fern

el infierno en el alma

de saber que no te veré

ni hoy ni mañana

amando de lejos,

pero sintiéndote cerca

es peculiar el sentimiento de extrañarte

cuando nunca te he tenido realmente

te siento aqui, te quiero aqui

eres parte de mi,

sin ti la vida es un mero viaje sin destino y

abrupto final

como es posible sentir, sin tocar?

amar, sin poder verte con mis propios ojos?

el dia en que nuestras almas se encuentren

será el ocaso de mi vida

pues la una razón de ser que tengo

and it fucking sucks. and this is when i wonder, why, if there is a god above, would he ever make me like this. i feel like an outsider. and it fucking hurts. every single time i get weird looks when im eating. every time i wear a tank top. everytime i wear swimsuits. everytime it's hot and i have to wear less clothes, is a fucking nightmare. i fucking hate this fucking fucked up life i fucking have going on. i wish i could just not be me. at least for a day. to get a taste into what it would be like to be a "normal" girl. fuck my life

now i hear how my fathers talking shit about me with my uncles. yay, thanks. i can fucking hear you.