mikachu

Just want to have someone to share my moments with. Special things that I don’t show and share to everyone. I just want my own place with my favorite person and learn how to grow our own food. We’ll be happy with a cat or two. Be fit together and motivate each other. Listen and be at peace with music. I just want the simple things in life with you, Ed.

Will I ever be ready

I always imagine what it's like to be with you. It makes me happy but scared for you. The fact that I don't know how to love anyone other than me scares me I'll mess up. I still don't know how to love me, I'm still figuring me out. I guess that's why our story didn't progress, huh? I wasn't ready.

I push away souls but I crave your presence

How can you miss someone for no reason

I want to cry but i dont have time for it

I always thought that I don't need anyone. That I'm okay with everyone leaving. Can I say that leaving with a bad note is not counted. I'm going to blame myself for god knows how long because I've been left and I just wanted to be understood.

I thought he was my answered prayer

He ghosted me knowing damn well I'm gonna stress over this pregnancy shit. Why do I always attract guys who treat me like shit. Didn't even thank me for anything. Like nothing happened. Why, Lord

I don't know what's worse - him not denying when I told him I feel like a burden to him or not getting any reply at all when I told him what I feel

Why are you so scared of the psychiatrist

Why am I not scared of losing anyone anymore

I'm so fucking tired I just wanna die

I always want someone to ask me if I'm okay, like, they know me so well they see through all the bs. I want that. I just lost that person recently for better but I hadn't found a way to go around it.