The Convict

This Is a Mental Health Update. Because, honestly, I could try and make excuses, and explain, but when it boils down to it, the reasons behind what will be discussed, is my mental health.

I’ve kept a lot of you waiting on unfulfilled promises, and you all deserve the truth.

I’ve promised a many creative projects to you all. There Are Still Stars in Your Eyes chapter 16, April Showers Bring May Flowers chapter 2, The Celebration Where Nothing Goes Wrong part 9, The Dandy’s world animated series, more convineer art, A Lost In Space Trio comic, the Two-Day movie challenge, more Iron Lung fanart, more Simon Character Analysis, more usage of the Darkiplier RP account, more usage of the Simon RP account, more usage of the Tei-8 RP account.

So where is it all? It’s been months. I’ve been out of school a while now, surely some of it should have turned up by now!

… That’s the thing, though. School this year was incredibly draining, and I’ve yet to recover from the burnout. I thought a few weeks off of school would be enough, but it wasn’t. I’ve dug myself into a deep pit, one I’m struggling to climb out of.

On top of that, because of school ending, I’ve been seeing my friends a lot less, which has led to a bit of a depressive spiral. I’m sure some of you have noticed that I’ve been more anxious, doom-posty, and tired. That’s because I’ve fallen back into a depressive episode, and I can’t deny it anymore.

On top of that, I’ve had severe physical health issues. I woke up sick this morning, for one, but there’s a lot more than that. As you may know, I recently got diagnosed with POTS, after having two seizures. The “cure” is to completely change my lifestyle, and diet; Meaning the comfort I got from my favorite foods, and controlling when I wake up, has been revoked.

I haven’t had the motivation for anything. I have dozens of projects around me, and I just can’t bring myself to pick up the pencil. I know you’re all waiting. I’m very sorry.

This may sound silly, but the latest distractible episode, “Burnout,” almost perfectly summarizes how I’ve been feeling. Wade words it in a much better way than I can; so, if you’re curious or worried, please go listen to that.

I may start trying to force myself to work on some of these projects, but it will be slow. I don’t know if or when any of them will release. I’m sorry. I hope you can all understand.

I’m trying.

Thank you all.

I’m so fucking tired. It’s been feeling like a chore lately. I just need to step away for a bit. I’ll come back, that’s a promise. I’m just tired from life rn.

Also! I know I promised monster Simon art by the end of the week. I fucking lied. I have art block. If you want me to draw something you need to give me a hyperspecific prompt rn.. anyway yeah

also TASSIYE might not update for a while cus of finals.

so yea

Prepare for expedition

-> Fill the shuttle with necessary survival supplies for a delayed retrieval. As well as medical supplies for the convicts.

-> Final tests of equipment. Lights, pully and cooling device.

-> Prepare crew. Current Crew members: Ava. (me) Future shuttle members: Ava, Convict one (Simon), Convict two (Kieran).

-> Retrieve final map updates.

The construction of the shuttle got delayed. Instead of the expected 48 hours, were approaching 60. No one have slept. Including me. Were so close to finally getting the answers we need, we cant let a few set backs keep us from completing our mission. This is bigger than us.

Observations: The pulley is able to hold the load of the shuttle and then some. It will give us a safe entry and retrieval from the pit. Hopefully that will be enough.

[Simon looked over at the radio with wide eyes, scrambling to get it from the dash of the shuttle.]

[He stopped.]

[Simon looked over at the radio with wide eyes, scrambling to get it from the dash of the shuttle.]