In the Process of Dying

that feeling when you stomach is empty and you feel like youre h1gh>>>>>

I already know our new years 3dblr diets r gonna be wild💀

i’ve worked so hard for nothing

i think it hurts more because i have no one to cry to

museum dates where she stares at the shit and i stare at her

I miss feeling my hip bones hurt when I'd lay on the floor. I miss my friends saying my ass was too boney to sit on their laps. I miss being a size 2 and being too small to shop in the womens section. I miss my families comments about me needing to eat a sandwich as I stuffed my face with safe foods. I miss getting all my friends hand-me-downs and them NEVER fitting my small frame. I miss how my collarbones stuck out. I miss how my thighs never touched so none of my jeans needed to be tossed out. I don't know why I ever fucking gave up. I just didn't want to hate food, I love food but its not my friend.

i need to pull out every piece of fat in my body. i need to tear away my muscles. i need to vomit up my organs. i need to be just skin and bones and nothing else