dear dumb diary

my brain never feels like the same place for very long

strange that even while eating healthy and going for runs 4 times a week my relationship with food is still kind of fucked because sometimes instead of processing my emotions i just get really hungry about it. like at least i’m not using substances but what do you mean my reaction to stress is the desire to eat until i feel sick

i forgot posting into the void is free therapy sometimes

white-knuckling my way through social anxiety & beating the anxious teenager in my brain over the head with the “NOBODY IS JUDGING YOU” Bc damn i forgot the wounds of loneliness make me an obsessive little bitch sometimes

wanting to go make friends again after years of social isolation is painful af i wanna slot into an alternate timeline where i never wasted so much time alone

gotta stay humble i’m one lost pair of headphones away from being connected to my phone by a wire all the time