Learn to Love Again God's Way

I didn’t always want to be a missionary in Compton, California. I actually wanted to be a doctor when I was a little girl. I wanted to heal people. That’s what I told my mom’s friend when she asked me what do I want to do when I grow up? I said, I want to heal people. I believe then she said, oh, you want to be a doctor as if that’s the next step to healing someone. But little did I know that my…

I remember teaching at a Christian school in Compton, California in 2019 right before covid hit the world. I was so excited. I was moving back to Los Angeles after living in Houston for about five years. It was a new and exciting adventure to be able to teach in a Christian school and also teach in Compton. I felt kind of like a missionary, like someone who would go to Africa, India, or China.…

What do I mean by love again, really? Wow, that’s a good question. It started off, my vision was to learn to love again. That was my goal, to teach you to love. We were never really taught love 101, that was my saying, and so, how do we know we’re in love? How do we know how love feels? How do you know all these things? And I truly feel like a lot of these things are missed because we just don’t…

Back on my divorce diaries, I wanted to talk about love again. That’s the vision I have for this site. Falling in love again after a failed love, after falling out of love, and perhaps maybe you had a time of singleness. I know I did. Istill am single. But what if you fall in love again? And what if to be happy and really to be able to express love on earth is possible? And I believe it’s a…

That’s me giving myself away, walking down the aisle alone on my wedding day. It wasn’t that my daddy didn’t want to be there, it’s just that the wedding was very last minute. It was almost like we eloped. My whole family knew, our families knew, but they didn’t know because we were taking a trip together with some friends, and we were all going to Jamaica. We thought, hey, why don’t we have a…

I want to talk about faith in marriage and how important it is to stay with God, stay close to God in your marriage. When I started dating my ex-husband, we were making an effort, an honest effort, to have a relationship with God and to keep God first by reading the Bible with each other, praying with each other, almost daily at the beginning. It’s, you know how new love is, everything’s fresh…

So thinking back on a question I asked my ex-husband before we got married about his vision for marriage, and he told me he wanted a companion, and I instantly thought that I could totally fulfill that role or that desire. A companion, I mean, what’s that? Like a friend, right? Like a buddy, someone to hang out with and to do things with and live life with. I thought, ah, easy, easy peasy. No…

I was happily married five years ago from today in Jamaica, a very beautiful Caribbean island. Getting married was a dream come true. I married a guy from my high school, so I thought he was a safe catch. After many years of wanting to be married and not finding love and wondering what’s wrong with me, I settled on a solution and that was him. The feeling was mutual as he told me “I better take…

“True Sun loves endlessly noticing, no slight less than divinity.” So basically in this line here, sun is a reference to the son of God, true son, loves endlessly and noticing no slight less than divinity, meaning when we believe in Jesus Christ, the son of God, He takes on our punishment for us. He’s the lamb who was slain for us.  Passion has been brewing in my spirit, like a word. Sometimes…

Don’t fear. Don’t be afraid to get close to God. Yes, we want to fear the Lord. We want to have a healthy respect for God. When people say “fear the Lord,” it means knowing that God is going to do exactly what He says He’s going to do. That should give you a holy reverence deep down in your soul. It makes you think twice before doing something wrong. But we do not want to fear getting close to…

Madea said, “Be a good girl. Listen to your mama. Don’t cause no trouble.” I love my grandmother, who is now with the Lord Jesus Christ. She went home 13 years ago. She was the one who kept us together. Every family has someone like that, the one who organizes everything, who creates a welcoming space. People just want to be around them. That was my grandmother. She was a strong Christian woman,…

Love does not parade itself. It is not puffed up. When I think of parading, I think of a parade like the Thanksgiving Day parade in New York where people walk down the street showing who they are and what they have. Love doesn’t do that. It doesn’t show off. It’s not egotistical. Let’s go back to the Olympic example. The husband wins a gold medal. He’s number one in the world. But instead of…

We’ve been talking about love and 1 Corinthians chapter 13, what love does and how love behaves. Today we’re in verse five, but I’m going to start at verse four because that’s where the sentence begins: Love suffers long and is kind. Love does not envy. Love does not parade itself. It is not puffed up. Does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil. That’s a lot.…

We are in Mark chapter 10, and Jesus is being questioned about divorce. The Pharisees knew the law. They knew Moses allowed a bill of divorcement. But Jesus said Moses wrote that because of the hardness of your hearts. That was not the original design. From the beginning, God made them male and female. The two shall become one flesh. They are no longer two, but one. What God has joined together,…

Now today’s topic is divorce and adultery. The Pharisees came to Jesus and asked Him, “Is it lawful for a man to put away his wife?” They were tempting Him. And Jesus answered them by going back to the beginning. He said Moses allowed divorce because of the hardness of your hearts. But from the beginning, God made them male and female. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother and…

Moses went up to the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments, written with the finger of God. And that alone is amazing, written with His own finger. We’ve seen the finger of God before, when the magicians said, “This is the finger of God,” because they could not replicate the plague. Something no one else can replicate, that is the finger of God. While Moses was on the mountain, the people got…

God told Moses, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” Oh, that’s beautiful. My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest. And Moses said, how will it be known that I have found favor in Your sight unless You go with us? It’s Your presence that makes us distinct from every other people on the face of the earth. And the Lord said, “This very thing that you have spoken…