heâll walk through the door one day. That heâll be clean, that heâll have answers, that heâll hold your daughter and say heâs sorry.
And on nights when the baby wonât sleep and the wind howls outside, you almost believe itâs possible. That maybe, somewhere out there, heâs still trying to find his way home.
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Bob didnât mean to disappear.
He meant to come back. He meant to hold your hand during every doctorâs appointment, to paint the nursery walls the wrong shade of yellow, to cry when he first held your child. Thatâs what he promised himself the night he signed his name on the Sentry Project forms. But promises are fragile things when theyâre written on desperation.
They told him it was a ârehabilitation program for struggling volunteers.â They said it could fix himânot just his body, but his mind. That heâd finally be enough. For you. For the baby. For the world that had long stopped believing in people like him.
The facility was far from homeâisolated, gray, humming with fluorescent light and the scent of antiseptic. He stayed there for days that felt like years. The serum they gave him burned like liquid lightning in his veins. Sometimes it felt like it was killing him. Other times, like it was rewriting him from the inside out.
Pain consumed him. Not the kind that made you scream, but the kind that made you see. His body convulsed, his veins burning with something electric, ancient. He saw flashesâhis childâs face, though unborn; your tears when he walked out the door; his own reflection, fractured by light.
Then came the voice.
Low. Whispering. Familiar.
âYou wanted power. I am what comes with it.â
When the containment doors slammed shut, he stopped fighting. The serum fused with him, rewriting every atom. His mind splitâone side desperate, terrified, human; the other vast, void-like, infinite.
They said he died during Phase Two. But death wasnât what claimed him.
He existed in fragmentsâhis body frozen, suspended, while his consciousness unraveled in the dark. The serum kept him alive.
Time was meaningless. He remembered facesâValentinaâs smirk as she signed the approval forms, the sterile glass of the chamber closing over him. He remembered thinking, If this works, Iâll be the man they need me to be.
He didnât know that in her eyes, he was just a disposable proof of an experiment that went too far.
Then one day, deep in the darkness, he heard a sharp clang that shook him awake. Confusion flooded his mind, and a sudden pit opened in his stomach. Before he could think, he retched, coughing violently as he tried to clear the bile and steady himself. Summoning every ounce of strength, he shoved the loose metal in front of him aside and crawled out of whatever had been encasing him.
Bob stumbled forward, his vision blurred and his head throbbing. âIs she actuallyâdeâ?â His words caught in his throat as he tried to focus on the source of the noise.
And then he saw them: three strangers, guns raised, faces twisted in tension and fear, pointing at one another as if waiting for the other to make the first move. His stomach dropped, a cold pit gnawing at him, and panic clawed up his throat.
Scrambling to his feet, he intended to run outside, only for the door ahead to slam shut with a deafening bang. One by one, the other exits also closed, leaving the room sealed. The strangers turned, aiming their weapons at him. Bob raised his hands instinctively.
âWho are you?â the woman with dark hair demanded.
âIâIâm⊠Iâm Bob. I told you, Iâm⊠uh⊠yeah,â he stammered, trying to ease the tension. âBob.â
âJesus Christ, stop saying Bob,â the man in a helmet snapped, clearly annoyed.
âWho sent you, Bob?â the blonde woman pressed, her gaze sharp.
âNobody!â Bob said defensively. âWhy would I be sent? Were you allâŠYou were all sent?â
The dark-haired woman sighed, frustration flickering across her face. âI am not sure what is happening here, but youâre all exhausting, and my job is done.â
Their argument escalated, voices overlapping until it turned into a grim realization: they had all been sent there as liabilities, assets meant to be eliminated by Valentina.
Bobâs instincts kicked in. Together, he and the strangers managed to escape the room just as incinerators roared to life. They fought their way through the facility, Valentinaâs forces closing in, and though he knew he shouldnât, he risked himself to help the others survive. In that moment, he felt little regard for his own life; as long as those he shared this fleeting connection with escaped, he told himself it was enough.
Gunfire tore through him, pain lancing across his body. Darkness crept in. And then, a surge. Something stronger, deeper than anything he had known, coursed through him. The wounds no longer burned, the pain vanished, replaced by raw power and a rush of anger and rage. Acting on instinct, he propelled himself upward, soaring even though he didnât know he could.
Weakness clawed at him as he gained altitude, vision blurring. Then, a face appeared in his mind: a woman, radiant, impossibly beautiful. He clung to that memory as darkness swallowed him.
When he awoke, Valentina was there, explaining that Earth needed more heroesâand that he was the answer. Insecurity crept along his spine, but underneath it grew responsibility, a sense of a promise he had made to someone he couldnât fully remember, a vow to be better. Before she left, he assured her he could do it.
Things blurred. He was suddenly in a golden suit, his hair lighter, his confidence foreign. He was fighting the very people heâd just escaped with. Valentinaâs orders rang in his head until he snapped back to himself.
âMaybe⊠You donât know what I am,â he told herâhalf warning, half truth.
And then everything went blank.
He awoke in a void, a familiar emptiness. A voice, gnawing at him since childhood, whispered reminders of abuse, addiction, and self-loathing. The same voice that had haunted him since childhood whispered from the darkâthe voice that grew louder with every bruise, every drink, every bad choice. The one that had finally quieted when he met you.
He still didnât know who you were. That killed him. But he knew heâd felt happy. Real happiness. And he remembered promising you something.
Yelena and the others eventually rescued him from the darkness. With their help, he learned to overpower the Void within him.
âYou were great in there, Bob,â John said when they returned to the real world.
âThanks, Walker⊠wait, whaâin where?â Bob asked, confusion furrowing his brow.
Later, Valentina introduced them to the press as The New Avengers.
Bob just clapped for his friends, smiling from the sidelines, earning a confused glare from Valentina.
A year passed. The chaos dulled into a strange peace. His new family grounded him, gave him purpose. He trained, he helped, he laughed again.
But every night, when he closed his eyes, he saw you.
Your face. Your voice. Your laugh.
He couldnât remember your name, but he knew one thing with absolute certaintyâ
He had loved you.
And somehow, some way⊠he still did.
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Bob wakes before the lights come on.
The room is always too white, too cleanâan antiseptic hum that feels like itâs erasing him one layer at a time. They tell him heâs stable now, that the tremors have slowed, that the gold behind his eyes isnât dangerous if he stays calm.
He tries to believe them.
Most days he moves like a ghost through the compoundâs concrete halls, doing the small things that make him feel humanâcoffee that he never finishes, sketches of things he doesnât remember drawing, fragments of faces heâs sure once smiled at him. When he closes his eyes, he hears laughter that tastes like sunlight. A voice saying his name softly, as if afraid to wake him.
He tells himself itâs a dream, a leftover from the time before.
But then come the flashes: the faint smell of paint thinner, a womanâs hand brushing dust from his sleeve, a heartbeat so small and fast it makes his own stutter. He doesnât know if these are memories or fabrications stitched together by whateverâs left of his mind. He only knows that every time they come, he shakes until someone finds him and reminds him to breathe.
Yelena usually does. She talks to him like sheâs teaching a stubborn dog a new trickâhalf amused, half protective. âIn through the nose, out through the mouth, Bob. You can do it.â
He does it because she expects him to. Because sheâs the only one who touches his shoulder without flinching.
The government calls it a public relations exerciseâthe teamâs first appearance outside of the facility. Cameras, speeches, staged heroism. He isnât supposed to be seen; heâs only there in case something goes wrong. âBackground security,â Valentina said.
He stands behind the barricades, eyes scanning the crowd. Noise rolls over him in bright wavesâcheering, music, the snap of banners in the wind. The air feels too alive, too loud.
Thenâ
A sound. Small, quick, bright. Laughter.
His head jerks toward it before he understands why. And there, among the behind the cameras, is you.
Time stops.
Youâre holding a little girlâmaybe four, maybe five. She tugs at your sleeve, pointing toward the stage where the team smiles and Valentina answers questions. But Bob canât focus on any of that. All he sees is herâher hair catching the late afternoon light, the faint golden glow of the sun after rain, and her eyesâhis eyesâwide, curious, shining with a wonder he thought heâd lost forever.
The world tilts.
For a heartbeat, the noise in Bobâs head stopped. The puzzle pieces slammed into place. He saw flashesâyour smile, your hand resting on your belly, your voice trembling as you told him something he couldnât quite remember. Then the image of sterile white walls, cold restraints, and the blinding pain of the experiments that had torn his mind apart.
He staggered back. His throat went dry. Oh God.
Every suppressed memory rushed to the surface at onceâyour laugh, your nights tangled in quiet warmth, the promise he made before he left. âI promise Iâll come back.â
His breath breaks apart. The gold he keeps locked behind his ribs surges, hot and electric, turning the edges of everything molten. His pulse becomes a roar. For one horrifying second, the line between memory and reality collapses: you laughing in the kitchen; your hand on his cheek; a promise whispered against your skin.
âBob.â
Yelenaâs voice cuts through the static. Sheâs beside him now, sharp and steady. âHey. Look at me.â
He forced a gasp, clutching at her wrist like a lifeline. The panic clawed at his ribs, raw and merciless. All he could see, when he blinked through it, was you, standing there with wide, shocked eyes..
He wanted to reach for you.
He wanted to say your name.
But nothing came out.
Only static.
And then you were gone.
He pressed his palms to his temples, shaking, his voice breaking as he whispered, âI know her⊠I know her.â
But by the time he straightened, chest heaving, you had already disappeared into the crowd.
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Youâd been standing quietly behind the crowd and a number of reporters, watching the press event from a safe distance. The âNew Avengersââthatâs what theyâre calling them nowâwere being interviewed as a new symbol of hope after too much loss. You told yourself you were only here out of curiosity. But deep down, something urged you to come and see these people today.
Then you see him.
At first, you think your eyes are playing tricks on youâanother cruel illusion born of exhaustion and old grief. But no⊠thatâs him. The slope of his shoulders, the way he moves with quiet purpose even among the guards, the familiar tilt of his headâitâs unmistakably him. He stands just beyond the barricades, watching as Valentina continues on stage, murmuring to one of the guards.
The world narrows to the sound of your own heartbeat. You donât hear the cameras clicking, the murmurs of the crowd, or even feel the small weight of your daughterâs hands in yours. Nothing exists but him. Bob.
Alive.
Your chest tightens when Bobâs pale, uneasy, eyes flicked around the room like heâs seeing ghosts. Then suddenlyâhe freezes. His hands start to tremble. The color drains from his face. He stumbles back, gasping for air, and before anyone can react, heâs clutching at his chest, breathing in shallow, ragged bursts.
Yelenaâone of the New Avengersâreaches for him, trying to steady him, her voice sharp with worry. But Bob doesnât seem to hear her. He looks lostâterrifiedâas if his mind has been ripped open. You recognize that look. Youâve seen it before, back when he would feel vulnerableâthose moments when heâd wake up from a nightmare and stare at his hands like he didnât know who he was.
You take a step forward before you can stop yourself.
His eyes flick toward the crowd, unfocused, searching. And for just that moment, you think heâs looking at you.
Something inside you twists painfully. You want to run to him, to tell him youâre here, that heâs safeâbut then Yelena steps closer, steadying his shaking frame. Bob doesnât move away from her. He leans into her hold, still dazed, breathing unevenly.
Your heart shatters so quietly you barely hear it.
You freeze where you stand, the chaos around you fading into a muffled hum. Youâve spent months imagining what it would be like if he came backâif you could tell him about the child he never met, the nights you cried yourself to sleep alone. You pictured him holding you, promising you that the pain had been worth it. But now, watching him lean against someone elseâs shoulder while you stand in the shadows, you feel like a ghost haunting the ruins of your own life.
You turn away before anyone notices the tears building in your eyes. You force yourself to walkâone step, then anotherâuntil youâre out of sight, hidden behind the hangar doors. Your hands tremble, your vision blurring. You press a hand over your mouth to stop the sob that escapes anyway.
Heâs alive. Heâs here.
And yet somehow, it feels like youâve lost him all over again.
You donât see the panic in his eyes when he finally lifts his head again. You donât see the confusionâhow he murmurs your name under his breath, disbelieving, clutching his temples like fragments of a life he canât quite remember are clawing their way back.
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The world slowed after you disappeared.
The teamâs voices came back all at onceâdull, indistinct noise scraping against the edge of his consciousness. He barely registered Bucky asking, âYou good, man?â or Avaâs sharp, skeptical glance. All he could feel was the phantom thrum in his chest, the echo of your eyes meeting his.
He dragged in a breath that didnât fill his lungs.
It felt like he was suffocating on memory.
âIâI need a second,â he muttered.
Yelena frowned, watching the tremor in his hands. âBob,â she said softly. âWhat happened?â
Bob didnât answer. Couldnât. His mind was a static storm of half-remembered faces, laughter, sunlight through thin curtains, the soft rhythm of a heartbeat that wasnât his.
Then another image struck himâyour face illuminated by lamplight, your hand resting over a small swell beneath your shirt, your voice trembling as you whispered, Iâm scared everythingâs changing, Bob.
His breath hitched.
It was like someone had taken a blade to the dam inside him, and every emotion heâd buried since the serumâsince the experiments, since the endless silenceârushed back all at once.
Fear.
Joy.
Guilt so sharp it made him dizzy.
He stumbled toward the nearest wall and pressed his palms against the concrete, grounding himself.
She was real. Not a hallucination. Not a fragment.
âBob,â Yelena said again, quieter this time. âHey. Look at me.â
He did. Barely. His eyes were wet. âI had a family,â he whispered. âBefore I volunteered for the experiment. And I⊠I left them.â
Finally admitting it hurt. It tore something open in his chest.
Yelenaâs brow softened. Sheâd seen him lose control beforeâthe tremors, the flickers of gold light behind his pupils when the Sentry pushed to surfaceâbut this wasnât that. This was purely human.
âThen find them,â she said simply.
He shook his head, voice breaking. âShe saw me. She looked right at meâand the way she lookedâŠâ His throat closed up. âShe looked horrified. I saw it in her eyes.â
Yelena crossed her arms, sighing through her nose. âThen go after her, idiot.â
He tried to laugh, but it came out fractured. âYou donât get it. I canât. Valentina still keeps me under surveillance half the time, Iâm notâsafe. Not for them.â
âBob.â Her tone hardened. âYou either make peace with the ghosts you left, or theyâll eat you alive.â
He didnât answer. But her words stuck.
By the time you got home, your legs were shaking.
The door shut behind you with a hollow thud that echoed through the quiet apartment. You set your now sleeping daughter down on the couch, one tiny hand clutching her stuffed bear. You just stood there for a moment, watching her chest rise and fall, your heart constricting painfully in your ribcage.
Youâd imagined thisâhim walking through that same door, apologizing, holding you while you cried. Instead, heâd looked at you like you were something distant, something that didnât belong to his world anymore.
You pressed a hand to your mouth, forcing back a sob.
Maybe that was your fault. Youâd told yourself a thousand stories to survive the nights he didnât come backâstories about him working for the government, injured, something. You never once let yourself believe the simplest answer: he left.
And seeing him today only proved it.
He wasnât the man who promised, âIâll fix this, Iâll get better. For you. For our baby.â
Noâhe was someone else now.
Someone with a new team, a new purpose, and a woman beside him who seemed to know him better than you did.
You felt a fresh tear slip down your cheek. You hated that it still hurt this much.
You crouched beside your daughter, brushing her hair gently from her forehead. She murmured softly in her sleep, unaware of the war happening inside you.
âYour fatherâs alive,â you whispered, the words trembling on your tongue. âHeâs alive, baby.â
It should have been relief.
It only made the ache worse.
You leaned forward, pressing a kiss to her hair, and whispered, âBut we donât need him. You have me.â
But even as you said it, you didnât believe it.
Because a small, reckless part of you still did need himâstill wanted to scream at him, hit him, make him feel the same hollow that had lived inside you since the night he vanished.
And worse still, that same part of you still loved him.
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Bob didnât sleep that night.
He sat on the edge of the cot in his dim quartersâbare walls, single light flickering like it wanted to dieâand stared at the half-empty mug in his hands. The coffee had gone cold hours ago. His reflection trembled in the surface, a distorted ghost of a man who no longer knew if he deserved the memories clawing their way back into his head.
He remembered now.
The apartment with the peeling wallpaper. The sound of rain outside. Your voiceâquiet but tremblingâduring the first week of your pregnancy.
âBob⊠I donât know if I can do this.â
He remembered the way you said itâequal parts fear and hope. The way heâd reached for your hand and promised, âYou wonât have to do it alone.â
Heâd meant it. God, heâd meant it.
But then came the doubts. The fear. The voices whispering that he wasnât enough. The experimentâhe thought it would fix him, make him worthy of being a father. Instead, it stole him away, piece by piece, until even he couldnât remember who he was.
And now you were out there, raising your child without him.
Yelena leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, watching him like sheâd already known what he was thinking. âYouâre not gonna rest until you find them, are you?â
He didnât answer right away. âWhat if she doesnât want to see me?â
âThen youâll find out,â she said simply, walking into the room. âBut not knowing is worse. Trust me.â
He looked up at her, meeting her eyes. âYou think I should go?â
Yelena smirked faintly. âI think you already decided that the second you saw her.â
He swallowed hard. âI donât even know where to start.â
âThen start small.â She tossed him somethingâa folded file, stolen no doubt from one of Valentinaâs databases. âI mightâve done a little digging.â
He blinked. âYelenaââ
âDonât thank me,â she cut in, voice softening. âJust⊠donât screw this up.â
He opened the file and froze. There was a photo. Blurry, grainy, taken through some security feedâyou. Standing outside a clinic. Holding a childâs hand.
His heart stopped.
He traced his thumb over the corner of the picture, like touching it might make it real.
He stood abruptly, setting the mug down with a soft thud. âI have to go.â
âIâll cover for you,â Yelena said, shrugging. âJust donât make me regret being a sentimental idiot.â
Bob almost smiled. âYou wonât.â
But as he slipped out into the night, heart pounding, he wasnât sure if he believed it.
He watched you from across the street that night.
You were sitting on the balcony, wrapped in an old sweater, eyes distant. The warm yellow light from your apartment framed you like something sacred, something fragile. His throat tightened when he saw the faint outline of a small figure asleep behind you.
His daughter.
He pressed his hand against the lamppost to steady himself. The Sentry in him wanted to moveâto go, to protectâbut Bob knew better. If he walked up now, he might scare you away. You deserved more than another shock.
He stayed until the lights went out.
And for the first time in years, he whispered a prayerâhalf to himself, half to the universe that had stolen his life away.
âJust give me a chance to fix it.â
He stood outside your apartment for fifteen minutes before he found the courage to lift his hand and knock.
The hallway was quiet, heavy with the faint hum of the buildingâs old wiring. The air smelled of rain and dust. He could hear the murmur of a television from another unit, the rhythmic sound of pipes creaking behind the wall. Everything felt too loud, too normalâas if the world had no idea that the man standing here was falling apart from the inside out.
He wiped his palms against his jeans. His hands were shaking.
Heâd rehearsed what heâd say a hundred times in his head. I didnât mean to leave you. I didnât even know who I was. I thought I was dying. But none of it felt like enough. There was no apology big enough to fill the years youâd spent alone.
When the door finally opened, you stood thereâbarefoot, hair slightly damp from a shower, wearing an old sweatshirt that hung loose around your shoulders. For a second, your expression was blank, unreadable. Then your breath caught.
You didnât speak.
Neither did he.
Bob swallowed hard, voice trembling when it finally broke the silence. âHi.â
It was such a small word, but it cracked open everything.
Your eyes hardened instantly. âWhat are you doing here?â
He took a cautious step forward. âI needed to see you. To explainââ
âExplain?â you repeated, your tone sharp, incredulous. âYears, Bob. You were gone for years. And the first thing you say is that you need to explain?â
He winced, guilt washing over him like acid. âI didnât want to leave. I was trying to get better. I thought⊠I thought if I did thisâif I fixed myselfâI could come back and be someone you and our kid could count on.â
âDonât,â you cut in. âDonât you dare talk about her like you were ever here.â
Bobâs throat went dry. âI didnât know what they were doing to me. The serumâit wiped everything. I didnât even remember your name until I saw you.â
Your eyes flickered, torn between disbelief and heartbreak. âYou expect me to believe that?â
âI donât expect you to believe anything.â His voice cracked, desperate. âI just need you to know that I never stopped loving you. Even when I didnât remember youâsome part of me did. I swear to God, it did.â
You laughed, but there was no humor in it. âThatâs not enough, Bob. Love doesnât raise a child. Love doesnât pay for hospital bills or hold your hand when youâre giving birth alone.â
His breath hitched. âYou gave birth alone?â
You glared at him, tears stinging your eyes. âWho else was there, Bob?â
That landed like a punch to the gut. He flinched, his entire frame trembling as he whispered, âIâm sorry.â
You shook your head. âYou donât get to say that.â
He took another step toward you. âPleaseâjust let me fix it.â
âFix it?â You let out a broken laugh. âYou think you can just walk in here and undo the last five years? She doesnât even know you're alive.â
The silence that followed was brutal. You were both breathing too hard, staring at each other like strangers carrying the ghosts of people who used to be in love.
Bobâs voice softened. âCan I⊠can I see her? Just once?â
Your jaw tightened. âSheâs at daycare.â
âOh.â He looked down, eyes glistening. âRight.â
He stood there, awkward and shattered, like a man who didnât know where to put his hands or his guilt. Then he looked up again, meeting your eyes with a kind of quiet desperation that made your heart twist.
âI donât expect forgiveness,â he said. âBut please donât shut me out. Let me try to be there. For her. For you. Even if you never let me back in.â
For a moment, you almost gave in. You saw the man youâd lovedâthe one who used to hold your shaking hands and whisper about a better life. But then the years of loneliness came flooding back, the exhaustion, the heartbreak, the fear.
You stepped back and closed your hand around the edge of the door. âI think you should go.â
Bobâs face crumpled, but he nodded. âOkay.â
He turned, shoulders heavy, and started walking down the hall. You watched him go, biting the inside of your cheek until you tasted blood.
When the door finally clicked shut, you pressed your back against it, sliding to the floor as your breath broke into quiet sobs.
You hated that seeing him again hurt as much as it did.
You hated that part of you still wanted him to come back.
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Bob sat in the parked car outside your apartment complex for a long time, staring at the rain streaking down the windshield. The wipers had long since stopped, but the rhythmic sound of water hitting glass filled the silence between him and Yelena. He hadnât said a word in ten minutes.
âYouâre not seriously just going to sit here, right?â Yelena asked finally, arms crossed as she leaned back in the passenger seat. âYou dragged me all the way here, Barnes-style, and now youâre going to chicken out?â
Bobâs jaw tensed. âShe doesnât want to see me. She made that pretty clear.â
Yelena raised an eyebrow. âSo thatâs it? Youâre going to give up? Just like that?â
He let out a slow, shaky exhale, fingers tightening around the steering wheel. âIâve already done enough damage, Yelena. I ruined her lifeâruined both their lives. Maybe the best thing I can do now is stay gone.â
Yelena turned to him, her tone softening, though the edge never quite left it. âYou donât get to decide that for her. You owe her the truth, not another disappearance.â
Bob didnât respond. He just stared at the dim glow of your apartment building, at the one window he thought might still be yours. His pulse was unsteady, a steady hum beneath the guilt that had lived in his chest since the day he remembered you.
Yelena sighed and reached over to pop the door open. âThen I guess weâre both going in,â she said simply, stepping out into the drizzle before he could argue.
Bob hesitated a moment longerâthen followed.
The hallway outside your apartment was quietâthe kind of silence that pressed heavy against his chest. Bob stood before your door for a long time, knuckles hovering in the air, his reflection warped in the peephole. He thought of the last time heâd stood hereâyour voice shaking with fury, the way you told him to leave before the tears could fall, how heâd walked away wishing he hadnât.
He wondered if youâd even open the door this time.
Three soft knocks. Yearsâ worth of guilt behind every one.
When the door finally opened, you didnât look surprisedâjust tired. The kind of tired that came from too many sleepless nights and too many half-finished apologies. You met his eyes for only a second before stepping aside, wordless, letting him in.
He hesitated at the threshold, the weight of the moment pressing downâthen the sound of footsteps behind him made you look past his shoulder.
And your heart cracked clean open.
âAre you kidding me?â you snapped, voice trembling with disbelief. âYou seriously brought her here?â
You didnât let her finish. âYou disappeared on us, Bob. You left me aloneâpregnant, terrifiedâand now you show up with her?â
Bob flinched. âY/N, pleaseââ
âNo.â You crossed your arms, holding yourself together by sheer force of will. âYou donât get to come here, with your new girlfriend, acting like you didnât abandon us.â
âIâm notâsheâs notââ he stammered, reaching out, desperate, but you took a sharp step back. The recoil hit him harder than any punch ever could.
Yelena looked between the two of you, sighing softly before touching his arm. âIâm gonna go,â she said quietly. âYou two need to talk.â
The door shut behind her, leaving only silence and the faint sound of rain on the window. Bob didnât move. Neither did you.
âYou shouldnât have come here,â you said finally, your voice brittle and uneven. âYou shouldnâtââ
âI had to,â Bob said softly, stepping forward though his hands stayed at his sides. âYou deserve the truth.â
You let out a short, bitter laugh, shaking your head. âYou want to talk about the truth? The truth is, you left me to survive it all alone. And now you show up like nothing happenedâlike I'm supposed to just forget?â
His eyes filled with something raw. âIt wasnât like that. I remember nowâeverything. But after I escaped that facility with Yelena and the others, it was like living in a fog. I remembered who I was, what Iâd been through⊠but not us. Not clearly. Itâs like my brain scrambled the parts of me that knew how to love, how to reach you. I knew something was missingâI just didnât know it was you. And when my memories came rushing back, I didnât even know how to find my way back to you.â
You turned away, your breath unsteady. âAnd thatâs supposed to make it better?â
He took a small, hesitant step closer. âNo. But itâs the truth. And Iâm sorry, Iâm soââ
You shook your head, cutting him off, pressing trembling hands to your eyes. âYou promised me youâd come back,â you whispered, voice breaking. âYou promised.â
He closed the last of the distance then, not daring to touch you, just standing close enough that you could feel the warmth of him, the presence that had haunted your dreams for months.
âI know,â he said, voice cracking. âI broke everything. But I swear to you, Iâll never disappear again.â
You didnât answer. Couldnât. The sound of his voice, the quiet desperation in it, made something in you twist painfully. Against your better judgment, against the ache that had defined your every day since he leftâhope flickered.
You swallowed hard, tears finally falling. Then, slowly, you nodded.
âFine,â you said, the word fragile but firm. âExplain.â
And he did.
It all came spilling out. He told you about the facility, about waking up strapped to a table, about the experiments that ripped apart his mind and rebuilt him into something he didnât recognize. About the nightmares. About how every time he tried to piece himself back together, it was like reaching for something that burned to the touch.
He spoke until his voice went hoarse, until he was wringing his hands like he could squeeze the guilt out of his skin. You listened because some part of you needed to, because even through all the hurt, you could hear that he wasnât trying to justifyâit was confession, not defense.
By the time he finished, your eyes were wet. His too.
ââŠYou shouldâve trusted me,â you whispered.
Bob looked at you, his own eyes rimmed red. âI know,â he said quietly. âAnd I hate myself for not rememberingâfor not coming back.â
His gaze flickered down, then back up, his throat bobbing as he swallowed hard. âI left you when you needed me most.â
Silence stretched between you, thick and unsteady. He shifted his weight like he wanted to reach for you but didnât dare. His next words came out barely above a whisper, trembling with something close to fear.
âCan I⊠please see her?â
You looked at him for a long time, searching his face. The man standing before you wasnât the same one who leftâhe was worn down, hauntedâbut there was something in his eyes you recognized. The warmth. The regret. The love that had survived everything.
You exhaled, slow and shaky.
âSheâs at daycare,â you said softly this time. âWe can pick her up.â
And for the first time in years, Bob let out a breath that sounded like relief. A small, broken kind of hope.
The walk was quiet. Too quiet. Every step seemed to echo against the damp pavement, the scent of rain still clinging to the air. Puddles caught the late afternoon light, turning the street into a blur of gold and gray. People passed you byâlaughing, carrying groceries, scrolling through their phonesâoblivious to the quiet storm still settling between you and the man beside you.
Neither of you uttered a word. There was too much to say, and no words gentle enough to hold it all. Still, every few steps, Bob would steal a glance at you, like he couldnât quite believe he was walking next to you again. You kept your eyes ahead, heart pounding with every block closer to the daycare.
When you finally arrived, the world seemed to still. Through the gate, your daughter spotted you and broke into a run, her small backpack bouncing behind her. âMommy!â she squealed. You dropped to your knees, arms wideâuntil she stopped short. Her bright smile faltered as her gaze caught on the stranger beside you.
Bob froze. His breath hitched, shoulders trembling like he might fall apart right there. Slowly, he crouched to her level, eyes wide and wet.
âHi,â he whispered, voice breaking. âIâm⊠Iâm your dad.â
For a moment, the world held its breath. Your daughter tilted her head, studying him with the kind of quiet curiosity only children possess. Then, after what felt like forever, she smiledâa shy, uncertain thing, but real.
âMommy talks about you a lot.â
Something inside Bob broke. His lips parted, but no sound came. He reached out hesitantly, hands shaking as though he didnât trust himself to touch her. When she stepped forward and wrapped her little arms around his neck, his breath shuddered. He closed his eyes, hugging her backâcarefully, reverentlyâlike he was holding the universe in his arms.
He pressed his face into her hair, breathing her in, whispering something so soft you barely caught it: a quiet thank you. Maybe to you. Maybe to fate. Maybe to whatever cruel miracle brought him home.
Later, the three of you found yourselves at that small dinerâthe one with the flickering neon sign and cracked red booths. The same place you used to visit when you were still pregnant, craving fries and strawberry milkshakes.
The bell above the door chimed as you entered, and the ownerâs eyes widened in recognition. âWell, Iâll be,â she said warmly, her smile soft and knowing. âItâs been a while.â She didnât ask questions. She just brought your usuals without needing to be told.
Your daughter sat between you, swinging her legs and dipping fries into her milkshake, completely content. She talked between bitesâabout her favorite class, about how she drew a butterfly today, about how her teacher said she was good at coloring inside the lines. Every story spilled out of her like sheâd been saving them for this moment, for him.
Bob listened as if each word were a gift, nodding, smiling, eyes shining in quiet awe. You caught him watching her like she was made of lightâlike he couldnât quite believe she was real. Every blink seemed like he was afraid she might disappear if he looked away.
When your eyes met, it was just for a heartbeatâbut in that glance was everything unsaid. Grief. Guilt. Love. Wonder. You looked away first, pretending to stir your drink, but the warmth in your chest betrayed you.
You werenât ready to forgive. Not yet. Maybe not for a long time. But when your daughter reached across the table to hand her father a fry, giggling when he took it like it was sacred, something inside you began to thaw.
That night, the rain started againâgentle at first, then steady, tapping softly against the windows as you tucked your daughter into bed. The sound filled the apartment, wrapping everything in a quiet, almost fragile calm.
When you stepped back into the living room, Bob was still there, standing near the door like he didnât quite belong. His hands were shoved into his jacket pockets, eyes downcast.
âI should go,â he said quietly.
You hesitated. The thought of him leaving againâstepping out into the rain, disappearing into that same silence that had haunted you for yearsâmade your chest ache. âDon't be silly,â you said softly. âIt's late. You can sleep on the couch.â
He looked up, startled by the offer. âAre you sure?â
You nodded, arms crossed like you were holding yourself together. âYeah. Itâs just one night.â
Later, when the lights were out and the apartment had gone still, you found yourself awakeâlistening to the rain, to the faint creak of the couch as he shifted. Sleep wouldnât come. The space between rooms felt too wide, too full of ghosts.
After a while, you padded into the living room. He was sitting up, elbows on his knees, staring out the window. He looked up when you approached, eyes soft, uncertain.
âYou okay?â he asked quietly.
You hesitated before answering. âCouldnât sleep.â
Neither of you spoke for a long moment. Then, quietly, you said, âCome on. The bedâs warmer.â
He blinked, stunned, but followed. You both lay there, a careful distance between youâclose enough to feel each otherâs warmth, far enough that the air still hummed with caution.
Time passed slowly. The rain filled the silence. And then, barely above a whisper, Bob said, âI love you.â
You froze.
He continued, voice breaking, each word trembling under its own weight. âI never stopped loving you. Even when my mind betrayed meâeven when I couldnât remember⊠my heart never forgot. I missed you every day. And Iâm so sorry, for everything. For leaving you to face it alone.â
Your eyes filled with tears. âYou werenât there when I gave birth,â you whispered. âI was terrified. Iâve never felt so alone. I hated you for that. I hated you so muchâŠâ You turned to face him, voice trembling. ââŠbut I hate more that I still love you.â
Bob reached out, gently cradling your face in his hands. His eyes were glassy. âIâll never disappear on you again,â he promised. âNot ever.â
He brushed his lips against your cheek, catching your tears with a shaky exhale. He paused, just above your mouth, as if the world had narrowed to the space between you. His breath hitched. He waited, eyes searching yours, uncertain, afraid of being rejected, afraid of breaking what fragile piece of you was still his.
You didnât pull away.
That was all the permission he needed. He leaned in, lips finally meeting yours. The kiss was tentative at firstâsoft, tremblingâthen deepened with desperation, aching with a year of separation, longing, and unsaid words. There were no declarations, no promises, only the raw pulse of everything you had both endured finally spilling out.
The rain tapped a soft rhythm against the window as you and Bob lay tangled together in the quiet dark. Every inch of him against you was a spark, a fire that had been smoldering for years, finally allowed to breathe. His hands traced the curve of your back, over the line of your shoulders, along the small dips and rises of your body, grounding you, pulling you back to the life you had imagined so many lonely nights. You shivered under his touch, the heat of his skin pressing into yours making every past ache dissolve.
Every movement, every brush of his fingers across your ribs, your waist, your neck, spoke of longing, of sorrow, of love that had never truly faded. When he leaned closer, lips brushing yours again, it wasnât just a kissâit was a confession, an apology, a reclamation of everything lost. Your fingers tangled in his hair, hands tracing the firmness of his back, your body arching toward him instinctively, seeking the warmth you had missed, craving the familiar safety of him.
The sound of rain, the quiet whisper of his breathing, and the thrum of your hearts beating in tandem filled the small space. Every touch sent shivers down your spine; every brush of his body, pressing into yours, was a wordless promise, a reminder of what had always been there, waiting for this moment. The subtle weight of his chest over yours, the way his warmth seeped into every part of you, made your pulse quicken, your thoughts dissolve.
His lips traced the line of your jaw, the delicate curve of your cheek, the sensitive nape of your neck, memorizing every contour, every mark, every scar of love and loss. You trembled beneath him, letting go of everything youâd held in for so long, pressing closer to him, inhaling the scent of him, the faint trace of soap and something uniquely his, and finally feeling like you were home.
Time slipped away. There were no clocks, no world beyond the soft glow of the lamp and the gentle hum of rain. The intimacy wasnât just desireâit was reclamation. It was about proving that love could survive, even when stretched, broken, and nearly torn apart. Every sigh, every whisper, every pause where your breath mingled, became a thread, stitching your hearts back together.
When the storm softened to a drizzle, the quiet of your daughter sleeping in the next room settled over you like a blessing. You lay pressed against him, tangled in sheets and warmth, the rise and fall of his chest beneath your cheek grounding you, his heartbeat syncing with yours. His thumb brushed away the last traces of your tears, lingering on your skin, sending tiny sparks through your nerves.
âI love you so much,â he murmured repeatedly, almost a prayer, almost afraid youâd vanish again.
âI love you too,â you whispered, voice trembling, âeven though I hated you. Even though I was terrified. Even though I didnât think I couldâŠâ
He tightened his arms around you, cradling you as if he could hold the whole world, as if his presence could erase every lonely year, every ache, every loss. Your body molded to his, every breath, every touch, every heartbeat a confirmation of love regained, of trust rebuilt, of hearts finding each other again.
The night stretched on, soft and forgiving, as you both lay together, hearts aligned, just breathing, just being, just feeling the quiet, unspoken vow that this time, he would never leave.
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Morning light spilled gently through the blinds, casting stripes across the room where you and Bob still lay entwined. The rain had stopped, leaving a clean, fresh scent in the air, and the world outside felt softer somehow. Your daughter was still asleep, curled into the warmth of her stuffed bear, chest rising and falling in rhythmic innocence.
Bob stirred first, careful not to wake you, though his gaze lingered on you for a long moment. The soft curve of your cheek, the faint glimmer of tears dried on your skin, the way your hand rested limply near the sheetsâit all spoke of vulnerability and trust heâd longed for. He traced a gentle line along your arm, savoring the intimacy of simply being near you, the years of absence and regret dissolving in the quiet morning.
âIâll make breakfast,â he whispered. You stirred, blinking sleepily, eyes softening as they met his.
âNo, you already did enough,â you murmured, though a small smile tugged at your lips. He only shook his head, moving to the kitchen to pull together something simple while you watched your daughter stirring, yawning, and reaching out for you. The little moments felt miraculousâmundane, yet miraculousâbecause they were no longer imagined. They were real.
Breakfast was simple pancakes and orange juice, laughter filtering softly into the room as Bob learned his daughter's little quirks, the way she tilted her head when she was thinking, the way she insisted on pouring her own syrup even if it meant a sticky mess. He smiled every time she looked at him, and slowly, cautiously, you could feel the last remnants of your fear melting away.
âMommy, can Daddy sit with us?â she asked, eyes wide.
âYes,â you said softly, your voice carrying both surrender and relief. Bobâs chest swelled in a way it hadnât in years. This was the family heâd lostâand finally, finally, he was part of it.
By mid-afternoon, Bob had nervously, cautiously led you and your daughter to the Watchtower. The air of the facility was different nowâless sterile than it had been the first time heâd met his team, more like home in a way heâd never imagined.
Yelena was the first to greet you, arms crossed but a teasing smirk on her face. âWell, this is⊠unexpected.â
You laughed lightly, a little embarrassed. âI owe you an apology,â you said. âI was rude before⊠I assumed things about Bob⊠and about you. Iâm sorry.â
Yelena waved her hand casually. âEh, donât worry about it. I get it. Youâve got a lot to process. Iâd be grumpy too if someone I cared about disappeared for years and came back just like that.â
The tension lifted immediately, and you felt a little lighter just from seeing her smile.
Your daughter, her small hand clutching Bobâs hand, bounced slightly with excitement, her wide eyes drinking in everythingâthe shiny floors, the strange gadgets, and the enormous team of âgrown-upsâ she was meeting for the first time.
âOkay,â Bob murmured to her, crouching down so he was at eye level. âThese are my friends. Some of them are a little scary, but theyâre all nice. Promise.â
Alexei crouched down immediately, grinning and extending his massive hand. âHello, little one,â he said in his deep, rumbling voice. She giggled, testing out the words, âHellooo!â before leaning toward him and giving a tentative high-five. Bob chuckled, shaking his head.
Yelena leaned against a console, smirking. âSee? I told you theyâd take you back.â
âShut up,â Bob muttered, though his grin betrayed him. Every member of the team seemed genuinely charmed by his daughter, and Bob felt a flutter of relief that this first introduction wasnât a disaster.
Bucky knelt down, softening his imposing presence. âSo, you like superheroes?â he asked, voice gentle.
âYeah!â she squealed, pointing at the monitors. âCan I see you fly?â
Bobâs chest tightened at the normalcy of it all. This is what I missed, he thought. All of this. Every ordinary, extraordinary moment.
You leaned into Bobâs side, letting your fingers curl around his as he guided your daughter around the room. He seemed almost giddy, yet careful, like he couldnât believe this was real.
âThis⊠this is perfect,â he whispered softly, almost to himself, âI never thought Iâd ever experience this.â
You kissed his shoulder lightly. âYou deserve it,â you murmured.
And in that moment, surrounded by the people who had become their family in so many waysâhis team, his child, youâBob felt a strange, unshakable happiness. It wasnât the thrill of a mission or the adrenaline of a fight. It was calm. It was warmth. It was home.
He held you close as your daughter ran off laughing, and for the first time in years, Bob let himself believe that this was the life he had been waiting forâthe life he had fought for, the life he had feared heâd never get to live, now unfolding before him in quiet, beautiful moments.
He pressed his forehead gently against yours, breathing you in, grounding himself in the reality heâd once thought lost. âI love you,â he whispered again, his voice low and steady. âI love you both so much. And Iâm never leavingânever again.â
You rested your head against his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart, and in that perfect, ordinary moment, surrounded by laughter, warmth, and belonging, you knewâfor the first time in a long timeâthat you were home.
Bob Floyd/Reynolds x Fem Richards!Reader x Mickey Garcia/Joaquin Torres
Summary: Meeting the love of your life is already a gift itself. But meeting two and have them both as your soulmates? It was more than you could have ever dreamed of. They were your blessings, your world, your everything. And when you lost them, you also lost yourself. But what happens when, in another universe, you come face to face with two men who wear their faces? Do you run from the ghosts staring back at youâor risk betraying the dead by learning to love the living?
Word count: 16.5k words
Tags/Warnings: SUPER HEAVY ANGST! Grief, heartbreak, slow-burn, friends-to-lovers, poly relationship, major character deaths, PTSD/trauma, emotional turmoil, some violence and battle scenes (I'm not the best at describing fight scenes), near-death experiences, alternate universe/variants, sambucky divorce </3, crossovers, guilt, eventual catharsis, use of Y/N, some inaccurate science talk/navy jargons and battle sequence (Iâm sorry, I havenât read the comics... please forgive me!).
A/N: I canât believe this reached 16k words⊠I definitely got carried away writing this story. I kept crying while writing it because it hits me right in the feels⊠I've been feeling especially angsty lately, and this kind of heartbreak just⊠overwhelms me. Thank you so much to everyone who voted! I hope this was worth the wait. Your support always means the world to me. Enjoy! đ
Youâve always hated first days. No matter how accomplished you are, no matter how many degrees youâve stacked under your belt, walking into a new assignment feels like being stripped down to a rookie again.
The hangar smells of oil, sun-baked metal, and jet fuelâsharp, familiar, grounding. You tug your Navy-issued jacket tighter and clutch the folder Reed practically shoved into your hands before you left New York. Try not to scare them, Y/N. Theyâre pilots, not particle physicists.
You mutter under your breath, âIâll try not to.â
Your boots hit the concrete with a steady rhythm, the same way your heart always does when youâre summoned into a room full of pilots. Youâve grown used to the whispersâReed Richardsâ sister, the one who chose the Navy over the Baxter Building. A physicist, an engineer, and a woman who builds weapons instead of wielding cosmic powers. Some admire you. Some doubt you. Youâve learned to walk with your chin lifted either way.
The briefing room hums with low chatter, the scent of jet fuel clinging to uniforms and the stale bitterness of burnt coffee drifting from a forgotten pot. Aviators and flight gloves are scattered across the table, badges catching the sterile overhead light. Most of the pilots wear the same lookâcocky grins, restless confidence, that swagger youâve come to expect.
But then your gaze catches on two individuals.
The first sits upright, quiet, a notebook already open in front of him. His pen rests just above the paper, like heâs waiting for the right moment to commit something to ink. Glasses slide a little down the bridge of his nose, and he adjusts them with a practiced flick of his fingers. Thereâs a carefulness about him, the way his shoulders slope inward, as if heâs trying not to draw attention. The name stitched into his flight suit reads Bob.
Next to him, the contrast couldnât be sharper. A buzz cut, easy grin, posture loose as he leans back like the chair was built to cradle him alone. Heâs got that restless energy, the kind that turns heads without even trying. When someone cracks a joke, his laugh is quick and unguarded, spilling warmth into the room. His callsignâFanboyâis patched over his chest.
The instructor clears his throat, pulling the room into silence. âDr. Richards will be overseeing the modifications to your targeting systems. Youâll cooperate fully.â
Thereâs a ripple of groans from the table. Fanboy doesnât join in. Instead, he tips forward, resting an elbow against the wood, grin tilting sharper. âSo, youâre the genius keeping us alive, huh?â
Bob nudges him with his elbow, a quiet check that earns no more than a playful smirk. Then Bobâs gaze flicks up and meets yours. No teasing, no bravado. Just steady, respectful curiosity.
âItâs an honor, maâam,â he says, and for a moment the noise of the room falls away, leaving only his quiet sincerity hanging between you.
The base becomes your second home, the roar of engines overhead a steady rhythm that threads through your mornings, as familiar as breathing. Faces that were once a blur start to feel familiar; callsigns slowly unfold into real people with stories, laughter, and quiet burdens of their own..
And somewhere along the way, you, Bob, and Mickey begin to fall into each otherâs orbitâslowly, quietly, like gravity pulling you closer without asking permission.
It became a routine.
Not official, not plannedâbut real, nonetheless.
You see Bob and Mickey more than you see anyone else. At first, itâs professional: hours in the simulator, you explaining recalibrations while Mickey interrupts with ridiculous what-if scenarios. âOkay, but what if aliens invade during a dogfight? Whereâs the button for that, Doc?â
Bob just mutters, âThereâs no button for that,â but his lips twitch as if he wants to laugh.
Later, it shifts. Coffee runs where Bob insists, he doesnât need anything but drinks whatever you bring him. Late nights in the lab where Mickey sprawls across a chair, tossing a stress ball in the air while you and Bob work in companionable silence.
They became constant.
You see Mickey first in the hangar, stripped down to his undershirt, grease streaked across his cheek as he helps a mechanic with a stubborn panel. âThought you were just a backseater,â you tease, clipboard in hand. He grins, winks. âBackseaters know everything. Pilots just push buttons.â
You laugh, and it feels easy, natural.
Later, you catch Bob in the mess hall, alone at a corner table, buried in a paperback thatâs already frayed along the edges. You sit across from him, curious. âWhatâs the book?â
He blinks, startled, then shows you the coverâsomething dense, scientific, way outside the usual leisure reading. You smile. âOf course youâd be the type to relax with quantum mechanics.â
His ears flush pink. âIt⊠makes sense in my head.â
And just like that, the quiet man unfolds. He tells you about stars, trajectories, the art of anticipating what pilots will never see until itâs too late. And you listen, fascinated, because it feels like hearing your own thoughts echoed back.
The first crack in the walls comes during a storm.
Training gets called off early, thunder rolling heavy over the base. Youâre caught in the hangar, rain drumming the roof, when Bob jogs inâsoaked, glasses drippingâfollowed by Mickey, whoâs laughing so hard heâs bent double.
âWhat happened to you?â you ask, shoving a towel at Bob.
Mickey can barely speak. âHeâhe tried to outrun the rain. Bob.â
Bob shoots him a glare but says nothing, just pushes his wet hair back and mutters, âIt wasnât that far.â
You canât help it. You laugh. Hard. And something in Bobâs expression shifts when he hears itâsomething that lingers.
And thatâs when you realizeâyou donât just care about them.
You love them.
Both of them.
And judging by the way they look at you when they think youâre not paying attention, youâre not the only one.
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It happened slowly, then all at once.
For weeks, thereâs been tension humming between youâthe way Bobâs hand always seems to hover just close enough to brush yours, the way Mickeyâs jokes always carry an edge of tenderness when aimed at you. The three of you orbit each other tighter and tighter, until the space between feels almost unbearable.
You try to ignore it. Pretend the stolen glances and lingering touches donât mean anything. But late one night, when youâre all in your shared corner of the worldâBob hunched over a book, glasses slipping down his nose, while Mickey sprawls across the couch with his head in your lapâyou feel your fingers absentmindedly brushing over the soft buzz of his hairâsomething breaks.
âYâknow,â Mickey says suddenly, voice muffled but steady, âthis would be a lot simpler if we just admitted it.â
Your fingers still. ââŠAdmitted what?â
Bob looks up, sharp blue eyes flashing behind his glasses.
Mickey turns his head just enough to meet your gaze. âThat weâre in love with you.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear your own pulse in your ears.
You swallow, heart lurching. âMickeyâŠâ
âDonât,â he says softly, almost pleading. âDonât tell me itâs not there. Not when you look at me like that. Not when you smile at Bob like heâs the only one who makes sense in this messed up world.â
You glance at Bob, breath catching when you see his expression. He doesnât deny it. Doesnât even try. He just looks at you like heâs been carrying this truth for longer than he can bear.
âI didnât want to ruin what we had,â Bob says quietly. âBut Mickeyâs right. I⊠I love you.â
Tears sting your eyes before you can stop them. All this time, youâd been terrified of choosingâof breaking the bond between you. And now, the truth sits heavy and bright between the three of you.
âI love you too,â you whisper, voice trembling. âBoth of you.â
Mickey sits up, eyes wide, as if he hadnât dared to hope youâd say it aloud. Bob exhales, shakily, like a weight has lifted.
âButâŠâ you begin, panic bubbling. âHow does this even work? I canât⊠I canât choose between you. I donât want to.â
Mickey grins, reckless and tender all at once. âThen donât.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âThen donât choose,â he repeats, leaning closer. âWeâve shared everything else. Why not this?â
Your heart hammers as the meaning sinks in. Bob doesnât flinch, doesnât object. Instead, he reaches for your hand, his grip steady, grounding.
âIf this is what you want,â he says softly, âthen so do I.â
And just like that, the tension thatâs been suffocating you all dissolvesâreplaced with something terrifying and exhilarating and right.
Mickey kisses you first, quick and fervent, his laughter brushing your lips. Bob follows, slower, deeper, reverent.
And for the first time, you realize you donât have to divide your heart. You can love them bothâfully, fiercely, endlessly.
One night, you were curled up with Bob on the couch, papers scattered over the coffee tableâhousing forms, legal jargon, Navy documentation. He runs a hand over his face, sighs, and then looks at you with that earnest, soft expression that always makes your heart skip.
âYou know,â he says slowly, voice quiet like heâs working the thought out as he speaks, âit would make a lot more sense if we just⊠made it official. Youâd be covered if anything happened to me. Housing, insurance, healthcare, the works. Being my wife would make everything a whole lot easier.â
Your lips part, but before you can answer, Bob reaches into the pocket of his sweatshirt and pulls out a small velvet box. The air stutters out of your lungs. His hands tremble just a little as he opens it, revealing a simple, elegant ring. Nothing flashy, nothing ostentatiousâjust like Bob.
âI donât want you to think itâs only for the paperwork,â he adds quickly, almost stumbling over his words. âI love you. God, I love you so much. And I want to spend my life with you. I just⊠I need you to know that I mean this, even if the world doesnât understand how we all fit together.â
Youâre already tearing up, hand pressed over your mouth, because itâs so perfectly him.
And then Mickey kneels down beside the couch. Heâs grinningâsoftly, not his usual mischievous smirkâand he pulls out his own box, smaller, worn at the edges like heâs been carrying it around for a while, waiting for the right moment.
âCanât let Bob one-up me, cariño,â Mickey teases lightly, but his voice is thick, the words shaking. He flips open the lid, and the ring inside glints warm under the lamp. âI donât care if the Navy or the law says itâs not possible. Youâre my heart, too. Always have been. And I want you to be mine just as much as his. Soâmarry us. Both of us. However it looks, however it works. Just⊠be with us. Please.â
The tears come hot and fast then, because itâs overwhelming, the way these two menâso different but so perfectly yoursâlook at you like you hung the stars.
Mickey stares at you for a long moment, and then his grin spreadsâbright and almost boyish, but lined with something fierce. âWhat do you say, Doc? You ready to make two idiots your problem forever?â
You throw your arms around both of them, sobbing into their shoulders as the rings press cool against your skin. âYes,â you choke out, the word tumbling out between sobs and laughter. âYes, of course Iâll marry youâboth of you.â
Bob kisses your temple, whispering, âThank you,â like youâve given him the whole world. Mickey presses his forehead against yours, his thumb brushing your cheek as he whispers, âTe amo, mi vida,â voice breaking on the syllables.
And just like that, the path is laid. Bobâs last name will be yours on paper, because thatâs what makes senseâlegality, housing, all the things that keep the three of you safe and stable. But in your hearts, in your home, in the vows youâll speak quietly in the presence of only those who matter most, youâll belong to both of them.
Not Mrs. Floyd. Not Mrs. Garcia. Something in between, something unspoken but truer than anything the law could ever capture: theirs.
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The day you officially become Mrs. Floyd is small, almost understated. The courthouse is small, the witness list even smaller: Reed, Sue, Natasha, Reuben, and Mickey in the front row with the proudest grin youâve ever seen.
When the officiant says the words, when you sign your name with shaking fingers, it feels surrealâhalf a victory, half a loss. Because you love Bob with every piece of your soul, but you love Mickey too. And the law doesnât care about that.
So, you smile for the pictures, kiss Bob softly, and let Mickey hold you both close when no oneâs looking.
The real wedding happens later that day. In Jake's backyard, beneath strings of mismatched fairy lights Mickey bought at a thrift store. The three of you are dressed in whiteâBob and Mickey in their Navy dress whites, crisp and sharp against the fading glow of sunset. You in a gown soft as moonlight, simple but impossibly beautiful, the kind that makes you feel like youâve stepped out of a dream.
There are no guests except the people who already knowâNatasha, Reuben, Bradley, Jake, and Javyâthe ones who will guard your secret with their lives, and your family. Reed and Ben arranged the flowers, Sue baked the cake, and Johnny insisted on officiating with a flair that makes everyone laugh through tears.
But when itâs time for vows, itâs quiet. Intimate.
Bob clears his throat first. His voice is soft but unwavering, like an oath whispered in a cathedral.
âThe world will probably never understand us,â he says, his gaze locked with yours. âBut I donât care. I want to build a life with you, in whatever shape it takes. I promise to keep you safe, to make you laugh, to be the place you can land when everything feels too heavy. I promise to choose you, every single day.â
Mickey steps forward next, his eyes wet and shining in the fading light. He takes your hands, pressing a trembling kiss to your knuckles before speaking.
âI canât promise Iâll always know the right words,â he murmurs, voice thick with emotion. âBut youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to me, cariño. I promise youâll never go a day without hearing me say I love you. I promise to be your partner, your friend, your family, and your home.â His throat works as he swallows hard, squeezing your fingers. âAnd I promise Iâll protect you both with everything I am.â
When itâs your turn, your voice shakes but you force it out, because you need them to hear every word.
âI donât know what I did to deserve either of you,â you whisper. âBut I promise to love you both fully. To stand by you when itâs easy and when itâs hard. To keep our home warm. To make you proud. And to remember, always, that what we have is oursâno one elseâs. I love you both. In every universe.â
One by one, you slide the rings onto each otherâs fingers. Not legal, not recognized by any governmentâbut binding in a way deeper than law.
When you kiss themâfirst Bob, then Mickeyâit felt like the world aligned. Like the universe itself had bent to hold you three together.
The house you end up in wasnât anything extravagantâa three-bedroom bungalow tucked just off base, with a sagging porch swing and a backyard big enough for a grill and a hammock. It smelt like salt and sun-warmed wood, the kind of place you didnât know you needed until you stepped through the door for the first time. Bob had found it after weeks of paperwork and whispered calls to housing, his practicality shining as always. Mickey had painted the walls himself on weekends, leaving tiny smudges of navy blue on his forearms. Youâd picked out the curtains. Itâs not perfect, but it was yours.
The mornings were your favorite. Bob always wakes up first, quietly padding to the kitchen to make coffee and scramble eggs while the house is still wrapped in dawn light. Mickey comes next, sleep-tousled and barefoot, kissing your shoulder before pouring himself a mug. By the time you wander in, theyâre already moving around each other with practiced easeâone at the stove, one at the counter, talking about schedules and flights and little things like what to buy at the grocery store.
Sometimes youâre up before them. Youâll sit at the table with your laptop, hair thrown into a bun, half-reading a research paper for Reed while the smell of bacon fills the kitchen. Bob will lean over your shoulder to kiss the top of your head, murmuring, âMorning, Mrs. Floyd,â in that warm, teasing tone. Mickey will nudge a plate of toast toward you, saying, âEat first, genius later.â You always roll your eyes, but you eat.
The evenings are just as soft. Thereâs always music playing somewhereâBobâs old vinyls, Mickeyâs playlistsâdrifting through the living room as you cook together. Sometimes theyâll bring you flowers from the farmersâ market, not big bouquets but small hand-picked ones, daisies and wildflowers that end up in mismatched mugs around the house. There are photos on the walls: one from the beach where you made your vows, one of Mickey asleep on the couch with a book on his chest, one of Bob laughing so hard heâs doubled over, sun glinting in his hair.
There are nights when theyâre both home from training and youâll all end up piled on the couch watching old sci-fi movies, your legs thrown over theirs. Mickey will braid your hair absentmindedly. Bob will run his thumb over your knuckles while explaining the flight mechanics of whatever plane is on screen. Sometimes youâll fall asleep like that, tangled together, the sound of their breathing and the flicker of the TV lulling you into dreams.
On weekends, you'd take the car out to the coast. Mickey surfs; Bob sketches. Youâll sit on a blanket with your notebooks, scribbling formulas or designs for the navy while the two of them argue over whoâs going to grill dinner later. Itâs quiet joy, the kind that doesnât announce itself but seeps into your bones, making you feel whole.
You got used to their quirks. Bob always folds your laundry a certain way. Mickey always leaves you little notesâin your coat pockets, taped to your coffee mug, on the mirror: âTe amo.â âWeâve got you.â âDonât forget to eat.â You start to feel like a living, breathing constellation, each of you a star orbiting the other two.
Some nights, when the house is quiet and theyâre asleep beside you, youâll stare at the ceiling and think about how impossible this all isâhow youâre married but not married, how the law only recognizes one of them, but your heart recognizes both. And yet⊠youâre happy. So happy youâre scared to breathe too loudly, afraid youâll wake up and find it gone.
But in the mornings, the sun always rises. Bob always reaches for your hand under the covers. Mickey always kisses your forehead before slipping out of bed. And you think, maybe this is what eternity feels like: warm coffee, quiet laughter, the soft weight of their love around you.
You never really see the cracks until itâs too late.
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It was a Tuesday when the knock came.
Youâre at the kitchen table, hair tied up messily, laptop open to some dense Maverick briefing youâve been half-reading all morning. The house still smelled like Bobâs coffee and Mickeyâs aftershave. A mug sits by your elbowâWorldâs Best Brain, a gift from Mickey. Thereâs laundry folded neatly on the couch. The hum of the dishwasher is the only sound.
You didn't expect a knock at this hour. Not when both of them were supposed to be in the air, running another training op. Not when you were used to their texts coming in waves from the tarmac.
The knock was firm. Hesitant. Like whoeverâs on the other side already knows what theyâre about to do will break something.
You opened the door and Natasha was there. Her usually neat hair is wind-tossed, her eyes rimmed red. Jake stood slightly behind her, jaw tight, hands shoved deep into his flight suit pockets. Both of them were still in uniform.
You know before they even speak.
Itâs the way Natasha's shoulders sag the moment she sees you. The way Jake avoids your eyes, staring at the floorboards like they might swallow him whole.
âY/NâŠâ Natasha starts, her voice low, soft, a tone youâve never heard from her.
âNo.â The word slips out of you, automatic, sharp. âNo, donâtââ
âTheyâŠâ She swallows, takes a step closer. Her gloved hands tremble. âBob and Mickeyâthere was an accident. During the exercise. Theyââ She canât finish. Her voice breaks.
Your ears fill with a rushing sound, like the ocean in a storm. The world tilts, blurs. Youâre suddenly on your knees on the doorstep, the cool concrete biting your skin.
âNo. No, they promisedâthey promisedââ Your voice cracks until itâs just a sound, a wounded animal noise. âThey canât be gone.â
Jake crouches down beside you, his face pale, his hand hovering like he wants to touch your shoulder but doesnât know if he should. âWeâre so sorry,â he says hoarsely. âTheyâthere was nothing anyone couldââ
âNo!â You slam your fists into the porch boards; the rings they gave you glinting against your skin. Theyâre still there. Theyâre still yours. This canât be real.
Natasha kneels then, ignoring the tears streaking down her own cheeks, and she pulls you against her chest. You donât even register it until youâre clinging to her flight suit, shaking, sobbing so hard you canât breathe.
âY/N,â she murmurs, reaching for your hand. âPlease breathe.â
But you couldn't. The grief was a living thing clawing up your throat, and then something cracked. Not in the house, not in the world, but in you.
The air hummed, sharp and electric. The floorboards under you vibrated. Your vision whites out at the edges, and heat floods from your chest outwardâan energy youâve never felt before. It tears through you like a scream you canât voice, black and green light radiating from your palms in waves that rattle the windows, flicker the lights, send the porch swing crashing into the railing.
Natasha pulls back in shock, eyes wide. âWhat the hellâ?â
Youâre sobbing, shaking, energy rolling off you in chaotic pulses, cracking the wood beneath your knees, making the very air taste like ozone. You donât know what youâre doingâyou only know that everything you love is gone, and something inside you has split wide open.
âBobby,â you whisper, your voice breaking. âMickeyââ
Jake inches closer, hands up like heâs approaching a wild animal. âY/N. Look at me. Weâre here. Breathe with me. Please.â
But you were gone. All you could see were the rings on your fingers and the empty space where two men should be. All you could feel was the energy pouring out of you, black and raw, like grief given form.
And somewhere deep in your chest, a seed of power wakes upâchaotic, unbridled, a mirror of your heartbreak.
You donât remember much after that. Everything blurred. Someone must have carried you inside because the next thing you knew, you were in your bed, surrounded by silence that feels louder than any noise. The house still smells like themâcoffee, cologne, the faint trace of engine grease that clung to their flight suits. But they werenât there. And no matter how many times you call their names, the echo that came back was empty.
The Navy sends a formal letter. Words like âheroic serviceâ and âtragic accidentâ blur together until theyâre nothing but black smears on white paper. Natasha delivers their folded flags to you personally, her jaw trembling as she salutes you before pressing them into your arms. Bradley was with her this time, and lingered on the porch, his eyes red-rimmed. Neither of them knows how to comfort you, so they simply stand guardâthe rest of the dagger squad checked on you every day, making sure you eat, making sure you breathe.
The funeral is held on base. Two caskets, side by side, draped in American flags. You sit between them, dressed in black, your hands folded in your lap with both rings still on your fingers. Natasha squeezes your shoulder before she steps up to speak. Her voice shakes as she tells the crowd about Bobâs steady courage, Mickeyâs unshakable loyalty, how they flew like they were born with wings. You donât hear all of itâyour mind is lost in the way their laughter used to fill this space, in how wrong it feels to see them boxed away.
Afterward, people come up to murmur condolences. You nod, say âthank you,â but their faces blur, their words meaningless. All you can see are the caskets. All you can hear is the sea of silence where your husbands should be.
That night, you go home alone. The bed is too big. The house too quiet. You find Mickeyâs notes still taped to the fridgeâEat first, genius later. Love you always, mi vida. You trace the words with shaking fingers before sliding down to the kitchen floor, sobbing until your throat is raw.
The days blur into one another after the funeral.
The house feels like a museum of your love, every room echoing with ghosts. Their jackets still hang by the door. Their boots are lined up neatly on the mat. You canât bring yourself to move them. The bed is too big without their weight beside you; sometimes you curl up on Bobâs side, clutching his pillow until the scent fades. Sometimes you wear Mickeyâs old hoodie, the one that still smells faintly of salt and engine oil, and pretend he just stepped out for groceries.
You try to keep busy. Reed drops off projects for you that he 'needed help with'âequations, energy simulations, drafts of new weapons systemsâbut they sit untouched on the desk. You used to love the thrill of discovery, of solving puzzles, but now even the neatest formulas feel hollow. Nothing you write will bring them back.
Food loses its taste. Music grates against your ears. You spend hours staring at the walls, your thoughts looping back to the same memories: Bobâs quiet smile across the breakfast table, Mickeyâs laugh when he kissed your cheek mid-sentence, the warmth of their hands covering yours during the vows you shared. You replay them until they hurt.
Sometimes Natasha visits. She doesnât say muchâjust sits with you, drinks her coffee, and lets the silence stretch. Once, you find her crying quietly in your kitchen when she thinks youâve gone to bed. Reuben comes by too, awkward and restless, fixing your porch swing or mowing the lawn without asking. You never thank him, but he never asks for thanks.
Your powers donât settle. They flicker and pulse beneath your skin like a second heartbeatâunpredictable, volatile, alive. At first, itâs small things. The air around you hums when youâre upset. Mugs crack in your hands when you get bad news. The lights stutter during sleepless nights, shadows stretching unnaturally across the walls.
Then come the stronger waves. A dreamâMickeyâs laugh echoing from somewhere you canât reachâmakes the whole room tremble. A flash of Bobâs smile in your memory, and the glass panes splinter without touching them. You try to contain it, to breathe through it, but grief has a way of clawing out of you, refusing to be buried.
Reed never scolds. The second time your house shook was when your family came over. Reed rushes in without hesitation, stepping over broken glass and scattered papers to reach you. Youâre on the floor, gasping, light crackling around your fingers like fire about to consume.
âI canât control it,â you choke, tears burning tracks down your cheeks. âEvery time I feel somethingâit hurts, and it just happens.â
Reed kneels beside you, voice steady and quiet. âYou donât need to control it yet,â he says. âYou just need to survive it.â
But survival feels impossible when the universe itself seems to echo their names. When you catch yourself setting an extra mug out in the mornings. When you wake to the sound of a laugh that isnât there.
Some nights, you lie awake staring at the ceiling, power thrumming beneath your skin like grief given form. You wonder if this is what they meant when they said youâd always carry a piece of them with youâif this light, wild and uncontrollable, is love refusing to die.
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The cemetery is quiet that morning, the kind of quiet that feels deliberate, as though even the world knows today is not meant for noise.
Itâs been one year. One year since you stood between two flag-draped caskets and watched the Navy bury your heart. One year since the house became a museum of what once was. One year since you screamed until your powers tore themselves out of you.
You kneel between their graves, the grass trimmed neat, the marble headstones cold beneath your fingers. Both are identical, etched with names and ranks, the kind of permanence that makes your stomach twist. Bobâs inscription calls him âsteadfast, loyal, beloved husband.â Mickeyâs reads âfearless, loving, beloved husband.â They deserve more than words on stone, but itâs all you have.
You set down the flowers carefullyâwild daisies for Bob, the same kind he used to tuck behind your ear when he caught you reading in the sun. For Mickey, sunflowers, bold and warm, the kind of bloom that always reminded you of his laugh.
âHey,â you whispered, your breath clouding in the cool morning air. Your throat tightened. âItâs been a year. And I donât⊠I donât know how to do this without you.â
Your fingers trace the carved names on the cold stone, the grooves worn smooth by time and weather but still sharp enough to cut into your heart.
âI got my powers the day I lost you both,â you whisper, voice trembling, breaking on the edges. âAnd for so long, I thought this was what I wantedâto be like Reed, to be a hero, to matter.â The words falter, swallowed by the lump in your throat. Tears blur the letters you could write from memory; every line of their names seared into your soul. âBut none of it means anything. Iâd give it all up in a heartbeat. I would trade every universe, every tomorrow, everything⊠just to have both of you back.â
Your voice wavers, thin as glass, but you force yourself to keep speakingâbecause if you stop, the silence will drown you.
âI still make coffee the way Bobby liked it, too strong for anyone else. I still find your little notes, Mickey. Theyâre everywhere. I canât bring myself to throw them away. I keep waiting for you both to walk through the door and tell me this was all just some horrible, elaborate prank.â
The tears come quietly, hot and blinding. You bow your head against the stone, the rings on your fingers glinting in the morning light.
âIâm trying,â you breathe. âI swear Iâm trying. But you promised me forever. And I donât know how to live in a world where my forever was cut short.â
The wind shifts, carrying the scent of salt from the ocean nearby. You close your eyes and let it pass over you, wishing it could be their touch.
Your phone buzzed, slicing through the silence. You sniffed, fumbling to answer.
âY/N?â Reedâs voice was sharp, panicked.
âWhatâs wrong?â Your chest seized instantly at his tone.
âItâs Franklin. Heâheâs gone. He disappeared from the lab an hour ago. We canât find him.â
The blood drains from your face. âNo. No, not him.â Youâre already on your feet, brushing dirt and grass from your clothes. âI canâtâReed, I canât lose him too.â
âYou need to come here. Now.â
The family suite in the Baxter Building was in chaos when you arrived. Sue sat on the floor of Franklinâs room, clutching his favorite toy spaceship like it was a lifeline. Johnny paced like a caged lion, flames sparking at his fingertips. Ben stood in the archway; massive stone hands curled into trembling fists.
Reed was at the central console, his arms stretched unnaturally long as he typed at three terminals at once, sweat dripping down his temples.
âTell me you found him.â Your voice cracked as you rushed to his side.
Reed turned to you, exhaustion etched into the lines of his face. âI managed to isolate a trailâan energy signature Franklin left behind. Itâs faint, but itâs there.â
Your throat was dry. âAnd?â
He pointed at the holographic display: a swirling cluster of energy waves. âItâs not from our universe.â
The words knocked the breath from your lungs. âYouâre telling me he slipped into another reality?â
âNot slipped.â Reed shook his head grimly. âTaken. Someoneâor somethingâpulled him through. The signalâs consistent with multiversal breaches Iâve only theorized about. Whoever has him⊠theyâre not from here.â
Johnny slammed his fist against the console, sparks of flame licking his knuckles. âSo what? We just sit here while heâs trapped in God-knows-where?â
âNo.â Your voice was sharp, steady despite the tremor in your hands. âWe go after him.â
Reed hesitated. âIt wonât be safe. This isnât explorationâitâs warping through universes. One wrong calculation and we wonât come back.â
You stepped closer, eyes blazing. âIâve already buried the love of my lifeâtwice. If you think Iâm sitting here while my nephew is out there alone, then you donât know me at all.â
The silence in the room was heavy. Then Reed gave a single, solemn nod.
âPrepare to launch.â
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The descent was rough. The rocket rattled as it tore through unfamiliar clouds, the coordinates dragging you toward a pinpointed beacon of Franklinâs signal. Alarms screamed in your ears until Reedâs steady voice cut through, âStabilizers are holding. Stay with me.â
When the hull finally kissed atmosphere, you looked out the viewport and froze.
It wasnât your New York. The skyline twisted with subtle differencesânewer towers where old ones should be, a glinting tower of glass and metal that stretched like a crown above the city, humming with power. Reed adjusted the controls, jaw tightening. âThatââ he said, eyes narrowing on the tallest spire. âThatâs not ours.â
You werenât the only ones there.
The landing ramp lowered, and you were met with raised weapons.
They appeared in formation, six of them, and everything about the way they moved told you they werenât civilians.
The first was a tall man with long hair and a metal arm, eyes sharp and cold, watching every angle like he expected a fight. Beside him strode a blonde woman with cropped hair, twin batons twirling casually in her handsâher smile too sharp to be comforting.
Behind them, a man with wings folded at his back stepped into the light, broad-shouldered, calm, but carrying command in every step. To his side was a man in a patriotic suit, scarred and weathered, jaw set in defiance more than pride.
A younger woman flickered between visibility and transparency, her form glitching against reality itself, while at the rear a giant of a man in a red suit trudged forward, broad and boisterous even without words.
They fanned out around the rocket, a wall of tension in human form.
The metal-armed man stepped first. His voice was flat, low. âYouâre trespassing.â
The winged man cut in, tone clipped but firm. âNoâIâll handle this.â
The words were a challenge.
The man with the arm turned his head, the movement slow, deliberate, dangerous. âWeâre the Avengers. This is our jurisdiction.â
But the winged manâs eyes hardened. His wings shifted, metal feathers flexing wide. âNo,â he said. âWe are the Avengers. Not you.â
âDonât start,â The man with the metal arm warned.
âOh, Iâm already finished,â The other man shot back. âThe Avengers name isnât yours to use. Youâre playing dress-up with a ghost, Barnes.â
âThatâs rich, coming from you,â 'Barnes', warned.
Sue grabbed your hand, whispering so only you could hear: âIf this is what Earthâs protectors look like in this universe⊠how the hell are we supposed to save Franklin?â
Sueâs fingers twitched, a shimmer of light gathering instinctively, but Reed caught her wrist. His voice was calm, diplomatic. âWe didnât come here for a fight. Weâre looking for someone. Our son.â
The blonde woman tilted her head, smirking, but said nothing. Barnes didnât move, didnât blink.
The winged man finally spoke again, tone heavy with warning. âThen youâll talk inside.â
You froze at the threshold until your hand brushed your pocket. The dog tags.
âGo on ahead,â you whispered quickly to Johnny. âI left something.â
âY/Nââ
âI need them.â Your voice cracked. He didnât argue.
As the others followed their escorts into the looming tower, you turned back into the rocket, steps pulling you toward the cockpit where those two dog tagsâyour anchorsâwaited.
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The atrium of the Watchtower was cold steel and glass, an echo chamber for tension.
The team spread out, weapons within reach, every glance an unspoken question of friend or foe. Reed explained, voice steady, framing the equations, the signal, Franklinâs trace. Sue stood at his side, protective but observant, while Ben hung back, massive arms crossed, watching for the first sign of trouble.
âWho are you people?â Reed asked carefully, eyes narrowing as he took in the strange lineup across from them.
The man with wings lifted his chin. âWe are the Avengers.â
That drew an immediate scoff from Barnes. His voice dripped with disdain. âNo. We are.â
The winged man snapped back, his wings flaring. âI already filed the patent for âNew Avengers.â Legally, the name belongs to me.â
âA lawsuit?â Reed repeated, incredulous.
Ben groaned, muttering under his breath. âWhat kinda circus are we in?â
That earned a sharp, humorless laugh from the blonde woman at the front. âTypical. Men argue about names while the world burns.â Her accent curled around the words, sharp but playful, as she smirked faintly. âFine. Since introductions matter so muchââ
She began listing them off briskly, pointing to each as she went, her voice alternating between sarcasm and reluctant professionalism. Reed nodded politely as she continued, absorbing every name with quiet precision.
ââŠand those two,â she finished, tilting her head toward the pair just entering from the corridor, âare Bob and Joaquin.â
Sue froze mid-breath, her body rigid as her eyes locked onto the newcomers. The firstâtall, soft-featured, brown hair falling slightly into his eyesâmoved with quiet caution, his gaze uncertain but kind. The second, broader and darker-skinned, carried himself with the sharp discipline, a warm smile softening the steel of his posture.
Sueâs hand flew to her mouth, eyes flooding with tears. âOh my god,â she whispered, her voice breaking. âReedâŠâ
Reed followed her gaze, his composure faltering for the first time in years. His lips parted, the brilliant mind that always had an answer suddenly blank. His entire body went rigid, cold shock flooding through him.
Ben turned, his rocky frame shuddering, disbelief cracking through the gravel of his voice. âNo wayâŠâ
Because thereâalive in this universe, impossibly standing before themâwere the faces of the men they had buried a year ago.
Bobby. Mickey.
You stepped into the atrium, dog tags clenched tightly in your fist, Johnny just a step behind you.
The moment Reed saw you, his head snapped up. His face drained of color, and he moved swiftly, planting himself in your path, his tall frame a shield.
âY/N,â he said, voice sharp, urgent. âI need you to go back to the rocket and get something for me.â
Confusion furrowed your brow. âWhat? Why canât Johnny do it?â
You tried to step past him, but he shifted, deliberately blocking your way.
âReed, whatâs wrong with you? Youâre being⊠weird,â you pressed, frustration and worry rising.
Through the small gap past his shoulder, you caught sight of Sue. Her face was pale, eyes wide and brimming with tears.
âSue,â you called, panic creeping in. Reed still stood firm, but you pushed harder. âReed! Reed, why are you acting soââ
And then your world froze.
At the far side of the room stood two men. Strangers, and yet⊠impossibly familiar.
One had longer hair, strands brushing his eyes, no glasses perched on his nose. But that gentle, warm smileâso unmistakably Bobâs.
The other, his posture sharp with a soldierâs discipline, carried the tilt of his head and the light in his eyes that was pure Mickey.
Time seemed to hold its breath as your heart clenched, recognition and disbelief warring in a single, devastating moment.
The chains in your hand slipped through your fingers, the dog tags clattering against the floor like falling glass.
The sound hit you like a memoryâ
Mickey lay sprawled across your lap, his hair tickling your fingers. You twirled a strand absently.
âWhy did you decide to grow your hair, mi amor?â you teased, tugging lightly.
His grin turned boyish, a little bashful. ââCause you always tug on Bobâs hair when you kiss him. I got jealous.â
You laughed, pushing his head gently, and he caught your wrist, kissing your palm.
Later, in the soft light of morning, you reached across the table to brush Bobâs fringe back. His glasses fogged with the steam of his coffee. You plucked them off gently, kissed his nose, watched his cheeks pinken.
âWould you ever grow your hair out?â you asked, lips curving.
âNot if it means competing with Mickey,â he murmured, smiling crookedly.
And suddenly, the room spun. Your brain split in a dozen directionsâhalf of it screaming that this was impossible, half of it raging at the cruelty, the sheer mockery of it. Like someone had reached inside you, ripped open old wounds, and twisted the knife just to watch you bleed.
Your breath hitched, jagged. No. No, no, no. This canât be happening. This isnât real. Theyâre deadâtheyâre dead, and this is just some cruel trick, some nightmare I canât wake up from.
And yet here they wereâalive, breathing, looking at you.
Your body trembled. A sob ripped out of your throat, raw and broken. Reed was suddenly there, hands cradling your face, lips moving urgentlyâbut you couldnât hear him. Everything was muffled, like you were submerged in deep water, the world reduced to static and echoes.
Your heart lurched violently, each beat jagged, wrong, like it was trying to claw its way out of your chest. Your lungs refused air, choking on the weight of grief and rage.
The walls groaned. The ground shivered beneath your feet. Light fixtures burst overhead, raining glass in a cascade that sparkled black and green as your powers bled into the air.
âJohnny!â Reedâs voice finally broke through the haze, sharp and terrified. âGet her out of hereâNOW!â
Johnnyâs arms swept under you before you could collapse, lifting you bridal-style. Flames flared from his body, wings of fire carrying you up through the broken skylight as gasps erupted below.
High above the Watchtower, your body slipped free of Johnnyâs grip, floating weightless. Sparks crawled across your skin, violent streaks of black and green tearing through the air.
âY/N!â Johnny shouted, reaching for youâ
And then you exploded.
A shockwave of green and black tore across the sky, swallowing the clouds, rattling the city to its bones. Glass shattered for blocks. Car alarms screamed. The world below was drenched in an unearthly light.
And then, silence.
Your body crumpled, fainting from the drain, your energy spent. Johnny caught you mid-fall, cradling you tight against his chest. His face was pale, panicked, but determined as he swooped down toward the plaza.
Every eye tracked you both as you landed.
You were limp in his arms, breath shallow, your face damp with tears. Johnny staggered under the weight of what had just happened, flames sputtering out.
The silence was deafening.
Bucky muttered, âWhat the hell was that?â
Yelenaâs lips parted in shock. âSheâshe justââ
Alexei barked a laugh, masking unease. âShe nearly blew a hole in the sky, thatâs what!â
Reed didnât flinch. He positioned himself between you and the gathering Avengers, his jaw set. âShe needs medical attention, not an interrogation. Back off.â
âBack off?â John scoffed, incredulous. âShe just nuked half the skyline! You think weâre supposed to justââ
âWalker,â Sam cut in, his voice a low warning. His wings folded close, eyes flicking between Reed and Johnny. âLet them work.â
There was a beat of silence.
It was Yelena who broke it, her sharp voice cutting through the still air. âFine. But someone better start explaining what the hell she just did.â
Reedâs gaze hardened, a storm of grief and calculation behind his eyes. He looked at Sue, then Johnny, then finally Benâeach of them giving a subtle nod.
âAll of you want answers,â Reed said at last. His tone was clipped, but there was a rawness underneath it. âAnd youâll get them. But not here. Not while sheâs unconscious, not while sheâs vulnerable.â
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Once you have been brought to the towerâs clinic, Reed immediately began adjusting monitors, his hands stretching with inhuman precision as he connected lines, checked vitals, and calibrated readings. Sue placed her hand on Johnnyâs shoulder, grounding him, while Ben stood guard at the door, his massive frame blocking the entrance.
Sam was the first to break the silence. âAlright. Start talking. Because thatââ he jabbed a finger upward, ââwasnât just some freak accident.â
Yelenaâs voice was cool, cutting through the tension. âAnd maybe start with why your sister almost blew a hole through Manhattan.â
Reed opened his mouth, but Sue touched his shoulder gently, stepping forward. Her calm presence softened the air, her voice even, careful.
âHer powers⊠are new,â Sue admitted, folding her arms as if bracing herself. âAnd when she gets overwhelmed, sheââ she hesitated, eyes dropping briefly to you cradled against her, ââbecomes unstable.â
Ava tilted her head, voice even but pointed. âPeople donât just unravel for no reason. Something set her off.â
The air shifted. Reed and Johnny exchanged a glance. Ben shifted his weight, rocky shoulders creaking in the silence.
Sueâs eyes flickedâhesitant, almost guiltyâtoward the two men across the room.
Bob stiffened, clearly uncomfortable beneath the weight of her gaze. Joaquin only raised a brow, looking between them, confusion written plain on his face.
Yelena narrowed her eyes, quick to notice. âWhy are you all looking at Bob like that?â
Johnny groaned, rubbing his face with both hands. âOh, this is great. Just fantastic. His name is Bob? Youâve gotta be kidding me.â He dragged his hands down his face in exasperation. âThis is just⊠amazing. Can the universe stop screwing with us for five minutes?â
That only made everyone else more confused.
Sueâs voice faltered, but she pressed on, gesturing toward the two men.
âThey⊠they look uncannily like Y/Nâs late husbands. In our universe, they diedâtragically. Seeing them here, alive, it⊠it broke something in her. She didnât lash out on purpose. She would never hurt anyone.â Sueâs throat tightened, and she swallowed hard. âSheâs just⊠grieving.â
The room went still.
Alexei blinked once, then again, before blurting in his thick accent, âWait, waitâtwo husbands?â He gestured wildly, first at Joaquin, then at Bob. âThis is⊠how you say⊠normal? In your world, da? Everyone marries two?â
Johnny rolled his eyes. âNo, old man. Thatâs not how it works.â
Ben crossed his arms, sighing heavily. âIt ainât legal there either. But the three of âemââ he jerked his chin toward you in Sueâs arms, ââthey loved each other. Thatâs all there was to it.â
Sue nodded firmly, her voice soft but unwavering. âThey werenât breaking laws. They made it work because their love was stronger than anything else. And when we lost themâwhen she lost themââ she glanced down at you again, brushing hair from your face, ââit shattered her.â
Your lashes fluttered. The hum of machinery was the first sound you registered when your eyes blinked open. The ceiling above you was sterile white, foreign, humming with energy that didnât belong to your home. Your chest heaving once before a cough shook through you.
Sueâs hands cradled your face, whispering softly as if words could anchor you to her voice.
âY/N⊠sweetheart, itâs alright. Youâre safe. Come back to me.â
âSue?â your voice cracked, raw and weak.
She smiled, though her eyes were red. âIâm here. Youâre okay.â
But when you tried to sit up, the weight of it all came crashing back. The faces. Their faces.
Your chest rose sharply, your voice breaking before you could stop it.
âI-I saw them,â you whispered, your throat raw. âI saw my Bobby⊠my Mickeyââ The names cracked against the silence, breaking you open. Your breath stuttered as your gaze swept the room, desperate, franticâuntil it landed.
And there they were.
The world fell away. The hum of voices, the scrape of boots, even your own breathâall of it vanished, leaving only the two faces staring back at you. Your lips parted, but nothing came. Only tears, spilling hot and unstoppable down your cheeks.
Reed stepped forward, his expression crumpling. âY/N⊠wait,â he said softly, voice trembling with something that wasnât command but concern. His hand lifted, palm open, as if he could catch your pain before it shattered you completely. âPlease, donâtââ
He hesitated, eyes flicking toward the two men. âTheyâre not them,â he whispered, the words breaking as he said them. âI know what you see. I know what it feels like. But I canât let you fall apart again, not like before.â
But you couldnât stop. Your eyes slipped past him; drawn like a tether you couldnât break. Bobâs brow furrowed in quiet confusion, his gaze uncertain, searching. Joaquinâs mouth parted, words caught in his throat, a question unspoken.
A sob tore from your chest, your body folding in on itself. âWhy⊠why do they look like them?â
The room fell silent at your question.
Eventually, Sam cleared his throat. âShe needs space. Weâll⊠give her that.â His tone was careful, respectful, but laced with caution. One by one, the Avengers filed out of the room, boots heavy against the floor as the door slid shut behind them.
Outside in the hallway, the air felt heavier. John Walker let out a short, awkward laugh, trying to cut through the tension. âWell⊠that was very weird, right? Who wouldâve thought Bob would end up with a hot wife like that?â
Yelenaâs head snapped toward him, her sharp gaze narrowing into a glare that could cut through steel. Her voice was cool, but every syllable dripped with disdain.
âThis is not funny, Walker. She is grieving. How would you feel if you lost your wifeâif you buried her with your own handsâonly to wake up in another universe and see her again, breathing, smiling, living without you?â
Johnâs smirk faltered, his bravado collapsing under the weight of her words. He shifted uncomfortably, throat working as if he wanted to speak but found no words. For once, silence seemed to suit him.
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The room was quiet again after the others left, the hum of machines filling the silence. Sue stayed by your side, her hand still wrapped over yours, grounding you with that steady warmth only an older sister could give. Reed lingered nearby, hands clasped behind his back, his face thoughtful but softened, stripped of the scientistâs detachment he so often wore. Johnny paced by the far wall like a caged flame, and Ben settled into a chair beside the bed, his massive frame taking up nearly half of it but radiating nothing but gentleness.
You drew a shaky breath, voice still trembling. âSue. Itâit was them. I know their faces, their voices. I still hear Mickey laughing when he burned the toast that morning. Bob⊠kissing me goodnight before he shipped out. And nowâŠâ Your throat caught. âNow the universe has their doubles walking around like it doesnât know what itâs done to me.â
Sue squeezed your hand tighter. âI know, Y/N. I know.â Her voice cracked with it. âAnd itâs not fair. Youâre allowed to feel every ounce of that pain, every bit of confusion and anger.â
You turned your head into her shoulder when she leaned down, the sobs slipping free before you could fight them. She didnât shush you, didnât tell you to stop. She just held you the way she had when you scraped your knees as a child, only now the wounds were far too deep to bandage.
Benâs deep rumble broke the silence after a long while. âThey ainât your Bob and Mickey, kid. But that donât mean what you feel ainât real. Seeing their faces againâŠâ He shook his head. âItâs a cruel hand youâve been dealt.â
Reed stepped closer, careful with every word. âWeâll keep you away from them until youâre ready. If youâre ever ready. You donât have to face them until you choose to. But right now, Y/NâŠâ His tone shifted, purpose creeping in. âWe canât let this break us apart. Not with Franklin still out there.â
Your breath hitched again. âFranklin.â
Reed nodded, his expression darkening. âThe readings are clear. Heâs here, but heâs also not here. This feels like Doomâs doingâ
Johnny stopped pacing, his hands curling into fists. âAnd you know Doom wonât waste time. Whatever he wants Franklin forâitâll be catastrophic.â
Sueâs hand stroked your hair gently as she added, âThatâs why we need you, Y/N. Youâve always been part of this team, whether you had powers or not. Youâre family. And if weâre going to get my son back, weâre going to need to work with⊠them.â
âWho are they?â you asked, your voice tight.
Reed let out a long sigh. âThey call themselves 'The Avengers'. They donât trust us yet. And I donât blame themâthey donât understand who we are, what weâre capable of. And after what they saw with you⊠theyâll be wary.â
You flinched, remembering the burst of energy, the way your grief ripped out of you until the world shook. âI scared them.â
âNo,â Sue said firmly, tilting your chin so you had to meet her eyes. âDonât blame yourself. They donât know you yet. Youâre not dangerous, Y/N. Youâre not something to fear. Youâre my sister. Youâre the woman Bob and Mickey loved so much they made a life with you, even when the world told them not to.â
Her words cracked something open in you, not in the way grief did, but like a window in a suffocating room.
Ben leaned forward, resting his stone hand gently over the bedrail. âIt ainât gonna be easy. But for Franklin, we gotta swallow pride. We gotta stand side by side with those people outside, even if itâs awkward as hell. Doom ainât the type you can fight alone.â
Johnny sighed, dragging a hand down his face. âAnd if that means dealing with the doppelgĂ€ngers too, wellâŠâ His voice softened, almost grudging. âWeâll keep them out of your way until youâre ready. Thatâs the least we can do.â
You closed your eyes, your body heavy but your chest just a little less hollow than before. Your familyâwere here, holding you together, promising that this fight wasnât yours to carry alone.
And for the first time since the funeral, you felt the faintest flicker of something that wasnât despair.
Not hope, not yet. But a reason to keep moving.
The conference room of Watchtower was sleek and modern, glass walls stretching high into the skyline. The long table felt more like a battlefield than a meeting space, the chairs occupied by two teams who didnât quite know what to make of each other.
On one side, Sam Wilson sat at the head, arms crossed, his gaze sharp and guarded. To his right, Bucky leaned back with the air of a man whoâd seen too many wars to waste words unless necessary. Yelena lounged in her chair, deceptively casual but her eyes missing nothing. Ava sat half in shadow, her posture taut like a coiled spring. John Walker looked like he wanted to be anywhere but silent, while Alexei sprawled wide with no concern for personal space.
And then there was you, seated between Sue and Johnny, the weight of every stare heavy on your shoulders. You didnât look at the men across the tableânot at the versions of Bob and Mickey who werenât yours. The ache was too raw.
Reed cleared his throat first. âWe need to establish common ground. Our goal is Franklin Richards. He has been takenâby Victor von Doom.â
The name seemed to ripple across the Avengersâ side. Samâs brow furrowed. Buckyâs jaw clenched. Yelena tilted her head, unimpressed. Alexei muttered, âDoom? Who names themselves Doom? Very dramatic.â
âTrust me,â Johnny said, leaning forward, his grin sharp. âHe lives up to it.â
Samâs voice cut through the levity, sharp. âWhat proof do you have that this Doom has the kid?â
The projection above the table shimmered, Franklinâs energy signature pulsing faintly like a heartbeat. Reedâs fingers moved across the console, manipulating the hologram until it twisted into a lattice of intersecting frequencies and warped planes of light.
âThis,â he said, voice steady but weighted with tension, âis why we havenât been able to locate him. Doom has hidden Franklin inside a pocket universe. Not unlike⊠a folded page in a book. Youâre looking at the book, but the words you need are written on the crease.â
Sam frowned. âSo ,the signalâs here, on our Earth, but the kid isnât.â
âExactly.â Reed zoomed in, the projection fracturing into ghostlike layers. âThe signature bleeds through, but the physical coordinates donât exist in your dimension. Weâll need a way to peel the fabric open, locate the seam, and push through.â
Alexei squinted at the glowing lattice. âSo⊠Doom has tiny universe in his pocket? Very impractical. What if he sits wrong and crushes it?â
Johnny groaned, dragging a hand down his face. âNot that kind of pocket, genius.â
âAh.â Alexei leaned back, nodding as though he understood perfectly. He didnât.
You sat quietly, trying to absorb Reedâs explanation while fighting the gnawing ache in your chest. Your mind should have been on Franklin, on the mission, on the danger Doom posedâbut instead, you felt the pull of two eyes across the table.
Bob.
He wasnât your Bob. His hair was longer, a little unkempt like heâd run his fingers through it one too many times. His jaw was shadowed with stubble, his posture uncertain despite the power that seemed to hum beneath his skin. But when the room grew tense, his fingers twitched against the edge of the tableârestless, awkward, searching for something to hold onto. It was the same nervous tic your Bobby had, down to the tiny tremor in his thumb.
Beside him, Joaquin leaned forward, his sharp profile framed by the projectionâs glow. You didnât know him, not really, but his warmth radiated in every movement. Heâd noticed how you flinched when Bob had spoken earlier, how your hands curled into fists against your thighs when anyone mentioned Doom or danger. He didnât call it out, but his eyes softened when they found yours.
And that almost hurt worse.
The meeting stretched on, Sam and Reed negotiating the logistics of working together, Bucky pointing out flaws, Sue smoothing over the jagged edges of both sides. Eventually, the decision was made: a reconnaissance team first, to locate the seam of Doomâs pocket universe. Time was too precious to waste.
When the room finally cleared, you lingered near the doorway, pressing a hand against the wall for balance. The air felt too thin.
âHey.â
The voice was soft, careful. You turned and found Bob standing a few feet away, his fingers worrying the hem of his sleeve. His long hair fell forward, shadowing his eyes, and for a moment you had to remind yourself to breathe.
He shifted, unsure. âYou, uh⊠holding up okay?â
You swallowed hard, voice barely a whisper. âSo, your nameâs Bob?â
A pause. Then a hesitant nod. âYeah. Robert Reynolds. But everyone just calls me Bob.â
You forced a small smile that didnât quite reach your eyes. âOf course they do.â
Before the silence could stretch too far, another figure appeared beside himâbright smile, soft eyes, an ease that Bob didnât seem to have.
âIâm Joaquin,â he said lightly, giving a small salute. âIn case you were wondering who the other guy everyone kept staring at was.â
It tugged a breathy laugh from you, fragile but real. âYour name suits you.â
Joaquinâs lingered on you and he leaned a little closer, lowering his voice. âFor what itâs worth, I donât know exactly what youâve gone through feels like⊠but you donât have to go through it alone. Not here.â
Something in your chest gave out a littleâan ache that wasnât quite pain but wasnât anything close to comfort either. You nodded, eyes wet but steady.
Sueâs voice echoed down the corridor, calling your name.
You took a step back, gathering what composure you could. âI shouldââ
âYeah,â Bob said quickly, almost tripping over the word. âWeâll, uh⊠see you at briefing.â
You gave a small nod and turned away. Still, as you walked toward Sueâs voice, you could feel them watchingâBobâs gaze heavy with things he couldnât say, Joaquinâs warm with a kindness you didnât know how to accept.
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The days that followed blurred into a rhythm of planning, reconnaissance reports, and tense discussions about Doomâs pocket universe. Everyone had a role, and you played yours quietly, but the weight of being in this world pressed on you more and more each day.
And yetâdespite yourselfâyou kept finding Bob and Joaquin at your side.
It started with small things.
One night in the towerâs kitchen, long after most had gone to bed, you stood staring at the kettle as it hissed, the rising steam fogging your glasses. Your hands trembled when you tried to steady the cup. A hand reached past you, steady and sure, turning off the burner.
Bob.
âYouâll burn yourself,â he murmured. He slid the cup toward you once it cooled, lingering just long enough for his fingers to brush yours. The warmth of his skin was familiar, cruelly familiar. You didnât trust your voice, so you whispered only a thank you and left before your knees gave out.
Then there was Joaquin.
He had a knack for breaking tension without being overbearing. On a day when your thoughts had been heavy and Reedâs science briefing only made your head pound, Joaquin caught you in the hallway, balancing a stack of mission files. He leaned in conspiratorially, grinning. âSo⊠do you think your brother can extend everywhere? Or is that, like, physically impossible for him?â
The unexpected comment pulled a laugh out of youâsmall, unsteady, but real. Joaquinâs grin widened as though heâd just won a war. âSee? I knew you had a laugh in there.â He nudged your shoulder lightly, a gesture so easy and normal it almost broke you more than comforted you.
Sometimes it was both of them at once.
During a strategy session, you ended up sandwiched between them at the table, Reed explaining theoretical entry points into the pocket universe. Bob leaned over to point something out on the screen, his sleeve brushing your arm, while Joaquin whispered a sarcastic commentary about Reedâs jargon on the other side. You had to bite your lip to keep from smiling, and for a heartbeat, it almost felt like you belonged.
But then youâd look at Bobâs handsâstrong, steady, callousedâand remember how your Bobbyâs hands used to rest on your waist in the mornings. Or youâd hear Joaquinâs laugh and be reminded of Mickeyâs wild grin when he teased you about your coffee addiction. And the ache would come roaring back.
It built slowly until, one evening, you broke.
You had gone to Sueâs quarters, intending only to ask her a question about the mission. But as soon as the door shut behind you, the words tumbled out in a rush you couldnât stop.
âI canât do this, Sue,â you whispered, voice shaking. Your hands clutched at the fabric of your shirt as if you could hold yourself together by force. âItâs too much. Every time I see themâitâs like Iâm losing them all over again. Itâs so unfair. Theyâre right there, I can see them, but it still feels like theyâre out of reach. And it hurts. God, it hurts so much.â
Sueâs face softened immediately, her own eyes brimming with tears she didnât let fall. She crossed the room in two strides and pulled you into her arms. âOh, sweetheartâŠâ she whispered, her voice breaking.
You clung to her like a lifeline, sobs ripping through your chest. âWhy does this world have to be so cruel? Itâs like Iâm being punished for loving them.â
Sueâs arms tightened around you, her voice steady even as her throat trembled. âI know. No one deserves this kind of pain. Itâs crueler than anything the universe should allow. But it doesnât erase what you lost. It doesnât erase the life you had with your Bob and Mickey. Nothing will. Your love for them was pure and real, and this isnât a punishmentâitâs a reminder of how big your heart is and how deeply you can love.â
You buried your face against her shoulder, tears hot and unrelenting. âBut it doesnât make it easier.â
âNo,â Sue agreed softly. âIt doesnât. But youâre not alone in this. You have me. You have Reed. You have Johnny and Ben. And⊠I know itâs complicated, and I know it hurts. Grief is heavy, but sometimes you need others to help carry itâif you let them.â
Her words washed over you, a fragile kind of comfort that didnât erase the pain but steadied it, anchored it. For the first time since arriving, you let yourself believeâjust a littleâthat maybe you could survive this.
But still, when you pulled back, eyes swollen and throat raw, you whispered the truth that gnawed at you most:
âI donât want to survive it, Sue. I just want them back.â
Sue didnât have an answer for that. She only held you tighter, her silence heavy but full of love.
At first, you try to avoid them. It feels safer not to look, not to let yourself linger. But forced proximity has its way of tearing down walls, and slowly, you start to notice.
The briefing room is too warm, Reedâs equations scrolling across the holo-screens. You sit with your arms folded, half-listening, when you notice Bob squinting at the projections. He leans forward, brows furrowed, like the numbers are fighting him.
Without thinking, you reach for the table beside youâwhere Bobbyâs glasses wouldâve been, always neatly folded, always within reach. Your hand closes on empty air.
It hits like a punch.
Bob notices your movement and glances at you. âYou okay?â His voice is softer than your Bobbyâsâless hesitant, more direct.
You swallow hard, forcing a nod. âYeah. Just⊠yeah.â
Later, Joaquin tosses out a sarcastic jab at Johnnyâs expense, dry and sharp. Everyone laughs, even Johnny through gritted teeth. You freeze. Mickey never teased like thatâhis humor had been all warmth, an arm around your shoulders, a smile that lit up whole rooms.
It only gets harder when proximity forces your hand.
You, Bob, and Joaquin went to scout an anomaly site outside the city. The terrain is uneven, rubble from a collapsed building forcing you to climb. You slip once, boots sliding on dust, and before you can steady yourself, Bobâs hand shoots out, firm around your wrist.
Youâre upright in a heartbeat, but his touch lingersâtoo familiar. Not familiar enough.
âCareful,â he murmurs.
âThanks,â you manage, your throat tight.
Another time, at dinner, Joaquin wordlessly takes your plate and slides half his portion onto yours. âYou didnât eat enough,â he saysâthe same words Mickey once did, but clipped, almost brusque, not tender. You thank him anyway, though the food turns to ash in your mouth.
One evening, Joaquin kneels beside you with a med kit after a scrape across your arm. His hands are steadyâmore precise than Mickeyâs ever were. You watch him tape the bandage down, the warmth of his palm firm against your skin.
âDone,â he says simply. When he looks up, you see the difference in his eyes. It makes it a little easier to breathe.
Another morning, Bob offers you his mug. âCoffee?â
You sip it automatically, then wince. âToo bitter. Bobby used toâŠâ You trail off, pressing your lips together.
Bob lets out a quiet laugh. âTruth? I donât even like coffee. I just drink it to stay awake.â He shrugs, glancing at you. âGuess that makes me different.â
Something inside you shiftsâgrief and relief tangled into one.
The breaking point comes one night when Joaquinâs sarcasm cuts too close.
Youâre all gathered in the strategy room, waiting on Reedâs revised map of Doomâs dimensional trails. Joaquin leans against the table, watching you fuss over Reedâs tablet. He smirks.
âCareful, or youâll short-circuit that thing with how intense youâre staring.â
Something in his toneâplayful, charming, familiarâsplinters your control.
âStop,â you snap, louder than you mean to. The room falls silent. You feel every eye on you, but you canât stop. Your chest heaves, your voice cracking. âDonât do that. Youâre not Mickey.â
Joaquinâs face falters. His mouth opens, then closes. He swallows hard, his shoulders tightening like you struck him. He doesnât argue. He just steps back, the smirk gone, replaced with something raw and unguarded.
The silence afterward feels suffocating. You excuse yourself before anyone can stop you.
Later, itâs Bob who seeks you out. Youâre sitting alone in one of the observation decks, the cityâs lights sprawling beneath the glass. He doesnât speak at first, just lowers himself onto the bench beside you. The quiet stretches until he finally says, softly, âDo you actually see us? Or do you only see the men you lost?â
The honesty floors you. It cracks something open inside you that youâve been trying to keep shut. You donât answer at first. Tears slip down before words can.
âI donât know,â you whisper finally. âI donât know how to look at you without hurting.â
He doesnât pushâjust studies you with that steady patience you used to know so well, but sharper now. Less hesitant.
And thatâs when it hits you: they arenât ghosts. Theyâre people. Different histories, different lives. And theyâre real.
The guilt came in waves, sharp and merciless. At night, you lay in bed staring at the ceiling, your heart torn between mourning and something new. Sometimes you could almost see your husbands in the shadows, their faces tender but unreachable. And then you would hear Joaquinâs laugh echoing down the hall, or feel Bobâs steady hand brush yours when he passed you a datapad, and the ghosts in your heart would stir uneasily.
Sue found you once, pacing the strategy room long after everyone else had gone. She leaned in the doorway, watching quietly before stepping forward.
âYouâre punishing yourself,â she said gently.
You froze.
âIâŠI feel like Iâm betraying them,â you admit, voice breaking. âI donât want to replace them. God, I could never replace them. But I feel like Iâm starting to⊠care. About their other versions. And I donât know how to hold both truths in my chest at once without tearing in half.â
Sueâs eyes soften, her hand sliding over yours. âYour grief isnât betrayal. You loved Bob and Mickey. Youâll always love them. You honor them by livingâand by allowing yourself to be you again.â
Her thumb brushes your knuckles. âMaybe thatâs what theyâd want for you. Not to forget them, but to keep living. To carry both love and loss at the same time.â
You cry into her shoulder until there are no tears left, the guilt a little lighter, though never gone.
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The Watchtower felt heavy with silence in the nights leading up to the battle. Even when there were voicesâplans being argued in the conference room, the clatter of tech being shifted, the low hum of the Quinjet engines idling in the hangarâthe silence lingered. It wasnât outside. It was in your chest.
You spent those days moving between strategy meetings and the quiet, fractured moments in between. Reed covered walls in equations, Sam bickered with him about dimensional collapse probabilities, while Sue and Alexei tried to mediate. Yet even in the heart of all that planning, your gaze often drifted to the two men who had become inescapable fixtures in your orbitâBob and Joaquin.
Your late-night conversation with Sue had cracked something open in you. It left you seeing them not just as echoes, but as people. And once you allowed yourself to notice, the differences stood out as much as the similarities.
Bob carried himself with a quiet steadiness. He was a man of restraint, someone who held his strength back as though he knew what would happen if he ever let it all loose. In that, he reminded you of Bobbyâthe same broad shoulders, the same subtle comfort of having someone solid at your side. But where Bobby had been tentative, second-guessing himself more often than he should, Bob moved with quiet certainty. His calm wasnât shyness; it was control. And every time he gave you a nod or a small smile, it twisted, because it was almost him, but not.
Joaquin, on the other hand, burned brighter. He was quick with a joke, sharp with sarcasm, his energy filling every space he stepped into. It was a different kind of light than Mickeyâs. Mickey had been warmthâopen, easy, laughter that carried you with it. Joaquinâs humor cut sharper, his charisma carrying an edge Mickey never had. And yet, when he leaned too close or grinned in that thoughtless, sunlit way, you felt your breath catch. It was like standing in a beam of light youâd thought was gone foreverâexcept this wasnât the same warmth. It was something hotter, wilder, more unpredictable.
And that was the hardest part: Bob and Joaquin werenât ghosts. They werenât your husbands come back to you. They were themselves. Close enough to stir the ache, different enough to make you realize how much you missed what you had.
You stood at the window of your quarters, watching the lights of New York glitter, reflections shimmering on the glass. Behind you, you heard the familiar sound of a soft knock. Not tentativeâgentle.
âYou havenât eaten,â Bob said as he stepped inside, his voice rough, tired. He didnât push further but set a tray down on your table. It was simple foodâsoup, bread, waterâthings he mustâve scavenged from the kitchen.
âYou didnât have to,â you murmured, not turning away from the skyline.
âI know.â His footsteps were slow, careful, as if not wanting to spook you. âBut you donât fight well on an empty stomach. And tomorrowâŠâ He didnât finish the sentence.
Your chest tightened. For a moment, in the dim reflection of the window, you saw another silhouetteâa man with broader shoulders, darker hair, the faintest memory of a smile that no longer existed. The image dissolved when she blinked.
âYouâre kind, Bob,â you whispered, your throat aching.
He shifted behind you, awkward but earnest. âIâm just trying to help.â
When you finally turned, his expression wasnât your husbandâs. It was soft, yes, but laced with a different kind of weight. His eyes werenât looking through you to someone elseâthey were seeing you. It hurt, but it also⊠eased something.
Later, Joaquin found you in the training room. He was sweating, panting, tossing off his gloves after sparring with Sam. He caught sight of you by the doorway and grinned, boyish despite the tension winding through the tower.
âDidnât think youâd be up this late,â he said, grabbing a towel to wipe his face.
âCouldnât sleep,â you admitted, crossing her arms.
He tilted his head, studying you. âYouâve got that look. Like your brainâs chewing on something until it breaks.â
You snorted softly despite herself. âYou sound like you know me.â
âIâm trying to,â Joaquin said honestly, no hesitation, no fear. âBut you donât let people in easy, do you?â
Your smile faltered. âI did. Once. But the people I let inâŠâ You trailed off, your throat closing, because the ache was too familiar, too raw.
Joaquin stepped closer but kept his distance, enough space that you didnât feel cornered. âThey mustâve been lucky. To have you.â
Your eyes burned. You wanted to tell him that he didnât understand; that every glance you gave him and Bob cut like glass because of how much they reminded you of ghosts. But you couldnât. Instead, you swallowed and whispered, âYou remind me of him. Both of you do.â
He sobered at that, his gaze softening. âAnd that scares you?â
âIt feels... wrong,â you confessed, voice cracking. âLike Iâm betraying them. Like if I⊠if I let you in, Iâm erasing them. And I-I canât.â
Joaquin exhaled slowly, running a hand over the back of his neck. âWeâre not them, Y/N. And weâre not trying to replace them. But maybe⊠you donât have to erase anyone. You just have to live.â
You turned away before he could see the tears welling in your eyes.
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The air in Doomâs pocket universe was wrong. It shimmered, heavy with static, every breath like inhaling sparks. Gravity bent in unpredictable waves, chunks of ruined landscapes folding in on themselves, floating like broken puzzle pieces suspended in a void. Franklinâs faint energy signature pulsed from a citadel at the centerâan impossible construct of jagged metal, spires curling into black skies. And at its heart, Doom waited.
The battle began the moment you crossed the threshold.
Sam flew overhead with his wings blazing red, streaking across the battlefield to draw fire away. Yelena and Ava darted forward as a two-person strike team, weaving through collapsing terrain to plant charges along Doomâs defenses. Johnny flared bright, cutting across the horizon in a trail of fire, while Ben barreled through collapsing rubble with fists that could shatter mountains.
The first wave of Doomâs golems hit hardâhulking machines of jagged steel and shadow, green eyes burning like coals. You thrust both hands forward, and for the first time in battle, you didnât hold back.
The chaos ripped out of you.
Black and green energy seared the air, exploding in a shockwave that sent the first rank flying. Stone cracked, steel warped, shadows screamed as they disintegrated in your wake. The force rattled your bones, every nerve screaming, but you stayed standing, fingers trembling with the raw, hungry current pouring through you.
âEyes up!â Joaquin shouted, his voice carrying through the chaos. He fired in short, precise bursts, covering Yelenaâs advance as she vaulted over a collapsing walkway. And Bob stood at the edge of the battlefield, eyes glowing faint gold, power humming around him like a living aura.
When a construct lunged for Sue, he simply raised his hand, and the thing unraveled mid-air, atoms scattering into motes of light. Every movement of his was deliberate, quiet, restrained. The raw power underneath him was terrifying.
A seismic blast rocked the field. The ground cracked beneath your feet, sending you stumbling. Bucky grabbed your arm to steady you before raising his rifle, metal arm gleaming as he unloaded into a towering automaton. Alexei roared with laughter as he charged into another, swinging a wrecked metal beam like a club, sparks showering around him.
And then Doom himself descended.
He floated above the citadel, cloaked in tattered green that rippled like living shadow. His mask gleamed cold and merciless, voice echoing unnaturally as he lifted a hand. A surge of emerald energy exploded outward, tearing apart the charges Ava and Yelena had placed. The force sent Sam spiraling mid-flight, his wings smoking. Sue expanded her shield to catch him before he hit the ground, teeth grit from the effort.
âYou come to steal what is mine,â Doomâs voice rumbled across the sky, âbut this boyâs power belongs to me.â
A storm of energy bolts rained down. Reed stretched around Yelena and Ava, shielding them as Ben barreled forward to intercept. Johnny flared bright, burning back the shadows that reached for them.
âY/N!â Reed shouted, pointing at the glowing siphon on Doomâs back. âWe need to overload itâFranklinâs in there!â
Rage spiked in your chest, raw and endless. Franklinâs faint light flickered in Doomâs siphon, his small body suspended, drained. You screamed, the sound ripped from your soul, and your power exploded outward.
The ground cracked beneath you. Black-green tendrils of energy tore through the battlefield, skewering Doomâs constructs, unraveling them into smoke. The sky itself warped, stars flickering like they were being drowned in your grief.
Bob moved closer, golden aura wrapping around him like a shield, steady and patient where you were wildfire. His hand brushed your shoulder as he deflected incoming blasts with casual sweeps of pure force. âDonât lose yourself,â he murmured, voice soft but unyielding.
âCover me!â Sam orders, wings snapping outward as he rockets upward. Bucky and Yelena form a protective arc, laying down fire. Joaquin darts into the air too, wings slicing elegantly, covering Samâs flank with perfect synchronicity. You catch yourself staring for just a secondâbecause God, he moves just like Mickey.
But every blow only seemed to feed Doom, the stolen power amplifying him. With a flick of his wrist, rubble turned into meteors; with another, shields of green light flared around him. Spells wove into strikes, each gesture as elegant as it was lethal.
âYour resistance is meaningless,â Doom intoned, lifting both hands as a wave of emerald energy tore the battlefield apart. âThis world will be reshaped in my imageâand the boy will be its core.â
The ground split beneath you, throwing you hard into a jagged pillar. Pain shot through your ribs, but you staggered upright, energy trembling wild at your fingertips.
âNot today,â you hissed.
Bob was instantly at your sideâa shimmering field of gold light that deflected incoming blasts. He glanced at you briefly, power burning in his eyes, steady as a mountain.
âMove,â he said quietly, and for a moment the voice was Bobbyâsâbut not.
Joaquin dove low, scattering smoke canisters with a snap of his wings, shielding your path. You sprinted forward through the haze, heart hammering in your ears. And then the air screamed as a torrent of green energy hurtled toward you.
The blast tore through your chest before you could brace, agony consuming everything. It felt like fire and ice burning from the inside out, your unstable powers flaring uncontrollably. You heard someone scream your nameâBob? Joaquin? Both?âas you were hurled backward, body weightless in the explosionâs wake.
The battlefield blurred into streaks of light and shadow. You only felt arms catch you, trembling but unyielding. Bob's voice broke as he held you. âStay with meâdonât you dare close your eyesââ
But the world is dimming, your vision collapsing to black. And for the first time in months, maybe years, you feel the smallest flicker of peace. Because maybe this is it. Maybe youâll finally see them again.
Your last breath catches on a whisper as the darkness takes you:
âBobby⊠MickeyâŠâ
The battlefield thundered on without you.
Bob lowered you gently behind a boulder, his breath ragged as he pressed a trembling hand to your wound. âNo, no, noâdonât you do this, not here, not nowââ His voice cracked, desperation clawing at every word. Joaquin slid in beside him, face pale, both hands trying staunch the bleeding. âWe need to get her out of here!â he roared across the chaos, sheer panic evident in his eyes.
But the fight pressed on around them.
Sam barked orders overhead, his wings slicing through the smoke as he dropped a hail of micro-bombs onto Doomâs advancing constructs. âWe donât hold this line, everyone dies! Focus and push him back!â
Johnny blazed higher into the sky, screaming through clenched teeth as he unleashed a nova burst that split the air in molten fire, buying seconds for Reed to slingshot his body around Doomâs defenses and land a rubber-whip strike against the gauntlet channeling Franklinâs energy.
Sue staggered, blood streaking down her temple as she forced another barrier into place. She was faltering, and Ava darted into the gap, phasing through the rubble to take down three drones before they reached her. Yelena slid across the ground, knives flashing as she pinned a mechanical hound in place long enough for Bucky to crush its skull with a single, brutal strike.
Doom barely budged. Every hit only seemed to make him stronger, the energy drawn from Franklin wrapping him in a blinding aura. âYou fight like gnats against the inevitable,â he boomed, raising his hand to unleash a wave of force that sent allies scattering like ragdolls. Alexei hit the ground with a thunderous crash, groaning as he tried to get up again.
Then came the crackâReedâs elongated arm slamming into the core of Franklinâs chamber. The glass spiderwebbed, energy spilling out like liquid light. Franklin stirred, weak but alive. Doomâs head snapped toward the sound. âNo!â he bellowed, surging forward.
Sue screamed, both hands thrust out, and a shimmering dome slammed down between Doom and the chamber. The forcefield shook under the impact, Doomâs power pounding against it like a battering ram. âI canâtâholdâitââ
Sam dove low, Joaquin right on his wing, both unloading everything they had at Doomâs side. Bob left your side for only a second, blasts of energy left his palms and tore chunks of molten metal from Doomâs armor. The villain staggered, attention divided. Johnny roared overhead and drove himself like a meteor into Doomâs chest. The explosion that followed lit the battlefield like a second sun.
And in the chaos, Reed stretched again, his fingers hooking Franklinâs trembling form and yanking him free from the collapsing chamber. The boy gasped as the last of Doomâs siphon shattered into sparks.
âNO!â Doom howled. He swung his arm, unleashing a final cataclysmic blastâonly to hit Ben head-on. Â He took the strike like a mountain, planted his feet, and grunted through the force. âNot today, Victor.â With one final roar, he slugged Doom across the jaw, sending him careening back into the wreckage.
The energy storm around Doom collapsed, unstable, and with a crack like thunder, the pocket universe doorway buckled in on itself. A shockwave flattened the battlefield, hurling everyone to the ground. When the dust cleared, Doom was gone.
Only silence remained, broken by the ragged panting of battered heroes. Franklin clung weakly to his father, Sue pressing both hands to his face as tears streamed down her cheeks. âWeâve got you,â she whispered, voice shaking. âWeâve got you.â
But you didnât hear any of it.
The scent of coffee filled your nostrils.
Warmth pressed against your cheekâsunlight filtering through gauzy curtains, the faint tick of a clock on the wall. You knew this place, though your mind trembled at the thought. You were home.
âMorning, sleepyhead.â
The voice nearly broke you. Bob. Standing there in the doorway, hair a mess, grinning like he always did when he caught you napping on the couch. He carried a mug in one hand, steam curling upward.
Before you could reach for him, another warmth sank beside you on the couch. Mickey. His hand found yours with that same steady tenderness that used to ground you when the noise became too much. âYou scared us,â he murmured, his thumb tracing small circles over your skin. âYouâve always pushed yourself too far.â
Your throat closed. âYouâre here,â you whispered. âFinally.â
Your chest achedâright where Doomâs blast had torn through you. You pressed your palm there. âMaybe this is it,â you breathed. âMaybe I can stay here with you.â
Mickey only shook his head, his dark eyes soft and sad. âNot yet, mi vida,â he said, voice barely above a whisper.
Bob moved towards you and kissed your temple, his voice shaking even though he tried to sound light. âCâmon, you think weâd let you off the hook so easy? Youâve still got so much left, my love. People who need you. People whoââ His gaze softened, knowing. ââcare about you.â
You clung to them both, shaking, sobbing against the fabric of something that felt so real you wanted to break apart just to stay there. âI miss you,â you choked. âI donât know how to do this without you.â
Mickey brushed his forehead against yours, whispering, âWe miss you too. Every second. But Franklin still needs you. Reed still needs you. They all do.â
Bob leaned in, pressing a kiss to your hair, and this time his voice was firmâsteady like the hero he had always been, even when he doubted himself. âLive, my love. For us. For Franklin. Weâll always be with you. Every sunrise. Every heartbeat. Youâll feel us there.â
Their warmth began to fade, sunlight thinning into white. The sound of the clock grew louder, each tick pulling you back toward the world you didnât want to return to. You reached out, desperate, but your hands passed through them like light through mist.
And then you heard them one last timeâtogether, their voices overlapping, soft and sure:
âWe love you. Always.â
You woke with a sharp gasp, the air tearing into your lungs like fire. Every breath felt heavy, jaggedâlike the world had been stitched back together around you.
For a heartbeat, there was only blinding white. Then warmth. Small hands pressed gently over your sternum, a soft blue glow fading into gold. Franklin stood above you, his expression unreadable, tears streaking down his face as the light dimmed from his palms.
You tried to speak, but no sound came out. The world swam around youâthe smell of smoke, metal, ozoneâand then you saw them. Sue, kneeling behind Franklin, one trembling hand over her mouth. Reed, frozen, eyes glassy with both awe and fear. Johnny, whispering something you couldnât catch.
âY/Nâhey, stay with me,â you heard Joaquinâs voice cracked through the haze. He was kneeling beside you now, one hand clutching yours like he was anchoring you to life. His face was pale, streaked with ash and worry.
Behind him, Bob stood guard, silent and steady, eyes burning with a mix of fear and relief. His hand hovered, uncertain, before finally resting on your shoulder.
Your chest ached. Your vision blurred. And before you could stop yourselfâyou began to cry. Because your husbands were gone, yet somehow, impossibly, still with you.
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The aftermath was heavy with smoke and silence.
The sky had dimmed back into its natural gray, the pocket universe fully collapsed, leaving only shattered ground and the smell of scorched earth where Doomâs citadel once stood. Franklin slept soundly in Sueâs arms, Reed already running calculations on the stabilizer heâd rigged to close the breach. The Avengers were regrouping, some wounded, some silent, but all alive.
And you sat on the medical cot inside what had been hastily set up as a triage tent, staring at your hands. They wouldnât stop shaking.
Sue knelt in front of you, her eyes so kind it nearly hurt to look at them. âWe saved Franklin,â she said gently, thumb brushing the back of your knuckles. âWe can go home.â
But your throat burned as you forced the words out. âI saw them, Sue. In the dream. Bobby and Mickey⊠they told me it wasnât my time. And I want to believe that. But when I look atââ Your gaze flicked outside, where Bob stood in the distance, arms crossed, posture protective as ever. Joaquin leaned against a ruined pillar nearby, his face tight with exhaustion but his eyes never straying far from you.
ââwhen I look at them, itâs like Iâm betraying the people I loved most. Like Iâm being pulled in two directions, and both feel wrong.â
Sueâs expression softened, her lips parting in quiet understanding. She reached up, cupping your face with both hands. âYouâre not betraying them, Y/N. You loved Bobby and Mickey with everything you had, and they loved you back. That doesnât vanish because your heart still has room to care again. Itâs not replacing themâitâs carrying them with you while you keep living.â
Your chest tightened, your tears spilling over despite your attempt to hold them back. âBut it hurts so much.â
âI know,â Sue whispered, pulling you into her embrace. âI know it does. But donât shut yourself away from something that could bring you joy just because youâre afraid. Theyâd want you to be happy. You deserve to be happy.â
You clung to her like youâd break apart otherwise, the sobs quiet but raw, until exhaustion forced them to slow.
A week later, the world had gone quiet in a way that felt almost unnatural. The air in the Watchtower wasnât filled with alarms, shouting, or the metallic tang of battle anymoreâjust the low, constant hum of power lines and distant city noise. Franklin was stable, Doomâs pocket universe sealedâat least for now.
Your bruises had faded, but the ache in your chest hadnât. Reed had askedâtwiceâto take you back home to your own universe, to let the wounds scab over in familiar surroundings. But every time you looked at the readings from the sealed breach, your gut whispered the same thing: this wasnât over.
âIâm staying,â youâd told him, your arms crossed as if to hold yourself together. âIf it reopens, if Doom comes back, theyâll need someone here who knows how to stop him.â
Reedâs jaw had worked, a thousand arguments sitting unsaid behind his eyes. In the end, he only nodded. âWeâll come back for you when itâs time.â
Now, with the Quinjet engines humming beneath your feet, you sat in the co-pilotâs seat, staring out at the clouds. Youâd asked Bob and Joaquin to accompany you, the three of you flying to your universe while the rest of your family took the rocket back. You needed to say goodbye properlyâbecause you didnât know if youâd ever come back.
The graveyard was silent when you arrived. The late afternoon sun cut through the trees in shafts of gold, painting the stones warm. The wind carried the scent of cut grass and rain-soaked earth. You had walked this path hundreds of times, yet every step felt heavier today.
You stopped at the markers you knew by heartâBobbyâs, Mickeyâs. Two headstones side by side, their edges softened by rain and time. Your knees hit the grass before you realized you were kneeling. The ground was cool, the granite cooler still under your palm. For a long moment you just sat there, head bowed, trying to breathe.
Behind you, Bob and Joaquin lingered at the edge of the path. Bobâs eyes were fixed on the horizon, his posture stiff, his hands in his pockets like a man trying not to intrude. Joaquin shifted, his usual easy grin nowhere to be seen, his knuckles white where he gripped the strap of his jacket.
âThey were my world,â you said softly, the words fracturing as they left you. âI loved them. I still do. And now Iâm here, standing beside two men who look like them, who feel like themâbut theyâre not. And I donât know what to do with that.â
Your throat tightened, tears slipping hot down your cheeks. âI needed you to meet them,â you whispered. âEven if itâs like this. Because I canât move forward without knowing you understand where my heart has been⊠and what itâs still holding.â
For a heartbeat, only the wind answered. Then footsteps behind youâsoft, hesitant. Bob came forward first, crouching a few feet from you. His gaze stayed on the headstones as he spoke, his voice low and rougher than usual. âI⊠canât imagine what thatâs like,â he said. âBut Iâm honored that you brought us here.â
Joaquin moved to your other side, his hand brushing your shoulderâjust a touch, not a claim. âTheyâd want you to live your life,â he said gently. âAnd so do we. However you need to. However long it takes.â
The words cracked something open inside you. You pressed your forehead to the cool stone, closing your eyes, letting the tears come. Images of Bobâs hands, of Mickeyâs laugh, of mornings spent in the kitchenâthe scent of coffee, the fog on Bobâs glasses, Mickeyâs hair brushing your fingersâflashed behind your eyes. Youâd thought seeing their faces again, even on different men, would kill you. Instead, it reminded you of why you were still fighting.
When you finally lifted your head, the sky was deepening toward dusk, violet shadows pooling under the trees. For the first time in a long time, the ache in your chest easedânot gone, never gone, but eased.
Bob and Joaquin waited quietly, saying nothing, giving you space. You turned to them, wiping your cheeks, your smile fragile but real. âThank you,â you murmured. âFor being here. Even if Iâm not sure when Iâm going to be ready.â
âThatâs okay,â Bob murmured, surprising himself. âYou donât have to know. Just⊠be here.â
Joaquin nodded, his lips quirking just enough to be reassuring. âWeâre not going anywhere.â
You reached out, one hand brushing each of their wristsâa gesture that was part gratitude, part promise. Standing between what youâd lost and what might still be possible, you felt, for the first time, the faintest spark of peace. Not an ending, not yet. But maybeâfinallyâthe beginning of healing.
Above you, the sun dipped lower, catching in the branches and breaking into a thousand shards of light, as if even the sky was trying to tell you: not all endings are dark.
Bob Reynolds/Sentry/The Void x Thunderbolts!Reader
Summary: After overhearing you were âjust a friend,â you decide youâve got two missions in Vegas: save the day⊠and show Bob Reynolds exactly what heâs been missing.
Word Count: 6.8k words
Tags/Warnings: SMUT! 18+ MDNI pw a lot of plot, slow burn, friends to lovers, fluffy ending, biting kink, unprotected p in v, oral (m receiving), jealous!Bob, some violence, sexual content, adult language, slight angst, mutual pining, idiots in love, mentions of insecurities, eventual smut, no use of Y/N.
A/N: Sorry I disappeared for like 2 weeks. Work is eating me alive and been busy trying to write the multiverse angst :(((
Valentina always had a taste for collecting broken things. Thatâs what you told yourself when she recruited youâa sharp bite, a few seconds of paralysis spreading through someoneâs veins, and the fight was already yours. Sheâd smiled like she was unwrapping a present when she found out, and soon you were folded into the chaos of her Thunderbolts.
The others didnât know what to make of you at first. Ava eyed you with suspicion, Yelena with curiosity, John with his usual loud-mouthed bravado. Bucky gave you the quiet nod of someone who saw another professional. Slowly, though, you blended in. You laughed with them. You bled with them.
And then there was Bob.
He didnât laugh like the rest of them. Didnât talk, eitherâat least not much. He lingered on the sidelines, shoulders hunched as if he were making himself smaller despite being taller than most of the team. They called him shy. Some muttered fragile. But when you caught sight of the book in his lap one afternoon after training, you froze.
The Creative Act: A Way of Being.
The same book on your nightstand.
Youâd sat beside him without thinking.
âYouâre reading that too?â
He jumped slightly, like youâd startled him. Then he lifted his head, eyes cautious. âUh⊠yeah. Helps me⊠keep things in perspective.â
That was the beginning.
Lunch breaks turned into small ritualsâplastic takeout containers spread on a park bench, both of you silent, the only conversation the occasional line about the book you were reading, or an observation about the people passing by. Training sessions ended with Bob waiting, almost sheepishly, for you at the door, walking you back to the tower without a word.
One evening, when the sun dipped low and painted the world in gold, Bob finally spoke more than a handful of words.
âYou ever feel like⊠youâre supposed to be someone else?â His voice was rough, soft, like gravel under velvet.
You turned to him, brows furrowed. âSomeone else?â
His hands tightened around the paperback he carried everywhere. âThe Sentry. PeopleâValentina, the teamâthey look at me and see what I should be. Not what I am. And when they say itâwhen they remind me Iâm not himâI⊠I hate it. Makes me feel⊠useless.â
His jaw tightened, the insecurity carved raw into his face. You watched him fight with himself, every word dragged up like it cost him blood.
"And they donât understand. I donât get to be the hero without the monster. One doesnât come without the other. And if I lose that balanceâif I lose controlâitâs not just me who gets swallowed. Itâs everything.â
The words scraped out of him raw, as if theyâd been festering for years. His eyes distant, haunted by something far bigger than himself.
You leaned closer, steady even as his confession hung heavy between you. âYou are so much more than that, Bob.â
When he fell silent, you reached out, brushing your fingers against his armâand swore you felt him shiver.
His head snapped toward you, surprise flashing in his blue eyes.
âAnd besides,â you added softly, âI like... just Bob.â
For a moment, he stared like youâd spoken in another language. Then he looked away, shoulders hunching again, but you didnât miss the faintest ghost of a smile tugging at his lips.
The park bench became your place after that. And Bob showed you, in small, stubborn pieces, that he was more than the Sentry. More than the Void.
He was simply himself.
One day, after training, you found him waiting at the park bench where you usually ate together. This time he had two coffees. He held one out, eyes flicking to the ground.
âDidnât know how you take it, so⊠uh⊠I just got cream and sugar on the side.â
The heat that rose in your chest was more potent than your venom. You thanked him, and the two of you sat there sipping in silence, broken only by the sound of birds and the occasional page turning from his book.
Sometimes, though, he surprised you.
Like the night you were stuck in the library, half-asleep over a mission report, when a blanket was draped over your shoulders. You looked up to see him standing there, awkward and blushing, as if caught in the act.
âYou were shivering,â he muttered. âCouldnât⊠just leave you like that.â
You didnât know what to say. So, you just smiled, and for once, he smiled back without looking away.
It was quiet moments like those that carved their way under your skin. He wasnât flashy. He wasnât loud. But he was steady. Kind. Unshakably gentle in a world that demanded cruelty.
And you'll be damned, you were falling for him.
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Youâd gone looking for Bobâtraining had run long, and you thought maybe heâd still be hanging around the weight room. Instead, you stopped short just outside the door when you heard voices echoing off the concrete walls.
John. Loud, teasing, relentless.
âCâmon, Robert, just ask her out already. Everyone can see it. Youâre soft on her.â
You froze, pulse spiking.
Bobâs voice followed, sharp in a way youâd rarely heard before. âSheâs my friend, Walker. Thatâs all.â
The word friend stung, but it was the tone that gutted youâclipped, impatient, like he wanted to slam the door shut on the very idea.
John laughed. âBullshit. Youâre mooning after her every time she walks in a room.â
âI said drop it,â Bobâs voice was tight, fraying at the edges. âItâs not⊠Itâs nothing like that. Iâm notââ He cut himself off, jaw clenching audibly. âForget it.â
You didnât wait to hear more. Didnât want to. You turned on your heel and walked away, heart hammering so loud it drowned out everything else.
Bob stood there, breath ragged, knuckles white around the barbell.
Why did he always let John get under his skin? Why couldnât he just keep his mouth shut?
He hadnât meant it like that. Not really. You werenât just his friend. Hell, you were the only one on the team who actually saw him, who didn't treat him like he was some fragile failed experiment Valentina collected like junk.
But the thought of saying it out loudâof admitting how he feltâmade his stomach twist. He could already picture your face, the pity in your eyes.
And so, heâd snapped, denied it, shoved the words down before they could make him vulnerable.
Not aware that you have heard and misunderstood him and that by the next morning, you'd made your decision: creating distance.
Your greetings turned curt. Where you once lingered in hallways for quiet talks, you now veered off without a glance. Park lunches became solitary affairs, your bench empty of him. Even when he triedâhovering in doorways, offering awkward half-smilesâyou shut it down with practiced coldness.
And Bob⊠he let you.
You told yourself it didnât matter. That it was better this way. That you werenât going to be the fool who wanted someone who didnât want you back.
But every time you caught him out of the corner of your eyeâreading alone, eating alone, existing like he was trying to take up less spaceâyou felt the sting of your own cruelty.
You had to remind yourself: he chose this. He said it himself.
Just friends.
But Bob wasnât stupid. He noticed the shift the moment it happened.
At first, he thought you were just tired. Missions ran long, nights got lateâhe told himself you needed space. But then space turned to silence, silence turned to avoidance, and suddenly, you werenât beside him anymore.
Heâd linger outside the park, container of lo mein balanced in his hand, watching the bench where you used to sit. Now empty.
In the gym, he caught himself looking up whenever the door opened, waiting for you to slide in. Instead, you stayed away, sending Yelena or Ava in your place for partner drills.
And it gnawed at him.
What did I do?
He replayed every conversation, every quiet walk, every hesitant smile. He thought of the night John had needled him, of his own voice snapping sharp: Weâre just friends.
The memory made his stomach drop. Had you heard that? Had you taken him at his word?
Bob buried himself in routine. Training until his arms trembled, reading the same page three times before realizing he hadnât absorbed a word. Anything to drown out the ache. But it didnât work. The truth sat heavy in his chest: he missed you.
He missed your calm voice when the others got loud. Missed the way you looked at him like he wasnât a failed promise of someone greater. Missed the way silence with you felt like safety, not punishment.
He hated how much he wanted it back.
And worseâhe hated himself for not being brave enough to fix it.
So when you passed him in the hall, eyes cool, mouth pressed thin, Bob shoved his hands in his pockets and let you go.
But inside? Inside he was burning.
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Valentinaâs summons came in private.
âClose the door, sweetheart,â she said, voice smooth as silk.
You did. The air already felt heavier.
She patted the seat beside her, but when you stayed standing, she only smirked. âSuit yourself.â
On the table lay the file. A middle aged manâs face stared back at youâsharp jaw, sharkâs smile, the kind of tailored confidence money buys.
âOliver Drake,â Valentina began, tapping her finger against the photo. âTech billionaire. Likes casinos, showgirls, weapons no government should touch. Heâs in town, and word is heâs making a very expensive deal tonight.â
Your eyes narrowed. âWhatâs the catch?â
âThisâŠâ She leaned forward, pouring warmth and poison into her smile. âIs for your ears alone.â
You folded your arms. âWhy not tell the team?â
âBecause,â she said, swirling her drink, âI want to see how they work when theyâre not being coddled. How they adapt under pressure.â Her eyes cut to yours, sharp and calculating. âThink of it as a test driveâfor you and the entire team.â
Your stomach tightened. She wanted you to lie on your own teammates.
âAnd if I fail?â you asked quietly.
Valentinaâs smile widened, all teeth. âThen youâre just another pretty face who couldnât keep up. But I have a feeling you wonât disappoint me.â
You understood what she meant. The Thunderbolts were hers to mold, but she needed proof you were worth her leash.
And what better bait than a night in Las Vegas?
âVegas, anyone?â you announced casually to the team, dropping the invite like it was nothing. âMy treat. Drinks, dancing, forgetting weâre government dogs for a night?â
Yelena arched a brow. âYou, dancing?â
Ava smirked faintly. âIâd pay to see that.â
John groaned. âWeâre supposed to be a team of heroes, not bachelorettes.â
Even Bucky sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose. But they agreed, if reluctantly.
The girls were delighted when you let them raid your wardrobe. Ava couldnât exactly wear any of them but she still humored Yelenaâs fashion show, adjusting the color display on her suit until it shimmered a soft champagne tone. âClosest Iâll get to a slip dress,â she joked dryly.
Yelena, on the other hand, held up your glittery bralette with a scrunched nose. âThis cannot possibly count as clothing,â she muttered, turning it over like it was a tactical error.
You grinned. âThatâs the point.â
Ava smirked. âPretty sure this whole night is the point.â
âHey, weâre just going to grab something to eat in the lounge. Are you going to be okay here?â Yelena called through your bathroom door, still adjusting the most âdecentâ piece of clothing sheâd found.
âYeah, sure. Iâll be right out. Iâll meet you guys there,â you answered.
You looked at yourself in the mirror, all glammed up, bright red lipstick painted on as you felt the resolve harden in your chest. If Bob thought you were âjust friends,â then fine. Youâd prove you could be untouchable.
By the time you reached the lounge, the room had gone quiet.
Youâd traded your usual understated look for something bolder: a dress cut indecently high on the thigh and scandalously low at the chest, jeweled straps glittering under the light. A fur coatâlong, lush, and unmistakably expensiveâslid from your shoulders as you adjusted it, heels clicking sharp against the marble floor.
âHoly shit,â Yelena muttered, delighted.
Even Ava blinked, lips parting before she smirked. âDidnât know you had that in your closet.â
John let out a low whistle and Bucky smirked. âSheâs gonna cause a bar fight before we even hit the floor.â
But it was Bobâs reaction you wanted.
His eyes flicked from the curve of your thigh to the swell of your cleavage, then snapped guiltily to the floor. His ears flushed crimson. His throat bobbed, eyes wide, dark, and so hungry it made your stomach twist.
For a second, you almost softened.
Then you reminded yourself: friend.
And you gave him nothing but a cool smile before striding past.
The club was a thunderstorm of sound and light. Music pulsed through the floors, neon fractured across the crowd, and the air buzzed with sweat, perfume, and money.
You hit the dance floor with Yelena and Ava, laughing, swaying, scanning the crowd. Somewhere in this sea of glitter and greed was Oliver Drake. But you didnât rush. You let yourself move with the girls, hips rolling, hair catching neon.
And every few seconds, you felt itâthat weight. Bobâs gaze, burning across the floor.
He was sitting at a booth with John and Bucky, hands awkwardly around a beer he hadnât touched. His eyes were wide, almost hungry, whenever you spun or bent too low.
John noticed, of course. He leaned over, nudging him. âYouâre staring, man.â
âIâm not,â Bob muttered, but his jaw flexed.
âThen go say something,â Bucky said, deadpan. âBefore someone else does.â
Bob shook his head, defensive. âWeâre just friends.â
John barked a laugh. âYeah, sure. Keep telling yourself that.â
But his eyes betrayed him every time you smiled at someone else. Especially when you spotted Oliver Drake.
The billionaire looked exactly like his dossierâsleek, tanned, radiating money and danger. His gaze latched onto you the second you brushed against him on the dance floor. He leaned in, eager, greedy.
And you let him. You smiled, you touched his chest, you pressed closeâhalf for the mission, half for the cruel little spark of revenge inside you.
From the booth, Bobâs hands curled into fists. His chest felt too tight. Watching another man's hand on your waist made him want to break something.
âJesus,â John muttered into his drink, leaning toward him. âSheâs really goinâ for it.â
Buckyâs mouth curved wryly. âYou shouldâve made a move when you had the chance.â
Bobâs knuckles went white around his glass. âShut up.â His voice was hoarse, dangerous. But he couldnât look away.
His felt like his skin was splitting. Like something golden and furious was clawing to the surface.
The opportunity came fast. A whispered laugh, your lips brushing close to Drakeâs ear as you leaned against his neckâjust a ghost of a kiss before your teeth sank in. The venom slipped in, unseen. He shivered, mistaking it for seduction.
âHold still,â you purred as you reached into your coat, pulling out a sleek black cardâthe kind only someone with taste and wealth would carry.
âI want you to have this,â you said sweetly, âdroppingâ it into your cleavage, forcing him to lean forward and pluck it free with his mouth.
The moment his lips touched the card, the saliva activated the tracker woven into the paper. A listening device. A beacon. Yours.
You flashed Drake a sweet smile, whispered something that made him laugh, and then gestured a playful âcall meâ as he was ushered out by his guards.
And the moment he was gone, your smile dropped. Cold. Efficient. You strode straight back to the booth and pulled out your laptop. The screen flickering blue with encrypted trackers. The program pingedâOliver Drakeâs signal was strong. Thirty minutes until the venom paralyzed him.
Yelena and Ava trailed behind, stunned.
âWaitââ Yelena blinked. âWhat is going on?â
Ava tilted her head. âAre we on a mission right now?â
You didnât look up, fingers flying over keys. âYes. Valentina wants to see how you handle pressure.â
âWhat the hell?â John barked, half-standing.
Yelena scoffed. âSo, this was all a setup?â
âNot all of it,â you said with a sly little smile, leaning back. âI did want to dance.â
You checked your watch. âDrake has maybe twenty-five minutes before the venom sets in. We split up. You guys deal with the guards and the cameras. And youââ your eyes cut to Bob, who froze under the weight of your attention, ââare with me.â
The two of you slipped through the club, weaving past bodies and neon lights until you reached one of the side booths near the exit Drake had used. Your laptop pinged again, showing him slowing down. Youâd have to intercept soon.
But then two bodyguards appeared, scanning the hall with sharp eyes.
âBodyguards,â Bob muttered, voice tight.
You swore under your breath. If they recognized you, the mission was shot.
âShit,â he whispered. âWhat do weââ
âKiss me,â you said suddenly, eyes on the guards.
Bobâs head whipped around. âWhat?â
âKiss me,â you hissed. âNow.â
âIââ
You didnât wait. You grabbed his shirt, hauled him down, and pressed your mouth to his.
At first, he went rigid, hands hovering awkwardly like he didnât know where to put them. But then your lips moved against his, soft and insistent, and something inside him cracked. He kissed you back with a low, desperate sound, hands finally landing on your hips.
The bodyguards slowed, their eyes flicking your way. You gasped softly into Bobâs mouth, rocking against him, making the scene convincing. His breath hitched, his fingers digging into you.
The guards looked away. Kept walking.
You shouldâve pulled back. Shouldâve stopped once the danger passed. But Bobâs grip tightened, pulling you into his lap. His thumb traced the line of your thigh as though he couldnât help it, and your fur coat slipped off one shoulder. His other hand slid lower, cupping the curve of your ass through your dress.
The kiss deepened, sloppy and hot, his breath ragged. Your body arched against him, the mission forgotten for one reckless heartbeat.
âStop making out,â Yelenaâs voice crackled dryly through the comms. âWe can hear you.â
You jerked back, flushed, lips tingling. Bobâs eyes were wide, pupils blown, chest heaving. He looked horrifiedâand yet his hands still clung to you, reluctant to let go.
âUhâIâsorry,â he stammered, face burning red.
You slid off his lap, trying to ignore the way your body screamed at the loss of contact. His lips were still swollen from your kiss, his hands hovering like he wasnât ready to let you go.
You busied yourself with your coat, straightening it even though it didnât need fixing. âFocus,â you managed, your voice quieter than you meant it to be. âWeâve got less than twenty minutes.â
Bob swallowed, hard. His Adamâs apple bobbed as he ran a shaky hand through his hair, still pink at the ears. âRight,â he muttered, the word almost lost beneath the pulse of the bass.
The silence that followed wasnât peacefulâit buzzed, awkward and electric. You could still feel his heat, still taste him when you licked your lips. Neither of you looked directly at the other as you gathered the laptop and slipped it into your bag.
You pushed into the crush of the club, neon lights splashing across your faces, music pounding like a second heartbeat. Bob fell in beside you, close enough that your hands brushed once, twice. His gaze flickered your way, full of something unreadableâsomething dangerous if you let it linger.
You didnât. You lifted your wrist, checked your watch, and forced steel into your voice.
âTimeâs up,â you said into the comms. âHeâs paralyzed. We move now.â
The corridor bent toward the VIP suite. Outside the door, two guards already waited.
Ava struck first. She shimmered into view like a shadow solidifying, her fist slamming into the first guardâs throat before he could draw his weapon. She vanished again, a blur of invisibility, leaving him choking on the floor.
The second guard pivotedâonly to take a knife to the wrist, courtesy of Yelena. She yanked him forward, drove her knee into his gut, then wrenched his own pistol free and fired twice into the wall lamp. Sparks rained down, plunging the hall into a strobing half-dark.
âGo,â she barked, tossing the gun aside.
Inside, chaos.
Drake slumped against a velvet couch, sweat beading down his temple, muscles seizing as the venom worked. His remaining security swarmed the suiteâsix men in tailored suits, weapons already drawn.
âOn your left!â John barked, his voice cutting through the blaring club music. He grabbed the nearest bottle off the bar and smashed it over a guardâs head, then spun, driving his elbow into another manâs gut. The serum in his veins made every strike brutal.
Bucky moved in the opposite direction, silent and lethal. He caught a guardâs wrist mid-swing, twisted, and drove the manâs face into the glass coffee table hard enough to spiderweb it. Blood splattered across the mirrored surface.
Ava flickered out of sight, her form rippling like heat. When she reappeared behind another guard, her fist connected with his jawâa clean, surgical strike that sent him sprawling. âStill got it,â she muttered, before phasing through a champagne rack to dodge another swing.
Yelena was all motion and mockery. She kicked off her heels mid-fight, snatched a corkscrew from the bar, and used it like a knife, jabbing it into a manâs thigh before wrenching it free. âYou wanted a party?â she quipped, ducking as another punch sailed past her. âHereâs the afterparty.â
And youâ
You used the chaos. A guard lunged; you slipped under his arm, spun, and sank your fangs into the soft skin at his wrist. He gasped, body locking up as venom spread through his veins. You shoved him aside, eyes flashing toward the next threat.
Two came at once. You let one grab you by the waist before twisting sharply, dragging him into the otherâs line of fire. A shot went off; the first man dropped, blood soaking his shirt. You ripped the weapon from the second guardâs hands and drove your knee into his stomach, finishing him off with a swift kick.
Through it all, Bob stayed closeâprotective, alert. He didnât want to hurt anyone unless he had to, but when a larger guard charged you from behind, Bob didnât hesitate.
He grabbed the man by the collar and slammed him into the wall so hard the paintings rattled. For a split second, there was something in Bobâs eyesâgold, glowing faintly beneath the dim lights.
Then he punched. Once. Hard. The man dropped like a sack of bricks.
You stared at Bob, chest heaving, adrenaline still singing through your veins. He wasnât Sentryânot fullyâbut right then, he didnât need to be.
The last guard groaned on the floor at Yelenaâs feet. The suite was a ruin of glass, spilled liquor, and unconscious bodies.
âClassy,â Bucky muttered, straightening his shirt and brushing glass from his sleeves.
John, still grinning, ran a hand through his hair. âWhat, you donât like teamwork?"
Bucky only rolled his eyes.
You crouched beside Drake, the target, pulling a sleek biometric scanner from your clutch. âWe need his prints. Bob, hold him up.â
Bob was already moving. He slipped his arms under Drakeâs shoulders and pinned him upright with effortless strength. The manâs pulse fluttered weakly against Bobâs forearm. You pressed the scanner to his hand; it beeped green.
âGot it,â you said. âUpload complete. The device is disarmed.â
âMission accomplished,â Ava said, flickering back into view, her dagger spinning in her palm.
âNext time,â John grunted, wiping a bead of sweat from his temple, âmaybe warn us before we fight in the middle of a goddamn nightclub?â
Yelena only smirked. âI had fun.â
Bob exhaled, tension slowly leaving his shoulders, but his eyes stayed on youâhalf proud, half exasperated, and completely unsettled by how seamlessly youâd handled everything.
The ride back to the tower was a strange mix of exhaustion and tense silence. Vegas still flickered in the distance when Bucky finally broke it, calling your name.
âDonât pull that again,â Bucky said, his voice lowâcontrolled, but laced with frustration. He exhaled through his nose, rubbing the back of his neck. âWeâre a team. You donât keep secrets from your team.â
You swallowed hard, embarrassment burning at your ears. âYeah,â you murmured, eyes dropping to the floor. âI know. Iâm sorryââ
Buckyâs jaw tightened, but when he spoke again, his voice had softened. âJust⊠keep it in mind next time Valentina hands you something off the books, alright?â
You nodded quickly, managing a small, guilty smile. âNoted.â
Across from you, Yelena kicked her boots up onto the seat and smirked. âStill funny, though. You twoââ she wiggled her fingers between you and Bob ââsucking face like teenagers on comms.â
Your cheeks burned instantly.
John barked a laugh. âYeah. Sounded like a damn porno in my earpiece. Could barely focus.â
âShut up,â Bob muttered, face crimson, eyes fixed firmly on the floor.
âMmhm,â Ava hummed, crossing her arms but fighting a small smile. âIt fooled the guards, at least. Efficient cover.â
Bucky arched a brow. âEfficient, sure. Just a little⊠enthusiastic.â
That set John off again, laughter echoing until Yelena smacked him upside the head.
You sank deeper into your seat, avoiding Bobâs gaze, but you could feel the heat radiating from him beside you. His silence pressed against you, heavier than all their teasing combined.
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Back at the tower, the team dispersed one by one, tossing quips over their shoulders.
Bob caught your wrist as you stepped off the jet. His grip was gentle, but his eyesâstill pink from the fight, still burning with something unspokenâlocked onto yours.
âWe need to talk,â he said softly.
Behind him, Yelena smirked knowingly as she passed by.
The hangar was cavernous and quiet, with just the two of you standing alone. Only the faint hum of the cooling jet filled the space. You could still taste adrenaline on your tongue, the echo of neon chaos clinging to your skin.
Bobâs hand lingered at your wrist longer than it should have. When he finally let go, he shifted awkwardly, eyes darting to the floor.
âYou⊠uhâŠâ His throat worked, but the words snagged there. He looked at you again, quick, like it hurt. âAre you okay?â
You raised a brow. âI should be asking you that.â
He huffed something like a laughâshort, nervous, half a sigh. His knuckles flexed at his side. âIâm fine. Just⊠donât usuallyâŠâ He gestured vaguely toward the jet, toward the ghosts of the fight. ââŠdo that.â
But you had seen him. The way he moved, the way he shoved that guard back like it was nothing. The way his eyes had glowed for the briefest moment. He was downplaying it, as always.
âBob,â you said softly, and his name was a weight between you. He froze at the sound.
For a second, you thought he might finally say it. Whatever had been building between you, unspoken but unbearable. Instead, he shifted again, running a hand through his hair. âYou should⊠change. Iâll walk you back.â
The corridors felt too small with him beside you, his silence louder than any quip John couldâve made. When you finally reached your quarters, he followed you inside, hesitating at the door like he was stepping into forbidden territory. His gaze swept the spaceâyour books stacked neatly, perfume bottles catching the lamplight, the bed youâd only imagined him in. His throat bobbed, hard.
You let the silence stretch as you slipped out of your fur coat, draping it over a chair. âYou wanted to talk?â
âSo,â he finally said, clearing his throat. âThe⊠uh⊠mission.â
You arched a brow, half amused. âThe mission?â
âYeah,â he said, scratching the back of his neck. âI mean, we did⊠good. Together. Like, the kissâit was smart. Quick thinking. Saved us.â
Your lips tugged into a smile. âQuick thinking? Pretty sure I caught you by surprise.â
His ears flushed pink. âY-yeah, no, you did, I justâI mean, it worked.â His laugh was nervous, strangled. âNot complaining.â
You hummed as you turned, presenting the zipper of your dress to him, his breath hitched audibly.
âHelp me with this?â you asked softly.
His hand twitched at his side. He swallowed audibly. âYeah. Of course.â
He stepped close, the air between you electric. His fingers brushed the metal, trembling as he tugged it down slowly. The sound of the zipper rasping open filled the room, unbearably loud. His knuckles grazed your bare skin, heat pooling in the pit of his stomach, thoughts he shouldnât have.
 When he stopped, his hand hovered there. Not touching. Not daring. But trembling like he wanted to.
You turned your head, catching his reflection in the mirrorâhis jaw tight, his eyes dark, his chest rising too fast.
âBobâŠâ you whispered.
He blinked, startled, like heâd been caught in a dream. His hand dropped immediately. âSorry. I shouldnâtââ
You stepped closer, turning to face him fully now, your dress loose around your shoulders. âWhy do you always do that?â
His brow furrowed. âDo what?â
âPull away.â
The question hung heavy in the room. He opened his mouth, closed it, looked at the floor. His hands clenched at his sides. For a heartbeat, you thought heâd retreat like always. But then his eyes lifted, meeting yours with something raw, unguarded.
âBecauseâŠâ His jaw clenched. âBecause Iâm not good enough for you.â
Your breath caught. âBobââ
âIâm not always Sentry.â The words tumbled out, raw, painful. âIâm not some golden god who can fix everything. Iâm just Bob. Just the guy who freezes up in fights, who screws up everything, who doesnât⊠who doesnât deserve you looking at me the way you do.â
He laughed bitterly, shaking his head. âAnd I do love you. God, Iâve been in love with you for so long it makes me sick. But you deserve someone stronger. Better. Not me.â
Your chest ached at the way he said itâlike love was a confession and a curse.
âDonât you get it?â You whispered, stepping closer until your dress brushed his chest. You cupped his jaw, forcing him to meet your eyes. âI donât want Sentry. I donât want anyone else. I just...want you.â
His breath stuttered. âIââ
âHey,â you whispered, eyes filled with longing and affection.
The air between was already thickâcharged, like static waiting to spark. You knew what you wanted, and tonight, you werenât going to hesitate.
The dress slipped from your shoulders and puddled at your feet, silk sliding down your body like a second skin abandoning you. You stepped toward him in nothing but lace, your gaze locked on his wide, startled blue eyes. His lips parted, a sharp breath catching in his throat.
âY-youâre⊠beautiful,â Bob whispered, voice breaking like it couldnât hold the weight of what he felt.
You touched his jaw, tilting his head down. âThen kiss me.â
He didâsoft at first, lips trembling against yours, hesitant in the way only Bob Reynolds could be. But when you licked into his mouth and tugged at his hair, the kiss grew hungry, carnal, desperate. His large hands fisted at your waist, pulling you flush to him.
By the time you pushed him back onto the bed, his chest was heaving, and his cock strained hot and thick against his trousers. You straddled his thighs, dragging your nails down his shirt before tearing the buttons open and yanking it off. His body was all heat and hard planes, gilded in the dim light.
You sank lower, kissing down his chest until you tugged at his waistband. His cock sprang free, flushed and leaking at the tip. His breath stuttered, fists clenching in the sheets as though he didnât know where else to put them.
âRelax,â you murmured, stroking him slowly, savoring the way he groaned, deep and broken. Then you leaned down, tongue swirling around the swollen head before you took him into your mouth.
Bob nearly sobbed. His hips jerked, hands tangling in your hair. âOhâoh godââ
You hollowed your cheeks, swallowing him deeper, wet noises filling the room. His cock twitched against your tongue, heavy and perfect. You glanced up to see his head tipped back, throat working as he moaned. He looked ruined, undone by just your mouth.
âFuckâfeels so goodââ he groaned, tugging weakly at your hair.
You pulled off with a wet pop, wiping your lips before smirking. âGood? Then let me give you more.â
You pressed his cock against your soaked panties, grinding down until he whimpered, eyes blown wide. Sliding your hand between your thighs, you tugged the lace aside and circled your fingers over your clit, moaning as your walls clenched. Bobâs gaze dropped, transfixedâhis lips parting as your cunt glistened in the moonlight.
âC-can Iâ?â His hand twitched forward, then stopped, like he was afraid to ask.
You grabbed his wrist and shoved his fingers between your thighs. âPlease. Touch me, Bob.â
He obeyed, sliding thick fingers into your heat, curling them just right until your hips rocked against him shamelessly. âYouâreâso wet,â he gasped, pumping harder.
âAll for you,â you moaned.
The coil inside you snapped fast, leaving you trembling around his fingers, crying out his name. Bob kissed you through it, messy and desperate, his cock grinding against your thigh.
But it wasnât enough.
You wanted more. Needed more.
âI need you inside me, Bob,â you whispered against his lips.
He froze, chest heaving. âAre you sure? I donât want toââ
You pushed him back against the pillows, lining him up with your entrance. âDonât make me beg.â
And then you sank down on him.
The stretch was brutal, delicious pain blooming as his cock filled you inch by inch. You hissed, nails digging into his chest. He moaned, low and guttural, gripping your hips like he might break.
âYouâre too bigâfuckââ you gasped, but you didnât stop.
When you finally bottomed out, the fullness left you trembling. Bob rubbed your thighs, eyes frantic. âAre you okay? IâI donât want to hurt you.â
You rolled your hips slowly, your walls fluttering around him. âFeels perfect.â
That was all it took for him to snap.
He flipped you onto your back in one smooth move, driving into you hard, hips slamming against yours. You screamed, clinging to his shoulders as he pounded into you. His pace was brutal, desperate, every thrust making the bed creak, his groans hot against your throat.
âBeautiful,â he muttered, bracing your thighs against your chest and folding you in half. The angle was devastatingâhe drove deeper, cock hitting every spot inside you until you sobbed, nails raking down his back.
But the memory of earlier returned to himâthe way you had laughed with that man, let his hand linger at your waist, pressed close enough that Bob thought he might lose his mind. The image of your body against another manâs made his chest tight, and now, with you beneath him, he was determined to wipe it from existence.
He slammed into you harder, sharper, his breath ragged. âYou think I didnât see you? Grinding on him like that? Laughing in his ear?â His voice cracked between a groan and a growl, his forehead pressed against yours as sweat dripped down his temple.
Your lips parted, a gasp escaping as heat shot through you. âIt wasââ you moaned when he drove deeper, ââpart of the missionââ
âDonât care,â he cut you off, biting at your jaw before his lips dragged down to your throat. âDonât care. He touched you, even for a second, and I wanted to break him in half.â His teeth grazed your skin, then sank just enough to sting, marking you. âMine. Not his. Not anyone else's.â
You bit at his neck in answer, dragging your fangs lightly across his skin, leaving a constellation of red marks in your wake. His breath hitched, breaking into a guttural groan.
âFuckâyouâre mine,â he growled, hips snapping so deep you cried out, tears prickling your eyes. âEveryone will know youâre mine.â
He marked you over and over, his mouth and hands branding you, sucking bruises down your chest and collarbone, biting your shoulder hard enough to make you arch. His fingers bruised into your thighs as he pinned them tighter against your chest, fucking you into the mattress like he could bury himself so deep no trace of anyone else would ever touch you.
âAlways yours,â you sobbed, voice breaking as your walls clenched around him.
âSay it again,â he demanded, his voice a low, frantic rasp.
âYours,â you gasped, nails dragging down his back. âAlways yours, BobâfuckâIâm yours.â
He looked down at you then, and his eyes flared molten gold, light rippling across his irises, power shimmering through him. The sight stole your breath, and your climax tore through you violently, walls spasming tight around him.
Bob groaned, a sound so raw it bordered on animal, and shuddered as he spilled hot inside you, hips jerking through every wave. His head dropped to your shoulder, teeth scraping, breath shaking.
The room smelled of sweat and sex, heavy and intoxicating, but Bob only noticed the sound of your breathing against his chest. Slow. Steady. Like you belonged there.
Carefully, he shifted, rolling off you and settling beside you. Damp strands of hair fell across your face, and he brushed them away, his thumb lingering on your cheek, tracing the warm flush left by his touch.
âYouâreâŠâ He swallowed, his voice hoarse. âYouâre everything.â
You smiled faintly, catching his hand and pressing a kiss to his palm. âAnd youâre mine.â
That made his breath stutter. He pulled the covers up over you both, cocooning your bodies in warmth. Then, as if he couldnât help himself, he kissed your temple, your hairline, your shoulderâall soft touches, reverent.
âI donât⊠I donât usually get to keep good things,â he admitted quietly. âEvery time I try, it slips through my fingers. People see me as broken. As dangerous. Or just⊠not enough.â
You turned in his arms, meeting his eyes. âYouâre not broken, Bob. Youâre human. And youâre more than enough.â
His throat worked, and for a long moment, he just looked at you like he was trying to memorize every detailâthe curve of your lips, the softness in your gaze, the way your hand rested over his heart.
âI meant what I said earlier,â he whispered, his voice cracking. âI love you. I love you so much it scares me.â
Your heart squeezed. You leaned in, kissing him slow and sweet this time, pouring reassurance into every press of your lips.
âI love you too,â you murmured against his mouth. âNot the Sentry. Not who you think youâre supposed to be. Just Bob.â
He shuddered, holding you tighter, like your words were the only thing keeping him from unraveling. His eyes shone faintly gold in the dark, not from power, but from emotion he couldnât contain.
âYou saved me tonight,â he confessed softly. âNot just in that fight. You saved me from thinking Iâd never be wanted. From thinking Iâd never⊠matter.â
You pressed your forehead to his. âYou matter to me.â
Silence stretched, but it wasnât awkward this time. It was heavy, full. His hand slid down your back, fingers splaying at your waist, not possessive this time but protective.
He chuckled faintly, embarrassed. âGod... Iâm probably smothering you.â
You shook your head, curling closer. âNo. Donât let go.â
He didnât. Instead, he tucked you against him, one hand threading through your hair, the other stroking lazy circles along your hip. He hummed under his breath, so faint you barely caught it, as if soothing you to sleep.
And just before you drifted off, you heard him whisper it againâso soft, like a secret only meant for the dark:
âI love you. Always.â
You thought you could sneak into breakfast quietly. Wrong.
You sat down at the long table, oversized sweatshirt hiding most of the marks Bob had left. But not all.
Yelenaâs brows shot up. âSomeone had fun.â
Ava smirked, sipping her coffee. âMore like several rounds of fun.â
You tried to play it off, but the warmth in your chest gave you away. Every glance Bob stole your way, every shy smile that bloomed on his lips, felt like a promise.
And though the team teased mercilessly, you knew something had shifted. Bob wasnât hiding anymore. He wasnât shrinking from the edges of the group. He stood taller, shoulders squared, golden flecks glimmering faintly in his eyes when they met yours.
For the first time, he didnât look like a man scared of disappearing.
He looked like a man whoâd finally been claimedâand who was more than ready to claim you back.
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The room was warm, quiet, save for the headboard thudding softly against the wall and the ragged sound of your breaths. Bob was behind youâbig hands gripping your hips, thrusting deep into your slick cunt with enough force to make the sheets bunch under your knees.
âGod, look at you,â he growled, voice falling low like thunder. He pulled you back to meet him, grip tightening until the rhythm of his thrusts slammed through you. âNothing but a dripping mess for me. Thatâs all you are, right?â
You bit into the sheet, fists scrabbling at fabric to ground yourself. His palm cracked across your assâsharp and hotâand the sting fired through you.
âAnswer me.â His voice barked the order and another slap landed.
âYesâ!â you gasped, though something in your chest tightened in a way that had nothing to do with the motion of his hips.
His voice shifted thenâdeeper, swollen with something like certainty. For a breath you wondered if it was just the heat of the moment, but the light caught him and for a second his irises flashedâan impossible glint, gold at the edges, like armor reflecting sunlight. Confidence poured through him, raw and animal. He thrust harder, faster.
âYeah, thatâs it,â he growled, his voice rough from exertion. His palm cracked across your ass, the sting blooming hot. âJust my filthy little cocksleeve, arenât you?â
You whimpered, burying your face in the sheets. Usually, his rough words arced into a bright ache that loosened you, that made you beg for more while your body melted around him. Tonight, the words landed like stones, heavier and crueler than anything heâd said before.
âWorthless little slut,â he snarled, thrusts harder, faster. âNothing but a hole for me to use.â
The words landed heavy, too sharp. Instead of igniting you, they cut. Your chest constricted, your eyes burning with tears.
Bob slammed into you again, groaning low. âFuck, youâre drippingâtaking me so fucking good. This is all youâre good for, isnât it?â
Bobâs hand tangled in your hair, yanking your head up. His thrusts turned brutal, relentless, driving you into the mattress with the full force of his body. âCanât even form words, can you? Just whining like a needy bitch.â
Each insult landed like a match on dry tinder. The air seemed to tilt; the room narrowed to the sound of his breathing and your sobs.
âLook at you,â he sneered, spanking you againâharder, crueler. Your skin burned. âCrying already. Pathetic. And you love it, donât you?â
A hot, broken sob escaped you. He mistook it for arousalâthe desperate tears youâd cried before when everything blurred into blissâand pushed harder.
âYeah, thatâs right,â he grunted, spanking you again, the sound echoing in the room. âCry for me, slut. Show me what youâre good for.â
Your chest tightened painfully. His words echoed in your head, tangled with old doubts youâd thought buried.
âWorthless little whore,â Bob bit out, his pace merciless. âNobody else would even want you like this. Nobody else could fuck you into the ground like I can. You belong here.â
A sob tore out of you, hot tears spilling down your cheeks. You couldnât take itânot tonight. Not with his voice in your ear telling you the ugliest lies your brain already whispered to you when you were alone.
Your lips trembled. The word clawed its way up your throat.
âC-Cucumber!â
Bob froze instantly. His hands dropped from your hips. His cock slid slick out of you; the brutal rhythm cut to nothing. The gold in his eyes vanished as quickly as it had come. For the first beat there was only silence and the ragged chorus of both your breathing.
âS-Shit.â His voice cracked. âOh my god. Babyâbaby, Iâm so sorry.â
He collapsed forward, catching you with hands that trembled. Guiltâreal, immediateâsplashed across his face. He flipped you gently onto your side as if you might break, arms wrapping you close, pulling you into the safety of his chest. His palms shook as they smoothed your hair, and his kisses were frantic and clumsy at firstâforehead, temple, the wet corners of your eyes.
âHey, hey, look at me,â he whispered, voice cracking. âYouâre safe. I stopped. Iâm right here. Y-youâre okay.â
Tears streamed down your face, hot and shameful. âS-sorry... Itâit was too much. I couldnâtââ
Bob cupped your face, tilting it up gently. His blue eyes were wide, glassy, devastated. âBaby, I didnât know. I thoughtâI thought it was the good kind of tears.â He kissed your forehead, then your temple, then the wet corner of your eye. âYou did so good telling me. Iâm so proud of you. Never, ever be sorry for saying it. Thatâs what the wordâs for.â
You sniffled, nodding weakly. He pulled the blankets up around both of you, wrapping you in warmth. His body curled protectively around yours, his hand rubbing slow, soothing circles down your back.
âI pushed too hard,â he murmured, voice wrecked. âI-I got carried away. Youâre not worthless, youâre not a toy. Youâre my everything. My girl. My heart. You hear me?â
Your throat tightened again, but this time it was from love, not fear. âI hear you.â
He kissed your hairline, his thumb brushing tenderly across your cheek. âDo you want water? A snack? Clean sheets? Iâll get anything... Just say the word.â
You shook your head, clinging to him tighter. âJust⊠donât let go.â
âNever,â he promised instantly. He tucked you closer, chest rising and falling steady against your back. âIâm right here. Not going anywhere.â
You nodded, leaning into the warmth of his chest as he tucked you tighter. âI love you,â you whispered, voice small.
He kissed the crown of your head, lips feather-light. âI love you too. So damn much.â
Curled against his chest, you listened to the steady beat of his heart. His fingers combed through your hair, his lips never leaving your skin for long, whispering until your breathing evened and the world felt safe again inside his arms.
Summary: You swore youâd take your crush on Bucky Barnes to the grave. But when your eyes caught on that happy trail, your mind spiraled with thoughts of what reward waited at the end of the road. And lucky for youâJames Buchanan Barnes always delivers.
Word Count: 4.4k words
Tags/Warnings: SMUT, 18+, MDNI, pw a lot of plot, unprotected p in v, fingering, oral (m receiving), multiple orgasms, light choking, perv!reader, soft dom!Bucky, both are super freaks, friends to lovers, voyeurism, eventual smut, sexual content, adult themes, adult language, aftercare, no use of Y/N
A/N: Iâve been meaning to do a Bucky one sooo here you go, dinner is served! Hope you guys enjoy this one, I've been thinking about doing something like this for so long and I feel like Bucky is the perfect one to do this for <3
You hadnât exactly chosen this lifeâValentina Allegra de Fontaine had.
Once upon a time, you were one of her many assistants. Endless coffee runs, typing up reports, sitting in meetings where you werenât allowed to speak but were expected to take down every word. You and Mel had become partners in survivalâlaughing about Valentinaâs razor-sharp mood swings, whispering snark into each otherâs comms, covering each otherâs mistakes before she noticed.
Mel used to joke that you were Valâs âgolden girl,â always one step ahead, too good at keeping secrets. You didnât correct her. It was easier than admitting the truth: Val scared you, but the work gave you purpose.
Then the assignment changed.
Val decided you were âwasted behind a deskâ and reassigned you to assist the Thunderbolts/New Avengers initiative, smoothing over the chaos between personalities big enough to fill arenas. One day, you were tracking data behind Valâs velvet curtain; the next, you were standing inside of the Avengers Tower, holding a clipboard, trying not to gape at actual superheroes in front of you.
And him.
James Buchanan Barnes.
The Winter Soldier. The White Wolf. The man who helped save the world more times than you could count. Youâd watched the congressional hearings, the interviews, the missions that played like blockbuster reels on the news. You knew every detail of his public record. Youâd memorized every photo that made its way to the press: him in uniform, him with the arm, him in jeans and a leather jacket looking unfairly good for someone whoâs old enough to be your grandpa.
Your crush wasnât professional. It wasnât even healthy.
It was a filthy, obsessive thingâsticky thoughts that slithered into your brain at night and refused to leave.
Like the way his metal arm flexed when he pushed weights in the gymâhow badly you wanted it wrapped around your throat while he fucked you into the mattress. Other times, watching him spar, sweat dripping down his temples, you thought about leaning in and licking the salt from his skin, drinking it straight from his chest. Or how his voice dropped into that low growl during missionsâhow it would sound broken and wrecked when he was buried inside you, telling you how good you felt.
Yelena caught on first. She always did.
One afternoon during weapons training, she sidled up beside you while you held a clipboard.
âYour mouth is open,â she whispered, deadpan.
You snapped your jaw shut, heat shooting into your face. âI was concentrating.â
âOn his ass?â she smirked, nodding toward Buckyâs form as he ducked a punch. âI donât blame you. Very round. Very grab-able. But you are drooling, sestra.â
âI am not.â
âYou are,â Ava chimed in from the other side, her tone calm but amused. âYour pupils dilated 0.5 centimeters the second he took his jacket off.â
You groaned, face burning, scribbling nonsense onto your clipboard just to avoid their stares.
âYou two need hobbies.â
âNo, you need courage,â Yelena shot back. âTell him. Whatâs the worst that happens? He says no? Then we drink vodka until you forget.â
âHe wonât even look at me like that,â you muttered. âHeâs Bucky Barnes. IâmâŠjust me.â
They exchanged a look that made your stomach twist. A knowing one. But thankfully, John barged in, shirt half off, flexing unnecessarily.
âWhoâs ready to see a real soldier work?â he called.
âNot us,â Ava said flatly.
âPlease keep your shirt on,â Yelena added, rolling her eyes. âWe do not want to throw up today.â
Bob snorted from the sidelines, muttering something about secondhand embarrassment. Alexei clapped John on the back with a laugh that nearly toppled him over.
But the worst part was whenever Bucky talked to you.
Sometimes, heâd ask for your notes after a sparring session or check if youâd eaten when the day dragged too long, or tilt his head when you explained mission stats, as though your brain fascinated him.
And every single time, you felt your heart stutter. Every single time, you had to force your eyes not to drop to his mouth, or his chest, orâgod help youâhis hands.
You convinced yourself it was harmless. Just a crush. Just fantasies to get you through sleepless nights. But part of you was terrifiedâbecause if he ever knew the depths of the filth you thought about him, heâd never look at you again.
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Valentina had stopped by one night, breezing through the tower with her sharp heels and sharper tongue, leaving behind a trail of tension thicker than smoke. âResults,â sheâd demanded, eyes glittering. âNot excuses.â And just like that, she was gone again.
So, the team gathered in the dining hall, everyone buzzing with residual nerves.
Alexei piled his plate high enough to make the table creak. âThis is what we should focus on,â he announced. âProtein, calories, fuel for war!â
âYouâre going to die of a heart attack, old man,â Ava said flatly, sipping her water.
Alexei clutched his chest. âBlasphemy.â
Yelena rolled her eyes, snagging the last bread roll before John could grab it. âYouâll eat yourself into an early grave, Papa. And then who will annoy us at the table?â
âBob,â John said around a mouthful of mashed potatoes. âHeâs already halfway there.â
Bob nearly dropped his fork. âW-wait, what? No, IâI wasnâtââ
You smiled faintly at the banter, spooning vegetables onto your plate, but your attention slidâlike it always didâto Bucky.
He was quiet, methodical as he cut into his steak. He didnât join in on the arguments, didnât add to the noise. He just⊠was. Solid. Present. That quiet gravity everyone else orbited without even realizing it.
You tried not to stare. Tried not to imagine leaning across the table, whispering things no one else could hear. Tried not to picture his metal hand on your thigh under the tablecloth, squeezing until you gasped.
âHey,â Yelenaâs voice broke through, low and amused.
You blinked. âWhat?â
Her smirk was knowing. âYouâre staring again. Dangerous habit.â
Heat crept up your neck. âI was⊠thinking about Valâs speech.â
âSure, you were,â she murmured, ripping her bread in two before turning back to Ava.
You stabbed your food with a little too much force, pulse racing.
Later, the team sprawled in the lounge.
âMovie night?â Ava asked, cross-legged on the couch, remote dangling from her hand.
âAnythingâs fine,â Bob said quickly. âR-really, I donât mind.â
John groaned. âAs long as itâs not The Notebook again.â
Yelena smirked. âHe cried last time.â
John shot her a look. âShut up.â
You chuckled softly and curled into an armchair, tablet balanced on your lap. But your eyes betrayed you. They flickedâjust onceâacross the room.
Bucky sat at the far end of the couch, beer in hand, gaze on the TV without really watching. The dim light caught on his jawline, on the shadow of stubble, on the casual drape of his arm along the couch back. He looked like something carved from the quiet itself.
You looked away too quickly, heart lurching like youâd been caught.
The morning of training evaluations was already chaos.
John strutted into the gym like he was walking onto a runway, barking about âreal soldier discipline.â Yelena immediately bet Ava five bucks she could trip him before the warm-up ended. Alexei showed up with a thermos of what smelled suspiciously like vodka. Bob was nervously muttering his warmup mantra under his breath. And Buckyâgod, Buckyârolled in with a jog, hair pulled back in a loose tie, gray sweats hanging low on his hips.
You told yourself to be professional. Clipboard in hand. Pen ready. Just write down notes, just monitor their forms, justâ
âEyes up, sestra,â Yelena whispered as she passed, smirking.
You shot her a glare, but she was right: your gaze had been glued to the way Buckyâs shirt clung to his chest with every stretch.
The session dragged on. Sweat slicked the mats, grunts filled the room, and your pen scratched furiously as you tried to take objective notes: Good stamina. Fast reflexes. Needs to guard left flank.
But then it happened.
During a break, Bucky tugged his shirt off. Just like that.
The world stopped.
Muscle and scars, pale skin catching the light, the gleam of vibranium against flesh. And thereâthere, just above the band of his sweatsâwas a dark trail of hair running down from his navel.
Your throat went dry. Your jaw slackened. You wanted to fall to your knees and worship that line like it was holy scripture. You wanted to follow it with your tongue, slow and desperate, until he groaned your name.
And thenâmindlessly, without thinkingâyour pen slipped.
Happy trail = happy meal.
You didnât even notice. You were too busy watching him pin John to the mat, muscles flexing as his arm locked around Johnâs throat. Your stomach twisted, hot and filthy.
You just kept writing, trying to pretend your thighs werenât pressed together.
After the training was done, you stacked the evaluation sheets neatly, paperclipped them, and handed them Mel for distribution. You had no idea the note was buried among the pages, waiting like a live grenade.
No idea at all.
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Bucky sat alone in the lounge, towel around his neck, hair damp from a shower. Heâd been given his evaluation packet. Everyone had. But as his eyes skimmed through the neat handwriting, one phrase caught him, circled in faint scribbles.
happy trail = happy meal.
He stared at it. Blinked. Then read it again.
At first, he thought maybe it was a joke. Some team in-joke he didnât get. But the longer he stared, the more heat crept up his neck. His chest tightened. Because he knew what a happy trail was. And the mental image that followedâthe idea of you looking at his body, salivating, thinking of him as a âmealââit sent blood rushing straight to his cock.
He shifted on the couch, tugged the towel lower over his lap. His jaw clenched. His mind spun.
Had you meant to write it? Was it a slip? Did youâŠthink about him that way?
He should ignore it. He should laugh it off. But the thought refused to leave. The pride swelling in his chest, the way his cock ached against his sweats, the sudden, dizzying realization that maybeâjust maybeâyou werenât as shy and distant as he thought.
By the time he folded the papers and set them aside, his decision was made.
Heâd talk to you. Not now. Not in front of the others. But soon. He had to know.
Dinner that night was loud again, Alexei and John nearly arm-wrestling at the table. Yelena was stealing food off Avaâs plate just to watch her glare. Bob asked you about some report and blushed when you leaned in to explain.
And Bucky?
He was quiet. Watching you.
Every time your fingers brushed your hair back, his hand twitched toward his jacket. Every time you laughed, his chest tightened around the secret folded paper against his heart. He caught himself staring at your mouth too long when you licked a bit of sauce from your fork.
You didnât notice. You were too busy trying not to notice him.
But he noticed you.
Not just the way you looked in your top that gave him a glimpse of your cleavage, or how your perfume lingered like static. Noâhe noticed the way you worked harder than anyone else. The way you kept this fractured team on track. The way you smiled even when Valentinaâs demands wore you raw.
Bucky swallowed hard, dragging his gaze back to his plate.
The next few days wereâŠstrange.
At first, you didnât notice. You were too busy juggling mission reports, sparring schedules, and trying to keep Valentina from barking down everyoneâs necks. But eventually, the shift in Buckyâs behavior became impossible to ignore.
He lingered more.
Before, heâd nod politely, ask you for the essentials, and move on. Now? He leaned against your desk, arms crossed, eyes fixed on you as you typed. He sat beside you at lunch instead of across the room. He asked questions he didnât really need answers toâwhat you thought of the training protocols, if the team was improving, what your weekend plans were.
And the way he looked at youâgod. It wasnât obvious. To anyone else, it might have seemed casual. But you felt it. The weight of his gaze, slow and deliberate, like he was cataloging every flicker of your expression.
It was maddening.
You told yourself not to overthink. He was Bucky Barnes. He probably just needed feedback. Maybe he was being polite.
Except then came the gym incident.
You were headed to the cardio room, earbuds in, clipboard in hand. Evaluation season didnât wait for anyone. But when you opened the door, there he was: Bucky, alone, shirtless again, working the heavy bag.
Thud. Thud. Thud.
Sweat poured down his back, muscles flexing and releasing with every hit. His jaw was tight, his hair damp, strands clinging to his forehead. Every swing of his fist looked like it could split the earth in two.
You froze. Absolutely froze.
In your head: Imagine that body pinning you down. Imagine that hand closing around your throat, not too tight, just enough to remind you of how small you are under him. Imagine his sweat dripping onto your lips as he fucks you so deep you forget your own name.
Your thighs pressed together without permission.
âNeed something?â His voice cut through the haze. Low. Rough.
You jolted, eyes wide, and realized youâd been standing there far too long. Heat crawled up your neck.
âUhââ You held up the clipboard like a shield. âNothingâŠjustâŠcardioâŠthing.â
He smirked. Smirked. Bucky wiped his brow with the edge of the towel, the motion drawing your eyes right back to the dark line of hair trailing down his stomach.
âCardioâs yours,â he said, stepping aside. His gaze swept down your frame, lingering just a second too long. âUnless you wanted toâŠwatch.â
You nearly dropped the clipboard. âIâuhâno. No, itâs fine. Iâll come back.â
You practically ran out of the room, heart hammering, face on fire.
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The compound was quiet that night. Most of the team had turned in, leaving the halls dim and hushed.
Bucky paced his room like a caged animal. Heâd tried reading. Heâd tried sleeping. None of it worked. His mind kept circling back to youâthe way youâd nearly bolted when he teased you in the gym, the ghost of a smile when you thought no one was looking.
And that damned evaluation note.
He couldnât shake it. Couldnât shake the image of your lips following that trail, of your tongue worshipping him like he was the only thing you craved.
By midnight, heâd made a decision. Heâd go to your room. Heâd be honest, finally.
He just hoped he wouldnât fuck it up.
Bucky stood in the hall outside your room, hands shoved deep in his pockets, nerves twisting his stomach. Heâd paced three times already, rehearsing the words in his head.
Itâs just a date. Just ask her. Be normal for once.
But when was the last time James Buchanan Barnes had been normal? Years had passed since heâd gone on anything resembling a date, and nowâstanding outside your doorâhe felt like the same awkward kid from Brooklyn who didnât know what to say to a girl.
He lifted a hand, hesitated, then let it fall. His jaw flexed. Just one knock. Thatâs all it would take.
But thenâ
A sound froze him in place.
A soft, breathless moan. Muffled, but clear.
He blinked, pulse spiking as he stepped closer to the door. Another moan followed, this one low and drawn-out, and his gut tightened when he heard your voice whisperâhis name.
âBuckyâŠâ
Every ounce of blood in his body seemed to rush south. His chest heaved, his throat dry. He hadnât imagined itâyou were moaning his name.
The doorknob glinted under the hallway light, slightly ajar. Youâd forgotten to lock it.
For a long moment, he warred with himself. He should leave. Respect your privacy. But then another sound reached himâwet, slick, desperateâand he lost the battle. Slowly, quietly, he pushed the door open.
You were sprawled across the sheets, nightgown bunched high around your thighs, one hand buried between your legs. Your head was tilted back, hair spilling across the pillow, lips parted as you gasped his name again.
Buckyâs cock strained painfully against his sweats, pride swelling in his chest at the sight. You wanted him. Youâd been thinking about him.
He stepped inside, silent as a ghost, until he sat down on the edge of your bed.
The mattress dipped, jolting you from your haze. Your eyes flew openâonly to find Bucky Barnes sitting there, watching you.
âB-Bucky?!â you squeaked, yanking your hands away and scrambling upright, face blazing red. Horror crashed over you. Heâd seen everything. Heâs going to think Iâm disgusting. Heâll never look at me the same wayâ
âIâI wasnâtâthis isnâtâoh my god,â you stammered, words tripping over themselves as shame clawed up your throat.
But then he smirked. Slow. Wicked. His blue eyes gleamed under the dim light as he leaned back, spreading his thighs just slightly.
âDonât let me stop you,â he drawled, voice low and husky. âI was enjoying the view.â
Your breath caught. Your pulse thundered. His words made heat flood every nerve in your body.
He reached out, the vibranium hand brushing your ankle, grounding you. âYou were moaning my name,â he murmured, tilting his head. âYou want me that bad, doll?â
âB-BuckyâŠâ you whispered, half mortified, half aching.
He leaned closer, one hand braced on the mattress beside you, the otherâcold metalâgrazing lightly up your calf. His voice was molten steel.
âGo on, doll. Show me how bad you want it.â
You swallowed, trembling under his stare. But when he gave you that nodâpatient, commanding, sureâyou slid your hand back between your thighs. Your fingers moved, slick and needy, and his chest rose heavy as he watched.
âGood girl,â he rasped, his voice dropping so low it vibrated in your bones. âThatâs it. Keep saying my name.â
Heat flushed your skin as the words tumbled out, shameless now. âBucky⊠oh godâBucky.â
His cock strained so hard against his sweats it hurt, but he didnât move. Not yet. He wanted to burn this image into his mindâyou, undone for him, trembling, begging.
But when you gasped, âWish it was youâwish it was your handsââ something inside him snapped.
In a flash, his flesh hand was on your wrist, stilling your movements. His lips crashed onto yoursâhungry, desperate, tasting of pent-up need. You moaned against his mouth, relief and fire flooding through you as his tongue claimed yours.
âYou want my hands? You got âem,â he growled between kisses.
His flesh hand traced down your stomach, fingers brushing your slit. He swore softly when he felt how soaked you were.
âAll this for me?â he asked, eyes darkening.
âAlways,â you gasped.
âChrist.â His metal hand pinned your thigh open while his other slipped two fingers inside you. The stretch made your back arch, a broken moan spilling out.
âThatâs it, doll. Take my fingers.â He pumped them slowly, curling just right until your vision blurred. His thumb circled your clit, steady and relentless. âYouâre squeezing me so tight already. Can imagine how good youâll feel around my cock.â
You clutched his wrist, panting, begging incoherently. He smirked, kissing your throat, biting gently at your jawline.
âWanna see you fall apart first,â he murmured. âBefore I completely ruin you.â
Your body obeyed, trembling violently as release ripped through you, soaking his fingers. He groaned at the sight, pulling his fingers out and licking them clean.
âSweetest taste,â he whispered. âCould live on it.â
He leaned back just enough to tug his shirt over his head, fabric dragging across his skin before it hit the floor. Broad shoulders, the gleam of metal, the defined lines of his chestâall of it pulled your eyes lower until you caught it.
That trail of dark hair running down from his stomach. The one youâd dreamed about, pictured in a hundred filthy daydreams. Seeing it for real made your pulse trip.
Your gaze snapped back up just in time to watch his hand slide into his sweats. He freed himself with a sharp breathâthick, flushed, already glistening at the tip. Your mouth went dry, jaw slack.
Bucky caught the way you stared, a slow smirk tugging at his lips.
âLike what you see?â
Heat burned down your neck. âY-yes,â you managed, voice barely there.
âThen come here, doll.â His tone was low, coaxing. âShow me.â
You crawled into his lap on shaky knees, breath catching as you got closer. His heat pressed against you, heavy and real. You tilted forward, kissing across his chest, tasting salt and skin. He hissed when your lips trailed lowerâdown his sternum, past his stomach, until you reached that dark line youâd been fixated on.
His breath stuttered as your lips trailed lower, grazing the line of hair on his stomach. âYou really had to write it down, huh?â he rasped, a shaky laugh breaking on a groan. âMy happy trail⊠your happy mealâŠâ
Your tongue followed it eagerly, worshipping every inch, until you reached his cock. You wrapped your lips around him, taking him slow at first, savoring the way his head tipped back, his throat rumbling with curses.
âFuckâjust like that,â he groaned, hand threading into your hair, guiding but never forcing. âSo good to me, doll. Been dreaming of this mouth.â
Your cheeks hollowed, tongue swirling around him, and his hips jerked involuntarily. The sounds he madeâlow, broken, needyâlit a fire inside you.
âLook at you,â he rasped, pulling you off just enough so you could hear him. His thumb brushed your swollen lips. âOn your knees for me, makinâ me feel like a king. Didnât know my sweet girl was so filthy.â
You hummed around him, loving the way his thighs twitched when you dragged your tongue along the underside, when you sucked his tip just right. His cock pulsed in your mouth, thick and heavy, salty pre-come smearing your tongue.
But Bucky didnât let you have control for long. With a sharp breath, he cupped your face, easing you off. âThatâs enough, sweetheart. Youâre too goodâIâll finish before I even get inside you.â
You gasped when he hauled you up, kissing you hungrily, tasting himself on your lips. A dizzy blur later and you were on your back, his body caging yours, the heat of his skin radiating down.
âReady?â he whispered, forehead pressed to yours, his cock nudging at your soaked entrance.
âPlease,â you breathed, nails digging into his shoulders.
He pushed in slowly at first, then bottomed out in one devastating stroke. Your back arched, a cry tearing from your throat.
âBucky!â
His metal hand slid to your throat, not choking, just a firm weight, grounding you. His other hand clamped to your hip as he started to thrustâlong, deep, unrelenting.
âBeen thinkinâ about this every damn night,â he growled against your mouth. âDreamed of how warm youâd feel, how tightâfuck, doll, youâre better than I ever imagined.â
Tears pricked your eyes from the sheer intensity, the way he filled you, split you apart. You clawed at his back, dragging red lines down his skin.
âDonât stopâplease donât stopââ
His thrusts grew harsher, hips slamming into yours, sweat dripping onto your chest. He bent to kiss your throat, his stubble scraping your skin.
âNot stoppinâ. Never stoppinâ. Youâre mine, sweetheart.â
The pressure built fast, coil winding tighter and tighter until it snappedâyour orgasm crashing over you, muscles seizing as you sobbed his name. He groaned, shuddering, but didnât let go just yet.
He flipped you before you could recover, pressing your face gently into the sheets, your ass raised for him. You whimpered at the loss until his cock slid back into you in one rough, hungry stroke.
âGod, look at this pussy,â he panted, hands gripping your hips so tight you knew youâd bruise. âSo greedyâmilkinâ me dry.â
The angle was brutal, every thrust hitting deep, sharp bursts of pleasure that had you screaming into the mattress. His metal hand smoothed up your spine, wrapped around your throat again, pulling you upright until your back was flush against his chest.
âThatâs it, doll. Let me hear you.â His breath was ragged against your ear. âWhose pussy is this?â
âY-yours,â you sobbed, trembling. âAll yours, Buckyââ
âDamn right.â His teeth grazed your shoulder as his thrusts turned desperate, chasing his own high. âNot lettinâ you go. Ever.â
The heat in your belly coiled tighter, snapping again with a blinding waveâyour walls clenching hard around him. The sensation dragged him over the edge with a guttural groan of your name. He buried himself to the hilt, spilling into you as his whole body shook.
The world was quiet after. Just the sound of your ragged breaths, his heart pounding against your chest.
He stayed inside you for a moment, holding you close, then carefully pulled out and grabbed a towel from your drawer nearby. He cleaned you gently, murmuring soft reassurances, kissing your damp skin whenever you flinched.
Then he tucked you under the covers and slid in beside you, pulling you into his chest.
âYou okay, doll?â His voice was tender, almost shy now.
âMore than okay,â you whispered, cheeks still warm. âI thoughtâŠyouâd never want me like that.â
He pulled back just enough to meet your eyes. âNever want you? Sweetheart, Iâve been half in love with you since the day you walked into the tower with that stubborn little smile. The more I got to know youâŠthe harder I fell.â
Your breath caught. âBuckyâŠâ
âDidnât know how to say it,â he admitted, brushing your hair back. âDidnât think I deserved to. But then I saw that noteâŠand heard you tonightâŠand I couldnât hold back anymore.â
Tears welled in your eyes. You kissed him softly, and he kissed back like it was the first and last thing heâd ever need.
When you finally curled up against him, drowsy and sated, he held you tighter, nuzzling your hair.
âGet some sleep, doll. Iâll be here when you wake up. Always.â
The world felt smaller, safer, like homeâright there in his arms.
Summary: You ride with hellfire, seeking vengeance for your slain family. He is a disciplined general, but only you can ignite the fire he cannot resist.
Word Count: 2.6k words
Tags/Warnings: MILD SMUT! 18+ MDNI p with a bit of plot, slow burn, tension, sexual content, adult language, violence, blood, character deaths, slight angst, eventual smut, unprotected p in v, oral (f receiving), fire play, historical inaccuracies, no use of Y/N, only character description is the rider version.
A/N: Thank you, anon for requesting this! Itâs not as long as I originally planned, but I toned down the smut this time to focus more on the poetic side. Hope you all enjoy it!
Requested by anon here.
The villa smelled of old cedar and wine. Your father, a minor senator, smiled across the table, and your siblings laughed, unaware of the storm brewing beyond the gates. You were tasked with keeping the house in order, learning diplomacy and graceâbut never prepared for slaughter.
The Praetorians came at night. Fire consumed your home; your fatherâs screams echoed through the halls. Your younger brother and sister tried to flee, but the soldiers struck them down. You hid under rubble, bleeding, dust in your hair, listening to the life you loved vanish.
By dawn, the villa was ash. You crawled from the ruins, cold, alone, unprotectedâa woman in Rome who had no standing.
On the blackened earth, you prayed.
Not to Jupiter. Not to Mars.
You called to Nemesis.
âMake me your hand,â you whispered, coughing blood. âLet me repay Romeâs cruelty.â
The ground split. A voiceânot merciful, but vastâfilled your skull.
You shall be my vengeance. You shall burn what has been corrupted.
Flames ripped across your body, burning away flesh, leaving bone aglow with fire. Your hair became smoke; your eyes became hellfire. Your chains coiled at your side, your steed born of flame.
The countryside whispered of you.
The Hell Rider.
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General Marcus Acacius had heard rumors. A flaming rider. Soldiers who dropped dead, their eyes hollow, their souls gone. He laughed when the Praetorians spoke of demons.
Then he saw you.
On the battlefield outside Rome, your skull blazed, chains snapping through men like whips. A prefect fell to his knees, screaming, as your penance stare devoured his sins.
And Marcusâhe did not fear. He stared as if looking upon a storm.
Days later, he found you again. The Rider gone, only a woman remainedâbloodied, slumped in the woods, a wound deep across your ribs. His sword hovered above your chest.
âDo it,â you rasped. âIf you serve the twins, kill me. Spare no hesitation.â
He lowered the blade and tore off his cloak to press to your wound. âExplain yourself,â he demanded.
âYou saw me,â you whispered, voice ragged. âDo you think Iâm human?â
âI think⊠you are more than human,â he said, eyes hard but unwavering.
The tension between you flared hotter than fire. Your eyes caught his, and a strange sparkâdesire? curiosity?âflickered between you.
âYou should fear me,â you breathed.
âI donât,â he replied. âI should kill you. Yet here I am.â
The tension hung between you, a flame crackling in the cold night.
Lucius, son of Maximus, returned to rally the disillusioned. The people of Rome, starved, oppressed, and fearful, flocked to him. But when you arrivedâchains clinking, skull burningâhe stepped back.
âYou terrify the people,â he said. âAnd yet⊠perhaps Rome needs terror more than reassurance.â
Marcusâs gaze followed you, conflicted. He could feel the pull of your fireâthe danger, the thrill. Yet the man of discipline in him knew the moment had come. He stepped forward, joining Lucius openly.
âThen we fight together,â he said, sword gleaming in the firelight. âYou may be the terror Rome needs, but I choose to stand with those who fight for its future.â
You looked at him, heat flickering not just from the Rider, but from the flicker of something deeper between youâtrust, admiration, desire.
That night, the rebels slept fitfully in a forest clearing. Smoke from the campfire curled toward the stars, carrying with it the scent of burning pine and roasting meat. You sat a few feet from the fire, sharpening a dagger with methodical precision, your eyes reflecting the flames.
Marcus approached quietly, crouching beside you, gaze fixed on your hands. âYou do not rest,â he observed softly.
âI cannot,â you replied, voice low. âNot until I know the men guarding Lucius are ready, not until I know we will survive another day.â
He nodded, brushing a strand of hair from your face. âAnd the Rider?â
You chuckled faintly, a bitter edge. âShe sleeps little too. Every night, I feel her stir. The fire wants more, but I keep her in check.â
Marcusâs eyes darkened with curiosityâand something hotter. âIâve seen her,â he said. âAnd Iâve seen you. Both are dangerous. Both make me⊠unsteady.â
You tilted your head, smirk teasing your lips. âIs that fear I hearâor something else?â
âPerhaps both,â he admitted, hand brushing the back of yours. The contact was fleeting but electric.
You glanced at him, eyes smoldering. âCareful, Marcus. A touch is enough to make me forget myself.â
He leaned closer, daring, voice rough. âThen donât forget. I want to see what youâll do to me when you forget.â
The next night, you sat apart from the campfire, watching Marcus inspect the surrounding trees for patrols. âWhy do you stay?â you asked suddenly. âYou could leave. No one would blame you.â He exhaled, jaw tight, eyes scanning the darkness before meeting yours. âBecause Iâve had enough of this oppression,â he said, voice low but fierce. âRome⊠itâs broken. The people starve, the innocent are slaughtered, and the emperorsâ whims decide who lives and who dies. I cannot stand by and do nothing anymore.â
His gaze softened, finally settling on you. âI stay because you fight. Because you burn. And because⊠I want to help themâthe people, the weak, the ones who cannot fight for themselves. I want to free Rome, even if it costs me everything.â
You let that sink in, feeling the weight of his conviction and the fire of desire that always flickered when he was near. âYouâve always been so disciplined, Marcus,â you whispered. âI wondered if anyone like you even existed⊠someone who would choose justice over duty.â
He crouched closer, fingers brushing yours lightly. âIâve only found my path now. And you⊠youâve shown me what it means to fight, not for orders, not for glory⊠but for vengeance and for the people who cannot defend themselves.â
The ember-light from your Rider form flickered faintly along your skin, teasing him harmlessly, and he swallowed hard, voice rough. âAnd yet⊠I find myself thinking of you, not just Rome, not just the fight.â
You felt heat beyond your Rider fire coil in your chest. âIâve had no one since my father and siblings were taken,â you admitted softly. âNo protection, no family⊠I sacrificed everything to survive and seek vengeance. And now Iââ
âYouâre not alone,â he interrupted gently, brushing a finger along your jaw. âNot while Iâm here.â
You exhaled, a mix of longing and fear. âMarcus⊠sometimes I wonder if anyone could handle all of meâthe fire, the hunger, the⊠the sins Iâve seen in the men I burn.â
âI donât just want to handle you,â he said, voice low and rough. âI want all of you. Human, Rider, everything.â
Your breath caught. You leaned closer, eyes dark with desire and warning. âDo you even know what that means?â
âI think I want to find out,â he whispered, brushing your shoulder with the barest touch. Your skin flared faintly at his fingers, the Riderâs power teasing him harmlessly, and his eyes darkened with fascination.
You found him sitting near the fire alone one evening, helmet discarded, armor loosened. His gaze lifted as you approached.
âYouâve been avoiding me,â he accused lightly.
âIâm⊠wary,â you admitted, voice soft. âThe Rider is unpredictable. And youâŠâ You paused, letting the heat curl along your spine. âYou make me forget caution.â
He smirked, leaning back slightly. âThen I guess Iâm dangerous too.â
You knelt in front of him, chains coiled in your hands like a toy, dragging the tips along his arms gently. âDo you feel it?â you asked softly. âThe heat, the fire⊠I could hurt you if I wanted.â
Marcusâs lips curved, unafraid. âDo it,â he challenged, voice low and ragged. âI want to see if you can.â
You let a faint ember pulse through your touch, teasing him without harm. He shivered, gripping your shoulders, eyes dark. âI⊠Gods, you are impossible,â he groaned.
You leaned forward, lips brushing his ear. âAnd yet you stay. Why?â
âBecause I want to,â he whispered. âBecause I need to.â
The ember flickered along your fingers again. Marcus groaned, pressing closer. âI donât care about the fire,â he admitted. âI care about you.â
By now, the two of you had become almost inseparable. In private moments between planning sessions, Marcus would find excuses to linger near you. You started letting himâwatching his reactions, teasing the fire lightly.
âYou could scorch me,â he said one night as your fingertips brushed his arm.
âI could,â you admitted, voice husky, âbut youâd like it, wouldnât you?â
He groaned, lowering his lips to yours, teeth grazing your bottom lip. âYou are relentless,â he whispered. âI should resist, but I⊠I canât.â
You leaned into him, letting your Rider heat pulse faintly, just enough for him to feel danger, to excite him. His hands found your waist, tracing burns and scars. âDo you know what you do to me?â he whispered, voice rough.
âEverything,â you breathed, tilting your head up to meet his gaze.
The tension built, coiled tight as steel. Neither of you moved past that yetâyou teased, he pressed, and the nights were a slow-burning dance of desire.
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Rome became a battlefield. Fire consumed streets, and screams echoed off the marble walls of the Forum.
Marcus fought Geta in the shadow of a shattered column. âTraitor!â the emperor bellowed, striking wildly.
âI serve Rome, not tyrants,â Marcus replied, parrying and thrusting with deadly precision.
You rode through the chaos, chains whipping, dragging soldiers into fire. The Riderâs eyes glowed, penance stare flattening the courage from the hearts of Caracallaâs men. Praetorians melted under your touch; horses and men alike were scorched into ash.
Caracalla tried to rally his guards, but you consumed them all. He screamed from the palace balcony, powerless.
When the dust cleared, Geta lay dead beneath Marcusâs blade. Caracallaâs final scream was swallowed in flames.
The streets of Rome were quiet for the first time in years. The banners of Caracalla and Geta lay in ashes, their names erased from memory. Lucius, son of Maximus, stood atop the Senate steps, robe flowing, laurel on his head. The crowd cheered, his coronation a symbol of justice restored.
You watched from the shadows, Rider form flickering faintly before shifting to human. Marcus appeared beside you, sword sheathed, his gaze never leaving yours.
âThey did it,â you whispered, voice low. âRome is⊠free.â
He took your hand, brushing his thumb across your knuckles, heat radiating from his touch. âYou know,â he said, voice rough but steady, âwe could be together now. No chains, no duty, no more hiding. You and Iâwe could stay.â
You shook your head slowly, ember-light flickering faintly along your skin. âThere are others, places that need the Rider. Vengeance doesnât sleep, Marcus. I cannot stay.â
He swallowed hard, jaw tight, and cupped your face gently, letting his lips brush your cheek. âThen let tonight be ours,â he murmured, voice low and demanding, âevery inch, every flame, every secret youâve kept. Human, Rider⊠I want all of you. I need all of you, even if only for tonight.â
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That night, away from Luciusâs celebration, you sat with Marcus by a smoldering fire. The air smelled of ash and charred wood. He reached for you, fingers grazing your arms with a heat that made your skin tingle.
âDo you remember the first night I saw you?â he murmured. âThe fire, the chains⊠and then you, bleeding and human. I wanted you then, and I want you more now.â
You leaned into him, lips brushing his. âMarcus⊠I donât know if you realize what that means,â you whispered. âI can burn, and I can destroyâbut I want you to touch me anyway.â
A low groan slipped from him as his hands slid down your back, hips pressing into yours. âThen let me,â he rasped.
You shifted subtly, Rider heat pulsing along your skin, teasing him without danger. His fingers gripped your waist, moving reverently over every curve, memorizing you.
âI couldââ you began, dragging your lips along the edge of his jaw, ember-light licking him.
âShh,â he murmured, teeth grazing your skin. âI donât care. I want all of it.â
You leaned against him, letting your Rider heat tickle his skin, moaning softly as his hands roamed over burns and scars, each touch making him shiver. âLook at me,â he demanded, voice low and rough. âI want to see youâhuman and Rider, every part.â
Your gaze locked with his, the penance stare blazing, and he groaned, every sin, every desire seared into him. The first kiss was teasing, a brush of iron and ash on his tongue, hands gripping your hips, pulling you flush against him. You felt the hardness straining against the leather of his breeches.
âIâve wanted this⊠you⊠since I first saw you,â he murmured, voice rough, fingers tracing the curve of your waist, over the faint burn scars marking you as Rider.
âI burn for you,â you whispered, moving your hands down his chest, feeling the disciplined muscles beneath. âDo you want me enough to face the fire?â
Marcus groaned, lips descending to your collarbone, teeth grazing your skin. âI need you,â he admitted, hands wandering lower, teasing the heat pooling in your core.
You pressed your body against him, Rider essence flickering faintly, licking at his thighs. He gasped, jaw clenching, taking it like a challenge. âYou are going to ruin me, arenât you?â he hissed.
âI intend to,â you purred, tugging him closer.
He pushed you back against a marble column, arm locking you there, the other hand trailing down your body, brushing against your slick folds. Your Rider fire pulsed beneath your flesh, and he didnât flinch; he bit into your shoulder, marking you, claiming you.
âMarcusâŠâ you moaned, hips grinding lightly, testing his patience.
He cupped your face, lips crashing over yours. âDo you want all of me?â he demanded.
âEvery part,â you shivered.
He stripped you swiftly, skin sizzling against his hands, teeth grazing your neck and breasts. Your back arched instinctively, heat and desire coiling together.
Then he lowered himself between your thighs. Your hands tangled in his hair, gasping as he licked, teased, tongue tracing every inch of you. Rider fire kissed him as you trembled, moaning louder, fingers gripping the marble.
âI can feel⊠everything,â he groaned. âEvery nerve on fire⊠every sin, every desire. Do it⊠show me.â
You briefly shifted to Rider form again, chains brushing his back teasingly, letting him feel the heat without danger. His hands gripped your flaming hips, thrusting into you like he was testing the fire itself.
Returning fully to human, you melted into him. He worshipped you with deliberate, consuming thrusts, teeth, hands, and tongue claiming every inch. You writhed atop the cracked marble, Rider essence flickering with every movement.
âGods⊠youâre mine,â he groaned, gripping your hair, pulling you flush against his mouth, worshipping your body like a goddess of flame and vengeance.
Finally, atop the ruinsâ highest step, you straddled him, alternating between human and Rider, your fire licking his skin. He gripped your waist, thrusting deep, teeth sinking into your shoulder.
âLook at me,â he demanded, voice ragged.
Your penance stare locked on him fully, searing every sin, every desire. He groaned louder than flames could roar, release tearing through him as if absolved. You clung to him, chest heaving, Rider fire mingling with sweat and lust, finally letting it all go.
Exhausted, you curled against him, heat dimming to embers. His fingers traced your burned skin, lips pressing gentle kisses along every scar.
âYou are my goddess,â he whispered. âMy vengeance⊠my salvation.â
âI have to leave soon,â you murmured, resting your forehead against his. âBut I promise⊠I will return to you.â
âI will wait,â he said, voice low and ragged. âAnd burn for you until you come back.â
You kissed him long and hard, Rider fire trailing faintly as you shifted back, disappearing into the nightâleaving Marcus behind, burning with desire and love, waiting for the day you would return.
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18+ MDNI mild smut, nipple play, oral fixation, very soft Bob
The dream hit like a hammer.
New York burning. Screams swallowed by shadows. The blackness pressing down, suffocating, pulling him apart piece by piece. The Void, alive inside his bones, inside his breath. Bob jolted awake in a cold sweat, sheets tangled around him, his chest heaving like heâd been running for hours. His hands shook.
He couldnât breathe in that room. Couldnât sit still with the memory clawing at the edges of his mind. By the time he stumbled into the lounge, his skin was damp with sweat, hair sticking to his forehead, breath ragged.
It was dimly lit, a TV flickering against the walls. You were curled up on the couch, blanket draped across your lap, idly watching some late-night rerun. The soft laugh track of a sitcom played, but your smile faded the second you saw him.
âBob?â you asked softly, turning. His eyes looked wild, glassy, still somewhere far away. âHey. What happened?â
He didnât answer. Just collapsed onto the cushion beside you, head hanging, shoulders heaving. When he finally turned toward you, his eyes were glassy, his lips parted like he couldnât catch his breath.
He swallowed, throat tight. âJust⊠dream. The kind that doesnât feel like a dream.â His voice cracked. âThe Void. And New York. I couldnât stop itâI just kept watching everything fall apart.â
Your heart squeezed. You cupped his cheek, thumb brushing over his damp skin. âOh, babyâŠâ
That was all it took for him to break. His hand covered yours, trembling but tight, like he needed proof you were there. Then he kissed youâhesitant at first, a brush of lips like a question. But when you answered, pressing your mouth to his, something in him cracked open.
You let him take what he needed. Let him press you down against the cushions, his weight heavy, grounding. His mouth slid from your lips to your jaw, then down to your neck, pressing scattered kisses that turned hungrier the lower he went. His breath was hot, shaky, every kiss threaded with need.
And then you felt itâhis hand ghosting over your chest. Tentative. Searching. His thumb brushed the swell of your breast, fingers twitching like he was barely holding back.
You didnât make him beg. You never did.
Silently, you pulled your shirt over your head, baring yourself for him. His breath hitched, pupils wide, and for a moment he looked almost boyish, undone.
âCome here,â you whispered, drawing him in.
The sound that rumbles out of him is half-whimper, half-sob. He buries his face against your chest, mouth closing over your nipple in a desperate latch. The first suck is rough, almost frantic, his big body curling into you like a man starved. His tongue flicks, circles, then pulls again, and you shiver.
You exhale, combing your fingers through his messy hair, stroking him slow and steady. âThatâs it,â you whisper, grounding him with every gentle word. âBreathe, baby. Youâre safe. Iâve got you.â
Bob moaned against your skin, his big hands cupping both breasts like he couldnât decide which to worship first. He switched quickly, sucking your other nipple into his mouth, wet and needy, while his fingers pinched and toyed with the one heâd left. Every sound he made was wrecked and reverent, every pull steadier than the last.
You arched into him, thighs pressing together. God, he wasnât even trying to be sexualâit was instinct, comfort, compulsion. But the sight of himâthis towering man brought low, nursing at you like salvationâset a fire curling low in your belly.
He moans softly against you, his hips shifting slightly but without urgency, more instinct than desire. His focus is on your breasts, his mouth clinging, his hands squeezing gently as if afraid youâll pull away. But you never do. You tilt your head back, letting him take what he needs, the wet sounds of his mouth filling the quiet lounge.
You stroke his hair, your voice a quiet murmur above the TV. âItâs just us, my love. Nothing else matters.â
Bob groans softly, switching to your other breast. His lips wrap around your nipple, his tongue flattening before he suckles again, slower this time, steadier.
His grip softened, the frantic edge fading as he suckled slower, calmer, until the tension bled from his body. His eyes fluttered shut, lashes brushing your skin. He hummed softly around your nippleâa low, content soundâlike heâs finally remembering what peace feels like.
You tilted your head forward to look at him, sighing, half-aroused and half-overwhelmed with love. âBetter?â you asked softly.
He hums, the sound vibrating against your skin. âYeah,â he mumbles, voice muffled by your breast. âBetter. Always better with you.â
You smiled, stroking his hair as the TV droned on. He stayed there for the rest of the night, mouth clinging to you like it was the only thing that could keep the nightmares away.
This was your ritual. His way back from the edge.
And as you held him thereâyour Bob, your broken, gentle giantâyou knew youâd let him do this every night if it kept the nightmares away.
Emperor Geta x Fem Concubine!Reader x General Marcus Acacius (+ Emperor Caracalla)
✠Masterlist | Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V | Part VI
Summary: When loyalty, survival, and love collide in the throne room, you are forced to make choices that bind you tighter to chains you can never escape. In an empire ruled by blood and madness, your body becomes both weapon and battlefield, claimed by men who would burn the world to own you.
Word Count: 4.1k words
Tags/Warnings: SMUT! 18+ MDNI, DDDE, HEAVY ANGST, bittersweet ending, sexual content, adult language, graphic violence, gore, blood, wicked!Geta, public humiliation, public sex, voyeurism, unprotected p in v, physical and emotional abuse, forbidden romance, love triangle, possession, power imbalance, emperor/concubine dynamics, historical inaccuracies.
A/N: The series has finally wrapped up! The ending is a bit open-ended in case I want to explore this series again. Writing this fic has been such a joy, and Iâve cherished every moment of it. I hope you enjoyed the journey as much as I did. Thank you all so much for your love and support, it truly means the world!! <3
The palace walls pressed in tighter each day. What once rang with music and laughter now echoed with whispers and sharp silences. Servants moved like ghosts, speaking in hurried murmurs before slipping back into the shadows. Even the Praetorian guards, once proud and unmoving, lingered at their posts with furtive glances, hands twitching toward their hilts as if they expected danger to erupt from the marble floors themselves.
You felt it in every stepâan unseen current rising through the halls, a storm that had yet to break.
Geta sensed it too. His paranoia, once hidden beneath his cruel games and mocking smiles, had sharpened to steel. His pale brows knitted tighter each day, his lips pressed into thin, furious lines as he prowled the court. His eyes lingered longest on the generals, his suspicion coiling around them like a snake. And though he said nothing aloud, his gaze burned hottest whenever it found Acacius.
Caracallaâs restlessness was of a different kindâerratic, fevered. He paced long into the night, the sound of his boots echoing through the colonnades until dawn. Sometimes you found him muttering to himself in shadowed corners, his amber hair damp with sweat, his face twisted with visions only he could see. At times he clung to you desperately, demanding your presence at his side, whispering hoarse promises that he trusted only you. Other times, his fury broke like a storm, goblets hurled across the room, servants struck down for imagined slights.
The palace itself shifted under their weight. Senators left chambers abruptly when Geta entered. You saw generals lean too close in colonnades, words clipped short when you passed. Servants lowered their eyes, their silence heavier than speech. Acacius moved more in shadows than in light, his presence among the restless soldiers too deliberate to ignore.
You told yourself not to look too closely. Yet when his gaze found yours across torchlightâsteady, filled with something that was not treason but longingâyou wondered if it was loyalty or love that drove him into shadows. And if Geta noticed⊠would he punish only him, or you as well?
The brothers felt the cracks too.
One evening, when you entered the hall carrying wine, you found them already mid-argument, their voices echoing off the marble.
âThey think we are blind!â Geta spat, rising from his throne. His ringed finger tapped against the armrest with a sharp rhythm. âBut I see itâthe way they look at us. The whispers when our backs are turned.â
Caracalla laughed bitterly, but there was no mirth in itâonly exhaustion and fury. âThen root them out, brother. Drag them into the light. Let Rome see what happens to traitors.â His voice cracked, his chest heaving as though each word cost him blood.
Getaâs head turned sharply, his gaze pinning you where you stood. âAnd what of her?â he hissed. âShe is mine. My possession. My gift from the gods themselves. And yet she dares smile at othersâat guards, at generals. As if her beauty were for anyone but me.â
Your breath caught, the jug trembling in your hands as both sets of imperial eyes fell upon you. You bowed your head instantly, but the weight of their stares felt like chains.
Caracallaâs jaw tightened, fury flashing across his freckled face. âYou chain her like a beast, and still, you think she is yours?â His voice broke, raw and unguarded. âShe belongs with me. She trusts me.â
The silence stretched like a drawn blade. Getaâs lips curled into a smile, cruel and deliberate, his voice low and venomous. âBelongs with you?â he echoed, mocking. âDo not delude yourself, brother. She belongs to no one but me. Every smile, every glance, every breath she takesâit is mine.â
Caracallaâs face darkened instantly, his hand twitching at his side as his breath grew ragged. His blue eyes darted to youâpleading, desperate, accusing all at once.
âTell him,â he demanded, voice cracking. âTell him you belong to me.â
You felt your knees weaken under the weight of their jealousy, your throat too tight for words. But silence was dangerous, and so with a trembling voice, you whispered, âI am loyal⊠to Rome. To both my emperors.â
The answer satisfied neither.
Getaâs lips curled in amusement, but his eyes gleamed with cruel triumph as though he had caught a secret you thought hidden. Caracallaâs face crumpled, fury and heartbreak twisting his features as he turned sharply away, his hands digging into his hair.
Their argument echoed through the palace long after you were dismissed. Shouts. Crashes. Laughter edged with madness. The walls themselves seemed to shake under the strain.
And as you lay awake in your chambers, the truth pressed heavy on your chest: whether you willed it or not, you had become the flame both moths burned themselves against.
A knock came at your chamber door, breaking your thoughts. It was hurried, uneven. Before you could answer, it pushed open, and Caracalla slipped inside.
His hair was wild, ginger strands sticking to his damp forehead, his tunic askew as though he had been clawing at it in rage. His eyes burned feverishly, darting around the chamber as if searching for shadows that only he could see.
âTell me,â he rasped, slamming the door shut behind him. His chest rose and fell in frantic bursts, and when his gaze finally locked onto you, it was raw and desperate. âTell me you are mine.â
Your breath caught. âMy emperor, Iââ
âDo not say Rome.â He advanced, fists clenched at his sides. His voice cracked, torn between fury and pleading. âNot Rome. Not both. Me. You must say it.â
You stepped back until the edge of the bed touched your legs, fear and pity tangling in your chest. His presence was overwhelming, his instability coiling around you like smoke.
âCallaââ you began softly, but he cut you off, his fist slamming against the wall beside him.
âThey will betray me. I know it,â he whispered hoarsely, his breath hot against your cheek. âThe generals, the senatorsâeven the servants. All of them whispering, plotting. Only youâonly you can silence the voices.â
His hand trembled as it cupped your jaw, not harshly as Getaâs often did, but with a fragile desperation that made your heart twist. His thumb brushed your trembling lip, his voice dropping to a raw murmur. âIf you betray me too⊠I will have nothing left.â
For a long moment, you said nothing. Fear held your tongue, but so did empathyâthe same thread of kindness that had always made you dangerous in this palace.
Finally, with a voice barely above a whisper, you said, âI would never betray you.â
His eyes closed, and he let out a shuddering breath, his forehead pressing against yours as though he might shatter without the contact. For that moment, the emperor who stood before you was not Romeâs ruler, but a broken boy clawing for something he could not keep.
But even as you held still beneath him, you knewâyour words had not calmed his paranoia. They had only bound you tighter to it.
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That night, after you whispered your promiseâI would never betray youâCaracalla left your chambers with eyes still feverish, lips moving as though repeating your words over and over like a prayer, or a curse.
By morning, his paranoia had worsened. You heard his voice echo through the palace corridors, shouting at guards, demanding reports of whispered conversations, accusing senators of plotting in the shadows. The clatter of steel and the slam of doors punctuated his rage.
When you were summoned to the throne room later, you found the brothers together. Geta lounged on the throne with his usual cruel poise, but his eyes gleamed sharper than ever, suspicion curling his pale lips into something like a smile. Caracalla paced like a caged beast at his side, hands flexing restlessly, eyes darting at every man who entered.
âThey are hiding something,â Caracalla hissed, his voice raw, almost trembling. âI hear it. I feel it. They look at us like jackals watching lions stumble.â
Getaâs laughter was soft, mocking. âSo dramatic, brother. But perhaps⊠not wrong.â His gaze slid to Acacius, lingering like a bladeâs edge. âOur general keeps his secrets close, does he not?â
The words made your chest tighten. Acacius stood at his post with shoulders squared, but his jaw clenched, his dark eyes betraying the weight of truths left unsaid.
Caracalla wheeled on him, his voice breaking into a shout. âSwear it! Swear before the gods and Rome that you are loyal to us!â
Acacius bowed stiffly, but his silence lasted a heartbeat too long. You saw Getaâs lips twitch in cruel amusement, his suspicion confirmed.
And in that moment, you realized your whispered comfort to Caracalla the night beforeâthe desperate assurance meant to soothe himâhad only poured oil onto the fire. His paranoia now infected the entire court. The noose around Acacius and the conspirators tightened, and you stood at the center of it, helpless.
The storm was coming.
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The rebellion erupted like thunder.
The throne room descended into carnage. Steel clashed against steel, the shrieks of dying men ricocheting off the marble walls as the rebels threw themselves at the Praetorians. Torchlight flared across gilded columns, illuminating every spray of blood as blades cut through flesh. The air grew thick with smoke, the stench of sweat and iron, every footfall and scream amplified into a deafening cacophony.
Acacius moved like a phantom of warâhis jaw clenched, eyes blazing with defiance, scars gleaming under the flames as his sword carved a desperate path through the guards. His strikes were precise, brutal, each movement honed from a lifetime of battle. Around him, senators and gladiatorsâmen who had once whispered rebellion in shadowsânow screamed their fury in the open, courage dragging them headlong into death.
But the throne room was a trap. Praetorians poured in from every archway like wolves, shields locking into walls of iron. The rebels were hemmed in, their blades scraping futilely against unyielding armor. A senator cried out as he was gutted, his entrails spilling across the marble floor. Another rebelâs skull cracked beneath a guardâs mace, the sound sickeningly sharp, echoing through the chamber.
Acacius fought like a cornered lion, cutting men down even as their numbers swarmed him. He ducked beneath a strike, slammed his blade into a guardâs throat, only to be battered by the haft of another spear. His body jolted with the blow, but still he rose, snarling, defiant. Yet even lions bleed.
Near the throne, you stood paralyzedâheart hammering, fingers digging into your palms until they bled. The throne itself loomed above the slaughter, a predatorâs perch, where Geta and Caracalla sat enthroned like twin gods of cruelty, watching the massacre unfold with eyes alight.
Thenâ
Acacius staggered. A massive Praetorian seized his shoulder, spinning him hard. The glint of steel pressed into his side, and with a grunt, he crashed to his knees. His gaze found you across the chamberâonly for a breath, only for a heartbeatâand it shattered you. A look of anguish, of love, before his head was yanked down and chains wrapped around his wrists.
Getaâs laughter sliced through the uproarâcold, merciless, triumphant. âSo,â he hissed, rising, surveying the captured rebels sprawled in blood and chains, âthis is what treachery looks like. And yet, somehow, I expected nothing less.â
The battle was over. Silence fell heavy as smoke. The rebels groaned in their restraints, guards shoved them into submission, and the torchlight wavered across slick pools of blood. The air was thick with the iron scent of failure, pressing down on you like a shroud.
Acacius knelt nearby, chest heaving, wrists bound raw from his struggles. His eyes burned with anguish, but his lips stayed shutâhis defiance was in his silence. Every part of you screamed to throw yourself at his side, to shield him from what would come, but you were frozen in chains of fear.
Getaâs eyes swept the room until they speared into you. âAnd you,â he snarled, his voice low and poisonous, âdo you deny it? Were you part of this conspiracy?â
Your breath caught, heart slamming like a war drum. âI⊠Iââ
âSilence!â Geta roared, stepping down from the throne. His ringed hand pointed at you like a blade. âDid you think your smiles, your kindness, your pretty little games could blind me? Do you think I would not see your betrayal written in your eyes?â
Acacius writhed violently against his chains, his voice raw as he shouted: âShe had nothing to do with this! She is innocent! Please, Emperor Getaâtorture me if you want but leave her out of it!â
Getaâs eyes flared. His head snapped toward Acacius, and his voice ripped through the hall like a swordâs edge.
âYOUR NAME WILL BE FORGOTTEN!â
The words shook the chamber, seared into every ear, and silenced even the cries of the dying.
Then, slowly, his gaze turned back to youâburning with jealousy, sharp with hunger, as if every breath you took was already his to command.
âLies or not,â he hissed, voice trembling with rage, âit does not matter. I will punish them all.â
You swallowed hard, your knees weak as you stepped forward, desperate, trembling. âPlease⊠spare him. He⊠he is not your enemy.â
Getaâs lips twisted into a cruel smile at your plea, his pale brown eyes alight with poisonous satisfaction. He descended from the throne with slow, deliberate steps, the heavy fall of his sandals echoing through the hall. The rebels knelt in chains, Acacius among them, his body taut with rage, his eyes locked on you as though his silence alone might shield you.
âSpare him?â Geta repeated, his tone mocking, savoring every word. He stopped before you, towering above your trembling form, and with a sharp jerk of his hand, seized your jaw, forcing your tear-stained face upward. His grip bit into your skin, his jeweled rings pressing cruelly into your flesh.
âDo you beg for him?â he hissed, close enough that you could smell the wine and venom on his breath. âDo you plead for the life of a traitor, while your emperor watches? Tell me, little dove⊠why should I spare a man who sought to tear my throne from beneath me?â
You shook your head frantically, words tumbling from your lips, broken, desperate. âPlease, Geta⊠He is loyal to Rome. I beg you, my emperor, show mercy.â
A hush fell over the throne room, every eye fixed on you. Even the rebels, bloodied and beaten, seemed to hold their breath.
Geta chuckled, low and dangerous, his grip on your jaw tightening until tears streamed freely down your cheeks.
âYou want him spared?â He echoed, each word rolling off his tongue as though foreign, obscene. His eyes narrowed, sharp with jealousy, his gaze flicking to Acacius before snapping back to you.
âThen prove your loyalty. Prove that he means nothing to you.â
Your heart stopped as Geta ascended back to his throne and reclined, his voice low, dangerous.
âDo it here. In front of everyone.â
Tears blurred your vision, but you forced a nod. With trembling hands, you untied your robe and let it slip from your shoulders, shame flooding you as the silk pooled at your feet. Dozens of eyes devoured your nakedness, and you felt stripped bare of more than just clothing.
In that moment, your thoughts fractured. Acaciusâs gaze burned in your periphery, steady even in chainsâreminding you of warmth, of nights when his hands held you like salvation. Caracallaâs blue eyes cut through you, pleading and furious, his need so raw it made your chest ache. And Geta⊠Getaâs hunger devoured every piece of you until there was nothing left to hide behind.
You wanted to scream that you belonged to no one. That your body was your own. That Rome could not decide whom you loved. But your voice betrayed you, just as your body always did. Survival screamed louder than your heart.
You stepped forward, your pulse hammering. Getaâs hand shot out, gripping your hip and dragging you closer. You stumbled, catching yourself on the carved arm of his throne. His gaze raked over you, his hunger dark and unrelenting.
âI want them to see,â he murmured huskily, lips brushing against your skin. âI want them to know you are mine.â
He pulled you onto his lap, your thighs trembling as they straddled his. The hard press of his cock through his robe dug against your leg, a cruel reminder of your fate.
âRide me.â The command cut like a blade, sharp and merciless.
Your hands shook as you fumbled with his robe, baring the thick length of him. You spat into your palm, slicking him with shaking fingers, and he groaned, his grip on your hips tightening. The heavy head of his cock pressed against your soaked folds, and with a choked breath you sank down. The stretch was brutal, every inch dragging into you until he was fully sheathed. Geta let out a low, restrained moan, his nails biting crescents into your flesh.
âGood little dove,â he mocked, his hand closing around your throat, squeezing until your vision blurred. âWho do you belong to?â
âY-yoursâŠâ you gasped, clawing at his wrist as your lungs screamed for air.
His other hand cracked down on your thigh, the sound echoing through the chamber. âLouder.â
âYours, my emperor!â you cried, voice hoarse, breaking.
Caracallaâs jaw clenched, his fists curling as if he wanted the words for himself. His eyes met Getaâs for a fleeting instant, a dangerous spark flashing between the brothers.
Caracalla surged forward, voice cutting through the chamber:
âBreak her, brother. Mark her as yours. But know thisâwhen she bleeds, it will be my hands that heal her. My lips sheâll call for in the dark. You cannot own what already belongs to me.â
Geta only smirked wider, dragging you harder down onto his cockâas if staking his claim all the louder in Caracallaâs face.
Satisfied, he released your throat and seized your hips, bouncing you on his cock with bruising force. Your chest heaved, air burning back into your lungs as he thrust up into you, rutting with merciless rhythm. Every snap of his hips hit deep, punching moans from your throat despite the shame flooding your veins.
Then, without warning, he wrenched you off his lap. You hit the cold marble floor, knees scraping as he shoved you forward, your palms braced against the stone. He yanked your hips up, forcing you onto all fours before driving back into you in one hard stroke that made you cry out. The slap of his body against yours filled the chamber, obscene and wet, the only sound beneath the suffocating silence of the court.
âLook at them,â he snarled, fingers digging into your hips hard enough to bruise. âLet them see how well you take me.â
You dared glance upâand met Acaciusâs eyes. He stood restrained, a sword at his throat, his jaw clenched, his gaze burning with pain and helpless fury. Tears welled as you choked out, âIâm sorry.â He gave the smallest shake of his head, anguish in his eyes, but understanding too. This was the price.
Getaâs cock slammed deeper, forcing a strangled moan from your throat. You bit your lip, but the sound had already escaped. Caracalla heard it. He sat back in his seat, eyes gleaming with something darker than disgustâsomething hungry. His lips curved in the faintest smile, cold and claiming, as if your shame only made you more his.
Getaâs laugh was harsh in your ear. He bent over you, chest crushing your back, breath hot and vicious against your skin. âYou moan for me in front of them all,â he growled, pounding into you mercilessly. âYour cunt grips me like it was made for me. You canât hide it, little doveâyou like it. Even now. Especially now.â
âN-no,â you gasped, tears streaking your cheeks as marble bit into your palms. But your body betrayed you, tightening around him, clenching with every brutal thrust. Slick pooled down your thighs, loud and wet where he drove into you.
âNo?â he mocked, rutting into you harder, making your ass slap against his hips with every thrust. âNow everyone sees that you are the emperorâs whore. Mine. Only mine.â His hand snaked up, wrapping around your throat, forcing your head back until you were choking on air and humiliation.
Getaâs grip bruised your hips as he bent low, his chest pressing your back, his breath hot and vicious against your ear. âYou are mine,â he growled, thrusts pounding into you. âAll mine. And no oneânot him, not Rome, not the godsâcan take you away.â
Your body seized as his orgasm tore through him. He spilled hot and thick inside you, groaning like an animal as his seed flooded you. You sobbed, shame and betrayal mixing with the unwilling shudder of release that wracked your own body. You hated yourself for it, hated that your cunt clenched around him, milking him as if your body obeyed him more than your will.
The room was silent save for the lewd drip of his spend leaking from you when he pulled out.
Geta tied his robe with deliberate calm, his composure terrifying in its control. You remained on the floor, trembling, knees pressed together, arms wrapped around your chest as you tried in vain to hide from the stares.
Caracalla, however, did not look away. His gaze lingered with icy hunger, his expression unreadable but sharp with intent. He exchanged one more glance with Geta, who smirked at him with smug triumph. Caracallaâs lips curved into something darker, a silent promise. If Geta claimed you here and now, then Caracalla would claim you too.
Getaâs hand shot out, gripping your jaw, forcing you to look up into his cold, unyielding eyes. âDo you understand now?â he murmured, his tone intimate, venomous. âYou belong to me. Every glance, every thought, every breathâmine.â
Your lips trembled as you whispered, broken but clear, âI⊠I understand. I belong to you. I only love you. Only you.â
His smile was sharp, dangerous, triumphant. He reached for you, pulling you close, the warmth of his body a stark contrast to the cold stone around you.
âGood,â he whispered, voice husky, âbecause you are mine. And mine alone.â
You pressed yourself against him, tears blurring your vision, heart breaking for Acacius, for the rebels, for the world that had promised freedom but delivered only cruelty. Yet in this moment, you surrenderedânot out of love, not out of desire, but out of survival, out of the strange, twisted pity and connection you felt for the broken boy emperor who had claimed you.
Acacius lowered his gaze, silent, tears unshed. He had lost youânot to choice, but to survival. And the entire Rome knew it: the emperor had broken you, claimed you. You were his.
Later, when the court dispersed and the throne room was emptied of its blood and whispers, another shadow lingered.
Caracalla found you where Geta had left you, still trembling, still trying to gather your robe around your body as though scraps of silk could shield you from shame.
He knelt, startlingly gentle as he brushed a tear from your cheek with his thumb. His hand shook, not with tenderness, but with fever.
âDo not weep for him,â he whispered, voice hoarse, raw. âEvery mark he leaves on you, I will erase. Every time he breaks you, I will piece you back together. Not because he commands itâbecause you are already mine.â
Your lips parted, but no words came. His touch lingered too long, trembling against your jaw, and when he leaned in, his breath ghosted over your ear:
âYou shall see. When the night comes, it wonât be his name you call.â
Then he rose, the echo of his vow heavy in the silence, a shadow pressing even closer than the chains.
And so, the palace remainedâa gilded cage of obsession, cruelty, and longing. You were ensnared, bound to the emperors, caught at the heart of their hunger and their malice.
The rebellion lay in ashes. The fragile hope you once clung to with Acacius had withered into impossibility.
And the only truth that remained: in the empire of blood, love was nothing but a scarâand freedom, a dream forever out of your reach.