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i kinda wish she’d just kill herself and get it over with. would be better for everyone honestly

i guess i just dont exist…. Okay

Seriously tho what kind of psycho treats a 16 yr old like this

this bitch has literally done everything it can to destroy me. why why why why why wtf why ???

Tfw u realize the reason the song dudnt sound as good the furst time us cuz u were t sad enough to appreciate it

ppl who r like “be urself” but then pull out a secret list of transgressions and flaws whenever u upset them are truly toxic and dangerous n i hate them

Idk if im gonna be okay for awhile… sigh this person has stolen so much of my time by making me so unstable and dependent on them

Since when did being magnetic make me abusive… its not my fault ur obsessed w me is it???

feeling really sad and hurt. i can barely think of a future. all i see is suffering

I really cannot stand people who make up stories about being the victim whenever reality gets too hard for them. if you think its okay to paint ur caregiver as an abuser every time u feel rejected stay the actual hell away from me. this girl has literally abused me but i stay silent because i dont care about labels and pointing blame or cancelling ppl i just want to exist peacefully in this world and do my best to be good to others. either shes completely delusional or a really fantastic liar /: either way i deserve better like. sorry about your shit life? sorry you repeatedly fumbled the best thing to ever enter ur life? deal with it, coward.

im 8 why am i having to be the mature one why cant i hve a tantrum and scream about how it isnt fair just for once. why do i always have to keep it together for everyone else. i really hate my life so much. im so miserable every time i try to have other people in my life. i should just stick with spending time alone and taking care of myself i guess…. But im never truly happy alone….

Oh, remedy is gone. I can work with that i guess. But now im the one who feels fatigued and old.. i dont handle that well.

bruh lmao my ex messaging me at 10 am completely threw off my day. i forgot to take my meds or like. function lmao

ok actually im stuck on this rn. im pretty sure Kitty also has unresolved biases / beliefs about trans mascs that make me kind of uncomfortable. like ill be honest the whole baeddel premise doesnt bother me, i do think trans fems have it worse than us. its the bit about thinking/anticipating that all trans mascs DONT think that trans fems have it worse, that we harm ppl etc that rly hurts me and scares me. like i just want community and friendship but i dont feel like i belong anywhere. i feel like kitty has a lot of beliefs about me that are dangerous to my wellbeing and to my relationship with leliel and im not wrong for being wary. i understand xe is paranoid schizophrenic, that doesnt make the behavior less of a problem for me. objectively. yes i do sympathize but i honestly dont care. i have to look at how things affect me, because im only in charge of My wellbeing. No one else is looking out for me so i have to do it.

apparently hating me/making me feel like garbage is a really effective way to get me to do anything you want. rip.

ITS SO ANNOYING BEING INTUITIVE AND RIGHT ABT STUFF CUZ YOULL KNOW BEFORE ANYONE ELSE N THEY WILL TRY TO MAKE U FEEL CRAZY OR JUDGMENTAL FOR UR PERSPECTIVE N SO U HAVE TO DOUBT URSELF BUT NOOOO I WAS RIGHT SO WHY THE HELL DID I HAVE TO GO THRU BEING DOUBTED THE WHOLE FING TIME

do you remember how it felt when we had make up sex? when we just stayed together like that… talking out all our feelings… expressing how much we love eachother… i dont think ive ever felt more safe and content than i did in those moments