WILD THING (ap)

           RAGE AGAINST  THE  MOON,               RAGE  AGAINST  THE  STARS                            &  THE  TREES         &  THE  UNFAIRNESS  OF  IT    ALL

I was so determined for Malia to be the blog where I stayed longer than a handful of months, as is the typical fate of characters that I roleplay, but, && I really hate to say because most of you have been so wonderful to me, but this is the fandom where I was attacked and bullied most and made to feel the least welcome.

I wanted to fight it, to overcome all of it && stick this blog out because Malia’s different to my typical character, but after having my privacy invaded on such a severe level, this atmosphere is the last place I want to be.

If anyone wants to find me, I’m mostly over on my personal, @stubbornessissues

Guys, I’ve got everyone’s messages, I promise, && I’ve changed my password, both on here && my email for good measure, but honestly, I’m too tired to deal with it any more than this, it’s been a long day at work && the weather isn’t helping.

I don’t want to be writing this post, because it means you win & in this community, letting the bullies win is so damaging.

but I’m  t i r e d.

I’ve been trying to just delete what you’ve said & let the words roll off, I’ve tried being diplomatic, I’ve tried being aggressive, but I hate letting it come to that because there’s already so much cruelness in this world, & I never want to add to it.

But here’s the thing. You got me. You found out where I hurt & I don’t know if you found one of my old blogs and read what happened or just kept poking until you realised you hit the right button, but that’s it. I’m not going to sit here & let you fuck me up whether I have anon on or not.

I’m going to leave for a week or two, because yeah, sure, it’s been half a year since I got them killed, but I am literally never going to be over it. I could never

I’m not going to let you win, but I need to take a damn break or you will win.

Making myself a to do list because I’ve been away for so long, just ignore this friends  (unless ya wanna complete the task for me)