I TOLD MYSELF I WOULDNT ADDRESS THIS UNTIL I FOUND A PLATFORM BIG ENOUGH THAT I WOULDNT HAVE TO TYPE AN ESSAY MOST PEOPLE WONT READ ANYWAY, BUT SINCE I TRULY DONT REALLY FIND ANYONE WORTH TALKING TO ABOUT ANYTHING, WHY NOT SPILL IT HERE. HOPEFULLY YOU MAKE IT TO THE END OF THIS BECAUSE IM NOT GOING OVER IT AGAIN. I DONT WANT TO OFFEND ANYONE. I JUST WANT YOU TO READ. FACTS ARE FACTS. IM AWARE THAT IM CURRENTLY ONE OF THE MOST COUNTERFEITED ARTISTS IN THE GAME RIGHT NOW. IM AWARE THAT MY NAME GETS DRAGGED THRU THE INTERNET EVERYDAY BY PEOPLE CLAIMING NOT TO HAVE RECEIVED MERCH WITH MY NAME ON IT. IM AWARE THAT I RECEIVE ATLEAST 20-30 EMAILS A DAY FROM PEOPLE CLAIMING TO HAVE TALKED TO “MY ASSISTANT” OR MY “ART DEALER”. IM AWARE THAT I HAVE SOME OF THE MOST GO-HARD FANS ON THE PLANET, BUT ALSO SOME OF THE MOST NAIVE. LETS BE CLEAR. IVE BEEN BLESSED ENOUGH TO NOT HAVE TO LEAVE MY BED TO MAKE A YEARS SALARY IN A DAY. WHEN I DECIDED TO MASS PRODUCE, I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS GETTING MYSELF INTO. HERE I AM TRYING TO BREAK MAJOR MOLDS AND MAKE HISTORY AS A YOUNG BLACK ARTIST, RISKING MY NAME AND MY HEALTH AND MY SANITY TO PUSH MY CULTURE, AND ALL MY FANBASE CAN THINK ABOUT IS TIMBS AND DAMN TEE SHIRTS. IS THAT MY ONLY CONTRIBUTION? IS THAT ALL YOU MANAGED TO TAKE AWAY FROM THESE PAST 2-3 YEARS I’VE BEEN SLAVING TO INSPIRE YOU? I FEEL LIKE I GAVE AWAY TOO MUCH GAME WAY TOO FAST AND MY PEERS SIMPLY WERENT READY TO EMBRACE AND UNDERSTAND IT AT THE PACE I COULD DISH IT OUT. I HATE FEELING LIKE I STUNTED MY OWN GROWTH IN A SENSE. 200K FOLLOWERS AND NO ONE TO RELATE TO. I MADE THE MISTAKE OF ACTING AS IF IM REALLY INTO THE FAME, KNOWING IM TRULY NOT THE TYPE TO FUCK WITH PEOPLE. I HAD TO ADMIT TO MYSELF THAT ITS NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO BE A ROLE MODEL, IM THE FURTHEST THING FROM PERFECT. IM AN INTROVERT BY NATURE, LIKE I CAN DEAL WELL WITH PEOPLE, HOLD A CONVO WITH THE RICH AND THE POOR JUST ALIKE…I JUST FIND THAT MOST NEW RELATIONSHIPS ARENT WORTH MY TIME AND INTELLECT NOWADAYS. IMAGINE BEING IN A POSITION WHERE EVERYONE THAT MEETS YOU WANTS SOMETHING FROM YOU, BIG OR SMALL. THEY ALL WANT A PIECE OF YOU, THEY ALL WANT TO PICK YOUR BRAIN…THERE IS NO SIMPLE “HI AND BYE”. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO TO TRUST…YOU HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO OR RELATE WITH GENUINELY. IF A GIRL TELLS YOU SHE CAN GET YOU LANO TIMBS FOR $250 AND YOU SEND HER THE BREAD, KNOWING THE SHOE COSTS ABOUT $200 BLANK, MORE POWER TO HER FOR GETTING YOU. ITS SAD THAT IN THE PURSUIT OF RIDING THE WAVE OF THE “NEXT HOT SHIT”, MOST PEOPLE DONT DO BASIC RESEARCH, YET THEY CALL THEMSELVES “FANS”. AS FAR AS LANOFORPUBLIC GOES, ANYBODY WHO REQUESTS A REFUND FOR ANY MATTER AT ALL RECEIVES IT, SIMPLE AS THAT…THERE WAS AND STILL IS PLENTY OF MONEY LEFT IN THE RESERVE. YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO SAY A WORD TO ME TO GET IT BACK. IF YOU DECIDED TO WAIT 6 MONTHS SO YOU COULD HARRASS ME ONLINE EVERYDAY ABOUT A $40 TEE SHIRT INSTEAD OF CLICKING A BUTTON TO GET A REFUND, YET STILL FOLLOW ME, THATS ALL YOU BUDDY…MORE POWER TO YOU. THERE ARE ATLEAST 10 FAKE SITES FLOATING AROUND AND LOADS OF FAKE IG ACCOUNTS CLAIMING TO BE ME OR HAVE CONNECTIONS TO ME. ITS OVERWHELMING AT TIMES, YET I DECIDE TO LIVE SIMPLER TODAY AND DO THINGS THAT TRULY
MAKE ME HAPPY…NOT THINGS THAT ENTERTAIN YOU. IM HUMAN. I NEVER GOT INTO THIS SHIT TO MAKE FRIENDS. IM SIMPLY NOT INTERESTED IN ANYBODY OR ANYTHING BUT MY OWN SANITY. I DO THIS SHIT FOR MY HEALTH, PEOPLE JUST HAPPEN TO LIKE IT. I GO THRU REAL UPS AND DOWNS. I NEED DRUGS TO SLEEP AT NIGHT. TRUST ME I LOVE MYSELF AND MY DOG FAR TOO MUCH TO DO ANYTHING STUPID, BUT THIS SHIT IS DRAINING. I NEVER TRULY HAD A BITCH THAT UNDERSTOOD HER MAN. IVE LIVED IN 7-8 DIFFERENT CITIES SINCE I WAS 17 AND MY MOM STILL CRIES LIKE A DAMN BABY EVERY TIME I LEAVE. IM PRETTY MUCH FRIENDLESS BECAUSE I DISECT PEOPLES BULLSHIT IN THE FIRST 20 SECONDS WITHIN MEETING THEM. I HATE WEAKNESS AND I HATE FRAGILE MINDS. I USED TO THINK I WAS AHEAD OF MY TIME, NOW IM STARTING TO THINK IM AFTER IT…THERE ARE NO CLASSIC PEOPLE ANYMORE. MY GENERATION WOULDNT KNOW TRUE TALENT OR DEDICATION IF IT CHOPPED THEM IN THE THROAT, LET ALONE ADMIT IT. THE MAJORITY OF THE PEOPLE IN TRUE POSITIONS OF POWER…THE PEOPLE THAT CAN CHANGE YOUR FUTURE WITH A PHONECALL ARE FUCKING ABSOLUTE NERDS YOU WOULD NEVER SIT WITH IN REAL LIFE. I USED TO THINK THE FAME WAS WHERE ITS AT…NOW IM TRYING 10 TIMES HARDER TO DODGE 21 QUESTIONS EVERY TIME I ENTER A ROOM, THAN MOST ARE TO GET NOTICED PERIOD. ALL BECAUSE ITS ORGANIC WITH ME…I DONT TRY…I SIMPLY “AM”. I COULD TELL YOU 100 TIMES I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT AND ALL THAT, BUT I KNOW EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY IS TEMPORARY NOWADAYS AND YOU TRULY DONT KNOW MY STRUGGLE AS A HUMAN BEING. WE ARE SIMPLY NOT THE SAME. AS AN ARTIST, I NEVER ASKED FOR FANS. I NEVER ASKED FOR UNDERSTANDING. I JUST ASK YOU TO STEP ASIDE AND RESPECT ME ENOUGH TO LET ME DO WHAT I DO…BUT LETS NOT ACT LIKE WE KNOW OR LIKE EACH OTHER. IF YOU LIKE IT, SAY YOU DO AND KEEP IT MOVING. LETS NOT RUN UP TO LANO IN THE CLUB OR THE STREETS AND ACT LIKE YOU GOT 100 WORDS AND QUESTIONS FOR HIM AND SHAKE HIS HAND KNOWING U WERE JUST TALKIN SHIT ABOUT HIM TO A CHICK THAT WANTS TO FUCK ME OR A NIGGA THAT WANTS TO BE ME. IM ONLY HUMAN. IM MAKING CHANGES AND TRULY LOSING MYSELF TRYING TO FIND MYSELF. IM 24 YEARS OLD AND IM JUST TRYING TO ENJOY THIS SHIT PERSONALLY BEFORE EVERYONE SUCKS THE LIFE OUT OF IT FOR ME. NOT TO CONFUSE OF OFFEND MY TRUE FANS, I KNOW THERE ARE A FEW OF YOU OUT THERE THAT REALLY DEPEND ON ME STAYING TRUE TO MYSELF, IN HOPES THAT YOU CAN FIND THE SAME PATH IN YOUR OWN LIFE. IM AWARE THAT I HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES. IM FINE WITH MAKING MISTAKES AND LEARNING FROM THEM…AND IM ALSO FINE WITH KEEPING THIS TOTALLY ORGANIC. FEEL FREE TO DO THE SAME. IM TOO YOUNG FOR THIS SHIT. PRAY FOR ME
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