I'm Here For The Cutes.

Talked to my financial advisor and we are 100% on track to retire at 65 and live comfortably (knock on wood!!!). It really helped put my anxiety about the future at ease for a while, at least until we review the portfolios before the recession that we all know is coming. I feel adult, for once.

Work is busy and I’m on my own tonight, but I got through the lab work and now I’m relaxing reading FISH cases the rest of the evening. I’m excited to take a break and work on the book I’m reading, Ready Player One! I love it so far!!! Highly recommended if you are looking for a good read.

In a few hours, I’ll see my hubby and my fur babies at home. Anddd I’ll read more or work on my dragons. Or work on one of the books I’m writing! Orrr plan some paint colors for our home. I’ve been on a big interior design feelings lately and I can’t wait to keep putting our touches on our beautiful home. I don’t even know. All I know, is life is good.

Drawing! Specifically, dragons. I’m so excited!!! Hubby helped me pick out a good instructional book and even though I haven’t done much just yet, I’m enjoying it. I hope to get pretty decent at it and even work with colored pencils and not just shades of grey.

It helps to have a husband who is an artist and can give great tips, but it also makes it a bit hard to show him my work since it’s nothing like his. XD He’s got a few years experience on me, so I think it’s okay. I’m just happy to be back to a creative outlet.

Plus, dragons are awesome!

Hubby has agreed. I think it’s a wonderful alternative. 😆 Right now, I vote horse. Ask me my answer again in 4-5 years and we will see.

Don’t give them a second thought. Move on.

Growing up and away from some old friends is really hard. I hate how it feels to see our differences, but I also hate feeling like horse poop when they forget about me or only chat with me to brag about themselves. That hurts more I think. I’m still very tempted to leave social media. Veryyyyy tempted.

Or at least use it less. Maybe I can go halfway with myself and just do that.

I want to start making vacation books for us instead of posting on social media. I made a Shutterfly book for our Seattle/engagement trip and I love looking at it. I think it’d be fun to wait for sales and do more, one for each trip. I have a backlog, like our honeymoon and some prior Disney trips, but still. I could even combine a year’s worth of trips into a book. Just thoughts. It’d be more valuable to me to have a hard copy of photos than to throw them on social media and forget about them.

Thoughts for Monday. Now, hopefully work goes okay today and I don’t have to kick anyone’s booty. ANDDDD MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW AND I FORGOT UNTIL NOW! Yayyyyy!!!!

Magnum Moon (love his name!) or My Boy Jack (that face is so cute tho). I love being lazy and watching all the pre-Derby stuff on tv. Thank goodness for a hubby that doesn’t mind (it helps that the Stanley Cup playoffs come on afterward). 😜💕

I love horses more than life.

Don’t make time for those who never make time for you.

There are so many more cliches I could put here, but I won’t.

Nearly time to FTS this place and ignore all work related communication until next Monday. I’m SO ready to have a break and enjoy seeing the beautiful city of Atlanta with the hubs!

We are hitting the aquarium, Coca Cola center, CNN center, college football hall of fame, a couple museums and maybe a park or two! Toying with the idea of Uber/Lyft to go out to the zoo, but we might run out of time. We want to see and do all the things! Thank you, City Pass, for the plethora of options!

Anddddd hubby said we could order room service to watch the Kentucky Derby in our hotel room Saturday!!!! Best. Hubs. Ever. He knows how much my ponies mean to me.

🐴❤️🐴❤️

So. Pumped.

It’s got a strong plot revolving around mermaids. 😜 I love it and my characters so much already. This brain of mine and the stories it concocts amaze me at times.

Reallyyyyyy want that.

The family farm will need a caretaker one day and I’m considering a business degree so I could turn it into a horse farm with boarding and training and the like. It makes my heart so happy to think about these plans, especially when the corporate world is cracking down and my job seems a bit rough and unfair.

Who knows... Maybe one day this dream will come true. I’ll work all day cleaning up and managing a stable, but this whole industry thing has me burned out.

Only 28.5 years until retirement!

Another no period day.

Another negative pregnancy test day.

Still not funny, body. It’s ironic because stress can make you skip a period, but when you skip, you start stressing even more because hello baby and then it’s a vicious cycle that might never end.

Ironic. Not funny.

My uterus is a lousy jokester.

Went through all the trouble to get birth control and was waiting for my period to start so I could start the pills.

Period is five days late.

I’ve been regular for several years now.

Been off Nuvaring for ten months and stayed regular.

This. Is. The. Worst. Timing. Ever.

I cannot be pregnant right now. We just spent $16,000 on a new roof and built in shelves for the living room. The truck might up and quit on us any moment. We have three trips planned this year and I couldn’t fly if I’m as far along as I would be. Also, I am NOT going to Disney World if I’m 8-9 months pregnant. My sister’s wedding is in October and I would be huge and not fit in my dress. Ughhhhh. Why can’t my body be normal?! And not scare me like this?!

Why didn’t anyone ever tell me condoms are effective more like 70-80% of the time and not 99%!!!!! Instead, all I learned was if I had sex, I would be a heathen and God would hate me. N.C. has terrible sex education, side note.

I keep thinking I’m having cramps and nothing happens afterward and I’m going insane. I’m extremely moody, have two cold sores and my chest is swollen just a bit. This. Isn’t. Funny. Body.

Also, if this sounds selfish, I’m sorry. My husband and I are just NOT ready for a kid yet. Not yet. Please, not yet.

For our living room... $4200.

We just got an $11,000 roof and skylights installed.

Still doing it. Dipping into savings is totally worth making this house our home and adding value to it. We love our home so much. Guess this is what I’ve been saving for since I was twelve. Also, our neighbor is doing the install and it feels good to have the money stay local and help a family with a young kid.

Now we will have more room for my plastic pony addiction anddddd books! All the books!!!!! Totally getting my library one way or another.

We got a quote for some built in bookshelves today from our neighbor. He used to be a chemist in big pharma. He hated his job and lived for the weekends. He loves what he does now... home design and installations and building things like cabinets and shelves. He loves it and you can tell.

I love it when people love their jobs. I’m totally, insanely jealous, but I do love it. I wish I knew the thing that would make me that happy. I like genetics a ton and I find it very fascinating, but I don’t love love love it. I appreciate my job so much and I’m incredibly grateful, but I still sometimes live for the weekends and I wish I wouldn’t. It’s toxic to think that way and you literally lose days off your life that you rush through just to get to Friday. I try to appreciate each day and the fact that I get to help sick children each day, folks with cancer, couples that want to have babies... I really love that aspect of my job, I do. It’s the little stuff day to day that seems to interrupt it and throw me off track.

I need that passion back for writing or something like it. It’s hard to work on writing a novel when you work forty hours a week, take care of a home and three fur babies, try to stay on a healthy diet, socialize at least once a week outside of work... on top of trying to get enough sleep and have time to read the books I love. There just isn’t enough time in the day. Still, I’m insanely jealous of our neighbor and his passion that can pay the bills.