Revel in the chaos.

does living get easier? i really really really miss what my life was like a year ago, even though it was hard in so many ways, it’s never been THIS hard. it seems as though every time i get my chops up, some wild shit happens. in the past 6 months i’ve been dealing with a breakup, bike accident and car accident and the bills that follow those things, and now my mama’s house being bought out by a company in the area. i have little motivation beyond my days at work and seriously no capacity to maintain emotional intimacy with anyone at all, both romantically or platonically. this shit is seriously so hard and i haven’t been able to talk about it in any capacity but i just wish i could snap my fingers and disappear for a bit without having it affect my mama or her bills.

i’m struggling with life more than i’d like to admit