Wow i didn’t just cry about some couple having sex in a movie

it has been proven time and time again that im not meant to have any kind of relationships with people and i must throw away my desire to be unconditionally loved and understood.

whenever i think about how im constantly desired but never enough to be loved or valued, it makes me want to bury myself somewhere so deep inside the ground, that it would be impossible to find my body. it honestly makes my heart wrench when people cannot see me as an individual who they can build a genuine relationship with. almost as if i merely exist for people to desire and chase behind until they get bored and throw me away.

y’all its good that no one knows me here, maybe this will become my safe place where i can trauma dump and cry bout everything

and what should i do with all the love i can’t give?

If I don’t end up with them, I’m going to name my future child after them.

call me cringe or whatever but I’m a damn aashiq.

Your memories, they’re the only piece of you I get to keep with me.