my sik sad wonderful world

I can't not believe how much there IS NOT on here about scandoval and VPR and all that stuff. Crazy to me!! Plus apparently Joe and Melissa on RHONJ may be leaving the show.... which I hope not. I love them.

Anyway, I am team Ariana all the way. I am ANXIOUSLY waiting for more episodes of VPR to come out so I can see all this play out! As someone who has been cheated on in the past, my heart breaks for her.

Incase anyone sees this and down know....

On Vanderpump Rules, Tom Sandoval cheated on his girlfriend of almost 10 years with one of her best friends Rachel (Raquel) Leviss.

Yes, her real name is RACHEL. Why she calls herself Raquel, I dont know. Maybe she thought it sounded bougier or something.

To add insult to injury, he may have also cheated with a woman named Julia and may have pushed her to get an abortion with his child. Again, Julia has not been confirmed yet. But there are texts that have been put out there, it's alllll over Tiktok.

Schwartz knew about this.... but the question everyone is asking is for how long? And was the whole Rachel-Schwartz kissing thing a distraction so no-one payed attention to her and Sandoval? Hmmmm???

Sandy and Ariana own a 2 million dollar house together and have businesses together so this whole thing is incredibly messy. Not to mention just down right cruel. Cheating with her friend..... disgusting. And we knew that Ariana already had some trust issues prior to all this.

When news broke, Supposedly Sandy gaslit her and tried to make all of this her fault.

Gross Tom, gross.

But I was happy to see pics of her in Mexico looking AMAZING for a friends wedding sans Sandy.

Sayonara Sandoval!

It seems like new shit comes out daily with this whole thing. Maybe I'll blog more about all the reality tv I watch.

The newest episode of VPR airs tomorrow and I will be WATCHING EVERYTHING!

Will you?

Team Ariana or team Sandoval?

But really.... does Sandy even have a side?

I love my husband so much. But the majority of the time, I feel like he could do so much better. Im happy with him but not with myself. I dont know if that makes sense but thats me. I dont know how to get past it and how to be ok with myself again.

On a different note, Im deep down the scandoval hole. Deeeeeeeep. I got way too invested in the whole thing.

And I wish Stassi would come back to VPR.

Yes, Im 38 and love all things LVP.

Im not sure exactly why I am doing this. I have started many blogs and ultimately abandoned them. They never go anywhere and no-one ever reads them.

But I still feel the need to try.

To try and connect with someone outside my bubble.

My bubble is small and consists of my family and thats it.

Most of the time I feel removed for the world and alone in my thoughts.

I can't organize them anymore. They are erratic and muffled at the same time. Its confusing.

I used to write. lots of stories and novels. As time went on I wrote less and less and now I can't even start a story. It all sounds stupid when I start typing or put pen to paper. Stupid and contrived and as if im trying to hard.

They say write what you know.

Well, Im a 38 year old disabled stay at home mom of 3 and a wife. My life is my kids, husband, animals and cleaning. Cooking when I have to but I hate cooking. Who wants to read a novel or even a short story about that?

Not I.

I used to have friends. Good friends. Friends of 20+ years. Now we talk once in a while here and there. Catch up on the kids, gossip, and talk to you again in a few months.

Sometimes I miss having those friends, until I remember why we drifted apart, then I just miss being able to trust people. And alone. Then I feel alone. Which is odd because I am literally never alone.

All trivial things, I know. I have a good life and for the most part I love my life. I just feel like along the way I lost myself. Im not sure how it happened either. It was little by little. Then one day I woke up and didn't know who I was anymore.

Barely even something to complain about. I know it.

Well, here is to hoping at least one person reads this and can relate.

This is my olive branch world.