You are not alone.

MAX IN BLACK SAILS, EPISODE XIII

Here, I must be careful. I have well over two-hundred men unaccounted for. Those who remain, it will be very hard to explain to them why — with all I have to tend to — I choose to stand here, hanging onto the fate of just one of them.

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—  sylvia plath

“You people, incapable of accepting the world as it is,” says the man to whom the world handed everything. If no Anne, if no rescue, if this is defeat for me, then know this. You and I were neck and neck in this race right till the end. But, Jesus, did I make up a lot of ground to catch you.

—  haruki murakami

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—  amanda robb

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Luke Arnold as John Silver in BLACK SAILS (2014-2017)

The Barlow Woman.            You’ve heard the stories, haven’t you?

XXXVI. I said no to Marion Guthrie’s plan, despite having no alternative and at the risk of losing the entire endeavor, because I refuse to situate a man in a position where he might interfere one day with my ability to repair things with you. You are the bravest person I have ever known, the truest person I have ever known, and I betrayed you, and it sickens me. I am so sorry for working so hard to protect the wrong things, for failing to see that there is nothing important that does not include you.

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XXVI. I’ve known him since we were children, suffered illness and loss by his side, watched him give his loyalty, his sacrifice, and his love to my mother, to me. So you can just imagine what that was like, asking him to accept what was done to him at the hands of men who look so very much like those he watched murder his parents when he was a boy. You can imagine how tempted I was to take that knife and put it in his hand and let him use it to his liking. You can imagine the restraint it took for me not to let my people loose. But where does that leave us? So I will fight this thing rising up in me, eager to see more blood spilled today, and I will serve them by minding their future and doing the hard thing that will lead to the outcome desired by all of us.

I was no one, and then you came and my island fell, and I became something else. On the night I confiscated the pardon rolls, the night I started becoming, I made clear my position that there would be two sorts of men on the island going forward - those like Captain Vane, determined to stand by their oath to the very end, and those like Captain Throckmorton, happy to be the first to betray it. And thus, as always, to traitors. Captain Throckmorton’s black spot will not be the last. Ignore it, and join him. Heed it, and reclaim your place amongst us. Until then, I remain Long John Silver.

Black Sails (2014 - 2017) Season 4, Episode 8 Lise Slabber as Idelle