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I recently discovered I might be an otherkin with a zombie kintype so here I am. Here's what I know so far:

-I feel like a monster

-I have had sudden, intense urges to bite things

-I feel as though I have no control over anything at all, as though I was brought back against my will

-Specifically I feel like my TF2 AU Sniper, nicknamed Zniper, who was brought back against his will, has sudden and barely controllable urges to bite, and had no autonomy whatsoever in coming back to life, or even the how.

-I've been drowning in stress and having the specific suicidal thought of "I need to kill myself" which. I will NOT be doing. I'm sure things get better I just need some time and help.

-I overall feel like a zombie

So I essentially think my kintype is a mix of specifically this AU Sniper, but not specifically him? It's... complicated. I'm still figuring it out. I don't think it'll end up being a headmate (I have two), but I'm leaving that door open just in case.

Guess you can call me Zniper, then? Nickname handed to me on a silver platter, I guess.

#Zombiekin #otherkin

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Made a zombiekin playlist today, and some kandi to act like my new arm stitches, currently working on the zombie shirt from scratch. If I don't run out of steam, I ought to have it done by tomorrow or Friday! Just hope I like the end product, lol. It's supposed to look rough and amateur, and the sewing so far has been a lot of fun, but tomorrow is gonna be. So, so repetitive

#shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin #horrorkin #monsterkin

You know, as someone who... hasn't really known how to identify itself, learning that I'm a zombie has been really, really freeing. It feels nice to be able to say "this is what I am" and really be able to lean into it

I'm gonna try to make myself a shirt from scratch to really show off my stitches and lean into how I want to look, without spending the money on more body paint lol wish me luck!

#otherkin #zombiekin #shot to rot #horrorkin #monsterkin

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So I work in a warehouse for Halloween costumes and supplies, so I know they make necklaces meant to emulate stitching on a body. Specifically Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas. And that'd be a great option for me so that I don't have to constantly apply and then scrub off body paint- IF MY STITCHES WEREN'T LOPSIDED ToT

Ah well, at least I can share the news so someone else might see and look into it if it fits them

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Honestly, someone should have warned me I'd find out I'm a zombie BEFORE I invested so much into looking like a skeleton for fun. Could've... redirected my purchases... maybe...

#zombiekin

So I work in a warehouse for Halloween costumes and supplies, so I know they make necklaces meant to emulate stitching on a body. Specifically Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas. And that'd be a great option for me so that I don't have to constantly apply and then scrub off body paint- IF MY STITCHES WEREN'T LOPSIDED ToT

Ah well, at least I can share the news so someone else might see and look into it if it fits them

#Also my neck is smol and most chokers don't fit very well #shot to rot #otherkin #zombiekin #horrorkin #monsterkin

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I am not alive in the same way other people are

I'm alive in the way a zombie or Frankenstein's monster is

Slightly wrong and functioning differently

When I got this body paint, I was told it doesn't smear or come off very easily. But then I paint on my stitches, wear them for multiple hours, and because of how I sit, they end up imprinting on my limbs that they shouldn't imprint on. I take a nap and wake up, rub an eye, and the eyebag smears EVERYWHERE, leaving my finger covered in paint smudge! This is evil. Like Idk if my body paint got the memo but we're switching gears here I gotta have my stitches

At least I was able to paint them on a lot, lot better today. Figured out a little trick or two to make them look extra cool and I guess affirming?

#Genuinely made me think about getting my stitches tattooed but this early on in my otherkin exploration seems a bit soon #Especially because I have no tattoos whatsoever haha #shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin #horrorkin #monsterkin

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hey. shoutout to the undead who aren’t slim and beautiful and white. shoutout to black and poc zombies and vampires and ghosts who get erased in favour of lily white death. shoutout to the fat undead that people try to pretend don’t exist, or use solely for dark humour. all of you. all of us. you are wonderful and haunting and you should be welcomed into the mausoleum with open arms. i love you

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Well hey, at least today, I get more than just two hours to wear the stitching body paint! I'm looking forward to it

On my way home, though, I was thinking about how to explain my zombiekin status, because it does heavily hinge on my AU Sniper, but it's not him directly. And I think I figured it out- say you've got this piece of media, and there's just one zombie in it, no others. Sure, there might be mentions of other zombies, but all you really have to go on is that one singular zombie that actually appears. So your otherkin forms around what is shown, which is just that one zombie, but is not specifically that zombie.

Does that make sense?

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can the body paint please stop rubbing off :( my stitches :(

#shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin

Well hey, at least today, I get more than just two hours to wear the stitching body paint! I'm looking forward to it

On my way home, though, I was thinking about how to explain my zombiekin status, because it does heavily hinge on my AU Sniper, but it's not him directly. And I think I figured it out- say you've got this piece of media, and there's just one zombie in it, no others. Sure, there might be mentions of other zombies, but all you really have to go on is that one singular zombie that actually appears. So your otherkin forms around what is shown, which is just that one zombie, but is not specifically that zombie.

Does that make sense?

#shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin

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Had to wipe off my stitches to go to bed last night and waking up I wanted then back, but not, like, with a cartoonish black. More like a red, I think? Problem is, I only have the black body paint because I was painting my face to look like a skeleton for alt fashion reasons. So... I don't have a nice red body paint

#shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin

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Un/dead Ask Game

💀 - what kinda un/dead are u? zombie, ghoul, ghost, corpse, etc?

🪦 - would u rather spend a whole night alone in an abandoned hospital Or a graveyard? (ur in no danger)

🥩 - is there any food/drink that consuming it makes u feel more like ur ‘type?

📼 - are u a fan of horror/thriller media like movies and games? if so, do u hav any favorites?

🦷 - is there a kind of memorabilia related to ur ‘type that u like to collect? (ex. zombies collecting brain-related things)

🪖 - do u hav/want clothes/gear related to ur ‘type?

🪞 - did u come back wrong, or did u come back urself (or maybe, did u come back better)?

🍄 - are u a decayed/decaying thing? if so, 1) what stage of decomposition r u in, and 2) what stage do u feel most connected to?

✨️ do/did any kind of powers come with ur un/deadness?

🍖 - do u experience phantom feelings? like limbs or pains?

🪡 - are there specific un/dead ‘stereotypes’ u feel connected? stitches, stapled joints, ooze, brightly colored veins etc?

🥀 do u have other kin/therio/hearttypes that overlap with your un/dead ‘type?

for anyone to play!! reblog for others to choose questions to send in your askbox! please make sure to have your asks ON

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zombies, but in a strange creature way. zombies, not in an "mindless cannibals" way, in a cryptic, undead, unhealing being way. zombies with long, lanky, uncanny valley limbs and facial features. too tall, too thin. bones showing through skin. still alive, but wishes to die. scars that will never heal. severed limbs that still move. walking around with no purpose. those kinds of zombies.

Just got the sudden urge to slip my hand between my painted surgical scar seams and see what's between them. I painted them on because I saw that makeup is euphoric for others. Felt nice, looks neat, but genuinely had to pause and think for a moment about that thought

Guess exploring myself really IS the only autonomy I have right now

#shot to rot #zombiekin #otherkin

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