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Last day of 2019

Thank you for all the learnings, the skills and hidden talents that were unlocked, upskilled, upgraded, etc.

2am woke up but does not want to get up. Waited for the snooze and another one.

Time for the hygiene rituals.

Booked an uber ride.. Cancelled by the driver.. Book a new one, was accepted..great!

Chit chat with the driver, the ins and outs of Manila roads and mythical horror characters.

Office, log in.. Zombie mode on... Fast forward..I'm now eating a sundae cone and wondering what life has for me.

The sun is high, windy dry, perfect for a beach setting. Just want to hear the clashing of the waves, enjoying the salty breeze, sleeping or perhaps reading on a shaded sand.

A lot of things to consider, specially those that needs more financial attention. Tis the season when the merchants try to rob you.. The season of commercialism.

Write often

...to bring out what's running in your head

...to take out the nega vibes

...as theraphy

...to improve writing skills

...to conquer your fears

...to realize things

The start of questioning everything and the why it has to be me, why it's always me?! - moment is here. Why can't you lead? Why are we stuck in here? Why can't you do something so we can be worry free? Dying to voice out my frustrations and disappointments but for the hell of civility and sanity in me, I did not.

Why? Why? Why?

Sometimes you want to be alone..okay, most of the time.

Your own pace, your own time, you on your own. The me time, the showertime, you doing nothing and yet you own the silence, the air, the time.

But you can't, you have your responsibilities and obligations. Your time is no longer yours, you can't even be yourself anymore.

Done with the errands and job requirements.. Whew! I haven't imagine that there are lots of paper and financial requirements to be able to work in QC. Been govt office hopping in 3 weeks just to finish all the paperworks. Ok less the halloween holiday 😉

It's been a while, so try and try. More practice and learn new things. Pat on the back, you're doing just fine. Keep your heads up and be sure to add some more. Keep your legs on the ground but be prepared to run to your goal!

Down

Empty

Floating

Stagnant

Unsatisfied

Unhappy

Ungrateful

Unmoving

Selfish mode

Me mode

Stressing

Tinopak

Tinoyo