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Well, I definitely did not think I would make it here/this far. I've adopted a whole new life, one I never imagined would be possible for myself. I'm Happy. Truly, Happy. Sure, dealing with others in a different type of forms... but I will take it. My younger self would be so proud. So shocked. Age does a lot. Here's one thing I've learned over the last few years. It's' this: Life is what you make of it. Yes, you're dealt with specific cards, but you don't like them? Figure out a way to trade them in. Nothing is set in stone, that goes for things you want to change and the things you wish remained the same. Looking back, I focused so much energy in the negative and sulked in it. As backward thinking as it was, it's some screwed up psyche. I grew up a certain way and have ever really known a certain way of living. & I don't know what caused this significant switch in my life. It was like a sudden slim burst of light shined through a window and I saw hope. & Instead of going along with my old habits, of thinking that crack of light may not mean anything. I broke my old habits. I was curious to find where and what that light was or coming from. Then there it was. A whole new life outside that window, I never knew existed. Had my curiosity stuck to my old ways of being, that window of little light would've just passed me by. None of this may make any sense if you are in that dark place that I was. However, I hope that for you. Once you see that glimmer of hope, you are brought back to this notion. & You break away from your natural instincts of avoidance and instead just break that window wide open. It's true, the barrier is one you create in your mind. Staying in a safe place and sticking to what you know, will only bring you the same results. Try something new, something different, it may feel scary. It may take a few different attempts. Trust me, I've tried countless times. & I'm still trying and each time. I'm still finding new lights that shine a little brighter than the previous. Happiness is out there. Y'all just have to reach for it when it appears. Don't let your habits overshadow your possibilities.
