transparency.

No control 

no manipulation

no anger

just acceptance

love 

and distance. 

I refuse to harbor negative feelings, 

because you provided friendship 

during lonely moments in my life

I was insecure with who I was 

and what I had to offer

so I lied A LOT to make myself 

seem important 

I used the identity of being your friend to 

give me a sense of importance. 

I’m afraid that if I continued to lied I probably still would be your friend

even though the lies were killing me on the inside. 

When I stopped lying I didn’t realize I would be sacrificing our friendship, but

i’m grateful that I’m free. 

not free from you, but free from the bondage of my lies

I vow to never do this to another person 

I vow to never do this to myself. 

I will stand true in my most authentic self

and be comfortable in my skin

You will always be a major key that unlocked something beautiful in me

I love you dearly. 

I pray for your peace. 

self-blaming

internalized trauma 

rage

sadness

emptiness 

depletion 

frustration

guilt 

disappointment

self-loathing 

worthless

scared

suicidal 

hatred 

problematic 

vulnerable 

easy

stupid

tired

mad

dirty

alone