The day I die will be the day they notice me

Sometimes I forget that I have no real friends and go on my phone expecting something; I don’t even know what, maybe them texting me first for once? Someone actually caring? Someone being interested in me or my life at least a little?

why does everyone leave me? you won't leave me right? tell me you won't leave me.

Always helping others but if i need help, everyone gets distant.

When will I be happy again ? When will you look at me and comfort me again ? Whenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhenwhen

why does no one EVER have time for me? why are other people more important than me? I seriously just want to die. I'm tired of everything.

When you reach the point where your planning your suicide but still no one even noticed you were struggling in the first place <<

loving me is like watering a dead flower

I did my best to be lovable.

should’ve taken the chance to unalive myself

i miss my best friend :(

they will never want me as much as i need them

the masculine urge to be a pretty cis boy, walk outside on a cool, autumn night, go to a gas station, grab a monster after starving all day with scars littered across my arms like a sad canvas, and stare at the cashier with nothing but numb, guilty eyes because nothing will ever fill the void.

how to cope with the fact that you’re a burden that no one will ever love question mark