Shellsandsalt

I went on a day out with some family this weekend, and when the sun was setting we were all getting back in the car to go home. It was around a 4 hour trip and we were going through a sort of dangerous area so I was a bit nervous.

While we were walking back to the car without thinking I just started mumbling prayers for Lord Hermes to make the trip back go smoothly and to not have us have to stop the car until we’re home.

I didn’t expect much, but I immediately got a calm and satisfied feeling washing over me. Shockingly, the car ride back went perfect and we didn’t stop until we were back home, no one even had to use the bathroom.

I hang out with my best friend Friday-Sunday, she leaves at 5, and the rest of the day I spend cleaning and praying and cleansing.

This weekend I had to change up my usual plans to hang out with other people in different places and had zero time to pray.

I’ve started realizing I’ve been downplaying my own creativity because I’m about the age where I have to start getting serious about my career and future. I’ve been discrediting the arts and still assuming I could connect with the god of art- silly, I know.

But when I realized even if work and career stuff is important, it doesn’t make my love for art and creativity any less important just because it doesn’t always have monetary value- I’ve had SUCH a surge in creativity!!

I’ve been painting daily, spending time outside doing art, finding new artistic hobbies, all types of stuff that I never found myself enjoying this much until now.

But as someone who lives in the west, it’ll always make me a little sad to see how guilty the people who practice Christianity in my life feel sometimes :(

It hurts my heart hearing people so young tell me they’re afraid of not being good enough to be worth heaven. I’m forever appreciative I was raised in an environment that didn’t push or pull me to any faith and let me find my own path. In bad environments, I know organized religions have the power to hurt and abuse.

I know my deity’s have never made me feel unworthy of happiness. The only requirement I’ve ever felt from them is to fulfill the potential I was given. I know guilt and fear will always be a big part of organized religions, but I really wish every religious community could be based on the joy and warmth their gods give them, and not the fear they inflict or how to be superior to others.

I literally just want to grab every religious person and remind them they’re worth their deities love and time- always!!!

Even as a beginner. I’ve felt so safe and heard by other Hellenists. To be in a religious community like this without feeling judged is amazing, and I want to thank everyone of you who I’ve talked to or have interacted with my posts.

There’s so much emphasis on who is “right” or “wrong”, but I don’t believe there’s one truth for everyone. We all have such different lives and paths. The way religion is used as a weapon of hate and not a tool for love and compassion will always sadden me.

I may not personally worship every deity of every religion, but I acknowledge that the feeling of spiritual fulfillment that other religions give people is real. That is enough for me to find love in my heart for them all.

If Allah can bring you that feeling, THATS BEAUTIFUL!! If Jesus can bring you that feeling, THATS BEAUTIFUL!! If any deity of any faith can bring you that feeling….THATS BEAUTIFUL!!!!

Personally, I don’t see my religion as an undeniable truth for everyone. I see it as spiritual connection that brings me love and warmth like no other. I know Lady Aphrodite is real in my heart, because I feel her. I can never give you an equation or a fact that proves my feelings, but I know it’s true in my life. How could you look someone in the eyes and tell them they’ll be punished for seeking love and warmth?

But I’ll be walking through a neighborhood and one of the houses looks like a pale pink version of the castle Ariel lived in at the start of The Little Mermaid. And everytime I walk past it dream- me thinks “Lady Aphrodite lives there”

Ive been pretty sick for a few days now, and my Christian friend told me she prayed for me to get better soon. She doesn’t know I’m a Hellenist, and I don’t plan on telling her, but when she’s sick I’ll pray for her too.

I was praying to her and talking about how I was dealing with toxic people in my life and how frustrated I was.

Next morning I’m walking to school with one of those toxic people and a literal sparrow shits in her hair.

I feel silly for not realizing this at first but omg😭

I’ve always had a lot of problems regarding romance and genuinely feeling a romantic connection to people. What people described as butterflies just felt like deep anxiety to me and made me want to stay away from whoever they’re directed towards even if I don’t have any problems with them.

But when I pray to Aphrodite I feel a bright and giddy feeling inside. Like it’s overwhelming but it makes me feel excited and like I could just pray for hours.