i'm ready to wake up

There's a bit more lore...

.......and that's pretty much it, lol

I'm sorry if you want a resolution for this AU........ I don't have it............

I think it would have a similar ending to Wandavision tho, but at least there would be some kind of communication with Loki, and a hopeful "maybe we'll see eachother again" :']

so those gestures - it's religious it's comfort it's recognition it's nurturing care and tenderness it's stolen time it's dog motifs it's a tiny bit condescending it's somehow platonic and erotic at the same time. it's a sort of gesture that's way too intimate to do to a stranger yet it's not actually explicit or inappropriate it's almost innocent but it's NOT what a spy and an arms dealer should be doing to each other and in fact it's sometimes so intimate you want to look away it almost feels more obscene to look at than anything explicit.

it's very loaded too like what if my fingers went to your mouth or like... in what else sort of context could i be gripping yr hair. it's so sweet and cute. it's charity it's slightly infantilizing it's a bit weird. it's bewildering and tragic bc it's like look at me i can't believe you exist i want to get closer but i can't and this is all I have to look at you. i see you as my other self my mirror i see you as a person. i'm trying to talk sense into you i don't understand you at all i need more time to look into your eyes. i don't know how else to reach you. i see your gigantic attachment wounds and how im gonna use them against you. im holding the most important and vulnerable part of your body and i could definitely cause harm if i wanted to. im holding the most precious thing in the universe in my hands and im terrified.

like haha petting the wet hair of giant drunk manbaby in my lap and promising him the belonging neither of us ever had after i roofied him and its all a lie why does it hit like this why is his receding hairline kind of doing it for me. haha holding my ?former enemy in my arms as he breaks down and telling him his daddy never loved him and he deserves better WHY is his hair so soft and silky. haha this is the last time we'll ever be alone together look at me no look at me be like a good dog PLEASE let this work out out bc this cannot be the end i want to kiss you but it's not the right time why do you have so much doom in your eyes. haha you went too far letting me beat you up like that you're so beautiful with blood on your face i never wanted to harm a hair on your head please don't die after i do goodbye thank you for letting me feel like a real person for a bit even though i know it was all for your mission hahahah. fuck