im a waking hell and the gods grow tired

Its a moment you can throw yourself into, wrap yourself in and enjoy the feeling of it being so final. Something that happened and won't change and it will always be like that when you go back to it.

Theres so many what ifs in the past but there's also so much joy and contentment and knowing that it's there whenever you need that boost of familiarity. That boost of a comforting thing: a fact that you have memorised, a race that happened before your time but you found it at a low point and it made you happy.

This is why so many drivers are still so loved all these decades later. They are wrote about, drawn and shared hours of research is put into it.

Even negative memories can be a comfort. These drivers who passed before their time should of been...who could of easily of been forgotten but they won't be. They are still someone's source of joy and feeling of calm long after they have passed away.

I love watching "current f1" as some drivers I enjoy still race and new talent has risen up and shone through, maybe in 50 odd years time they will be someone's source of joy on a rainy day too.

So yeah, I'm going to sit and scroll and read and comment and dip into the past.