Simply Dee

Checking in. Shmile.

I miss you Angel. 💛

And remember, be someone else’s reason to smile today.

Pin 📌 4|14 Muaj ib hnub kuv mam sau tau kuv zaj neej neeg no khaws cia. Kuv yuav qhia txog kuv txoj kev zoo siab ua ib tug ntxhais hmoob ntawm kuv niam thiab kuv txiv .. es vim li cas ho los ua tau kuv txoj kev tu siab thaum kawg.

“When you look at a field of dandelions, you either see a thousand weeds or a thousand wishes.”

Sigh where do I start ? Well, first and foremost, there’s the COVID-19 pandemic going on in our world right now. It’s crazy. It feels really surreal to me hearing about all the things that are happening ever since we were faced with this epidemic. The mass hysteria reactions, the quarantines/lockdowns, the xenophobia that has transpired. My gosh, it feels so strange to me. So much is happening and I’m constantly bombarded, soaking up everything I hear and see but I feel like I don’t know how to react to it all. I just feel like a big sponge that’s sucking it all up and wanting to soak up all the negativity in the world right now so everything can return to normal and everyone can be happy and healthy once again. But of course, it doesn’t work that way. One thing I know for sure is that I feel hurt. My heart is hurting for each and every person in this universe but I have faith that we will all get through this together. ❤️ On another note, we need to be thankful for the real heroes. They say real heroes don’t wear capes and it has never rung more true than now knowing that our front-liners are waking up every day and going to work to keep their communities going and well. As a former healthcare worker, I know firsthand how dangerous it is to work in an environment where you are most vulnerable. I presented to open wounds, bodily fluids, blood, infections, and diseases on a daily basis. It is scary and dangerous. These heroes are putting their lives at risk and deserve all the recognition. To ALL our healthcare employees, medical personnel, first responders along with everyone who works in groceries, restaurants, warehouse, delivery, and trucking, you all are truly appreciated. I send all my love and prayers. Be safe and healthy everyone ! ❤️

The feeling of indifference in a relationship is irreversible.

Talking about my gullibility with my coworker and falling for “Hey did you know they took the word ‘gullible’ out of the dictionary just recently ?” literally right after. Yep, I googled it and everything. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Happy 64th Birthday mommy 💓 Your beautiful soul forever lives on in my heart. I hope you and Dad are spending this wonderful day together smiling down on us. There are so many things to say and it’ll never need so I’ll cherish my words and feelings for the day I see you both again. Even though I often visit to cry my eyes out, I’m really happy to have you both side by side so that we can always continue to celebrate each special occasion and holidays together. I love you my Angels 💛💜

For all the heavy hearts tonight including myself .. please don’t go to sleep crying. Let this beautiful melody soothe your soul. 💛

Never been one to stay up past midnight but ever since Mom passed, I haven’t slept well and boy am I tired. I realized that if I tried my hardest to sleep, I won’t sleep at all. I’m a wonder-er therefore my mind wanders. A lot. It wanders as far back as to “Why on earth did I wear that darn green sweater all throughout middle school, even on the hottest days ? What was I thinking ?!” to my bittersweet college graduation. Has it been over 3 years already ?And in between all that, I reminisce of the days when I was just a chubby little peanut being pushed on the swings laughing each time I came down because it tickled. Yep I can still feel it. How about my feet digging into the sand on the beautiful beach I grew up near, sunny days and sandy waves .. 4LyfE .. ahh the MySpace days when we thought we were hip teenagers typing like that, experiencing those naive puppy love days. What about those surveys eh ? *cue an ‘oh gosh I remember those things’ type of smile* Back to my reality though, here in darkness, curled up to the furthest corner on this huge queen sized bed. All I hear is the ringing in my ears, the ticking from my watch, and the memories in my head. Yes, I hear them. If you can feel your emotions then you can hear them as well, just listen closely. I think I think too much though. In the end, it always dwindles down to my same last thought. What am I doing ? Sighs. My mind wanders to wonder what will be my next step in life right now but I can never answer that thought .. that question. I can’t push forward. I think I’m stagnant. No wait, I am stagnant, like a beautiful body of water with no current. It is peaceful if left untouched but when occupied, it moves tremendously, tremendously calm and free flowing or tremendously dangerous and aggressive. I’m afraid it’ll be the latter .. but why ? Oh gosh, flashbacks. Not just flashbacks but those flashbacks that tear me up every night. That’s why. Close your eyes my dear and my trail of thought ends here. I will suppress my feelings for another sleepless night.

Relax, let go, and find a reason to smile today !

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