a little change

                                   the basics.

NAME: simon star

AGE: twenty five

GENDER: nonbinary

PRONOUNS: they/them

ZODIAC SIGN: libra

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual

HOGWARTS HOUSE: gryffindor

TV TROPES: girls like musicians, plucky comic relief, awesome mccoolname, i just want to be free, riches to rags 

                                        about.

it was glaringly obvious that the currans didn’t want kids from the way they behaved: cold, businesslike, maybe uncertain as to how to talk to the child. and with good reason. their family was not their creation, but rather a side effect of their mistakes.

when abigail jones wound up pregnant at just eighteen, it was hard to hide from her large family, and her mother would soon demand to know who the boy she had been seeing was. when she alerted the parents of jamie curran, they demanded he fix this. a wedding was to be in order. yaaay.

they raised their child on their own, through all years of law school and despite their owns parents constant insistance that they were doing things wrong. for all their detachment, they raised a proper and polite child. 

maybe they went wrong with the guitar classes, or allowing them access to the internet so young, but soon the young curran child was firm on wanting to play rock music, and their early teens was a nightmare for their parents poor ears.

they thought they’d gotten their child back on track, put them through high school and college without too much of a disruption, though their child’s “rockstar” attitude and outlandish sense of humor started becoming more and more grating.

the day they received their degree in criminal justice, simon star also shed their old life. maybe it was a symbol of the end of something, instead of the beginning. they were just asked to finish college after all. so, they changed their name, packed everything, and drove off in a van.

the goal was to make something of their music, and if they had to start off at the bottom by giving tours of much more successful people’s spaces, then so be it.

                                   a look inside.

mannerisms.

FACE: one look at simon’s expressions will tell you all you need to know about how they’re feeling. they have a tendency to overexaggerate reactions, brows a little too crinkled when they’re upset, eyes a little too wide with surprise. for the sake of being understood, they emote.

HANDS:  big on talking with their hands. if they’re excited enough, it’s best to stay within four feet of them while their arms are swinging everywhere.

LEGS/FEET: on their feet most of the day for work, but the second they get to rest, their legs are propped onto the nearest possible surface and chair tipped dangerously far back.

EMOTIONAL OUTBURSTS: simon is pretty good at keeping any and all negative emotions in check, but they can’t control bursts of happiness or excitement so much. its gotten them in plenty of trouble in situations where they’re to stay quiet and calm.

HABITS: they’re a known nailbiter, despite having tried every trick out there in order to stop. it’s just an unbeatable habit at this point.

POSTURE: simon was taught from young to have perfect posture

personal.

INTROVERT/EXTROVERT?: simon is an extrovert when their energy is matched, but they struggle to speak to people who are more introverted. often they just try to avoid pushing and seeming too overbearing

OPTIMIST/PESSIMIST: their optimism has slowly been soured over the years

INSECURITIES: wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy?

relationships.

FAMILY: simon’s relationship with their family is nonexistent nowadays. since leaving to chase their dreams, they’ve cut off all contact with their parents. they have even less of a desire to reconnect now, not wanting to hear any i told you so’s when they reveal the life they settled for

FRIENDSHIPS: friendship is all simon has and they cherish it very dearly. they try to be a positive force in their friends’ lives, but sometimes they’re more of an annoyance or bad influence.

LOVE: simon falls in love more often than they’d ever admit to anyone. they like being doted on, complimented, feeling understood. their dating history is messy and chaotic, from one failed relationship to another.

                                               connect.

(“you”=simon. “they”=your character)

THE TRINITY (0/2): you all have dreams that are so much bigger than masters, and maybe you knew that before saying hello. you’ve only known them as long as you’ve been working together, but they understand you more than anyone else you’ve ever known. alone, you’re one person with outlandish dreams. together, you’re unstoppable.

CONFIDANT: two people from completely different walks of life, it feels like a fluke that you’d even come across each other. but somehow you found each other. twice. you met them while traveling, a stranger among the crowd. you opened up, and they did in return. finding them again years later feels like a sign, somehow.

LOVE RULES ALL: two hopeless romantics walk into a bar. they both walk out five minutes later in tears. the fact is, both of you are far too soft for your own good. you realize early on that two is always better than one. and so, you become each other’s official wingperson, always open to hear about this week’s romantic strife.

DICK AND JANE: you’re just friends, nothing more. this doesn’t stop people from speculating, though. you tend to be suspiciously close, behaving as though you’re married. you know their favorite foods, and make sure to bring them snacks whenever possible. they know what movies to avoid, because you hate neil patrick harris. there’s probably no one who knows you as well as the other.

SERIOUS: i’m just curious. is it serious? your first year after arriving in the city was spent distancing yourself from your family, becoming an entirely new person from the person they raised you to be. to be who you want for once. and distance you did. you met them at a party, and from the first conversation you were sure something great would come from them. and it did. for one night. you wouldn’t see them again until you started your new job, and you can’t even look their way without going red.

ANTI: it’s not that you need people to like you… it’s just that you’ll stop at nothing to make sure everyone around you smiles in your presence. no big deal. the thing is, no matter what you do, this person doesn’t seem to like you one bit. 

RINGTONE: it’s almost embarrassing how quickly you text back. any attention is nice, but especially from them. they have a way of making you feel special. you’re sure they’re using you, but you’re fine with the late night calls and even later cab rides home if it means more flattering words.

ROLLING ALONG (0/2): you could’ve been the trio, but their tension made it hard. you don’t mind; you find it entertaining to watch the ongoing game of cat and mouse as they come to terms with their feelings for one another. being the mediator in their relationship, texting them individually about the other, is kind of fun. what’s so wrong with being the third wheel, anyway?

FAMILY-ADJACENT: long forgotten photo albums kept you aware of their presence, books untouched by your parents for years and carelessly handed to you. your father never spoke about his family much, he had stopped talking to them years ago, but you always wanted to know more. a cousin your age was exciting, and though you had never gotten the chance to meet them, you always imagined what adventures the two of you would go on. now’s your chance.

D*DDY ISSUES: you don’t know it yet, but you have the same son of a bitch for a father. maybe they don’t remember him, maybe they have no idea who he is, but you’re more than familiar with him. truthfully, you don’t want a sibling. maybe when you were small, you wanted a younger sibling, but now you can’t take any more family.

✄・・・visage

✄・・・interaction

✄・・・muse