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September 8, 2020

(Another dream with a senior student from my college department. Whyy?!)

The whole college department was in the big auditorium. There was an event of some sort and I found myself seated next to my friends and my professor.

As part of some game, the professor near me grabbed the game and asked a question related to our studies. No one dared to answer his question, probably because it was still too complex for us to understand. It was something about acting out a pneumonic for a certain topic which was taught by the professor hinself.

On my periphery, I could see a few of my seniors (who graduated a year ago) raising their hands. I notified the professor that his past students were willing to answer. The professor then called them out, I could recognize a few of them. One was the most popular student from the pharmacy department, and a few others from the medical technology department. All of the stood up and formed a line in the middle of the aisle.

The senior standing next to me also started to doubt himself and tried to check the book that my friend lend out. However, the 2 seniors cannot be bothered as it was almost their time to ascend the stage. I grabbed my bag and got my copy of the book. I turned it to the page where the topic was explained. I handed the book to the senior beside me but he was already holding my friend's book. The two seniors in front of him was now at the stage.

One by one they went in front of the stage and acted out the pneumonic. They were wriggling their bodies, somehow mimicking the motility of a ameobic parasite. As the seniors continued to act out, I glanced at the line of seniors beside me (i was seated by the aisle). I looked at the senior student standing near me and was surprised to see that he was looking at me. We stared at each other for a while before I turned away first.

The said senior was 2 people away from acting out in the stage. Suddenly, the 2 seniors in front of him started panicking. They began doubting if the pneumonic they had in mind was correct; they needed to check our reference book. Luckily, my friends and I brought our book in parasitology. One of my friends handed out the book to the seniors and they started flipping through the pages.

However, what was unexpected was when he handed the book to the person beside him and reached out to grab mine. He took it from me and before checking out the page i opened for him, he first looked at the book cover. Something in the dream told me that his actions meant that he wanted to know my name. Apparently he had been trying to know name before he graduted. But the me in dream was oblivious of the idea.

When he returned the book to me, I didn't notice that a note was slipped inside and eventually fel on the floor. My friend, who was aware or had a hunch that the senior was interested in me, noticed the note that fell. She told me to check it out so I did. She also told me that she thinks that the said senior was interested in me; that she's saw him glance at me when he was still a student in the university.

I picked up the note and read what was written on it. It read: MISS Popular Happy New Year! 1 . I found it weird and thought: I'm not popular, though.

***

The senior's face was clear but it was not a familar face.

I don't think I've him before in real life.

Here's how the words were exactly written on the note. The format and all. (Excuse my bad hand writing)

August 16, 2020

I, along with a several of my classmates were suddenly called in the by teachers. Upon arriving we were told that we were to go to a mission on a distant island. It was reported that clones (or a twin) of the students summoned for this mission were wreaking havoc in said island.

True to the reports, our clones (twins) —which were a couple years younger than we are and also possess abilities similar to ours— were terrorizing a small village. My classmates immediately agreed that we should do something to stop their actions and silence them down. However, my opinion seems to differ. I told the group to try a different approach just because they seem very much human to me. My speculations were proven to be true when I saw them protecting one another when my classmates attacked them.

At one point, I formed a barrier around the clones to keep them from my classmates' attacks. When I thought that the clones were finally going senile, they started their counterattack. However, being the kids as we were, their powers were not very powerful nor dangerous.

(I found it weird but) Even when we were being attacked, I found myself crying and symphatizing against the supposed enemies before me.

Eventually, the attacks stopped and established a ceasefire. However, as time progressed we found ourselves more on the disadvantage as we try to comply wih the demands of the kids. We suddenly found ourselves babysitting the clones which was better than engaging in combats.

Despite that, we also remained wary of other threats as we were sure that the clones were only the calm before the storm. We felt that we will be facing something even greater in the future.

One day, one of the kids suddenly declared that he wanted to light some fireworks. I looked around me and found some of my classmates were already too preoccupied dealing with the other kids while the others were too annoyed to be bothered.

The kid in front of was starting to throw a fit so I immediately grabbed my purse and decided to head to a store. I walked outside of which appears to be a tightly guarded house and started to walk downtown.

Instead of a store, I suddenly found myself back in our university. My hand was held by someone from my college, guiding towards the quiet hallway of the department's building.

We were then seated on the armchairs arranged outside the hallways. My mind kept trying to think of ways to deal with the kids so that we can finish our mission as soon as possible. As I were in deep thought, I never noticed that my company was talking with some male seniors from our program. One of the seniors, senior B, was showing his ID holder (that probably contain great value) and were talking about his achievements and experiences in school. Both the seniors before me were now first year students in med schools. (GOALS!!)

Still deep in thought, i didn't notice the senior (A) seated behind was already staring at me. I was brought back to my senses when he poked my sides (an attempt to tickle me and grab my attention). I let out a small gasp before looking behind me. To my surprise, senior A was smiling to me.

He then gently held my face and shifted it towards their direction. For a short while, his thoughts were conveyed to me. He told me that I looked cute and that my eyes are pretty. I never accepted the compliment and only stayed silent, my mind still occupied with the mission.

Senior A then asked the person I came with (prob. a classmate) if i was really a student in our university because he apparently haven't seen me until now. My classmate then confirmed that I indeed was a legitimate student in the university. Senior A then looked back at me and told me to loosen up as he ruffled my hair. He did so with a big smile.

Afterwards, they decided to move to another place. When senior A noticed that I wasn't moving, he grabbed my hand and pulled me. Then we suddenly found ourselves running.

The scene then suddenly changed. I was suddenly inside a dormitory. I was back at the dorm feeling more tired than usual. It seemed that I was coming down with a fever since I have been working too hard for the mission. I then headed to the empty lounge and sat down the sofa.

As I began drifting to sleep, senior A arrived and found me slumped on the sofa. It appears that he heard that I wasn't feeling well so he checked up on me. He started walking towards me and then placed a jacket over me. For a while, senior A watched me sleep. My head kept dropping to one side and it he found it cute, ha said so with a soft smile on his face.

***

For some reason, several parts of the dream were more clear than the rest and remember it clearly upon waking up:

Like, senior A grabbing hold of my arm and when he smiled very warmly and cheerfully, his eyes squinted

Also, I've met both seniors IRL.

If my memory serves me right, I once had a brief conversation with senior A when I was working on a shift at a college booth.

I think it was a convo started out of courtesy since I was merely staring at my friends as they speak with other seniors (keeping myself busy in all ways possible to avaoid the awkwardness)

August 21, 2020

(A short dream entry set at the bnha universe)

We just finished a big fight against a group of villains in town. Luckily, there wasn't much damage nor any casualties.

My teammates and I were bruised all over but none of us had any serious injuries. As I continued to scan the area, I saw one of my teammates (a junior from our department) lying on the ground, barely moving.

I immediately rushed to his side to check his condition. He was conscious and told me he was fine. He had no grave injuries.

August 12, 2020

(In this dream, I have some sort of a twin sister, I think? Which reaaally deviates from my reality. Though it might have some sort of meaning.)

I was inside of small classroom, just sitting quietly when someone whispered something along the lines of "I am you for today."

Afterwards, I immediately heard a teacher shouting my name. I can feel the anger and annoyance from her voice.

It appears that I was being scolded after doing something I normally wouldn't do. Soon after, my classmates started whispering among themselves saying: I was out of character or they never thought that I was that kind of person.

They started giving me the looks as the whispering continued. I then began to panic. I suddenly found myself catching my breaths. I was hyperventilating and a coughing fit followed.

I tried to get up from my seat but I only stumbled, dropping to the floor as I clutched the shirt around my chest.

The classrooms suddenly changed and I was now facing a male teacher. It seemed that we were talking about something when he suddenly said: "I am concerned about your situation as well."

I was then dismissed and returned to my seat. This time, a male classmate (he's my childhood friend IRL but we're not on speaking terms anymore) was seated beside me.

I carried the anxiety and discomfort from the earlier events so I was wary of his presence. I was also still a little out of breath.

After being seated for a while, my mind went into a spiral of thoughts. My breathing became rapid and I once again found myself clutching my chest but I did it with much discretion so as not to alert the person beside me.

I then felt his arm move and I unknowingly followed his movement with my gaze. He reached out to my head, attempting to pat my head. I flinched and immediately grabbed his arm with my hand.

I didn't know why but I didn't want him him or anyone to touch me. I suddenly started crying.

He broke away from my grasp and held my cheeks. Afterwards he patted my head and said something along the lines of: "I know you better than anyone." "You're not that kind of person." and "You did great."

Then he started singing (I can't remember what it is, my memory failed me) which I think helped me calm down(?).

(This entry was from the journal I had before, dated: May 26, 2019. I found it interesting so I posted it here.)

The land and its citizens were apparentlu divided into 4 clans: Air, Water, Fire and Earth.

The greatest king (a man who seems to be around the same age or slightly older than I am) that surpassed all clans was to choose a wife.

He picked one candidate from each of the clans.

I was chosen as the one to represent the Air clan, another timid maiden was from the Water, a middle aged woman from the Earth and an arrogant lady from the Fire.

The chosen candidates were to battle against one another to win the title of the king's wife.

Everyone gathered in the arena, each clan seated together, supporting their representatives. The candidates stand in the middle of the arena, each facing the clans we belong to.

All the other candidates were very much delighted to be chosen by the king, but thought otherwise.

As i stood, i questioned myself for the reason why i was among the choices of the king because as compared to the other ladies in my clan, they were obviously much better.

I turned to the maiden from the Water and said that she was the ideal wife for the king.

We were given the chance to strategize our plans but were given fencing sticks as our weapon. Each strike counts to one point and whoever gathers the most number of points wins.

The battles began and the first two candidates were out, Fire and Earth.

It was an easy win for the Earth tribe. I was to battle against the maiden from the Water and somehow, i prepared bunch of questions in my mind beforehand.

I began asking the Water questions and as soon as she dropped her guard, i began to hit her lightly (it still counted). I was able to win the match.

On the final round however, i knew i was of no chance because the Earth tribe were known to be mighty warriors amongst all the clans. The king was intently watching the first battles without any guards by his sides.

We waited for the signal to start the battle for quite a long time. The women kept staring at me maliciously so i averted my eyes around the arena.

Everyone was too immersed on their own worlds, unmindful of what's happening to the king who was then being cornered by men in dark clothing.

He then jumped from his tower's veranda so i quickly glided to his direction and used air magic to break his fall.

Everyone in the arena were shocked. I was holding the king as he can't seem to stand on his own.

I prepared myself for the attack from the men but i was bewildered when i suddenly realized that they were nowhere to be found.

The king then stood up and brushed off the dust on his clothes, cleared his throat and acted as if nothing happened.

He then announced that i already won the battle. The reason was something about aside from greatness in using magic, he needed someone to be as observant, caring and quick witted by his side.

I thought that someone might help me interpret them, or something? Also, I think some dreams can actually be a good writing prompt.

So much for the first post but I hope this works.