a student

To not pick the flowers because it's beautiful

To admire those stars shining in the night sky

To feel the breeze of the morning sun

This is my ending

The World God Only Knows - Chapter 263

I really don't exactly remember when I hated this celebration, noon nasa San Jose (Bulacan) pa ako, naalala ko yung time na may hawak akong kwitis tapos hawak-hawak ko lang siya habang nanonood sa fountain (yung fireworks) na nasa gitna ng kalsada. Naalala ko rin yung ilang mga New Year dito sa amin sa Santa Maria (Bulacan), yung pinakahuli ay yung umidlip ako para lang hindi salubungin yung bagong taon pero lumabas pa rin naman ako dahil may mga magagandang fireworks sa hindi kalayuan.

I wonder why I hated this celebration, maybe because the sound of firecrackers and loud sounds is bad for cats and dogs, maybe the loud sounds of motorcycles here in our street that makes me irritated and uneasy, or the point I am spending this event with my family. I really don't hate my family, sometimes. Iniisip ko rin if I celebrate the new year with my friends or people I would love to spend with pero siguro makikicelebrate lang ako to comply and para hindi masabihang KJj (killjoy).

Iniisip ko rin na baka killjoy lang ako last year kasi hindi ko 'yon cinelebrate pero iba na siguro kung gano'n pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Maybe the reason I hated this is because of the fact the reason we celebrated this every year for a dumb reason. Maybe killjoy nga talaga ako kasi why bother to spend time para lang abangan ang susunod na araw kung inaantok ka na, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganito ako..

I'm glad to be like this

There's still the urge to be forgotten by everyone

Clannad: After Story

Maybe I'm just touch deprived.