Your Homegirl💕

My mom asked me the other day to vacuum the doormat. I said yes. A few minutes went by. She asked again, worried I was not going to do it. I assured her that I was going to do it, just not immediately. And it indeed took me 5-10min to "close" (like one would close a tab or a file, but in my mind) what I was doing (reading something on my phone) before comfortably moving on.

I could have just paused my reading, done the vacuuming, and got back to my reading, but it felt more comfortable and natural to finish it and prepare myself for the upcoming task.

And it's like that with every little thing.

For instance, the one that prompted this post: I noticed my PC was out of battery and instead of immediately getting up to fetch the charger I sat there a few seconds, asking myself why I hadn't done it yet. And then I realized — it's not that I can't retrieve it, and it's not that I'm utterly lazy to the point of not wanting to get up either.

When I was younger I used to get hyperfocussed in my music and my sister thought it was hilarious to rip me out of it abruptly because of how I'd "overreact"

But it's like a mental switchboard?? If you've got a bunch of attention plugged in to a thing and you just rip all the plugs out at once, there's a bunch of power that needs to be dumped out to somewhere and that can literally and figuratively blow a fuse??

Public Service Announcement

- wearing that outfit/item of clothing you love to every social engagement you attend until either it needs a wash or you’re forced to change it so that people don’t think it’s the only thing you own

- watching the same film or episode of a show you like like until there’s no point in watching it again because you can vividly recall every scene in your head

- eating your favorite food until you’re so used to it that it’s tasteless and nauseating

- reading the same book until you can recite every line word for word from memory